AN- Hey..... umm... I know that I haven't put up a new chapter in a while. It's cause I started school and didn't really have a whole lot of time to write anything. But I have the chapters that I wrote a long time ago so I thought I might as well put them up. I'm gonna try and sart writing again. So here you go.
Chapter 8
The morning sunlight shone though the window creeping its way up to the unexpecting sleeper. It peirced through Duo's shut eyelids bring him back to the real world. Not that he minded waking up, the nightmares seemed to have gotten worse in the past couple days. At least he had woke up peacefully unlike the day before. That thought brought more to his mind about yesterday. He tried to roll over but couldn't because of yesterdays activities. The only thing he could do was lie there, he felt like he was going to lie there for the rest of his life.
After lunch yesterday just as Kana promised the training began. It wouldn't have been that bad if Heero hadn't insited on helping. With Kana and Heero at a mutual understanding about Duo's "training" he was subjected to the longest, toughest, most horrible work out he could ever have imagined. From what he could remember, there were obstacle courses, running, ropes, running, little bit of gymnastics thanks to Trowa, boxing, more running, some karate, sparing with Heero that left him with a black eye, and he couldn't forget the running. His legs had felt like jelly and now he couldn't even feel them. He had to make sure they were still attached when he went to bed last night they were so numb. Even his hair hurt. And now he would have to get up and be put through the torture again. Being a gundam pilot was nothing like this. What made fighting vampires different from fighting mobile suits? That's easy, Duo answered himself, Deathsycthe did all the work and he wasn't up against supernatural beings that were ten times stronger then him. He sighed and decided he had better get up. Rubbing the sleep out of his eyes he counted to three, "One.... Two..... Three....... Ok gotta move. Now." He threw the blankets off and sat up regretting it the very moment after. "owwwwww........ why me?"
After getting dressed, Duo stumbled downstairs. He had a shower the night before and decided that he didn't need one becuase he had a strange feeling that he was going to need one later. The kitchen and living room were both empty so he kept walking. Going down into the basement he heard some voices. Everyone was in the room Kana had drawn the magick circle in. Trowa and Kana were talking near the middle of the room. Duo streched out his arms and yawned.
"Good morning Duo." Quatre chirped.
"Yeah right. So what's going on?"
Heero was leaning against the wall next to Quatre, "Trowa and Kana have been doing some magic."
"All morning." Quatre added with a hint of bitterness in his voice which Duo picked up on.
"Q-man are you jealous? Isn't that so sweet."
"I am not jealous. Trowa has never been happier. He says it's a once in a life time to get magick help from Kana Lamia. I'm -happy- for him."
"You are so jealous."
"Am not!"
"Whatever man!"
"Good morning Duo!" Kana squeaked in his ear.
"Ahh!" Duo jumped back in surprize, "Don't do that!"
"A little jumpy this morning?"
"And a little sore."
"Really, then you're going to like what I have in store for you today." She rubbed her hands together and giggled evily. Duo moaned as Kana grabbed a hold of his wrist and dragged him over to a row of candles. She placed him a few feet in front of the candles. "I'm going to teach you some magic!"
"Really?" Duo perked up.
Kana nodded. Trowa stood on the other side of the row of candles. "Yes and you and Trowa are going to play a little game."
"It isn't going to be like Heeros sparing lesson is it?" Duo rubbed his eye.
"No. Anyway you have to try and light the candles. I'll say a color and who ever lights the candle with that color gets a point. Get up to five points and you win."
"But I don't know how to light the candles."
"Well I guess you aren't going to do very good huh?"
"What?!"
"Fine I'll give you a practice shot."
Duo shrugged his shoulders and held out his hands, "And what am I suppose to do?"
"Just picture a flame on any candle. Just think about it erupting into a small flame. You can point at the candle if that'll help. Go on try it."
Duo just shook his head, closed his eyes and tried picturing a flame on a center white candle. Peaking through one eye he saw that nothing had happened so he pointed at the candle. Still nothing. "It isn't working!"
