title - To love, to leave and to love again
Author - Miss Cj its_a_clair_thing@hotmail.com
Warnings - none
Rating - pg - may get higher
Summary - Haldir and Legolas have been together for years. But when Legolas
is ordered by his
father to go to the council of Elrond, will his love for Haldir be able to
stay strong . little side Boromir/Aragorn
Disclaimer - Everyone and everywhere in this story belong to J.R.R Tolkien,
so don't sue please!!
a/n - this is my first attempt, so please be nice. Don't have a beta
reader.
So sorry about mistakes. Will go quickly at first, but just want to get to
the real story.
No Arwen. Sorry but she doesn't really fit in.
Chapter 1
Legolas pov.
I hate my father. He always does this to me. When I am finally happy, he must go and ruin it somehow. I don't mind travelling, but not without Haldir. I hate doing that, and I bet this trip will take ages. Rivendell is lovely. I have been there many times but never without Haldir.
The lord and lady of lothlorien will not allow him to accompany me . So off I go with some delegates from lorien and Mirkwood.
Haldir pov
I hate legolas's father, Galadriel and Celebron.
The only love of my life is leaving me to go to rivendell. He does not know why he goes, but I do. The one ring has been found and now a council will discuss what is to be done with it. He will not go if he knows, so I have been sworn to secrecy.
Normal Pov
The parting was not the happiest. They did not say goodbye, The night before had taken care of that. Legolas could feel tears sting the back of his eyes as he looked at Haldir from his horse.
Flashback
"Don't say goodbye, my love. You will be back soon. I will still be here." "I know, I just don't want to leave here." "Yes I know, but you must. And we can do nothing to change that. So we must face it. We will be together soon. Do not worry" "No, I wont worry. But I will miss you"
Haldir walked over to Legolas and pulled him close. He placed a soft kiss on his lovers lips. They spent the night in each others arms and made love.
end flashback
Legolas turned swiftly and with his party, set off for rivendell. It took only a few days to travel to the elven city, but as soon as he arrived there, he wished to leave. Elrond could sense the unease coming from the prince and suddenly understood why. Legolas was not accompanied by Haldir. He knew that they would be parted for a while. He also realised why Haldir had not come. Or was not allowed to come as it happens. Legolas was meant to go on this quest and with Haldir here and travelling with him Legolas would be preoccupied. He would see how things would turn out. He had requested that his foster son Aragorn be at the council. He felt a little apprehensive at this as he knew that his son was easily bored and would no doubt want to know more of this elf.
The council of Elrond
Aragorns pov
The council dragged on, the only conciliation was a blonde elf from mirkwood. In all my time living with the elves I have never seen one so fair. Even fairer than the Galadriel. He seems not to notice me, but I can change that.
Later... Somehow I managed to get myself involved with the quest of the ring. The beautiful elf is coming along as well so it won't be too bad. We leave tomorrow. He doesn't seem phased by the fact that we are endangering our lives. I admire him. He stood up for himself at the council and showed courage when arguing with the man Boromir. I would like to get to know him and I am sure that I will. Normal pov
The next day..
Legolas seemed anxious to leave. The hobbits thought that this was strange.
Legolas was actually wanting to travel to mordor. Little did anyone know that he was only anxious to see Haldir again. Gandalf was watching the elf with an understanding look. He felt sorry for the young elf.
"You will see him soon, Legolas. You just have to be patient" Legolas nodded. He understood that Gandalf was to be a friend on this trip.
They had known each other for many years and had become close. Legolas also noticed the attraction from Aragorn. He did not want it. But there was something appealing about the man. To get the thoughts out of his head, he pictured Haldir standing in front of him smiling and reassuring Legolas. He would not encourage the attraction, but would not be cold or distant.
The journey was long and hard, but finally they reached Moria. There they fought their first battle. But after that they lost Gandalf. Legolas had never experienced death and never wanted to again. He watched the hobbits and Gimli cry while the two men looked crushed by the loss. Legolas didn't know what to do. Should he cry or just stand there. He only cried a few times in his life and they always involved Haldir soothing his worries. Where was his saviour now. Gandalf pulled through for Legolas on more than one occasion during the trip. Diverting the attention of Aragorn and talking to Legolas about Haldir and how much he wanted to be with him.
