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Anyways I want to thank Split Persona and Shadow of Arashi, for there kind words to me. You guys really helped me. Even though you might not know it. But when I read your reviews I didn't feel so bad Arigato :::bows::
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Ok well I hope this is good enough. I figured my life as taken a slight (if not much) turn for the better so hopefully this is good enough for a sequel. Oh yeah excuse the grammar mistakes, I may be an English major I still don't like using the right marks and all, there so boring lol. Well now that I've blabbed long enough on with the fic ^_^ lol.
Why Should I?
By Kayla
Light….
Brightness….
Pain….
Whiteness….
It hurts….
Slowly opening my eyes I find myself in the bathroom. How did I get here I wonder to myself? Thinking back I remember…I tried to kill myself…but why didn't it work? Looking down at my wrists I see that there is nothing there…no mark, no scar, no redness, no nothing. Looking around me I see plenty of blood everywhere. Why aren't I dead? Then it hits me, Korin. Korin saved me, it won't let me die…it never lets me die. I should have known. Korin the yoroi of courtesy. It does so many things for me, great things, yet also things I wish it would have never done. It keeps my sickness at bay, it helps me control my powers, yet it won't let me hurt. I want to feel that physical pain, because for a moment the emotional pain is all gone. And it won't let my pain come to an end. I want to die. I long for it with all my heart. One day maybe my life will end, and maybe, one day, I will find a reason to live. Till then I will be a silent suffer. Cleaning up the bathroom I look at the clock in the bathroom and notice it's 5 in the morning, Touma is in his bed sleeping. Sighing I decide maybe some meditation will make me feel better. Taking a quick shower, I grab some clothes and head out into the woods to clear my thoughts. Funny it's not as cold a day as they said it would be…
Touma's thoughts:
Finally some noise in there. He's been in there all night, I wonder if he's sick. None of us can tell though. He's always blocking us. We are all connected yet Seiji never opens to us, he always closes the mind link. None of us really know how to act towards him; he really is so different from us. We know practically nothing about him, he's always so quiet. He's my best friend yet; all I really know about him is his name, age, and the name of his family. He never talks about himself the way the rest of us do. Sometimes I wonder what he's seen, what he's done, I mean, he's not that cold without a reason right?
Maybe, one day I will find out what's wrong with him. I wish he'd join us more though when we go and do stuff. I wonder why he's never with us. But then again I can probably guess. We don't exactly do much to invite him. I bet Seiji is the type of person that needs to be invited to do stuff otherwise he feels like he's trespassing. We will have to do that next time. He's coming out now; hopefully he will get some sleep. I never really see him sleep and we share the same room. Pretending to be asleep, I watch him from my corner where my bed is. He's going out? It's only supposed to be 30 degrees out today. I should say something…but…would he listen.
Watching him walk out the door I wonder should I go after him. Would he appreciate it? Would he be angry with me? Why should I go? He is my best friend…but he's a very private person and he respects my privacy, and I should respect his. After all he probably is going to go out and meditate. I don't think he'd appreciate if I went out and bugged him. I wish I knew what to do. Then a though hit's me why should I care. Sure he's my best friend, but I spend why too much time thinking bout him. Maybe it's just cause he seems so hurt inside right now. Yet he always is cold. Why should I go…?
To be continued ^_^ I hope you all like. Oh by the way, I like to add songs to my fics and I have 4 songs I could add to this one, but I want to use them for other stories or chapters cause they would work so much better so if anybody could give me an idea I'd be very grateful. Thanks.