"You aren't trying hard enough. Picture the candle and nothing else. Focus on the candle while it's not lit and lite it in your mind."
Duo tried again, closing his eyes and focusing on the candle. While his eyes were shut Kana pointed at the center candle and lit it. "You did it Duo!" She lied.
He opened his eyes and smiled, "Cool! Ok I think I'm ready."
Kana looked at Trowa he nodded. "Ok, Trowa's flame will be blue so we'll be able to tell the difference. On the count of three. One..... Two..... Three..... Orange!" The orange candle erupted in blue flame, "Point for Trowa. Green! Blue flame Point for Trowa. Red. Trowa. Yellow. Trowa four Duo zero."
"This isn't fair dammit!" Duo complained.
"We could give me a handicap." Trowa suggested.
"Nope. Duo is just as capable as you. He just isn't concentrating hard enough. Pink."
"Dammit! I can't do this!"
"Point for Trowa. Trowa wins. Want to try again Duo?"
"No!"
"To bad." She waved her hand acrross the candles and the snuffed out. "One, two, three. Pink!"
"I wasn't ready!"
"So. If a guy jumps you while you're walking down the streets are you going to tell him not to kill you because you weren't ready?"
"This is just a game!"
"This is real life Duo. There are no rules in the real world. Nobody's going to feel sorry for you if you are weaker then them. Now, Green."
"Dammit!"
3 hours later
"Shit!!"
"...... Trowa is up.... how many is it now?"
"He's won 62 games."
"Oh come on! I was down by one fucking point!"
"But you didn't win."
"Why does it matter? I know how to do this shit now. Can we please take a break?"
"Trowa do you need to take a break?"
"I am a bit hungry." Kana grabbed a sandwich off the tray beside her, walked over and handed it to him.
"Thanks"
"What about me? I haven't had anything to eat all day!"
"No food for you until you beat Trowa."
"This is not cool!"
"Did I say it would be?"
"Stop being such a baby Duo." Heero said as Kana sat back down beside him, "Green!" He had taken over for Quatre who had taken over for Kana when she got hungry.
"Point for Duo." Quatre marked down on a sheet filled with lines. Duo had improved over the past 3 hours, but he still couldn't beat Trowa who also was improving.
"Blue." Heero said in his mono tone voice.
"Yes!" Duo did a happy dance.
"Pink." Trowa got that one and took a bite of his sandwich. "Orange." Trowa again. "Purple and red." Heero wanted a change of pace an hour back and suggested doing two or three at a time. Trowa got one and so did Duo. The next was white and Trowa got that one.
"Dammit. Gotta concentrate."
Kana whipped out all the flames so they could start again.
"Orange. Point for Duo." He rested his head in his hand. "One more. All of them."
"What? Oh shit!" Duo lit two out of seven.
"Trowa wins."
"Fucking shit!! I can't do this anymore. That wasn't fair Heero surprized me. Oh shut up!" He screamed at Kana right before she was about to say something. "I want something to eat God dammit!"
"Another game." Kana sighed. "Just pay attention Duo. Then we can all have a break."
"Why do I have to do this? I know how to light the freaking candles can we please move on?"
"But you can't beat Trowa. Duo as the God of Death you have to be faster. Trowa is only human. No offensive. He just learned how to make a blue flame this morning." Trowa nodded. "Are you telling me that you can't be faster then a human being that is as new at what he is doing as you?"
"Fine. But, can we go for all the marbles? Whoever gets the next one wins?"
"All right. But you both will turn around." They turned their backs to the candles. Kana started to move the candles around with her eyes. They floated and switched positions. "Ready?" They both grunted a yes. "One, two, three, white!"
A blue flame erupted from the purple candle, where the white one used to be. Then a few moments later the white burned a red flame. Duo twisted around glanced at the purple candle thinking the white would be there. Then he noticed the white candle was burning red. "Yes! Oh Yes! Yes, yes, yes!!!" His feet started to bounce around as he waved his arms around. "I Won!! I'm the best!! I won, I won, I won, I won, I won, I won!!"
