So...Been awhile, hasn't it? Thaxs 4 reviewing, and here's the next one,
that u have all been waiting 4 so patiently.
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Chapter 5- Discussions and Resentment
It had been silent ever since they began eating. Phoebe would steal quick glances at Cole when he wasn't looking, and vice versa. Kara was the only one who noticed that both of them were trying to look at each other. Kara couldn't really understand, so she tugged on the bottom of Phoebe's dress so that she could get her attention. When Phoebe bent down to hear, she asked out loud.
"Mommy? Why are you always trying to look at each him?" Kara asked, straight to the point.
"Well, I just want to see him, that's all. Is he really looking at me?" Phoebe asked, suddenly changing the subject. Kara smiled at that.
"Yea, he is. I tink dat he wike you boo." Kara said in a more baby voice than usual. Phoebe smiled and looked at Cole. This time he looked up at the same time and they held each other's gaze.
"What's your name mister?" Kara asked, unable to bring herself to say 'daddy'. Cole was startled out of his reverie when she asked him his name. He smiled down at her, and answered, "Cole, Cole Turner."
"Cole, Colegy, Collegy," Kara said, playing around with his name. Cole smiled even more broadly at her as she played around the sounds. He looked up at Phoebe, and saw her eyes welling up with tears. She quickly brushed them away, and Cole hated that he might be the cause of them.
"Phoebe, may I have a word with you...uh, alone please?" Cole said, looking from Kara to Phoebe.
"Um...sure." Phoebe said unsure of what he was thinking. She turned to Kara before she followed him into the living room.
"Kara, honey, do you mind if you go up to your room?" Phoebe asked her daughter. Kara looked up at her and nodded playfully. For some reason, after meeting Cole, he just didn't seem soâE¦mean. A question came to Kara, which most 4 year-olds wouldn't really think about. 'Why did he make mommy cry?'
"Phoebe....why didn't you ever tell me about her?" Cole asked quietly as they both sat down. "What I mean Phoebe is-is did you know about her when I left?" Cole asked, fearing the answer. If she said yes, then that would mean that she had fought with him when she was pregnant and that could've been dangerous for Kara. Guilt washed over him in a flood as he realized what could've happened. He turned to Phoebe, and caught her slight nod.
"Why didn't you tell me? You know I would have never left you, had I known." Cole said, getting up from his seat to sit next to Phoebe. She squirmed a little with how close he was and he backed off a little, afraid that she would fear him, something he didn't want at all.
"I didn't tell you because of how you looked when you left. You looked so cold and hurt, and angry, and I just couldn't bring myself to stop you before you walked out of the door. I wanted to, but, your faceâE¦" Phoebe trailed off, as tears began to fall silently down. Cole was shocked at her. Not at the fact that she hadn't told him, but how she had to survive, raising their daughter alone. Cole hated the idea of her having to bear such a burden. He mentally kicked himself for doing such a thing to the woman he loved. His pride had made a mess of things, his pride didn't allow him to mess it up again.
He turned to Phoebe, wiping some of the tears that fell from her eyes. Phoebe looked up at Cole's eyes, and found tenderness and love. She fell into those two blue orbs and finally let herself go. She fell into his arms and cried. Her tears were no longer full of pain, or pent up emotions that would never come out, these tears were tears that help cleanse her and help her begin to heal. Cole looked down at the fragile looking woman in his arms, and vowed that he would protect her. He wouldn't walk away like he did 4 years ago, and now he had her back, as well as a daughter.
"Phoebe, I'm going to do all that I can to help you now. I know that I wasn't there to help you those 4 years, but I swear, I'm here now. If you want, I would want to have you back, if you would have me back. I've missed you so much, and I still love you with all my heart. Now that includes our daughter." Cole declared. Phoebe looked at him, and saw the honesty found in his eyes.
She could feel her heart swell, and her love for him grow again and spread throughout herself. She began to cry again, but this time they were for happiness and her love. Cole took her up into her arms and kissed her for the first time in 4 years.