Flashback
They were sitting on a rock, eating the evening meal. The hobbits were talking together and Gandalf, Gimli and Boromir were arguing among themselves on the best way to travel. That left Legolas alone with Aragorn. He could almost hear Aragorns dirty thought of what he wanted to do with Legolas. Aragorn slid off the rock he was sitting on and approached Legolas. Legolas tensed when Aragorn pressed himself against and he felt a hardness against his leg. He panicked and asked to be excused. But Aragorn held him there. Then thankfully Gandalf sensed the fear emitting from Legolas and called for the elf. Leaving a rather disappointed Aragorn. But Legolas didn't care. He would not cheat on Haldir
Present..
It had been a bad trip to say the least. But everything got better when Aragorn announced that they would head for lothlorien. The Hours that they took travelling to lothlorien was the longest that Legolas had to endure. But finally he could see the forest that had become his second home. He ran ahead of the group and as soon as he entered the golden wood he felt at peace. He felt safe. He could feel Aragorns eyes on his back, but ignored the feeling. He heard Gimli tell the hobbits about Galadriel. He didn't bother to correct him when he called her a witch. He know that he would see his love soon. He was after all a guardian of the city.
He felt a hand on the small of his back and was turned around to come face to face with Aragorn. He saw lust in the humans eyes and was taken aback at how perfect the humans chiselled jaw contrasted with his stubble. He mentally scolded himself. He loved Haldir. He had no more time to argue with himself as hundreds of arrows were pointing at the company.
"The Dwarf breathes so loud that we could have shot him in the dark." Legolas knew that voice. He would recognise it anywhere. He turned away from Aragorn breaking the loose embrace, Aragorn didnt seem to notice as he was staring at the newcomer. It was who Legolas thought it would be. The Elf that he had been dreaming of ever night. Haldir.
Aragorn stepped forward and addressed Haldir. He seemed not to notice the dark looks he was getting from the Gaurd, or for that matter any of the elves. Aragorn pleaded for the company to be let through and in the end Haldir agreed to take them to the city. Legolas suspected that Haldir letting them through was due to the fact that Legolas was there. He was sure that Aragorn had said something to Haldir about the group all sustaining injuries. Legolas knew that if that was so Haldir would let them past just so he could heal Legolas.
The hobbits and Gimli were in awe of the Elven realm. Aragorn and Boromir were also taken aback, but kept their surprise quiet. They walked slowly and all together. Legolas managed to end up beside Haldir. They stopped for a short rest after an hours trek. Then finally Haldir acknowledged his lover.
"Hello Legolas" Haldir said. The words seemed so cold to Legolas that he wondered if it was really Haldir talking to him.
"Hello Haldir"
Suddenly Aragorn was behind Legolas and put a protective hand on his shoulder. Legolas would have welcomed the touch of comfort if he had not looked into Haldir's eyes. For in his lovers eyes he saw Hurt and betrayal. Legolas wondered why he saw this. Then it hit him. Haldir saw Legolas in Aragorns embrace.
"Legolas?" Aragorn asked. Looking unsure and puzzled. How did Legolas know these elves?
Legolas saw the look of contempt that Haldir threw to Aragorn. Aragorn caught it too. But didn't understand so left it. They started to walk again. Being lead by Haldir they walked towards the city. Haldir marched hard. Even his men were afraid of the anger radiating of their commander. Legolas made his way to the front, determined to make his lover see sense.
"It was not what you think, love. He has been like that all trip"
"Do you expect me to believe that you were in the arms of a handsome man because he forced you into it"
"Yes,"
"And why would I believe that?"
"Because I love you. And only you."
"Leave me alone."
"Do you really think I would be unfaithful to you?" he whispered in elvish.
