Forbidden Emotions

By Hannio

Chapter 4

Suspicion of the enemy

DISCLAIMER: I Don't own any of the Gundam boys or that bitch Rel... I mean or Releena ( Sorry about that) and that's the end of that

AUTHOR NOTE: In this chapter, we delve deeper into the world of Trowa's mind. Scary place? I think so, but it's nice. So Enjoy :0)

Duo stared after the Wing Gundam a look of pure shock on his face. It had to be some kind of mistake. It had to be as simple as he misheard Heero last coldly uttered sentence. After everything they had been through, all they had faced daily could Heero honestly turn round put a gun to Trowa's head and kill him, extinish his spark of life. Kill the boy who put himself out to look after Heero when his suicidal mission failed, and even when Heero had awoken and began to be fine, he left his home and went with him to make sure he'd be alright. Duo shook his head allowing himself one more lingering glance in the direction Heero had gone, then he turned switching the controls off and walking to the door closing it behind him. It wasn't going to happen, he was positive of that. Regardless of what Heero may believe himself to be, he was only human and he didn't think he could find it in him to kill Trowa. After all it was clear to everyone that Trowa was the one closest to Heero, after the experience they shared with each other and the fact they were the two most alike it was no surprise. When they were together they seemed almost happier and peaceful, something which Duo never saw except when they near each other. Though he himself could get a response out of Heero and in some aspects to find out the most out of the quiet one, it was only through constant badgering and annoying the hell out of him until Heero would finally have enough and tell him in short words what he wanted to know but Duo couldn't help but notice that Trowa could get some sort of response from him without trying. He got to the end of the corridor and switched the light off plunging that part into darkness and with it brought darker thoughts in his head.

Heero was unpredictable. While the others had met the Doctors at a later stage in their life, where in most cases except Trowa's, they had experience Human kindness and love, Heero had been chosen by Doctor J when he was very young and trained from a young age as far as Duo knew, Duo didn't even want to think of what that training had entailed, but he knew to make him the sort of solider and man he was today, every day must of been beyond tense. The training although giving Heero the skills he needed to survive in what he did had also warped him in the way he decided what was right and what was wrong and to him it was wrong to show emotions and right to do what it took to gain peace. That could lead them all to a serious problem, since Duo knew more than any of them that Heero would do anything to complete a mission he was giving even if it meant killing one of them to complete it if he believed they stood in his way.

He walked out of the corridor and into a brightly lit one but the light didn't erase the feeling in his stomach or the worry in his head, a frown came on his face. What should he do, he could tell the others but there was no way of knowing how they would react to it happening, or what they would do to stop it. On the otherhand he could warn Trowa in private but his gut feeling was telling him not to. He groaned. Just what the hell was he going to do?

"I know there's gotta be something I can do but for who" he said to himself than his violet eyes lit up. He's go to Heero's room and see what information he could find on his laptop, once he had proof he could tell the others and show them what Heero was doing then they could all decide what to do. He just hoped that Heero hadn't thought of erasing the info. He ran up the stairs, as far as he knew everyone was out of the house giving him the time and space he needed to work with. He went to Heero's room and placed his hand on the handle and went to turn it

"What are you doing?" he dropped his hand from the handle turning round as he did it to find himself face to face with none other than Trowa. He stared at him for a second still finding it hard to believe that the tall elegant boy could soon be dead at the hands of Heero.

"Nothing" he replied automatically as his mind brought up images of him being in this situation several million times at his old orphanage. Trowa's face remained impassive as he calmly the nervous boy in front of him

"It looks like to me that you were trying to go into Heero's room even though Heero is out" he said finally, Duo gave a slight nod in reply

"Oh well you know Trowa I thought I had left something in there earlier" he said quickly "But I didn't... Oh well maybe I left it in Quatre's room I think I'll go and check now" he said with a light shrug than he quickly walked passed Trowa making sure he didn't look at him. He had just gone passed him when Trowa spoke

"Are you ok?" his voice was as detached as always but there seemed to be a note of caring in his voice. Duo looked back with a nervous laugh

"Yeah... Yeah I'm fine... Seeya around Trowa" he walked to the top of the stairs and stopped looking back again, "Oh and Trowa take care ok" then he ran down the stairs, Trowa stared after him with a frown on his face. Something was definitely wrong, first with Heero and now with Duo. He glanced at Heero's room. After a moments hesitation he entered glancing round the dark cool room. It was neat and clean, almost as if no one lived there. He sat in the bed and began to think, a thoughtful look coming over the cold features.

He had a feeling that the problem was down to him. Firstly Heero started acting weirdly, making sure never to make eye contact and when he finally did, the look was so intense that it had shaken him. Now Duo was acting as if he had robbed a bank or something, he was so nervous and jittery around him that it was strange. He frowned. He was going to get to the bottom of this somehow and if he did find out that he was the problem that was affecting Heero than he would leave so Heero could find some peace. He sighed, for some reason the smaller boy had been plaguing his thoughts recently, more than it should have. At first, he thought that it was because deep down he felt an almost protective instinct for him. They had been through so much together recently but it was more than that. He was the one who watched him fight back against death, his long struggle to stay alive and they had travelled together after that, he had found himself enjoying Heero's company finding a solace in him that he didn't find with the other 3. Perhaps he felt that Heero understood what he was like. His buried emotions and the thoughts that went round his head.

He had Quatre he knew that without a doubt, the Arabic boy assured him several times that he would be there for him whatever it may be, whether he needed a place to stay, or if he needed help on a mission though he hadn't said anything at the time he had been grateful for it. He knew Quatre counted him as his best friend and perhaps deep down he considered Quatre his friend. Heero didn't have that security to live with. The only thing he could think of that Heero truly possessed was his Gundam. He was a hard boy to get to know and even when you did get to know him, he still remained aloof from them all. Trowa had felt a desire to get beneath that coldness to the real boy beneath the charred, ever since Heero had locked his eyes on with him that day when he first woke up. He sighed and stood up. He was a solider he couldn't afford to be worrying about anything else right now than his missions and Heavyarms. He'd find out from Duo what was going on since he was pretty sure Duo would have got it out of Heero by now. Then he'd see if he could help him in anyway. If Heero had a side mission then it would be quicker if he helped him. His mind made up; he went out of the door on a mission to find Duo.

There we go I hope you enjoyed it. Please review people and tell me what you think of it no flames are allowed though. Thanks.