No More Sorrow
Chapter 4
A/N- Thank you SOOOO much for the reviews. It makes me VERY happy that people like this story^-^ I think that this chapter came out a little sooner, ne? Next chapters will come out even sooner hopefully. I think that in next chapter I'll also make the little comments about people's review.... I see it on so many stories, and I want to do that too.... but I'm too lazy to do that for this chapter being as I just want to get it out.... (heh heh heh). Hope that the readers enjoy this chapter! Please review at the end^-^ Your comments mean a lot! Enough of my chit-chat! Onto the story!
Disclaimer- Ok, I just realized that I haven't been putting disclaimers on my stories... it's just too painful to say this. I.... don't... own CCS or it's wonderful characters. There! Done! Wait! I DO own Sowjing though^-^
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Lunch on the day of Syaoran and Meilin's arrival~~
Syaoran gave a suspicious look towards Sowjing. 'Does this boy like Sakura? If so.... does she like him? Am I too late?' The doubts were playing into his mind uneasiness growing. Throughout lunch Syaoran couldn't help his thoughts, being as he hadn't seen Sakura in so long. It made him feel as though he shouldn't get too close to Sakura, because he didn't want to be suffocating. Every once in a while, Syaoran would see Sowjing gazing at him with curiosty and shyness, but Syaoran would glare back causing Sowjing to look away.
Sakura laughed and was a ray of sunshine around her group of friends. She still felt as though Sowjing felt un-welcome and tried to get him to talk more. Very often she found her eyes returning to where Syaoran was. 'He's grown a lot.... is more handsome then I remember! The messy chestnut hair, the hypnotic brown eyes... he has even grown to be tall as oni-chan!' Sakura thought to herself. But Syaoran never looked back. He had his focus on Sowjing, with an unhappy, distant look in his eyes. 'Oh well,' Sakura thought, 'I'll talk with him later.'
Takashi had just finished another story and there was a silence. Everyone looked at each other for a few seconds then burst out laughing. The group/circle of friends was even bigger than before and joy was written on most of their faces.... except for Sowjing and Syaoran who looked like lost puppies.
Sakura decided to say something. With great curiosity Sakura asked Syaoran, "Why did you and Meilin come now? Out of all times.... it took so long for you to keep your promise to me of coming back. I thought you had forgotten me..." The last sentence Sakura had mumbled and no one understood what she had said, not even Syaoran.
Syaoran said with a voice in a monotone, "I thought that you'd be happy to see some old friends..." he was cut off by the clock tower symbolizing lunch was over.
Sakura didn't want to be late to class but Sakura said out loud, "Oh! But I DID miss you! More than you know!"
It was too late. Syaoran had rushed and got his things and left. Everyone but Meilin had left in fact. Sakura sighed.... her happy day with Syaoran was already seeming depressing. Sakura said to Meilin as cheefully as poosible, "Hello Meilin-chan! I missed you too! It's good to know that two of my good friends are back, even if one is acting distant."
Meilin gave a small smile, "Don't worry about him, Sakura-chan! I'm sure it is nothing! First day back jitters or something. How is my grade-school friend doing? I think that my next class is with you, so I'll walk with you."
Sakura's face lit up. She said, "Ok! I'm fine. How about you?" The girl with sleek black hair standing beside her was no longer the immature little brat that everyone knew years ago. She had grown to become a young woman, still getting what she wanted, but showing compassion that she didn't have then.
Meilin's eyes got teary for a second, but she didn't want to seem like a wuss in front of Sakura, the Clowmistress. Meilin wanted to seem as strong, if not stronger, than Sakura... because she wanted her formal rival to know that she was as 'great' as ever. "Oh! I'm fine... Syaoran had our engagement broken a few months ago, I guess that it was pretty hard on me at the time. Even though I saw it with my own eyes it took me a long time to find out Syaoran didn't love me anymore than a friend. He had found another girl... my mind was clouded with my engagement to Syaoran that I never really saw the other girl, even though she is the greatest friend I've ever had."
