A/N: Please review. I need pointers to make the writing better.
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I've used some lyrics from songs that describe how the characters are feeling. The lyrics will have little stars around them (**).
This chapter is called "Blue".
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DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of the characters.
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Jake walks into his office to see Penny sitting on his couch.
"Hey Penny!" says Jake. He's smiling.
"Hey Jake!" says Penny. The sarcastic/angry tone is in her voice along with a fake smile on her face.
"How was your lunch?" asks Jake. He still doesn't seem to clue in that he's done something wrong to her. It's like he's forgotten about everything that went on.
"Well, let's see. I ate alone at an empty pizza place because the guy I'm seeing was too busy to come with me, which was a lie. But how was your lunch? Did you have fun with your girlfriend?" Penny asks. The icy cold that is her voice is clear, leaving Jake fully aware that she is hurt.
"Oh, right. Penny, I-"
"Do you still love her?" asks Penny angrily, but seriously.
"What? No, I just-"
"Do you still have feelings for Dylan?" asks Penny again.
Jake says nothing. Penny goes to leave.
"No, Penny! Don't go!" pleads Jake.
"Jake, what the hell did you think you were doing? Did you think you could hide something like this forever? Did you think I wouldn't find out? Do you think I'm stupid?" asks Penny, raging. There is a silent pause. "Nevermind. I am stupid. I am so stupid. I can't believe I thought you could actually be over her. I can't believe I thought that you actually wanted to be with me-"
"But I do want to be with you" Jake tries to assure her. "No" says Penny. "You don't know what you want. Well, let me tell you, Jake, I know what I want. And I certainly do not want to be somebody's second choice".
Penny walks out and slams the door, leaving a very sad, upset, confused, and lonely Jake.
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Dylan sees Penny come out of Jake's office angry and upset.
"Penny," Dylan begins, "what's wr-"
"Nothing!" snarls Penny as she grabs her coat and leaves.
Dylan is extremely confused, but she knows that even if she could catch up to Penny, she'd only be shot down. Instead, she knocks on Jake's door. When he says nothing, she walks in. Jake is sitting on his couch. He looks dreadful, just staring off into space.
"Jake" says Dylan, looking very concerned, "I just saw Penny leave. She looked upset. What's going on? Did something happen?"
"I really don't want to talk about it" says Jake sadly, not even meeting her eyes.
"Oh, okay, but if you want to talk-"
"You need to go, Dylan" says Jake.
"Okay" says Dylan. She leaves Jake's office looking disappointed.
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Penny ends up in her apartment. She collapses onto the couch and just lies there.
*It's the circles underneath my eyes
The color of the basement floor
The way it looks inside my mind
The color of things you don't want anymore*
She can't understand what she did wrong. It had been less than a day since Jake decided he'd rather be with her and so soon he's already chosen to go back to Dylan, a girl who doesn't even want him back. Was she that awful? Was she really worth nothing?
'It's probably the way I act' Penny thought. 'Dylan is so gentle and sweet and blah blah blah. I'm all sarcasm, hardly the girl-next-door'.
*I'm way
I'm way
I'm way past blue*
Penny sighs unhappily. She decides she's not going to cry, no matter how much this hurts. She's not that kind of person. She doesn't need Jake. No matter how much she wants him, no matter how much she loves him, she doesn't need him. She doesn't need anybody.
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Jake sits still on his office couch. 'How did I let this get so messed up?' he asks himself. There really is no one else to blame. He's stuck to the impossible and has hurt someone he cares about. Someone who loves him.
'Does she love me?' he wonders. She had never really said it, but she did care about him. A lot. That touched him. Penny had only ever seen the real him, the foolish Jake, who always said the wrong thing. Somehow, underneath it all, she liked that Jake. No matter how bad he tried to look good, and no matter how bad he failed, Penny still wanted to be with the real Jake. 'How is that possible?' he asks.
He cared about Penny, too, and he knew that she was right. He didn't know what he wanted, and he knew it wasn't fair to her. He messed up. Could she forgive him?
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*It's the same color as the sky
That time when it rained so hard
And we fought and we cried
Because we thought we'd come so far*
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A/N: End of chapter 3. More to come!