Just in case the others heard the argument. When he got no reply from Haldir Legolas felt broken and dropped back to talk to Gimli. But he could not stop thinking about the blonde at the front who was now hurting. Legolas could almost feel the pain.
They reached the city, and were taken to see the lord and lady. They were very welcoming. They had words to say to everyone but finally they were allowed to leave. But not before the lady had given Legolas a message.
"do not worry, he will see sense. Many years you have been together but you must prove your love, it should not be that like that. But it is the only way"
"Thank you."
"Do not thank me. Save your love"
With that in mind Legolas started making his way over to his love but Haldir marched off before Legolas could get to him. He stood in defeat. His misery was interrupted by Aragorn turning to Legolas and spun the blond elf around.
"Legolas, we must speak. I can't get you out of my head."
"Not now Aragorn"
"But I must speak with you" Legolas turned impatiently to talk to the man. He knew he wouldn't find Haldir till later.
In a tree.
Haldir saw Legolas talk to the man. Oh how he hated him. Legolas was his. Hundreds of years now threatened by a mortal. He loved Legolas with all his heart but for the first time in their relationship feared for the continuation of their love. But over what, a man placing a hand on the shoulder. A loose embrace. Countless nights in the wild alone with each other. Haldir felt his anger rise again. He knew that he should trust Legolas. But found that he was scared to. He feared Legolas wanting another. And it petrified him. But what he saw Aragorn do down there scared him even more.
Evening ...
Aragorn had professed his love for Legolas. On his knee.
Flashback..
"Legolas, you are my life now. All I think of is you. I want you. Will you be mine?"
"Come again?" Legolas asked. Not believing what he had just heard. "will you be with me for the rest of my life?"
"No."
"What? Why?" Aragorn asked. Looking crushed. Legolas felt sorry for him and decided that the best way to comfort the hurting man was to pull him into a hug. He wanted to be the mans friend. But even if felt as much attraction to Aragorn as Aragorn seemingly felt for him he would never act on it. Haldir was his world. Haldir would be here forever. Aragorn would not. He was to be a king. Although he felt honoured that the man wanted him. He simply didn't like him enough. Over Aragorns shoulder he saw Haldir sitting in a tree watching. He let go quickly and left with a small smile to the man. Aragorn stood there in shock, why had the elf refused him. He wanted to run and hide But he also wanted answers. He vowed to find out. No matter what.
Chapter 1
Legolas pov.
I hate my father. He always does this to me. When I am finally happy, he must go and ruin it somehow. I don't mind travelling, but not without Haldir. I hate doing that, and I bet this trip will take ages. Rivendell is lovely. I have been there many times but never without Haldir.
The lord and lady of lothlorien will not allow him to accompany me . So off I go with some delegates from lorien and Mirkwood.
Haldir pov
I hate legolas's father, Galadriel and Celebron.
The only love of my life is leaving me to go to rivendell. He does not know why he goes, but I do. The one ring has been found and now a council will discuss what is to be done with it. He will not go if he knows, so I have been sworn to secrecy.
Normal Pov
The parting was not the happiest. They did not say goodbye, The night before had taken care of that. Legolas could feel tears sting the back of his eyes as he looked at Haldir from his horse.
Flashback
"Don't say goodbye, my love. You will be back soon. I will still be here." "I know, I just don't want to leave here." "Yes I know, but you must. And we can do nothing to change that. So we must face it. We will be together soon. Do not worry" "No, I wont worry. But I will miss you"
Haldir walked over to Legolas and pulled him close. He placed a soft kiss on his lovers lips. They spent the night in each others arms and made love.
end flashback
Legolas turned swiftly and with his party, set off for rivendell. It took only a few days to travel to the elven city, but as soon as he arrived there, he wished to leave. Elrond could sense the unease coming from the prince and suddenly understood why. Legolas was not accompanied by Haldir. He knew that they would be parted for a while. He also realised why Haldir had not come. Or was not allowed to come as it happens. Legolas was meant to go on this quest and with Haldir here and travelling with him Legolas would be preoccupied. He would see how things would turn out. He had requested that his foster son Aragorn be at the council. He felt a little apprehensive at this as he knew that his son was easily bored and would no doubt want to know more of this elf.
