Let Me Blow Ya Mind

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Li had been furious. After a bit of explaining, he calmed down. Now, she was confined to the small room. She was sitting on the sagging mattress, while he sat on the other end of the bed, lighting a cigarette.

"So, how far are you with Hiragizawa?' He asked casually. What he was really asking was, 'Are you still a virgin?', but she didn't mention it.

"We've made out." She replied simply. Li nodded, folding his arms across his chest. "Who was that girl that was lying on top of you this morning?"

"Meiling."

"Tomoyo mentioned her." Sakura said softly.

"Meiling is something else." He said, taking a long drag.

"What was she doing here?"

"We got seriously drunk." He laughed a bit lightly. "And now we're seriously wasted." He added. Sakura nodded. This was boring, talking about sex. She fidgeted with her boots. "You should go home 'n drop Hiragizawa before it's too late."

"Too late?"

"You'll lose that… something that all Tomoeda chicks have. You'll become just like every other girl here these days, since you started hanging with Daidouji's crowd. You'll dump Eriol anyway; you'll start wearing black baggy cut-offs, you'll hate men, you won't drink, all that."

"You mean just like Tomoyo? She's cool though, why wouldn't I want to be around her?"

"First of all, it's slamming. Not cool." He corrected her. "Second of all, she's just empty. Her only true purpose now is to lead all chicks 'round these parts to rebellion." He said. Sakura stood up. "Oh no, you ain't going nowhere." He warned. She glared, and made a dive for the door. He grabbed her around the ankles, pulling her down. She kicked, but he had a firm grip. She banged on the floor, when suddenly the door opened.

"Eriol?!" Sakura gasped. He looked at her and smiled. Li's expression turned from screwed up to panicky. He shot up and pulled Sakura up. Eriol strolled over to Li and pushed him.

"Lay off my chick, pal." He said calmly. Yesterday, Sakura would have been proud. Now…

"YOUR chick?!" She said heatedly. Eriol laughed.

"Don't sweat it little flower, it's the only thing to shut him up." He replied, kissing her on the cheek. Her heart melted all over again. She smiled. Li rolled his eyes. Sakura noticed that his fists were clenched. Eriol snapped his fingers. Li stormed out, slamming the door, leaving them alone. "Listen babe, I don't have that much time here. All I came to say was that I'm leaving you with Li for a while. He'll protect you, I promise." He pulled her close. Sakura wasn't satisfied.

"But… why can't I just…" She paused. Eriol let her go.

"I'm sorry babe, but since I got outta jail I have a few things to clean up. Chill out, it shouldn't take too long." He walked out. Sakura sighed. She felt like a toy, a toy that Eriol was beginning to get tired of. So, he was passing her around until he remembered that he loved her. She collapsed on the bed. Li came in. He was glaring.

"You know what? You're way more trouble than you're worth." He snapped. Sakura shot up.

"It's not my fault he's just leaving me wherever!" She replied heatedly. Li rolled his eyes.

"Why don't I just take you back to Tomoeda?! Don't you want to be something? Something more than just another tough chick?" He asked, his voice almost sad now. Sakura sniffed. She was merely a raw nerve now, between getting pushed around by every guy she had met, and not even being able to wake up in her own bed.

"Why does every guy try to fix things for me? I know that this is the right thing to do!" She burst into tears, crying into her leather jacket. Li sighed. "Besides, I c-can't go h-home anyw-way." She choked. He knelt down in front of her.

"Aw c'mon, don't do this to me," He muttered, pulling out a handkerchief. He gently moved her hands from her face and wiped away her tears. She sniffed.

"W-why can't I ever do anything f-for myself???" She sobbed. He continued to gently wipe away her tears as she choked, sobbed and talked. "I-I mean, it-it's like I-I am a p-piece of pr-property, o-or some-something." She said in between sobs. He nodded, getting up and sitting next to her. She sobbed into his white tee shirt, while he stroked her hair. She was surprised in his sudden change in behavior, but she didn't say anything. Instead, she looked up and smiled through her tears. "Y-You're nice," She said. He went pink and looked away.

"Ahh… I'm just soft on crybabies." He replied quickly. He leaned against the wall, waiting for her to finish crying.

"Do you think he'll ever come back to get me?" She inquired, looking out the cracked window at the gray sky. Li shrugged.

"I wouldn't know. He's had a billion before you that he just leaves around and comes back to once he's bored with all the others. But maybe you'll be different." He said, following her gaze to the rain outside.

"Do you think he loves me?"

"No." He voice was calm, and steady. She could feel tears coming again. He looked at her. "That's why he allowed you to run away and turn yourself into this. If you were mine, I'd…" He stopped, going red again and looking away. Sakura stared at him. He had gotten her attention.

"You'd what?" She asked teasingly. He scowled.

"Never mind." He snapped, standing up. "Let's head downstairs, I need something to drink." He shoved his hands into his pockets as he stalked out the door. Sakura sighed, laying down. She checked her watch.

10:00 am.

Was it really so early? She didn't want it to be. She curled up against the mildewing pillow, and drew the covers up around herself. She closed her eyes, and quickly fell asleep…

When she woke up, it was dark outside. She could hear running water. Li was probably in the shower. She sat up, rubbing her eyes. She checked her watch again. She had slept for half a day! It was ten at night. She stood up then, pulling her leather jacket on, and combed her hair quickly. Suddenly she was craving that beer that she had tasted, even though it tasted so bitter. She stumbled downstairs with ten dollars in her jacket pocket.

