Chapter four: All because of me (Back at school) School was heck for Joey. He didn't hear a thing any of the teachers said and he didn't care. All he could think of was Mai. She filled his every waking moment, and haunted his mind, while all his friends watched him with worried glances. It wasn't much better for Mai either. She laughed with her friends when the teachers caught Joey daydreaming, but she felt sorry for him. To be laughed at by her and her friends, especially when she saw the hurt in his eyes when she made fun of him. In third period they were lab partners and that was when she got a good look at him. They were only supposed to talk about their projects that day, but Joey and Mai just sat there. Mai looked him over and was worried with what she saw, sure she had been eating less since their breakup, it was a natural thing that went along with sadness, but Joey seemed to have eaten nothing. He had always been slim, but now he looked thin and pale, and it scared her. She touched his shoulder and he looked at her. He had new fresh bruises and cuts on his face and she could see his dad had hurt him again before break had ended, but worst were his eyes, they had a haunted look about them and a deep, deep sadness. He looked away and simply said" It's of no matter". She drew in breath sharply and snapped back "Joey you aren't eating and you are acting suicidal and you're telling me 'It's of no matter'" He frowned and looked down, hiding his face under his bangs "I'm just not hungry, and besides" He said, still without the tiniest bit of emotion "If my dad hurts me bad enough, maybe he'll kill me." Mai was about to break down. She couldn't take being with him, and seeing the horrible things he had done to himself. No, she thought, the things I have done to him. Mai raised her hand "Mrs. Daniels." "Yes Mai?" "I don't feel well can I go to the nurse?" "Of course" she said kindly. Joey just stared at her with those sad, tortured eyes as she left the room. Joey knew it hurt her to see him the way he was, but he just couldn't snap out of it. What reason was there to be happy, He thought, I don't have the one that holds my heart, when she left; she took my heart and soul with her? He sighed and copied down all the information they needed to do their project. At the nurse's office Mai cried he heart out, when the nurse asked what was wrong she lied and said her cat died. The nurse fell for it and left Mai to herself. My cat died. What a lame excuse, this is about something more important than that. This is about how My beloved Joey is starving himself, and hoping his dad hurts him because he doesn't wish to live. All because of me. After school Joey walked outside and leaned against the brick wall. Why is my life so horrible? Is there no god? Does he not care about me? Suddenly Joey was angry. He turned around and slammed his fist against the wall, trying to get rid of the emptiness that filled him. Trying to feel anything but hopelessness. He kept on hitting it over and over, until his fist was ripped and bleeding. So many feeling and emotions were churning inside him, he didn't even feel it as blood ran down his arm and pooled on the ground. He heard a cracking sound but his brain didn't even register the pain as he broke his knuckles one by one, then finally his wrist, He only stopped then, because he heard his name called. "Joey!" Yugi screamed, "Stop!!!!!" Joey stopped then and looked at Yugi with mild curiosity, "What?" Yugi looked like he was going to be sick "look at your hand!" Joey looked and felt stunned at all the blood. When had this happened? Was he going crazy? He couldn't feel his hand, and the world started to go blurry all around. That's when Mai walked out the door and saw them. "Joey, Yugi, what are you." that's when she saw Joey's hand. She screamed "Joey what have you done!?!?!" She felt faint but she immediately came back to reality when Joey started hyperventilating. "I.can't.breathe" He gasped, then everything went black.