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So...? I'm posting up the epilogue along with this 1, since itz so short. Tell me wat ya think, will ya? Thaxs.
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Chapter 5- Discussions and Resentment
It had been silent ever since they began eating. Phoebe would steal quick glances at Cole when he wasn't looking, and vice versa. Kara was the only one who noticed that both of them were trying to look at each other. Kara couldn't really understand, so she tugged on the bottom of Phoebe's dress so that she could get her attention. When Phoebe bent down to hear, she asked out loud.
"Mommy? Why are you always trying to look at each him?" Kara asked, straight to the point.
"Well, I just want to see him, that's all. Is he really looking at me?" Phoebe asked, suddenly changing the subject. Kara smiled at that.
"Yea, he is. I tink dat he wike you boo." Kara said in a more baby voice than usual. Phoebe smiled and looked at Cole. This time he looked up at the same time and they held each other's gaze.
"What's your name mister?" Kara asked, unable to bring herself to say 'daddy'. Cole was startled out of his reverie when she asked him his name. He smiled down at her, and answered, "Cole, Cole Turner."
"Cole, Colegy, Collegy," Kara said, playing around with his name. Cole smiled even more broadly at her as she played around the sounds. He looked up at Phoebe, and saw her eyes welling up with tears. She quickly brushed them away, and Cole hated that he might be the cause of them.
"Phoebe, may I have a word with you...uh, alone please?" Cole said, looking from Kara to Phoebe.
"Um...sure." Phoebe said unsure of what he was thinking. She turned to Kara before she followed him into the living room.
"Kara, honey, do you mind if you go up to your room?" Phoebe asked her daughter. Kara looked up at her and nodded playfully. For some reason, after meeting Cole, he just didn't seem soâE¦mean. A question came to Kara, which most 4 year-olds wouldn't really think about. 'Why did he make mommy cry?'
"Phoebe....why didn't you ever tell me about her?" Cole asked quietly as they both sat down. "What I mean Phoebe is-is did you know about her when I left?" Cole asked, fearing the answer. If she said yes, then that would mean that she had fought with him when she was pregnant and that could've been dangerous for Kara. Guilt washed over him in a flood as he realized what could've happened. He turned to Phoebe, and caught her slight nod.
"Why didn't you tell me? You know I would have never left you, had I known." Cole said, getting up from his seat to sit next to Phoebe. She squirmed a little with how close he was and he backed off a little, afraid that she would fear him, something he didn't want at all.
"I didn't tell you because of how you looked when you left. You looked so cold and hurt, and angry, and I just couldn't bring myself to stop you before you walked out of the door. I wanted to, but, your faceâE¦" Phoebe trailed off, as tears began to fall silently down. Cole was shocked at her. Not at the fact that she hadn't told him, but how she had to survive, raising their daughter alone. Cole hated the idea of her having to bear such a burden. He mentally kicked himself for doing such a thing to the woman he loved. His pride had made a mess of things, his pride didn't allow him to mess it up again.
He turned to Phoebe, wiping some of the tears that fell from her eyes. Phoebe looked up at Cole's eyes, and found tenderness and love. She fell into those two blue orbs and finally let herself go. She fell into his arms and cried. Her tears were no longer full of pain, or pent up emotions that would never come out, these tears were tears that help cleanse her and help her begin to heal. Cole looked down at the fragile looking woman in his arms, and vowed that he would protect her. He wouldn't walk away like he did 4 years ago, and now he had her back, as well as a daughter.
"Phoebe, I'm going to do all that I can to help you now. I know that I wasn't there to help you those 4 years, but I swear, I'm here now. If you want, I would want to have you back, if you would have me back. I've missed you so much, and I still love you with all my heart. Now that includes our daughter." Cole declared. Phoebe looked at him, and saw the honesty found in his eyes.
She could feel her heart swell, and her love for him grow again and spread throughout herself. She began to cry again, but this time they were for happiness and her love. Cole took her up into her arms and kissed her for the first time in 4 years.
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So...? I'm posting up the epilogue along with this 1, since itz so short. Tell me wat ya think, will ya? Thaxs.