Meilin of course, was talking about Sakura. She just didn't want Sakura to know that it was her, because that was a secret for Syaraorn to tell his loved one, not for her to tell.
But Sakura was as dense as ever. "Who does Syaoran love?" In her mind she was thinking, 'So...Syaoran has moved on? Does he not love me anymore?'
Meilin rolled her eyes. "I'm looking at her..." she said laughing.
Sakura looked around. "But I'm the only one here..." Even as she said it, Sakura didn't figure it out.
Meilin sighed exasperatly and said, "That's the point!"
They were now in the class room and still Sakura didn't get it. She walked into the class with question marks all over her face. Meilin just chuckled and grabbed a seat. She'd just leave it to Syaoran to resolve.
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The bell rung signaling the end of school. Syaoran went to the grassy field of the school. Sitting down on a bleacher nearby, he watched the soccer team pratice. He hadn't tryed out for the team, thinking that it was too late in the school year to join. Most of his mind wasn't on the practice though, it was on Sakura. All day he had thought about her. Now that he saw her face to face, as lovely as she was, he didn't know what to tell her. He was afraid of rejection, that Sakura loved another... and the thought of that was enough to prevent him from admitting his love as he had once done. Remembering when he was younger, Syaoran's mind flashed back to how much courage it took him to tell Sakura that he loved her. It was a little easier then, knowing that he'd be running to Hong Kong without having to worry about what Sakura thought of him. From beside him a quiet voice came.
"I bet that you're better than all of them..." Sakura said quietly.
Syaoran blushed. Only Sakura had that effect on him. "I was thinking," he said, a little harsher than he meant it to come out of his mouth.
Sakura grimaced and said, "I'm sorry. I'll leave if you want me to..."
That was the last thing that Syaoran wanted. "No, no, no! Um... please stay," he said with wide eyes.
Sakura smiled and took a seat next to him. For a few seconds they both sat in a comfortable silence. Finally, Sakura said, "I really AM glad you came back, Syaoran-kun. I'm just wondering if there is any reason why. Meilin-chan told me that you broke their engagement..."
Syaoran looked down and said, "I didn't love her as a girlfriend or wife. She's my favorite cousin... my friend. She knows me very well."
"Oh. I suppose that you've been through a lot together. She also told me.... that you loved another person?" Sakura said hesitantly.
Syaoran glared. 'Meilin and her big mouth! I wonder exactly how much she told Sakura!'
Sakura asked, "Are you mad at me? I didn't mean to pry..."
Syaoran coughed. "No. It's not that! It's just.... nevermind. Actually, I didn't come back for any reason," he said, guilty that he was lying. He just couldn't tell Sakura his feelings again right now. "I..um.... just wanted to see my childhood friends. And right now... I don't love anyone. My focus is to be a helpful person of the Li-Clan, and I thought that this would be a good vacation."
The words echoed into Sakura's head. 'I don't love anyone.... I don't love anyone... I don't love anyone....' Those four words that Syaoran had said were like little knives twisting her heart. All these years Sakura had thought that Syaoran loved her... but it seems that he forgot all about her.... and only thought of her as a child hood friend.
Sakura held back tears. She couldn't let Syaoran see her tears because he didn't need to know of her pain. "Oh," she managed to say, "Well, it's always good for a vacation. I'm sorry, I've got to go now, before oni-chan wonders where I am..."
And with that Sakura got up and half-walked, half-ran away. She ran around a building, so that she was no longer visible to Syaoran. There she let out a few tears and walked home.
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A/N-AWW~~~!!! Poor Sakura! Baka Syaoran! But but but... this IS a S+S story, so you know that things will turn out better. And there MUST be another reason that Syaoran has so much doubt! Well, all that coming up in the next chapter! I didn't add too much Sowjing in this chapter *sighs*. More of him in chapter 5...hehe. And, I wanted to make Meilin have her attitude that she is famous for, but have her really nice deep down inside because that is how I imagine her when she is older. Thank you again for the reviews! I hope that you liked this chapter! Please review for this too! Remember, reviews are the inspiration that keeps me going^-^ Ja for now!
