Forbidden Emotions

By Hannio

Chapter 7

I just can't do it

DISCLAIMER: I don't own either Trowa or Heero, if I did then I'd keep Heero for myself and give Jenihenpen Trowa, then I'd have lots of fun watching him clean my room and everything. However that's never gonna happen. DAMN

AUTHOR NOTE: Er Hi Guys, I don't know what to say except I'm so sorry it took me so long to get this out, it's taking me sometime to get into action and everything and then they went and changed how to do it and everything. So I'm sorry, but I hope this chapter is worth the long long wait.

Also because I feel so guilty about letting readers down I'm gonna do 2 more fics which I promise will be regually updated, a normal 1x3 one, because I love them, an AU that's 1x3 and 2x5 and maybe just maybe a 2x4 but I'm not sure on that you'll have to let me know what you think of that idea, anyway I'll be putting them up shortly. Anyway I hope you enjoy this chapter cause I enjoyed writing it.

Trowa looked around him as people ran in panic, some holding children, he ignored them, there was nothing he could do for them, he had a mission to complete and after he was going to talk to Heero. He had tried today but the minute he saw his face when he walked in Quatre at his side trying to engage some sort of reponse. Heero's face was closed and Trowa knew his only thoughts were focused on the mission ahead, he heard none of what Quatre was saying and he wouldn't pay attention to anything he said either. They had separated, Heero off to set the explosives while he got the information on the Gundam's, the other info had been vague, they needed precise one, in what they did if the information was wrong or faulty in anyway then it could turn out deadly, they had found that out the hard way, his eyes widened slightly as images came in his mind of Heero destroying the ship that helf all the men who fought for peace between the colanies and Earth. With one swoop that had been destroyed bacause of the information. He shook his head coming back into the present. It was time to go, he grabbed the disk and walked out the room looking inconsciprous. He walked quickly down the hall and glanced up quickly to see Heero walking towards him, his face a picture of deadly intent, Trowa stopped and watched him coming, when they were a few feet apart. Heero stopped and watched him. For a few minute they stood there, neither making the slightest sound, then Heero brought his gun up and pointed it at his head. Trowa felt shock hit him like a hit in the stomach. What was Heero doing?

"Heero?" he said finally his voice one if question. Heero spoke his voice sounded calm and composed

"My mission Trowa Barton is to destroy the entire Barton foundation once and for all, that is completed except one member is still alive meaning I can't finished my mission till he is destroyed" his eyes narrowed "That someone is you Trowa" Trowa remain expressionless but inwards was a different case, he couldn't believe Heero had destroyed the whole assoication, they were huge, it seemed almost impossible that one person and one person alone could destroy them, a small smile came to his face as he closed his eyes. Then again this person was Heero Yuy, things that were normal didn't apply to him. He had been right all alone he had been the cause of the problem, he was the reason for Heero's distress, he was also the reason for Duo's nervousness, Duo must have found out and didn't know what to do. He sighed and looked up to see Heero still watching him. For some reason he felt strangely calm even though he knew he was going to die. He watched back

"Go on then" he had the satifaction of seeing Heero's eyes widen

"What" came the reply

"Go on then Heero kill me, you're right you need to complete the mission, here's your chance, if you do it now then people will think I was killed in battle by a Solider that way no one will know. Duo will remain silent because it's you" Heero looked away for a second before looking back

"You'll be missed" he said in a strange sounding voice "Quatre will and so will Duo and that Catherine girl"

"I know but it's for the best, the Barton association had to be destroyed I see that now since I'm all that's left I have to be destroyed" Heero's hand began to shake as he watched him, then his body shook. He tried to pull the trigger but stopped. he couldn't do it. He couldn't kill Trowa. He... He cared about him too much. His eyes widened as he tried to breath, he felt as if he was being sucked under water but couldn't get up. What was wrong with him, why did he suddenly care, he dropped the gun hearing it clatter to the floor. Trowa's eyes followed it than met his, worry in them

"Heero" he said, Heero shook his head stepping back from the advancing figure

"I can't do it" he could hear the own vunerbility in his voice "I can't kill you what's wrong with me" he asked "What's going on I can't take it Trowa I think I'm losing my mind" he didn't wait for an answer just ran, his heart pounding he had to get away from Trowa he didn't understand himself, but he knew he couldn't take it.

"Heero" Trowa yelled after him but he was gone leaving Trowa in shock. He couldn't do it. Something was wrong and he was going to have to talk it out with him, he sighed staring after the place where Heero had run, So caught up in thoughts that he never noticed the footsteps behind him, he never saw anything as steel hit his head causing him to fall to the ground unconcious.

There you go I hope you all enjoyed it. Please review it and this time the next chapter will be out soon, as in as soon as I get on the computer again. Again big sorry to everyone about taking so long especially Jenihenpen. Sorry. Remember No flames.