A/N: Okay, long fic! Geez! I never thought that this would go this far
but that's okay. I'm currently putting all my other fics on hold until I
finish this one. I'm typing about three chapters a night now. I'm posting
them one or two at a time though. I wanna get this fic done so I can
continue my others and I forget about the others. So enjoy!
Chapter 20 "Oh, no! My life is going down hill"
Nicole and I went to dinner. I looked at the food. It was definitely made by May since I was able to identify it. That was one thing May had not learned from Mikey. I loved it when May cooked for the group. She was a wonder cook for Chinese since it was her heritage.
"Mmm.smells good, May," I said.
"Stop the flattery, Lin. Mike made your favorite tonight. It was a challenge but I actually taught Mikey how to make Lo Main," she said.
"What? Mike cooked? Am I going to have no sense of taste?" asked Nicole.
"Very funny, it's actually really good," she said.
We all sat down. I made an extra effort to sit next to Leo but he sat next to Nicole. Raph sat between me and Nicole. I was slightly hurt. I wasn't too happy about the whole situation that Nicole and I were in but it wasn't her fault.
Dinner passed. Dinner was surprisingly good tonight. I complemented Mikey before trying to head back to the room. Nicole was stopped by Leo and was dragged into the practice room so the two of them could talk. I got into the room but when I closed the door, Raph stopped me from closing the door.
"Lin, it's me. I really wanna talk to you," he said.
I sighed. I couldn't run from him forever. I knew I couldn't. Besides, I knew Master Splinter could sense the tension between me and Raph and Nicole and Leo. I didn't want to face him but I knew Master Splinter would want me to.
"Alright," I said as I let him in.
He shut the door behind him. I walked over to my light blue bed. He looked at me and pulled up the chair from the desk. He looked at me closely.
"I want to apologize for what happened. I didn't mean to scare you.," he said trying to sound as soft as possible.
He looked like he was trying to keep his composure. I felt bad. I didn't want to tell him off. I was scared but I didn't know how to tell him that I didn't feel the same way about him. I valued him as a good friend. I loved helping him work on his bike but I didn't feel a love attraction.
"I wanted to know if you felt the same way about me," he said.
"Raph, I really hate to say it but I love you as a good friend but I don't love you in the way you want me to. I'm sorry," I said as nicely as possible.
I looked away. Nicole liked him. I liked him as a friend and nothing more.
"Lin, there's something else, isn't there?" he asked.
I looked up at him. I wasn't sure if I should. I promised Nicole that I wouldn't tell. I knew that if I was to get Nicole to he happy and Leo to notice me, I would have to tell Raph.
"Raph, it's not only do I not love you in the same way, it's also that Nicole loves you," I said as I cringed.
I looked at Raph to see him stunned. He didn't seem to notice Nicole as I thought he did.
"Do you mean that?" he asked.
"Every word of it. Leo's also after her he she likes you," I said.
He smiled. He pulled me into a tight hug. I wondered what was going on. He let me go quickly.
"Nicole. I would have never guessed. She's very pretty but I never really got to know her over the time you girls have been here," he said.
"Well, get to know her," I said.
"You're right. I think I should," he said.
I smiled as he got up. He looked back up at me before he left. Once he left, May ran into my room. She looked pale for her. She handed me a newspaper. I took it.
"May, what's wrong?" I asked almost afraid to know.
"Lin, look at the paper. I circled what I want you to read," she said.
I looked at the newspaper. I saw I was about to read an obituary. I gulped as I read what was circled in red. I looked at the name first. Oh my God, I thought to myself. I couldn't believe what I was reading. My best friend, Alexander Ryan Rason, was dead. I read on finding out that he was killed by a gang. I cried. I looked up at May who was still in shock.
"Lin, are you going to be okay?" May asked.
"Yea," I managed to choke out.
"I'll leave you alone for a while," said May
I laid on my bed. I wanted to go home. My life was nothing but hell now. The guy I loved loved Nicole, I was a mutant turtle, and now my best friend who I had confided all my secrets to was gone. He had been dead for three days. His funeral was tomorrow. I decided that one way or another, I would pay my respects to him tomorrow. It wasn't long before I fell asleep, I wished I would never wake up. Then, I made my final decision.