"Good job Duo." Trowa congradulated him. Quatre clapped and
Heero just sat there with his arms folded.
"Finally. Ok Duo you can have something to eat." She handed him a sandwich.
Duo pushed the sandwich away, "Just a minute I'll be right back."
"Where are you going?"
"I gotta piss like a race horse!"
* * * * *
When Duo returned from relieivng himself he found Kana alone in the "training/torture room." She had her back to him with her head stuck reading through a book. This would be the perfect opportunity to get back at her for all the times she scared the shit out of him. Being the stealteiest pilot came in handy when one wanted to surprize someone. He tiptoed quietly as possible up to Kana. Just as he was about to scream into her ear to send her jumping up to the sky she turned around. A grin stretched across her face as Duo's plan backfired sending him a couple steps back in shock. She made a little giggle and went back to reading her book. Duo caught his breath and looked around. They were alone. Scratching the back of his head he inquired, "Where'd everybody go?"
"Quatre had to take care of some bussiness. Trowa went with."
"And Heero?"
The book Kana was holding snapped shut, "I threatened to turn him into a pink bunny rabbit so he left."
Duo raised an eyebrow, "That doesn't sound like something Heero would do."
"He claimed that he had better things to do then see us make googlie eyes at each other and left."
"Now that sounds like Heero." He grinned at her, "So what are we going to do now? Please no more candles. If I ever see another candle again I think I'll snap."
"You think you got it bad? I once had to do the same spell for three days straight, no food, no sleep. Now that's torture. So..... what do you want to do?"
"What you're asking me for?"
"I'm out of ideas. I thought it would take you a lot longer to beat Trowa."
"Oh thanks for the confidence."
"So? What do you want to learn?"
"How to turn Heero into a pink bunny." Duo smirked.
Kana rolled her eyes, "You can't actually turn people into things like that. It takes an experienced witch or sorceror. And you need the spell and there are more factors. Plus I don't think Heero would be very happy being a-" Kana suddenly noticed that her feet weren't on the floor anymore. In fact they were a few feet off the ground. She looked down at Duo with wide eyes. He had the biggest grin.
"Go on." He said as if nothing was wrong.
"Get me down from here!" Kana cried. Then as soon as she had spoken she fell into the arms of the grining baka. Her arms wrapped around his neck for balance. "Where the hell did you learn to do that?"
He shrugged keeping a grip on her waist, "I saw you do it yesterday. Guess I just picked it up. You are such a great teacher."
Duo saw her turn red as she looked down at his feet. She sure was cute when she blushed. Her face almost matched her red hair. Being in the position they were in probably wasn't helping her trying to regain some dignity. So being the prankster Duo was he pulled her in closer. "I mean it. You really are a great teacher." He said in a husky voice.
Kana looked up into his violet eyes. She literally felt like she was melting. 'Damn him,' she thought as she pushed away. "Come on Duo. Get serious."
"I am."
Kana just rolled her eyes, "Maybe you should focus that energy on something more productive."
"Like what?"
"I don't know? This whole teaching stuff just isn't my thing. I'm usually the one being taught."
"Really, I would have never have guessed."
She wasn't about to fall for his charm, "Stop it!"
"Stop what?"
"Nevermind. I know! We can meditate. That always clears the mind. Gets you focused. You up for it?"
"Meditating?" Duo whined, "You mean like those monks do in the movies. Just sitting crossed legged for hours."
"Well yeah, that's what meditation is." Kana walked towards the far wall, produced a blanket from a cabinent and placed it in front of Duo. "Come sit." She sat down, squirming a bit to get comfortable. Duo sat acrross from her legs crossed. "Ok just close your eyes. Breathe in through the nose and out throught the mouth."
Duo concentrated on breathing. His chest rose with every breath and slowing sank back in when he exhaled. He could hear Kana doing the same thing. Opening his eyes he saw her eyes were closed her face blank of expression. Kinda like Heero he thought.