The council of Elrond
Aragorns pov
The council dragged on, the only conciliation was a blonde elf from mirkwood. In all my time living with the elves I have never seen one so fair. Even fairer than the Galadriel. He seems not to notice me, but I can change that.
Later... Somehow I managed to get myself involved with the quest of the ring. The beautiful elf is coming along as well so it won't be too bad. We leave tomorrow. He doesn't seem phased by the fact that we are endangering our lives. I admire him. He stood up for himself at the council and showed courage when arguing with the man Boromir. I would like to get to know him and I am sure that I will. Normal pov
The next day..
Legolas seemed anxious to leave. The hobbits thought that this was strange.
Legolas was actually wanting to travel to mordor. Little did anyone know that he was only anxious to see Haldir again. Gandalf was watching the elf with an understanding look. He felt sorry for the young elf.
"You will see him soon, Legolas. You just have to be patient" Legolas nodded. He understood that Gandalf was to be a friend on this trip.
They had known each other for many years and had become close. Legolas also noticed the attraction from Aragorn. He did not want it. But there was something appealing about the man. To get the thoughts out of his head, he pictured Haldir standing in front of him smiling and reassuring Legolas. He would not encourage the attraction, but would not be cold or distant.
The journey was long and hard, but finally they reached Moria. There they fought their first battle. But after that they lost Gandalf. Legolas had never experienced death and never wanted to again. He watched the hobbits and Gimli cry while the two men looked crushed by the loss. Legolas didn't know what to do. Should he cry or just stand there. He only cried a few times in his life and they always involved Haldir soothing his worries. Where was his saviour now. Gandalf pulled through for Legolas on more than one occasion during the trip. Diverting the attention of Aragorn and talking to Legolas about Haldir and how much he wanted to be with him.
Flashback
They were sitting on a rock, eating the evening meal. The hobbits were talking together and Gandalf, Gimli and Boromir were arguing among themselves on the best way to travel. That left Legolas alone with Aragorn. He could almost hear Aragorns dirty thought of what he wanted to do with Legolas. Aragorn slid off the rock he was sitting on and approached Legolas. Legolas tensed when Aragorn pressed himself against and he felt a hardness against his leg. He panicked and asked to be excused. But Aragorn held him there. Then thankfully Gandalf sensed the fear emitting from Legolas and called for the elf. Leaving a rather disappointed Aragorn. But Legolas didn't care. He would not cheat on Haldir
Present..
It had been a bad trip to say the least. But everything got better when Aragorn announced that they would head for lothlorien. The Hours that they took travelling to lothlorien was the longest that Legolas had to endure. But finally he could see the forest that had become his second home. He ran ahead of the group and as soon as he entered the golden wood he felt at peace. He felt safe. He could feel Aragorns eyes on his back, but ignored the feeling. He heard Gimli tell the hobbits about Galadriel. He didn't bother to correct him when he called her a witch. He know that he would see his love soon. He was after all a guardian of the city.
He felt a hand on the small of his back and was turned around to come face to face with Aragorn. He saw lust in the humans eyes and was taken aback at how perfect the humans chiselled jaw contrasted with his stubble. He mentally scolded himself. He loved Haldir. He had no more time to argue with himself as hundreds of arrows were pointing at the company.
"The Dwarf breathes so loud that we could have shot him in the dark." Legolas knew that voice. He would recognise it anywhere. He turned away from Aragorn breaking the loose embrace, Aragorn didnt seem to notice as he was staring at the newcomer. It was who Legolas thought it would be. The Elf that he had been dreaming of ever night. Haldir.
Aragorn stepped forward and addressed Haldir. He seemed not to notice the dark looks he was getting from the Gaurd, or for that matter any of the elves. Aragorn pleaded for the company to be let through and in the end Haldir agreed to take them to the city. Legolas suspected that Haldir letting them through was due to the fact that Legolas was there. He was sure that Aragorn had said something to Haldir about the group all sustaining injuries. Legolas knew that if that was so Haldir would let them past just so he could heal Legolas.
