A/N: If you're confused while reading this, check the A/N at the bottom and
hopefully it will clear up confusion.
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This chapter is called "What If..."
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DISCLAIMER: I don't own anything!
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Penny left work not early but not late. She got through the rest of her day only by forcing herself to work. She was glad to be back at her apartment.
She hadn't seen Jake since she told him things were over. He had stayed locked inside his office the rest of the afternoon and wouldn't let anyone in. Not that Penny had tried to go see him. That would've been too soon. Too weird.
That's what Penny hated the most about all of this. Not only could she not be Jake's girlfriend, but she couldn't be his friend either. Everything was different now. Jake knew about her feelings for him. And they had sort of been together, even if it was short. It would be so hard to go back to being friends with him since she had had a taste of what being more than friends with him was like.
But what could she do? They had kissed. And he broke her heart. She would never admit it to him, but he had. She loved him. She still loves him. But she now knows that it's not enough. He wants more. He wants Dylan.
"I wish we had never kissed," says Penny aloud, to no one. "That's what messed this whole thing up in the first place. If I had stopped the kiss, everything wouldn't be completely ruined".
Penny collapses on the couch and eventually falls asleep. While sleeping, she has the strangest dream....
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Penny is back in Jake's office.
"It's just, I never thought of you like that before," Jake tells her. "I mean, you're such a good friend-"
"Okay Jake, I don't need to be let down easy. You're into Dylan, you will always be into Dylan. I get it".
"It's so weird though," Jake goes on. "All along I've been putting on 'The Jake Show' for her, and all this time, you've been watching backstage... this awkward, bumbling fool that I really am. How can you like that guy?"
"Because of all of that," tells Penny. "I mean, you're real, and you're funny, and when we're together - look, it's not your problem, okay?"
"I don't know what to say," Jake says. "I mean, the only reason I stayed in Miami-"
"I know," cuts in Penny. "I should have never said anything".
"Plus, you know me, anything to do with romance, and relationships..."
"Me too," she nods. There is silence. Jake is moving in closer, almost like he's going to kiss her. "This is a mistake". Penny sort of backs away. They just stand there looking at each other.
Dylan appears. "Am I interrupting anything?"
Jake looks at Dylan, then at Penny. He says nothing.
"No," replies Penny. "I was just leaving". Her eyes meet Jake's with a half sort of disappointed and half an 'I'll be alright' look. Then she leaves.
"What was all that about?" asks Dylan.
"Oh, nothing," replies Jake.
"Alright," says Dylan. "Listen, Jake, I really need to talk to you about something".
"Okay," replies Jake. "What is it?"
Dylan doesn't really know what to say. She needs to find out how Jake feels about her, but she doesn't want to tell him that she has feelings for him.
"So," she begins, "you had mono?"
"Uh, yeah" replies Jake, somewhat confused.
"Well, um, how did you get it?" asks Dylan.
"I don't know. I guess I caught it from someone". Jake doesn't know what she's doing but he knows that she's not really asking about mono.
"Do you know who?" asks Dylan. She feels awkward.
"I don't know. Why?" asks Jake, in return.
"Well, I just heard that you can get mono from kissing someone, so I figured, that maybe, you got it from... your girlfriend?" hints Dylan.
"Okay, well, I don't have a girlfriend," replies Jake.
"Oh, well, then from whoever you're seeing".
"I'm not seeing anyone right now. But look, if this is all you needed to talk to me about, then excuse me, I'm gonna get back to work," Jake tells her.
"Do you like me?" Dylan blurts out.
"What? Like you? Wha-what do you mean?" bumbles Jake nervously.
"Like, like... you know. Feelings. Do you have feelings for me?" asks Dylan awkwardly.
"Well, yeah, I consider you a friend..." states Jake.
"Oh, well, okay," says Dylan disappointedly.
"That's all you meant, right?" asks Jake.
"Yeah. Yeah, of course," stumbles Dylan. Jake gives her a strange look. "Well, no. I meant as in, you know... more than a friend".
"Oh, um... why?" asks Jake, trying not to panic.
"Well, because... well, I sort of have feelings for you," tells Dylan. She looks really scared.
"Really? You do?" asks Jake surprised.
"Yes," answers Dylan.
"Me too. I mean, I have feelings for you, too. I just, I never said anything, because you were with Gavin. Oh, Gavin...," says Jake, realizing something. He doesn't looks so excited anymore.
Dylan walks towards him and kisses him.
Returning to her desk from the coffee stand, Penny sees her horror. She witnesses the love of her life sharing a sweet and passionate kiss, a kiss that she will never know, never feel, never experience. She just watches as everything she's ever wanted slips farther and farther away, out of her reach, out of her sight...
--------------END OF DREAM SEQUENCE--------------
Penny wakes up startled after her dream. "I take it back," she says (again, aloud to no one). She knows that her kiss with Jake had messed things up between them, but it was still worth it. No matter how much she was hurting right now, she knew she'd get over it, and at least she would never wonder what could've happened if she hadn't let their first kiss happen. She now knew that her relationship with Jake couldn't work, and even though she hated the truth, it would help her move on. Besides, she was strong. She could handle it...
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A/N: The dream sequence takes place in the episode "Mee So Torny". It is a rendition of what might have happened if they didn't kiss.