"Close your eyes Duo. You're getting distracted."
He snapped his eyes shut in surprize. "How'd you know I had them
open? Yours weren't."
"Hmn... I could feel you losing concentration."
"You could feel that?"
"Well I can sense your arua. So yeah I can pretty much feel what you're thinking."
"You can read minds?"
"No I can sense feelings. You can too if you would concentrate."
"I can?"
"Well most highly gifted witches and other people who can use magick can. Some demons too. And you are the God of Death. You of all people should be the most capable of sensing peoples feelings."
"Like how?"
"Well, just for example, people say dogs can smell fear on someone. Haven't you ever, right before someone was about to die, especially at your own hands. Haven't you ever felt their fear? Just a little bit of it right before they die."
Duo gulped and tried not to think about it. But he knew it was true. Without even opening her eyes, Kana read what he was feeling. "Don't worry Duo. I'm sure nobody blames you. If you didn't kill them they would have killed you. Think of the rule of the jungle. Kill or be killed."
"Yeah but if I didn't kill, so many lives would have been saved."
"But so many more would have been lost. You did what you had to do. God doesn't care as long as you're sorry for what you have done and that you want forgiveness."
"What if I don't want to be forgiven."
"Then........ I don't know much about God. I'm sorry, I never really believed in him."
"But you just said-"
"No, I know he exists but I don't believe in his faith. That he loves us all. But that's probably just becasue I know he doesn't love a monster like me."
"You're not a monster."
"Yes I am, I don't want to talk about it anymore."
"But-"
"Shush, I'm going to meditate now. You can too if you want to otherwise be quiet." She sighed and begun to concentrate on her breathing again.
Duo tried to do the same but to many thoughts were running through his head. Why would she say she's a monster? Her past must be as bad as mine. Duo considered this for a moment then decided he had better find Trowa. "I'm going to go." He stopped when he remembered that she wanted him to be quiet. So he left quietly as so not to disturb her.
Please review, the only reason I'm putting these chapters up is cause I got a review a few days ago. ^_^
Chapter 8
The morning sunlight shone though the window creeping its way up to the unexpecting sleeper. It peirced through Duo's shut eyelids bring him back to the real world. Not that he minded waking up, the nightmares seemed to have gotten worse in the past couple days. At least he had woke up peacefully unlike the day before. That thought brought more to his mind about yesterday. He tried to roll over but couldn't because of yesterdays activities. The only thing he could do was lie there, he felt like he was going to lie there for the rest of his life.
After lunch yesterday just as Kana promised the training began. It wouldn't have been that bad if Heero hadn't insited on helping. With Kana and Heero at a mutual understanding about Duo's "training" he was subjected to the longest, toughest, most horrible work out he could ever have imagined. From what he could remember, there were obstacle courses, running, ropes, running, little bit of gymnastics thanks to Trowa, boxing, more running, some karate, sparing with Heero that left him with a black eye, and he couldn't forget the running. His legs had felt like jelly and now he couldn't even feel them. He had to make sure they were still attached when he went to bed last night they were so numb. Even his hair hurt. And now he would have to get up and be put through the torture again. Being a gundam pilot was nothing like this. What made fighting vampires different from fighting mobile suits? That's easy, Duo answered himself, Deathsycthe did all the work and he wasn't up against supernatural beings that were ten times stronger then him. He sighed and decided he had better get up. Rubbing the sleep out of his eyes he counted to three, "One.... Two..... Three....... Ok gotta move. Now." He threw the blankets off and sat up regretting it the very moment after. "owwwwww........ why me?"
After getting dressed, Duo stumbled downstairs. He had a shower the night before and decided that he didn't need one becuase he had a strange feeling that he was going to need one later. The kitchen and living room were both empty so he kept walking. Going down into the basement he heard some voices. Everyone was in the room Kana had drawn the magick circle in. Trowa and Kana were talking near the middle of the room. Duo streched out his arms and yawned.