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I've used some lyrics from songs that describe how the characters are feeling. The lyrics will have little stars around them (**).
This chapter is called "Blue".
--------------------------------
DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of the characters.
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Jake walks into his office to see Penny sitting on his couch.
"Hey Penny!" says Jake. He's smiling.
"Hey Jake!" says Penny. The sarcastic/angry tone is in her voice along with a fake smile on her face.
"How was your lunch?" asks Jake. He still doesn't seem to clue in that he's done something wrong to her. It's like he's forgotten about everything that went on.
"Well, let's see. I ate alone at an empty pizza place because the guy I'm seeing was too busy to come with me, which was a lie. But how was your lunch? Did you have fun with your girlfriend?" Penny asks. The icy cold that is her voice is clear, leaving Jake fully aware that she is hurt.
"Oh, right. Penny, I-"
"Do you still love her?" asks Penny angrily, but seriously.
"What? No, I just-"
"Do you still have feelings for Dylan?" asks Penny again.
Jake says nothing. Penny goes to leave.
"No, Penny! Don't go!" pleads Jake.
"Jake, what the hell did you think you were doing? Did you think you could hide something like this forever? Did you think I wouldn't find out? Do you think I'm stupid?" asks Penny, raging. There is a silent pause. "Nevermind. I am stupid. I am so stupid. I can't believe I thought you could actually be over her. I can't believe I thought that you actually wanted to be with me-"
"But I do want to be with you" Jake tries to assure her. "No" says Penny. "You don't know what you want. Well, let me tell you, Jake, I know what I want. And I certainly do not want to be somebody's second choice".
Penny walks out and slams the door, leaving a very sad, upset, confused, and lonely Jake.
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Dylan sees Penny come out of Jake's office angry and upset.
"Penny," Dylan begins, "what's wr-"
"Nothing!" snarls Penny as she grabs her coat and leaves.
Dylan is extremely confused, but she knows that even if she could catch up to Penny, she'd only be shot down. Instead, she knocks on Jake's door. When he says nothing, she walks in. Jake is sitting on his couch. He looks dreadful, just staring off into space.
"Jake" says Dylan, looking very concerned, "I just saw Penny leave. She looked upset. What's going on? Did something happen?"
"I really don't want to talk about it" says Jake sadly, not even meeting her eyes.
"Oh, okay, but if you want to talk-"
"You need to go, Dylan" says Jake.
"Okay" says Dylan. She leaves Jake's office looking disappointed.
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Penny ends up in her apartment. She collapses onto the couch and just lies there.
*It's the circles underneath my eyes
The color of the basement floor
The way it looks inside my mind
The color of things you don't want anymore*
She can't understand what she did wrong. It had been less than a day since Jake decided he'd rather be with her and so soon he's already chosen to go back to Dylan, a girl who doesn't even want him back. Was she that awful? Was she really worth nothing?
'It's probably the way I act' Penny thought. 'Dylan is so gentle and sweet and blah blah blah. I'm all sarcasm, hardly the girl-next-door'.
*I'm way
I'm way
I'm way past blue*
Penny sighs unhappily. She decides she's not going to cry, no matter how much this hurts. She's not that kind of person. She doesn't need Jake. No matter how much she wants him, no matter how much she loves him, she doesn't need him. She doesn't need anybody.
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Jake sits still on his office couch. 'How did I let this get so messed up?' he asks himself. There really is no one else to blame. He's stuck to the impossible and has hurt someone he cares about. Someone who loves him.
'Does she love me?' he wonders. She had never really said it, but she did care about him. A lot. That touched him. Penny had only ever seen the real him, the foolish Jake, who always said the wrong thing. Somehow, underneath it all, she liked that Jake. No matter how bad he tried to look good, and no matter how bad he failed, Penny still wanted to be with the real Jake. 'How is that possible?' he asks.
He cared about Penny, too, and he knew that she was right. He didn't know what he wanted, and he knew it wasn't fair to her. He messed up. Could she forgive him?
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*It's the same color as the sky
That time when it rained so hard
And we fought and we cried
Because we thought we'd come so far*
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A/N: End of chapter 3. More to come!