Never the Same
By Katty Bell
Disclaimer: Now, don't you hate those? Why do I have to write them? They are just some evil reminders that I don't own Harry Potter!
I got this idea while rewriting Harry Potter and the Comma Curse and I thought of posting it. I know that Harry didn't defeat Voldemort yet, but I tried to write how his reaction would be. I don't know if it will be realistic enough – as it has not happened yet – but I tried my best to express what Harry would feel… OK, now, why don't I stop talking and let you read the story?
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I don't understand. How can they be so happy when so many died in this war? When so much was lost…
I finally defeated the Dark Lord; I know I should be happy. Everyone else is. But I can't. I feel like something died within me. I feel like a… misfit. Like I don't belong here. That, now, my duty is over and I'm not needed.
My friends don't know. I can't afford being so carefree anymore. Being so joyful… So happy. I just can't.
No one knows it. Only Sirius. I told him a few days after Voldemort was defeated… He said it was expected… That soon I would feel better…
But I know I will not. Outside, I will live my life normally, like nothing happened. But inside… Inside, my feelings will remain the same.
Ironically, this situation reminds me of something that a Muggle said once:
"It sometimes seem to me as if I did not belong to this world at all"
They may not understand – but I do. I'll never be the same again. I've seen too much, been through too much to remain unchanged.
No… My feelings will remain.
Forever.
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So, what did you think? Review and tell me your opinion! But, please, be gentle, though. This was my first try on this kind of fiction. You know, the 'musings' type.
The 'something a muggle said once' is from Franz Schubert:
"It sometimes seems to me as if I did not belong to this world at all"
I don't know about you, but I think it fits!
And lastly, I would like to thank my dear Beta, Red. As you know, without her, my stories would simply be impossible to read!