"Good morning Duo." Quatre chirped.
"Yeah right. So what's going on?"
Heero was leaning against the wall next to Quatre, "Trowa and Kana have been doing some magic."
"All morning." Quatre added with a hint of bitterness in his voice which Duo picked up on.
"Q-man are you jealous? Isn't that so sweet."
"I am not jealous. Trowa has never been happier. He says it's a once in a life time to get magick help from Kana Lamia. I'm -happy- for him."
"You are so jealous."
"Am not!"
"Whatever man!"
"Good morning Duo!" Kana squeaked in his ear.
"Ahh!" Duo jumped back in surprize, "Don't do that!"
"A little jumpy this morning?"
"And a little sore."
"Really, then you're going to like what I have in store for you today." She rubbed her hands together and giggled evily. Duo moaned as Kana grabbed a hold of his wrist and dragged him over to a row of candles. She placed him a few feet in front of the candles. "I'm going to teach you some magic!"
"Really?" Duo perked up.
Kana nodded. Trowa stood on the other side of the row of candles. "Yes and you and Trowa are going to play a little game."
"It isn't going to be like Heeros sparing lesson is it?" Duo rubbed his eye.
"No. Anyway you have to try and light the candles. I'll say a color and who ever lights the candle with that color gets a point. Get up to five points and you win."
"But I don't know how to light the candles."
"Well I guess you aren't going to do very good huh?"
"What?!"
"Fine I'll give you a practice shot."
Duo shrugged his shoulders and held out his hands, "And what am I suppose to do?"
"Just picture a flame on any candle. Just think about it erupting into a small flame. You can point at the candle if that'll help. Go on try it."
Duo just shook his head, closed his eyes and tried picturing a flame on a center white candle. Peaking through one eye he saw that nothing had happened so he pointed at the candle. Still nothing. "It isn't working!"
"You aren't trying hard enough. Picture the candle and nothing else. Focus on the candle while it's not lit and lite it in your mind."
Duo tried again, closing his eyes and focusing on the candle. While his eyes were shut Kana pointed at the center candle and lit it. "You did it Duo!" She lied.
He opened his eyes and smiled, "Cool! Ok I think I'm ready."
Kana looked at Trowa he nodded. "Ok, Trowa's flame will be blue so we'll be able to tell the difference. On the count of three. One..... Two..... Three..... Orange!" The orange candle erupted in blue flame, "Point for Trowa. Green! Blue flame Point for Trowa. Red. Trowa. Yellow. Trowa four Duo zero."
"This isn't fair dammit!" Duo complained.
"We could give me a handicap." Trowa suggested.
"Nope. Duo is just as capable as you. He just isn't concentrating hard enough. Pink."
"Dammit! I can't do this!"
"Point for Trowa. Trowa wins. Want to try again Duo?"
"No!"
"To bad." She waved her hand acrross the candles and the snuffed out. "One, two, three. Pink!"
"I wasn't ready!"
"So. If a guy jumps you while you're walking down the streets are you going to tell him not to kill you because you weren't ready?"
"This is just a game!"
"This is real life Duo. There are no rules in the real world. Nobody's going to feel sorry for you if you are weaker then them. Now, Green."
"Dammit!"
3 hours later
"Shit!!"
"...... Trowa is up.... how many is it now?"
"He's won 62 games."
"Oh come on! I was down by one fucking point!"
"But you didn't win."
"Why does it matter? I know how to do this shit now. Can we please take a break?"
"Trowa do you need to take a break?"
"I am a bit hungry." Kana grabbed a sandwich off the tray beside her, walked over and handed it to him.
"Thanks"
"What about me? I haven't had anything to eat all day!"
"No food for you until you beat Trowa."
"This is not cool!"
"Did I say it would be?"
"Stop being such a baby Duo." Heero said as Kana sat back down beside him, "Green!" He had taken over for Quatre who had taken over for Kana when she got hungry.