Chapter 4
A/N- Thank you SOOOO much for the reviews. It makes me VERY happy that people like this story^-^ I think that this chapter came out a little sooner, ne? Next chapters will come out even sooner hopefully. I think that in next chapter I'll also make the little comments about people's review.... I see it on so many stories, and I want to do that too.... but I'm too lazy to do that for this chapter being as I just want to get it out.... (heh heh heh). Hope that the readers enjoy this chapter! Please review at the end^-^ Your comments mean a lot! Enough of my chit-chat! Onto the story!
Disclaimer- Ok, I just realized that I haven't been putting disclaimers on my stories... it's just too painful to say this. I.... don't... own CCS or it's wonderful characters. There! Done! Wait! I DO own Sowjing though^-^
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Lunch on the day of Syaoran and Meilin's arrival~~
Syaoran gave a suspicious look towards Sowjing. 'Does this boy like Sakura? If so.... does she like him? Am I too late?' The doubts were playing into his mind uneasiness growing. Throughout lunch Syaoran couldn't help his thoughts, being as he hadn't seen Sakura in so long. It made him feel as though he shouldn't get too close to Sakura, because he didn't want to be suffocating. Every once in a while, Syaoran would see Sowjing gazing at him with curiosty and shyness, but Syaoran would glare back causing Sowjing to look away.
Sakura laughed and was a ray of sunshine around her group of friends. She still felt as though Sowjing felt un-welcome and tried to get him to talk more. Very often she found her eyes returning to where Syaoran was. 'He's grown a lot.... is more handsome then I remember! The messy chestnut hair, the hypnotic brown eyes... he has even grown to be tall as oni-chan!' Sakura thought to herself. But Syaoran never looked back. He had his focus on Sowjing, with an unhappy, distant look in his eyes. 'Oh well,' Sakura thought, 'I'll talk with him later.'
Takashi had just finished another story and there was a silence. Everyone looked at each other for a few seconds then burst out laughing. The group/circle of friends was even bigger than before and joy was written on most of their faces.... except for Sowjing and Syaoran who looked like lost puppies.
Sakura decided to say something. With great curiosity Sakura asked Syaoran, "Why did you and Meilin come now? Out of all times.... it took so long for you to keep your promise to me of coming back. I thought you had forgotten me..." The last sentence Sakura had mumbled and no one understood what she had said, not even Syaoran.
Syaoran said with a voice in a monotone, "I thought that you'd be happy to see some old friends..." he was cut off by the clock tower symbolizing lunch was over.
Sakura didn't want to be late to class but Sakura said out loud, "Oh! But I DID miss you! More than you know!"
It was too late. Syaoran had rushed and got his things and left. Everyone but Meilin had left in fact. Sakura sighed.... her happy day with Syaoran was already seeming depressing. Sakura said to Meilin as cheefully as poosible, "Hello Meilin-chan! I missed you too! It's good to know that two of my good friends are back, even if one is acting distant."
Meilin gave a small smile, "Don't worry about him, Sakura-chan! I'm sure it is nothing! First day back jitters or something. How is my grade-school friend doing? I think that my next class is with you, so I'll walk with you."
Sakura's face lit up. She said, "Ok! I'm fine. How about you?" The girl with sleek black hair standing beside her was no longer the immature little brat that everyone knew years ago. She had grown to become a young woman, still getting what she wanted, but showing compassion that she didn't have then.
Meilin's eyes got teary for a second, but she didn't want to seem like a wuss in front of Sakura, the Clowmistress. Meilin wanted to seem as strong, if not stronger, than Sakura... because she wanted her formal rival to know that she was as 'great' as ever. "Oh! I'm fine... Syaoran had our engagement broken a few months ago, I guess that it was pretty hard on me at the time. Even though I saw it with my own eyes it took me a long time to find out Syaoran didn't love me anymore than a friend. He had found another girl... my mind was clouded with my engagement to Syaoran that I never really saw the other girl, even though she is the greatest friend I've ever had."