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This chapter is called "What If..."
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DISCLAIMER: I don't own anything!
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Penny left work not early but not late. She got through the rest of her day only by forcing herself to work. She was glad to be back at her apartment.
She hadn't seen Jake since she told him things were over. He had stayed locked inside his office the rest of the afternoon and wouldn't let anyone in. Not that Penny had tried to go see him. That would've been too soon. Too weird.
That's what Penny hated the most about all of this. Not only could she not be Jake's girlfriend, but she couldn't be his friend either. Everything was different now. Jake knew about her feelings for him. And they had sort of been together, even if it was short. It would be so hard to go back to being friends with him since she had had a taste of what being more than friends with him was like.
But what could she do? They had kissed. And he broke her heart. She would never admit it to him, but he had. She loved him. She still loves him. But she now knows that it's not enough. He wants more. He wants Dylan.
"I wish we had never kissed," says Penny aloud, to no one. "That's what messed this whole thing up in the first place. If I had stopped the kiss, everything wouldn't be completely ruined".
Penny collapses on the couch and eventually falls asleep. While sleeping, she has the strangest dream....
--------------DREAM SEQUENCE--------------
Penny is back in Jake's office.
"It's just, I never thought of you like that before," Jake tells her. "I mean, you're such a good friend-"
"Okay Jake, I don't need to be let down easy. You're into Dylan, you will always be into Dylan. I get it".
"It's so weird though," Jake goes on. "All along I've been putting on 'The Jake Show' for her, and all this time, you've been watching backstage... this awkward, bumbling fool that I really am. How can you like that guy?"
"Because of all of that," tells Penny. "I mean, you're real, and you're funny, and when we're together - look, it's not your problem, okay?"
"I don't know what to say," Jake says. "I mean, the only reason I stayed in Miami-"
"I know," cuts in Penny. "I should have never said anything".
"Plus, you know me, anything to do with romance, and relationships..."
"Me too," she nods. There is silence. Jake is moving in closer, almost like he's going to kiss her. "This is a mistake". Penny sort of backs away. They just stand there looking at each other.
Dylan appears. "Am I interrupting anything?"
Jake looks at Dylan, then at Penny. He says nothing.
"No," replies Penny. "I was just leaving". Her eyes meet Jake's with a half sort of disappointed and half an 'I'll be alright' look. Then she leaves.
"What was all that about?" asks Dylan.
"Oh, nothing," replies Jake.
"Alright," says Dylan. "Listen, Jake, I really need to talk to you about something".
"Okay," replies Jake. "What is it?"
Dylan doesn't really know what to say. She needs to find out how Jake feels about her, but she doesn't want to tell him that she has feelings for him.
"So," she begins, "you had mono?"
"Uh, yeah" replies Jake, somewhat confused.
"Well, um, how did you get it?" asks Dylan.
"I don't know. I guess I caught it from someone". Jake doesn't know what she's doing but he knows that she's not really asking about mono.
"Do you know who?" asks Dylan. She feels awkward.
"I don't know. Why?" asks Jake, in return.
"Well, I just heard that you can get mono from kissing someone, so I figured, that maybe, you got it from... your girlfriend?" hints Dylan.
"Okay, well, I don't have a girlfriend," replies Jake.
"Oh, well, then from whoever you're seeing".
"I'm not seeing anyone right now. But look, if this is all you needed to talk to me about, then excuse me, I'm gonna get back to work," Jake tells her.
"Do you like me?" Dylan blurts out.
"What? Like you? Wha-what do you mean?" bumbles Jake nervously.
"Like, like... you know. Feelings. Do you have feelings for me?" asks Dylan awkwardly.
"Well, yeah, I consider you a friend..." states Jake.
"Oh, well, okay," says Dylan disappointedly.
"That's all you meant, right?" asks Jake.
"Yeah. Yeah, of course," stumbles Dylan. Jake gives her a strange look. "Well, no. I meant as in, you know... more than a friend".
"Oh, um... why?" asks Jake, trying not to panic.
"Well, because... well, I sort of have feelings for you," tells Dylan. She looks really scared.
"Really? You do?" asks Jake surprised.
"Yes," answers Dylan.
"Me too. I mean, I have feelings for you, too. I just, I never said anything, because you were with Gavin. Oh, Gavin...," says Jake, realizing something. He doesn't looks so excited anymore.
Dylan walks towards him and kisses him.
Returning to her desk from the coffee stand, Penny sees her horror. She witnesses the love of her life sharing a sweet and passionate kiss, a kiss that she will never know, never feel, never experience. She just watches as everything she's ever wanted slips farther and farther away, out of her reach, out of her sight...
--------------END OF DREAM SEQUENCE--------------
Penny wakes up startled after her dream. "I take it back," she says (again, aloud to no one). She knows that her kiss with Jake had messed things up between them, but it was still worth it. No matter how much she was hurting right now, she knew she'd get over it, and at least she would never wonder what could've happened if she hadn't let their first kiss happen. She now knew that her relationship with Jake couldn't work, and even though she hated the truth, it would help her move on. Besides, she was strong. She could handle it...
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A/N: The dream sequence takes place in the episode "Mee So Torny". It is a rendition of what might have happened if they didn't kiss.