A/N: My very first Harry Potter fanfic. It's a R/H pairing. I do hope you like it. But this time, FLAMES are welcome. Please R+R.

Disclaimer: I don't own HP, its characters or the story itself but I do own this fic.

Dedication: To my cousins of the HP fan club who are also HP fanfic writers and my only sister Aysa.

Darklyssel

Even if…

Chapter One:

Feelings Only I Can Understand

~*~Ron~*~

I was walking up the hallway to the Great Hall for breakfast with Harry. In our bags were our Potion ingredients for double-Potions with the Slytherins, the worst house Hogwarts ever had to me. The Great Hall smelled with baked ham, sausages, toast, sandwiches and juice. I helped myself with ham, toast and some juice. Harry only had some sausages. Then someone walked past us which bothered me from my concentration.

"Good morning Harry, Good morning Ron."

"Mornin', Hermione."

Hermione cast a sideways glance at me. I shivered.

 "What's wrong Ron?" Harry poked my ribs, noticing my stare at Hermione.

"Me-nothing. Of course!" I replied.

"Honestly Ron, looks like you've waken up the wrong side of the bed." Hermione said.

"I said nothing's wrong with me please!" I persuaded.

"Fine if you say so." Hermione swept away from the table.

"Ron, are you all right? You sure you don't need anything?" Harry asked me.

"I'm sure, Harry. Trust me." I smiled at him.

"Great then, let's get a move on. We'll be late for Potions." Harry said.

"Did you ever care for being late for Potions?" I asked him.

"Well, I don't want any more points taken by Snape just because of being late, you know." Harry said.

"Fine, let's go." I slid my bag on my shoulders and followed Harry to the dungeons.

~* ~Hermione~ *~

I sped up to the dungeons, double-Potions with those Slytherins. I don't want to be late or else Snape will have another reason to send me to detention or take anymore points from Gryffindor. I do hope Ron and Harry will be on time.

"Hello, Hermione." It was Lavender.

"Oh, hi Lavender." I replied.

"Guess what's up for Divination?" she said.

"Oh Lavender, you know I don't care of that dratted guessing-game subject of ours." I said irritably.

"It's crystal gazing, Professor Trelawney said we'll love it. She said it'll be fun." She smiled.

"I don't care. I don't believe in that wooly Professor. I think I'll prefer Potions than Divination." I said and then pushed the dungeon door. I heard footsteps behind me. I turned to see who then. CLANG!!! All my books that I were carrying spilled out of my arms.

"Damn it!" I thought.

"Oh god Hermione! I'm so sorry."

I looked up to see who it was.

"Ron?"

"I'm sorry. It's all my fault. Here let me help you." He was handing my books back. Then his hand touched mine.

I felt a Shriver run through my body. I stared at Ron as my heart thumped.

Then I heard Snape snap "You, Granger and Weasley. We're not here to watch you romantic show. Hurry up and get down here! And a point from each of you for your disrespect and tardiness! Well, what are you waiting for? Get down!"

I growled at Snape as I went down.

But I didn't care about losing points. That moment, Ron holding my hand, I wish it was for eternity. I don't know what kind of feeling surged through me. I felt my heart burn and throb.

Is it a crush?

No.

Far beyond that.

I just don't know.

~* ~Harry~ *~

While jotting down notes on how to make a complicated potion to control human minds, I wondered if I can use this potion to control Snape's head. I'd like to see how this potion works. But then I eyed Ron. He hated doing potions but when the complicated ones arrived, he started paying much more attention. I smiled. Then I heard Snape lecture the potion more clearly.

"Pay attention now, class. This potion is not as easy at it seems. There are potions needed to be mixed before adding some other herbs. We will mix the bottles of Ensnare potion, the Sleep potion and our previous lesson, the Megarda, the potion of re-assured obedience first." He hissed, eying Neville. "Then, we shall start adding the crushed snake fangs for loyalty, woodfern for courage and the bellblossoms so that the potion's effect will not easily be broken. Now this potion will be like the Veritaserum, the truth potion. So I warn you not to play around with it. I will collect your potion vials with the potion and hand them out next meeting to try it out to a sample animal. Well, what are you waiting for? Start doing it now!"

I paired up with Ron in doing the potion. We were having a hard time doing the Ensnare potion and the Megarda. Then Ron carefully weighed the crushed snake fangs while I weighed the woodfern and bellblossoms. Soon, the simmering cauldron revealed a crystal clear potion. But Neville had the luck of a thread though, for his potion turned to…

"Green and thick, Longbottom? Well, well I dare assay you were chatting during my lecture, fine then ten points from Gryffindor due to your lack of attention! I advise you, Longbottom, that if you want to pass your final year at Hogwarts pay closer attention to me or else I'll make sure you suffer!" he hissed at Neville who whimpered.

Soon all our potion bottles were in Snape's hands and off we go to Divination.

~* ~Hermione~ *~

Here I am, at this stupid Divination lesson with Professor Trelawney, and to me this is most boring class ever until…

"I shall now teach you how to do crystal gazing but this time, it's not about the future but about what is deep inside the heart, mind and soul of a person. I shall put you in pairs, no me- I shall do it, this time by boy and girl. Both of you will see what is deep within the heart and mind of the other. Concentrate now because I myself will look at you and your performance and I don't want anyone guessing around but I want you to see through the crystal ball. Now let me see. Yes, here we are. The partners are…"

As the roll call continued I wondered who my partner would be. Then she called:  Granger-Weasley.

My heart thumped. Me and Ron as partners?! Is this a dream?!

"Yes sit down now! Hurry up. Start gazing. Girls first. I shall be checking you. And oh- Ms. Brown." Professor stared at Lavender. "Do put a lot more effort in gazing, that partner of yours is terrified for the moment." She then caught sight of Neville.

"OK then, let's start." I sighed at Ron, he was looking down the floor.

"I'm ready." He whispered.

"OK then." I gazed at the crystal ball for a while "Hey, looks like you want to be better at everything. And looks like you like to be a person who can help anyone is that true?" I smiled at Ron.

"Wow, you're great at Divination Hermione!" he smiled.

"Oh-thanks." I said. "Your turn."

"Wish me luck." He said as he started.

~* ~Ron~ *~

I stared at the crystal ball for a while, Professor Trelawney was standing by us.

"I can't see this too well. But I do know that you want to be good and smart so that you will have a good future. But what's this…" I said but Professor Trelawney pushed past me. "Me, my dear let me see." She gazed at the crystal ball then smiled.

"Yes, my dear you do want a good future and what's this, you wish to belong to the wizarding world to work as an Auror. Oh my gosh!" Professor Trelawney gasped.

"What's wrong?" Hermione asked.

"Am I seeing things, my dear, or are you in love…with someone?" she gasped.

"M-me? NO!" Hermione's face burned. I can feel my cheeks blush so I dropped my quill on purpose to duck and find it in  order to hide my face.

"But that's what it says. You can never lie to the Inner-Eye, my dear!" Professor Trelawney said, pointing at Hermione.

At the sound of those words, my heart somehow broke. I just don't know why.

Am I in love with her?

Of course you are. My heart scolded me.

Then if she's into it with another guy then I can never win.

Shut up! My heart said. You don't even know who that guy is. You might never know, he might be you!

Me? Why me? There's nothing special with me. How come?

Life has its own reasons. My heart concluded.

A/N:  Well, that's chapter one. Hope you like it. Please R&R. Flames are welcome.