"Point for Duo." Quatre marked down on a sheet filled with lines. Duo had improved over the past 3 hours, but he still couldn't beat Trowa who also was improving.
"Blue." Heero said in his mono tone voice.
"Yes!" Duo did a happy dance.
"Pink." Trowa got that one and took a bite of his sandwich. "Orange." Trowa again. "Purple and red." Heero wanted a change of pace an hour back and suggested doing two or three at a time. Trowa got one and so did Duo. The next was white and Trowa got that one.
"Dammit. Gotta concentrate."
Kana whipped out all the flames so they could start again.
"Orange. Point for Duo." He rested his head in his hand. "One more. All of them."
"What? Oh shit!" Duo lit two out of seven.
"Trowa wins."
"Fucking shit!! I can't do this anymore. That wasn't fair Heero surprized me. Oh shut up!" He screamed at Kana right before she was about to say something. "I want something to eat God dammit!"
"Another game." Kana sighed. "Just pay attention Duo. Then we can all have a break."
"Why do I have to do this? I know how to light the freaking candles can we please move on?"
"But you can't beat Trowa. Duo as the God of Death you have to be faster. Trowa is only human. No offensive. He just learned how to make a blue flame this morning." Trowa nodded. "Are you telling me that you can't be faster then a human being that is as new at what he is doing as you?"
"Fine. But, can we go for all the marbles? Whoever gets the next one wins?"
"All right. But you both will turn around." They turned their backs to the candles. Kana started to move the candles around with her eyes. They floated and switched positions. "Ready?" They both grunted a yes. "One, two, three, white!"
A blue flame erupted from the purple candle, where the white one used to be. Then a few moments later the white burned a red flame. Duo twisted around glanced at the purple candle thinking the white would be there. Then he noticed the white candle was burning red. "Yes! Oh Yes! Yes, yes, yes!!!" His feet started to bounce around as he waved his arms around. "I Won!! I'm the best!! I won, I won, I won, I won, I won, I won!!"
"Good job Duo." Trowa congradulated him. Quatre clapped and
Heero just sat there with his arms folded.
"Finally. Ok Duo you can have something to eat." She handed him a sandwich.
Duo pushed the sandwich away, "Just a minute I'll be right back."
"Where are you going?"
"I gotta piss like a race horse!"
* * * * *
When Duo returned from relieivng himself he found Kana alone in the "training/torture room." She had her back to him with her head stuck reading through a book. This would be the perfect opportunity to get back at her for all the times she scared the shit out of him. Being the stealteiest pilot came in handy when one wanted to surprize someone. He tiptoed quietly as possible up to Kana. Just as he was about to scream into her ear to send her jumping up to the sky she turned around. A grin stretched across her face as Duo's plan backfired sending him a couple steps back in shock. She made a little giggle and went back to reading her book. Duo caught his breath and looked around. They were alone. Scratching the back of his head he inquired, "Where'd everybody go?"
"Quatre had to take care of some bussiness. Trowa went with."
"And Heero?"
The book Kana was holding snapped shut, "I threatened to turn him into a pink bunny rabbit so he left."
Duo raised an eyebrow, "That doesn't sound like something Heero would do."
"He claimed that he had better things to do then see us make googlie eyes at each other and left."
"Now that sounds like Heero." He grinned at her, "So what are we going to do now? Please no more candles. If I ever see another candle again I think I'll snap."
"You think you got it bad? I once had to do the same spell for three days straight, no food, no sleep. Now that's torture. So..... what do you want to do?"
"What you're asking me for?"
"I'm out of ideas. I thought it would take you a lot longer to beat Trowa."
"Oh thanks for the confidence."
"So? What do you want to learn?"
"How to turn Heero into a pink bunny." Duo smirked.
Kana rolled her eyes, "You can't actually turn people into things like that. It takes an experienced witch or sorceror. And you need the spell and there are more factors. Plus I don't think Heero would be very happy being a-" Kana suddenly noticed that her feet weren't on the floor anymore. In fact they were a few feet off the ground. She looked down at Duo with wide eyes. He had the biggest grin.