The hobbits and Gimli were in awe of the Elven realm. Aragorn and Boromir were also taken aback, but kept their surprise quiet. They walked slowly and all together. Legolas managed to end up beside Haldir. They stopped for a short rest after an hours trek. Then finally Haldir acknowledged his lover.
"Hello Legolas" Haldir said. The words seemed so cold to Legolas that he wondered if it was really Haldir talking to him.
"Hello Haldir"
Suddenly Aragorn was behind Legolas and put a protective hand on his shoulder. Legolas would have welcomed the touch of comfort if he had not looked into Haldir's eyes. For in his lovers eyes he saw Hurt and betrayal. Legolas wondered why he saw this. Then it hit him. Haldir saw Legolas in Aragorns embrace.
"Legolas?" Aragorn asked. Looking unsure and puzzled. How did Legolas know these elves?
Legolas saw the look of contempt that Haldir threw to Aragorn. Aragorn caught it too. But didn't understand so left it. They started to walk again. Being lead by Haldir they walked towards the city. Haldir marched hard. Even his men were afraid of the anger radiating of their commander. Legolas made his way to the front, determined to make his lover see sense.
"It was not what you think, love. He has been like that all trip"
"Do you expect me to believe that you were in the arms of a handsome man because he forced you into it"
"Yes,"
"And why would I believe that?"
"Because I love you. And only you."
"Leave me alone."
"Do you really think I would be unfaithful to you?" he whispered in elvish.
Just in case the others heard the argument. When he got no reply from Haldir Legolas felt broken and dropped back to talk to Gimli. But he could not stop thinking about the blonde at the front who was now hurting. Legolas could almost feel the pain.
They reached the city, and were taken to see the lord and lady. They were very welcoming. They had words to say to everyone but finally they were allowed to leave. But not before the lady had given Legolas a message.
"do not worry, he will see sense. Many years you have been together but you must prove your love, it should not be that like that. But it is the only way"
"Thank you."
"Do not thank me. Save your love"
With that in mind Legolas started making his way over to his love but Haldir marched off before Legolas could get to him. He stood in defeat. His misery was interrupted by Aragorn turning to Legolas and spun the blond elf around.
"Legolas, we must speak. I can't get you out of my head."
"Not now Aragorn"
"But I must speak with you" Legolas turned impatiently to talk to the man. He knew he wouldn't find Haldir till later.
In a tree.
Haldir saw Legolas talk to the man. Oh how he hated him. Legolas was his. Hundreds of years now threatened by a mortal. He loved Legolas with all his heart but for the first time in their relationship feared for the continuation of their love. But over what, a man placing a hand on the shoulder. A loose embrace. Countless nights in the wild alone with each other. Haldir felt his anger rise again. He knew that he should trust Legolas. But found that he was scared to. He feared Legolas wanting another. And it petrified him. But what he saw Aragorn do down there scared him even more.
Evening ...
Aragorn had professed his love for Legolas. On his knee.
Flashback..
"Legolas, you are my life now. All I think of is you. I want you. Will you be mine?"
"Come again?" Legolas asked. Not believing what he had just heard. "will you be with me for the rest of my life?"
"No."
"What? Why?" Aragorn asked. Looking crushed. Legolas felt sorry for him and decided that the best way to comfort the hurting man was to pull him into a hug. He wanted to be the mans friend. But even if felt as much attraction to Aragorn as Aragorn seemingly felt for him he would never act on it. Haldir was his world. Haldir would be here forever. Aragorn would not. He was to be a king. Although he felt honoured that the man wanted him. He simply didn't like him enough. Over Aragorns shoulder he saw Haldir sitting in a tree watching. He let go quickly and left with a small smile to the man. Aragorn stood there in shock, why had the elf refused him. He wanted to run and hide But he also wanted answers. He vowed to find out. No matter what.