Tomoyo was sitting on a stool at the bar, sipping a coke. She was swinging her legs, chatting with Meiling. Sakura walked over to them, and sat down next to Tomoyo.

"Yo," Meiling and Tomoyo both said at the same time. Sakura forced a smile.

"Yo." She replied. Tomoyo smiled, and so did Meiling.

"You look seriously tired girl." Meiling said. Sakura shook her head.

"I just woke up," She explained. Meiling nodded.

"Well, I know how you feel, but seriously, don't get a beer. Coke is way better. Sakura nodded, and ordered a coke. Tomoyo smiled again. Meiling scooted closer. "So anyway, I said, 'Can you like, stop?' and ya know what? He didn't! He just kept going." Tomoyo grimaced.

"Men are pigs," Sakura said. Both Meiling and Tomoyo's faces lit up. Meiling leaned in.

"Ya know, Tomoyo was right. You ain't so bad, girl." Meiling said, grinning. Tomoyo elbowed her.

"What did I tell you? Anyway, do you think you can get out again without Li murdering you?" Tomoyo asked Sakura. Sakura shook her head.

"I don't think I can stand another lecture from him." She replied, sighing. Meiling shrugged.

"He ain't so bad either. You tell him to stop and he obeys. He's kinda like a dog. Obedient and loyal." She said. Tomoyo grinned. Meiling smirked. "But I still keep 'im on a leash." All three laughed. Sakura ordered another coke, and soon they were deep in a conversation. Sakura really liked these two. They seemed to not be as feminist as Li said. They were fun.

And finally, it was one in the morning, so they all decided they might as well go into Sakura's room and chat there, where there was only Li to bug them. And he would probably head downstairs anyway.

They sat on top of the sagging mattress indian-style, with Tomoyo at the end of the bed, Meiling leaning on the wall in the middle, and Sakura sitting on the pillow.

"So, what was it like to go to a private school?" Tomoyo asked. Sakura shrugged.

"I dunno, I never really thought about it. I was too busy with my own drama to think about school that much." Sakura replied. The other two nodded.

"I wonder where Li is?" Tomoyo said, turning around and looking in the bathroom. She shrugged. "Empty. He probably is downstairs." They all nodded in agreement.

"Tomoyo, you mentioned three others." Sakura reminded her. Meiling grinned.

"You mean Naoko, Chiharu, and Rika?"

"Yes, I think so."

Tomoyo thought for a moment.

"Well… Naoko is crashing at her mom's… Chiharu is probably sleeping right now-" Meiling cut her off.

"Probably with Yamazaki." Both girls laughed.

"Who's Yamazaki?"

"Yamazaki is really decent. He's got a great sense of humor, and treats Chiharu like a queen. They'd been friends since they were in diapers. And Yamazaki recently told Chiharu he loved her. So they're inseparable now." Meiling explained. Tomoyo nodded.

"Yeah, Yamazaki really has class." She sighed. Meiling looked at her sympathetically.

"Tomoyo is in love with him." She stated. Sakura also gave her a sympathetic look. Tomoyo nodded. Meiling stroked her back. "S'okay, it's just a guy." She coaxed. Tomoyo nodded again, straightening.

"I should just let it go." Tomoyo declared. Meiling clapped, and Sakura followed suit.

"I'm sorry Tomoyo, if it were anyone else I'd say that he was a sexist pig, but that ain't Yamazaki."

"What about Li?" Sakura asked, edging closer. Meiling grinned wickedly.

"He's mine." Sakura sighed.

"You forget R-"

"Rika. She's all quiet 'n stuff, so I'm sure she's somewhere around here."

"Why is she shy?"

"Men." Tomoyo and Meiling answered together. Sakura nodded.

"So… fathers and boyfriends?" She asked.

"Basically." Tomoyo answered.

"Like every other girl in our crowd." Meiling added softly.

"It's like I said," Tomoyo's voice was soft. "Men. They always screw everything they can. Then they move on." Her eyes were misty. Sakura frowned.

"But, not all guys are like that." Sakura offered. Meiling looked at her hard.

"Really? Then tell me, where is your father? And Eriol? And Li?" She demanded. "I'm telling ya. They all screwed up." Sakura nodded, silent.

"Well… maybe there are others out there." Sakura said. Meiling and Tomoyo nodded.

"But we'll never meet any of them, cause they always get high-end chicks." All three girls sighed.

"Life sucks." Sakura said. They all nodded together in agreement.

Later, Tomoyo and Meiling walked back downstairs. Sakura stayed upstairs. She sat on her bed, feeling sorry for Meiling and Tomoyo. They never even had a chance, because of who they were

She curled up against the pillow. She now realized what she had left behind. A chance to have a normal life. She should have listened to Fujitaka.

Fujitaka. Father… Having a father, her own bed, she had left it all behind. It seemed so far away.

She sat up again. She was determined to change Meiling and Tomoyo's life, and make them realize that there were nice guys that weren't high-end.

All she had to do now was find some. -_-;

Li sat at the bar, sipping a beer. He could see Meiling and Tomoyo sitting a couple of seats away, sipping their cokes, probably chatting away about how horrible men were.

And his thoughts trailed to Sakura. She was… different. He felt drawn to her innocence, and lack of knowledge of the real world. Maybe this was good for her.

Probably not.

He took another sip of beer, remembering how she had told him he was nice. No one had ever said that. Once in a while Meiling told him he was 'decent' but nothing more. He touched his arm, where she had touched him. He closed his eyes, and chugged the rest of his beer.

This was seriously screwed.

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