"Go on." He said as if nothing was wrong.
"Get me down from here!" Kana cried. Then as soon as she had spoken she fell into the arms of the grining baka. Her arms wrapped around his neck for balance. "Where the hell did you learn to do that?"
He shrugged keeping a grip on her waist, "I saw you do it yesterday. Guess I just picked it up. You are such a great teacher."
Duo saw her turn red as she looked down at his feet. She sure was cute when she blushed. Her face almost matched her red hair. Being in the position they were in probably wasn't helping her trying to regain some dignity. So being the prankster Duo was he pulled her in closer. "I mean it. You really are a great teacher." He said in a husky voice.
Kana looked up into his violet eyes. She literally felt like she was melting. 'Damn him,' she thought as she pushed away. "Come on Duo. Get serious."
"I am."
Kana just rolled her eyes, "Maybe you should focus that energy on something more productive."
"Like what?"
"I don't know? This whole teaching stuff just isn't my thing. I'm usually the one being taught."
"Really, I would have never have guessed."
She wasn't about to fall for his charm, "Stop it!"
"Stop what?"
"Nevermind. I know! We can meditate. That always clears the mind. Gets you focused. You up for it?"
"Meditating?" Duo whined, "You mean like those monks do in the movies. Just sitting crossed legged for hours."
"Well yeah, that's what meditation is." Kana walked towards the far wall, produced a blanket from a cabinent and placed it in front of Duo. "Come sit." She sat down, squirming a bit to get comfortable. Duo sat acrross from her legs crossed. "Ok just close your eyes. Breathe in through the nose and out throught the mouth."
Duo concentrated on breathing. His chest rose with every breath and slowing sank back in when he exhaled. He could hear Kana doing the same thing. Opening his eyes he saw her eyes were closed her face blank of expression. Kinda like Heero he thought.
"Close your eyes Duo. You're getting distracted."
He snapped his eyes shut in surprize. "How'd you know I had them
open? Yours weren't."
"Hmn... I could feel you losing concentration."
"You could feel that?"
"Well I can sense your arua. So yeah I can pretty much feel what you're thinking."
"You can read minds?"
"No I can sense feelings. You can too if you would concentrate."
"I can?"
"Well most highly gifted witches and other people who can use magick can. Some demons too. And you are the God of Death. You of all people should be the most capable of sensing peoples feelings."
"Like how?"
"Well, just for example, people say dogs can smell fear on someone. Haven't you ever, right before someone was about to die, especially at your own hands. Haven't you ever felt their fear? Just a little bit of it right before they die."
Duo gulped and tried not to think about it. But he knew it was true. Without even opening her eyes, Kana read what he was feeling. "Don't worry Duo. I'm sure nobody blames you. If you didn't kill them they would have killed you. Think of the rule of the jungle. Kill or be killed."
"Yeah but if I didn't kill, so many lives would have been saved."
"But so many more would have been lost. You did what you had to do. God doesn't care as long as you're sorry for what you have done and that you want forgiveness."
"What if I don't want to be forgiven."
"Then........ I don't know much about God. I'm sorry, I never really believed in him."
"But you just said-"
"No, I know he exists but I don't believe in his faith. That he loves us all. But that's probably just becasue I know he doesn't love a monster like me."
"You're not a monster."
"Yes I am, I don't want to talk about it anymore."
"But-"
"Shush, I'm going to meditate now. You can too if you want to otherwise be quiet." She sighed and begun to concentrate on her breathing again.
Duo tried to do the same but to many thoughts were running through his head. Why would she say she's a monster? Her past must be as bad as mine. Duo considered this for a moment then decided he had better find Trowa. "I'm going to go." He stopped when he remembered that she wanted him to be quiet. So he left quietly as so not to disturb her.
Please review, the only reason I'm putting these chapters up is cause I got a review a few days ago. ^_^