Chapter 20 "Oh, no! My life is going down hill"
Nicole and I went to dinner. I looked at the food. It was definitely made by May since I was able to identify it. That was one thing May had not learned from Mikey. I loved it when May cooked for the group. She was a wonder cook for Chinese since it was her heritage.
"Mmm.smells good, May," I said.
"Stop the flattery, Lin. Mike made your favorite tonight. It was a challenge but I actually taught Mikey how to make Lo Main," she said.
"What? Mike cooked? Am I going to have no sense of taste?" asked Nicole.
"Very funny, it's actually really good," she said.
We all sat down. I made an extra effort to sit next to Leo but he sat next to Nicole. Raph sat between me and Nicole. I was slightly hurt. I wasn't too happy about the whole situation that Nicole and I were in but it wasn't her fault.
Dinner passed. Dinner was surprisingly good tonight. I complemented Mikey before trying to head back to the room. Nicole was stopped by Leo and was dragged into the practice room so the two of them could talk. I got into the room but when I closed the door, Raph stopped me from closing the door.
"Lin, it's me. I really wanna talk to you," he said.
I sighed. I couldn't run from him forever. I knew I couldn't. Besides, I knew Master Splinter could sense the tension between me and Raph and Nicole and Leo. I didn't want to face him but I knew Master Splinter would want me to.
"Alright," I said as I let him in.
He shut the door behind him. I walked over to my light blue bed. He looked at me and pulled up the chair from the desk. He looked at me closely.
"I want to apologize for what happened. I didn't mean to scare you.," he said trying to sound as soft as possible.
He looked like he was trying to keep his composure. I felt bad. I didn't want to tell him off. I was scared but I didn't know how to tell him that I didn't feel the same way about him. I valued him as a good friend. I loved helping him work on his bike but I didn't feel a love attraction.
"I wanted to know if you felt the same way about me," he said.
"Raph, I really hate to say it but I love you as a good friend but I don't love you in the way you want me to. I'm sorry," I said as nicely as possible.
I looked away. Nicole liked him. I liked him as a friend and nothing more.
"Lin, there's something else, isn't there?" he asked.
I looked up at him. I wasn't sure if I should. I promised Nicole that I wouldn't tell. I knew that if I was to get Nicole to he happy and Leo to notice me, I would have to tell Raph.
"Raph, it's not only do I not love you in the same way, it's also that Nicole loves you," I said as I cringed.
I looked at Raph to see him stunned. He didn't seem to notice Nicole as I thought he did.
"Do you mean that?" he asked.
"Every word of it. Leo's also after her he she likes you," I said.
He smiled. He pulled me into a tight hug. I wondered what was going on. He let me go quickly.
"Nicole. I would have never guessed. She's very pretty but I never really got to know her over the time you girls have been here," he said.
"Well, get to know her," I said.
"You're right. I think I should," he said.
I smiled as he got up. He looked back up at me before he left. Once he left, May ran into my room. She looked pale for her. She handed me a newspaper. I took it.
"May, what's wrong?" I asked almost afraid to know.
"Lin, look at the paper. I circled what I want you to read," she said.
I looked at the newspaper. I saw I was about to read an obituary. I gulped as I read what was circled in red. I looked at the name first. Oh my God, I thought to myself. I couldn't believe what I was reading. My best friend, Alexander Ryan Rason, was dead. I read on finding out that he was killed by a gang. I cried. I looked up at May who was still in shock.
"Lin, are you going to be okay?" May asked.
"Yea," I managed to choke out.
"I'll leave you alone for a while," said May
I laid on my bed. I wanted to go home. My life was nothing but hell now. The guy I loved loved Nicole, I was a mutant turtle, and now my best friend who I had confided all my secrets to was gone. He had been dead for three days. His funeral was tomorrow. I decided that one way or another, I would pay my respects to him tomorrow. It wasn't long before I fell asleep, I wished I would never wake up. Then, I made my final decision.