Jake: hi everyone, are you ready for the twelfth chapter?

Hotaru: I suppose we are, how ya doing Jake?

Jake: ehh not so good actually

Hotaru: do tell

Jake: I got a cold.

Hotaru: ha you think that's bad, I might be getting a tonsillectomy! Which means my other stories might be on hold for a little bit. But I'm not sure yet. Damn doctors don't know what the hell they're doing.

Jake: *nods* well I hope ya get better soon. Want me to start the story?

Hotaru: yeah sure

Jake: ok, then.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Heero looked at Crys and shook his head.

"The blood loss is making her loopy" he muttered. Crys had been giggling non-stop for twenty minutes now. TJ was starting to get annoyed.

"Hit her" he said to Heero. Heero smacked her in the back of the head and she stopped.

"Ow! What'd I do?!" she snapped. All of a sudden she grabbed Heero by the back of the shirt and pulled him back.

"What're you doing?!" he asked. She gave him a strange look then pointed to the wall. There was a hole and a bullet in the wall and had she and Heero not moved, they'd have been hit. "How many people want to kill you?" Crys shrugged.

"I dunno, I stopped counting after a hundred" she said. "I doubt that one was intended for you, you just got in the way."

"correct." They turned and saw D standing in the doorway.

"D? What do you have against me?" she asked.

"Nothing, Crys, nothing I just wanted to witness your final moments."

"I don't know what you're talking about! I'm not dieing" she said.

"Tell me Crys, how do you feel?" he asked.

"Fine, a little woozy but other than that I'm fine" she answered in a confused voice. "Why?"

"When will you turn 20?" Crys looked down at her watch.

"Heh, what do ya know, 10 minutes from now." She said "again why?"

"It's called a fail safe w-" before he could finish Crys had a knife to his throat.

"You bastard! Don't tell me about Fail safes! I know what a fail safe is, so you and your ingenious little buddies planted a fail safe in me? Well good for you but I don't plan on dieing today." She growled. "So tell me how to stop it."

"There's no way to stop it. Your doomed, at midnight tonight you'll die but the symptoms should start any minute" as he finished his sentence Crys winced. Her breath grew short and her eyes lost some of their fire. She fell to one knee and gasped.

"Damn you all! Why?! Why me, why not TJ?! You never liked him" she yelled. She couldn't force back the tears of pain and fear that ran down her cheeks.

"We didn't fear him. You were the one who needed it. Crys, you were never meant to live past twenty. We calculated that by twenty you'd be totally out of control, not even you could control your actions. We did this not just to save ourselves but to save the entire world, from you!" he answered in an icy voice. Crys was trembling; death's clammy breath was running down her neck.

"Look Crys may be a handful but she's not out of control" TJ snapped.

"She'd never do anything wrong" Heero said.

"Oh, and what do you consider wrong? Killing innocent people isn't wrong?" Crys stood up slowly.

"There are no innocent soldiers, and soldiers where the only ones I killed." She said "if I'm dieing today then I'm taking you with me." She pounced at him and got him to the ground. A look of fear flitted across his face as she grabbed the dagger she'd dropped and held it high above her head.

"Crys, admit it, you've always been brutal." He said. A tremor ran through her body and she winced but she kept a good hold on the blade.

"You will die just as you lived, like a traitorous backstabbing manipulative Bastard" she snapped. With one sweeping motion she slit his throat.

"Crys" TJ said in a surprised voice. "I can't believe you killed him!" She fell to the ground and groaned.

"I'm not afraid of death, just not living" she muttered. Heero kneeled down beside her.

"There must be something we can do" he said.

"Kinda pathetic to see me going down like this. What a lame way to die, screwed over by my own genes." She coughed and muttered something under her breath. "I don't get it."

"What?" TJ asked.

"Why'd he do this" she lifted her hand and pulled a syringe from her side. "It was a little disturbing to find chemical warfare in the works of my own father's mind." She closed her eyes and smiled.

"Crys..." TJ whispered.

"my own father, at least he was to me, will be the death of me. Hey TJ promise me you'll keep an eye out for Clair. She's-" she broke off mid word and her body became still.

"Crys?! CRYS!" TJ shrieked. It was silent for a moment. "I...love...you" those last, whispered, words hung in the air. Heero left to get a doctor and TJ covered his head with a blanket. He couldn't bear to look at her; even in death she was beautiful. There was a loud growl. Then a whine, as TJ looked around he found them to be coming from Crys.

"Is it possible? Could she be" he gasped

"Could she be what?" Crys sat up and looked at TJ. "OH CRAP! Are you God?! Look about all those sins...come on I mean everyone does something wrong. Err except for you sir. Thank you for letting me into heaven!"

"Crys, you're not in heaven you're-" TJ was interrupted by a long wail from Crys.

"Oh I knew it! I've gone to hell! Look I know I screwed up God but I did have some human kindness in me." She stopped her rambling and blinked rapidly. "Um hi TJ." By now TJ was laughing his ass off.

"Shut up, had you been in my position you would've said the same thing" she growled.

"thank you for letting me into heaven" he said in the same panicky voice she'd used. He wiped away a tear from laughter and smiled. She scowled and got up slowly. "Aw come on you're not mad at me are you?" She dusted herself off and gave him a brief 'you're not in my good graces' look.

"Crys come on! It was just a joke." He pleaded. Crys looked at him with a stony face.

"I heard you, TJ. I may not have been fully conscious but it was enough" she said. She grabbed her jacket off the back of the chair and walked towards the door. The Jacket slung over her shoulder.

"Then you know how I feel. Please Crys, come back, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings" he said. She sighed and looked at him.

"What do you want, TJ" she asked.

"How..."

"I dunno, maybe he gave me the wrong poison." She shrugged then slapped her forehead from sheer 'duh!' "He never knew about the poison testing! D, self righteous ass that he was, had no knowledge of the immunity tests they put me through!"

"I remember now, yeah that makes perfect sense" he looked at her and smiled. "Glad you're alive. About what I said...I was sorta wondering if maybe you felt the same way." Crys shifted her weight from her left leg to her right.

"TJ, you must understand, I don't LOVE anyone. I don't even like anyone, and for their safety I can't. Life with me is wrought with danger and I can't possibly lead someone into such peril knowing full well the harm that might come to them." She sighed. "I apologize for the danger I put you in already, but I digress, I'd better be moving before someone else comes to kill the people around me." With that she left the room.

*~*~* in the hall *~*~*

Crys met with Heero and exchanged a few quick words. For security reasons they spoke in Japanese (yeah we're lazy but oh well!) The conversation heated up when they got to the subject of TJ.

"Crys he cares for you" Heero said.

"Enou Kenata (I know that)! But with the hellish torture I run through on a daily basis?! How can you expect me to WANT to put someone in that?!" She snapped. "I'm outta here, I won't see ya again Heero so Goodbye forever." She turned on her heel and left the hospital.

"She'll be the death of me, I swear she will" he muttered as she watched her leave.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Jake: well, ya like?

Hotaru: yeah man, righteousness!

Leo: *nods* yeah but I'm up next! I'll top that!

Hotaru: folks if ya didn't realize it we're winding down. The next chapter might very well be the last but don't sweat it, we have other stories.

Leo: if ya can, read some of mine. My name on fanfiction.net is Sailor Leo. Please review one of them.

Hotaru: right then, so you know, REVIEW!!!!