Title: Observation
(28 Feb 2003)
Author: Sariyuki
Disclaimer: I don't own GW and its characters. I only love them to death ;p
Pairing: 1+2
Summary: "People do stupid things when they're in love" - Hercules. In short, Heero needs to sleep (and so do I).
It was just a simple gesture. Something insignificant.
Something that's just so ordinary. Ordinary people do it all the time. No big deal.
And that's what I keep telling myself. It's meaningless. Just a gesture, without meaning.
But why, why on earth, do I keep thinking about it?
Why am I tossing it around, analysing it, stressing over it?
Why won't my brain accept it the way I keep on telling it to accept? Just accept it as something ordinary and meaningless.
Why is this bothering me? Why?
It was just a peck on the cheek before he left for L2. His professor called him on a private mission, God knows what. I still don't know why he did it. Maybe just to tease me like he usually does? Or maybe it's just something he usually does to a friend? Or maybe that's just the way he says goodbye to a friend? But, my brain retorted, I never saw him doing it to anyone. Not to Quatre, Trowa nor Wufei.
Why me?
Indeed, I seem to like this train of thought, why me?
Am I special?
Nah, don't flatter yourself, Heero. Don't get your hopes way up from the ground.
Okay, so I'm not special. I'm just a friend to him, just like the others. Yes...
But...
No...
No, it doesn't make sense.
Just sleep, Heero. Don't bother yourself. It's no big deal. Just a peck. Nothing more.
Yeah, nothing more...
...
But...
He said something like "I'm gonna miss you."
That's something, right? RIGHT?
He never lied. Why would he lie to me? If he said he's going to miss me than he's going to.
So?
...
Is he missing me now?
He must be.
Because he said so, didn't he?
Oh, god!
Since when did I become this pathetic?
I'm Heero Yuy, the Perfect Soldier, for god's sake! Since when did I concern myself with such trivial matters?
...
Since I met Duo?
...
Duo...
Damn you, Duo! Why did you have to do that and keep me awake?
If I can't get up for work tomorrow then I know who's to blame.
But he's not here to blame. Damn.
Why is he still annoying me even though he's not around?
Why?
Damn, damn, damn!
Why do I have to have a crush on him? WHY!
This is just so un-me.
I need to sleep. Desperately. Now!
...
...
...
Why can't I stop thinking about him? About the... kiss?
It's not a kiss, baka. It's just a peck.
Oh, Heero no baka...
I wish I could just shut me down. Turn me off, or something, so that I can stop thinking about him.
I think my brain is going to explode any moment now because of overuse.
This is just so pathetic.
I think I'll just give up sleeping and start thinking about him now.
Then maybe I'd be able to sleep.
Or not sleep. Whatever. I give up.
...
So...
He said it's going to be a month or so til he comes back.
God, that's 30 days, 30 nights?
30 nights without him?
God! That means... 30 nights without good night sleep...
I'm so screwed.
I think I'll just go and self-destruct.
Or I'll just kill him when he gets back for making my life so miserable.
Or...
Maybe I'll kiss him instead.
Hehehe...
I'd like that.
Hush, 'like' is a very serious understatement.
Oh, I'm so in need of sleep.
... wait, I think I've got a brilliant idea.
I'll just go and read Duo's bible.
I remember he said that it helped him to sleep sometimes.
Yup. Yup. It's a good idea.
Now... Where is it?
...
It's not in his drawer... not on his desk, not in his wardrobe...
No... way!
Did he take it with him?
That bastard...!!
I'm going to make him suffer when he gets home, one way or another.
And that's a promise!
Ah, but...
Thirty nights... too damn long.
... thirty lonely nights...
...
... Duo...
...
Zzz...
...
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