Hi this is my first fic and I would like to know if this is worth it to
continue or not. Please email me at destinys_fate@gundamwing.net
I would be much obliged for your reviews and opinions.
I am perfect. I am the perfect solider. That is what they want me to be and so I am. I ignore my memories, the one where I was a princess, the one where I was a warrior named sailor moon later to become a queen, and the many others where I was reborn to fight to be the light in the world. Why must this happen to me? They all expect something of me and so I do what I am expected to, I don't feel I don't let my emotions rule me.
Is this perfection? Is this what is needed this time around? Why can't I find eternal rest? Must I continue this offal charade? Is this what I wanted when I vowed the day I became queen to always protect the innocent, my people? Well I guess so.
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Someone banged on the door continuously.
"Heero! Help me! Wu-mans trying to kill me!" screamed an over enthusiastic pilot.
"Hn."
"Duo, Heero it is time for dinner. Duo could you possibly pass it on to Wufei?" asked the ever polite Quatre.
"Sure Q-man!" said Duo.
DINNER*
We all sat at the table and though there was four others sitting near me I felt alone, the feeling almost engulfed me. I saw Quatre's head shoot up and stare at me with shock and worry. Questions whirled through my head, answers that will never be given plague my thoughts scratching and clawing like a wolf killing its prey. I felt dizzy and I was falling as why's kept going through my mind.
"Heero. Heero. are you alright."
Voices of people swirled around my head most filled with worry. Who am I? I barely even know anymore. They all swarmed around me the blue eyes of Quatre, they looked as innocent as mine once did. Duo's eyes came into view next; he was just like I used to be. I used to be able to light up a room whenever I walked in but now, now they all tremble in fear. Was this what I was meant to be? Wufei eyes came into view and I could see the grudging concern that had entered his eyes, eyes that once thought nobody deserved respect no even me. Trowa looked into my eyes and for once I knew that I belonged that I was loved, because they cared. They all cared.
"I have never been alright." I said my voice wavered with emotion I had to suppress for so many years. Years that I spent with Dr.J after the real Heero Yui died in training.
They all widen their eyes at my response.
"Who are you?" asked the silencer.
I smirked, "Who am I? I never really knew."
I am perfect. I am the perfect solider. That is what they want me to be and so I am. I ignore my memories, the one where I was a princess, the one where I was a warrior named sailor moon later to become a queen, and the many others where I was reborn to fight to be the light in the world. Why must this happen to me? They all expect something of me and so I do what I am expected to, I don't feel I don't let my emotions rule me.
Is this perfection? Is this what is needed this time around? Why can't I find eternal rest? Must I continue this offal charade? Is this what I wanted when I vowed the day I became queen to always protect the innocent, my people? Well I guess so.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Someone banged on the door continuously.
"Heero! Help me! Wu-mans trying to kill me!" screamed an over enthusiastic pilot.
"Hn."
"Duo, Heero it is time for dinner. Duo could you possibly pass it on to Wufei?" asked the ever polite Quatre.
"Sure Q-man!" said Duo.
DINNER*
We all sat at the table and though there was four others sitting near me I felt alone, the feeling almost engulfed me. I saw Quatre's head shoot up and stare at me with shock and worry. Questions whirled through my head, answers that will never be given plague my thoughts scratching and clawing like a wolf killing its prey. I felt dizzy and I was falling as why's kept going through my mind.
"Heero. Heero. are you alright."
Voices of people swirled around my head most filled with worry. Who am I? I barely even know anymore. They all swarmed around me the blue eyes of Quatre, they looked as innocent as mine once did. Duo's eyes came into view next; he was just like I used to be. I used to be able to light up a room whenever I walked in but now, now they all tremble in fear. Was this what I was meant to be? Wufei eyes came into view and I could see the grudging concern that had entered his eyes, eyes that once thought nobody deserved respect no even me. Trowa looked into my eyes and for once I knew that I belonged that I was loved, because they cared. They all cared.
"I have never been alright." I said my voice wavered with emotion I had to suppress for so many years. Years that I spent with Dr.J after the real Heero Yui died in training.
They all widen their eyes at my response.
"Who are you?" asked the silencer.
I smirked, "Who am I? I never really knew."