Meilin of course, was talking about Sakura. She just didn't want Sakura to know that it was her, because that was a secret for Syaraorn to tell his loved one, not for her to tell.
But Sakura was as dense as ever. "Who does Syaoran love?" In her mind she was thinking, 'So...Syaoran has moved on? Does he not love me anymore?'
Meilin rolled her eyes. "I'm looking at her..." she said laughing.
Sakura looked around. "But I'm the only one here..." Even as she said it, Sakura didn't figure it out.
Meilin sighed exasperatly and said, "That's the point!"
They were now in the class room and still Sakura didn't get it. She walked into the class with question marks all over her face. Meilin just chuckled and grabbed a seat. She'd just leave it to Syaoran to resolve.
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The bell rung signaling the end of school. Syaoran went to the grassy field of the school. Sitting down on a bleacher nearby, he watched the soccer team pratice. He hadn't tryed out for the team, thinking that it was too late in the school year to join. Most of his mind wasn't on the practice though, it was on Sakura. All day he had thought about her. Now that he saw her face to face, as lovely as she was, he didn't know what to tell her. He was afraid of rejection, that Sakura loved another... and the thought of that was enough to prevent him from admitting his love as he had once done. Remembering when he was younger, Syaoran's mind flashed back to how much courage it took him to tell Sakura that he loved her. It was a little easier then, knowing that he'd be running to Hong Kong without having to worry about what Sakura thought of him. From beside him a quiet voice came.
"I bet that you're better than all of them..." Sakura said quietly.
Syaoran blushed. Only Sakura had that effect on him. "I was thinking," he said, a little harsher than he meant it to come out of his mouth.
Sakura grimaced and said, "I'm sorry. I'll leave if you want me to..."
That was the last thing that Syaoran wanted. "No, no, no! Um... please stay," he said with wide eyes.
Sakura smiled and took a seat next to him. For a few seconds they both sat in a comfortable silence. Finally, Sakura said, "I really AM glad you came back, Syaoran-kun. I'm just wondering if there is any reason why. Meilin-chan told me that you broke their engagement..."
Syaoran looked down and said, "I didn't love her as a girlfriend or wife. She's my favorite cousin... my friend. She knows me very well."
"Oh. I suppose that you've been through a lot together. She also told me.... that you loved another person?" Sakura said hesitantly.
Syaoran glared. 'Meilin and her big mouth! I wonder exactly how much she told Sakura!'
Sakura asked, "Are you mad at me? I didn't mean to pry..."
Syaoran coughed. "No. It's not that! It's just.... nevermind. Actually, I didn't come back for any reason," he said, guilty that he was lying. He just couldn't tell Sakura his feelings again right now. "I..um.... just wanted to see my childhood friends. And right now... I don't love anyone. My focus is to be a helpful person of the Li-Clan, and I thought that this would be a good vacation."
The words echoed into Sakura's head. 'I don't love anyone.... I don't love anyone... I don't love anyone....' Those four words that Syaoran had said were like little knives twisting her heart. All these years Sakura had thought that Syaoran loved her... but it seems that he forgot all about her.... and only thought of her as a child hood friend.
Sakura held back tears. She couldn't let Syaoran see her tears because he didn't need to know of her pain. "Oh," she managed to say, "Well, it's always good for a vacation. I'm sorry, I've got to go now, before oni-chan wonders where I am..."
And with that Sakura got up and half-walked, half-ran away. She ran around a building, so that she was no longer visible to Syaoran. There she let out a few tears and walked home.
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A/N-AWW~~~!!! Poor Sakura! Baka Syaoran! But but but... this IS a S+S story, so you know that things will turn out better. And there MUST be another reason that Syaoran has so much doubt! Well, all that coming up in the next chapter! I didn't add too much Sowjing in this chapter *sighs*. More of him in chapter 5...hehe. And, I wanted to make Meilin have her attitude that she is famous for, but have her really nice deep down inside because that is how I imagine her when she is older. Thank you again for the reviews! I hope that you liked this chapter! Please review for this too! Remember, reviews are the inspiration that keeps me going^-^ Ja for now!