The little girl was curled up in the darkest corner of the small cell. Jajuka stepped inside and kneeled down by her side. He put down the tray on the cold floor and tilted his head.
He could hear the soft sobbing of the girl piercing through the deep silence.
Please don't leave me alone... she whispered in fright as she muffled a sobb. Don't leave me... don't leave me alone... please take me back home...
She was so afraid. Her tiny body was shivering all over and every muscle in her fragile body seemed to tense. Her small hands rubbing her eyes as new tears trickled down the pale cheeks.
Her fate was so cruel. Jajuka didn't know how many children had suffered for the same fate but never made it.
They had been many before her, though he knew that this girl was different. He couldn't really put his finger on it, but as soon as he had seen her, he had gotten a strong feeling she would make it.
He reached out a hand towards her, ever so carefully, not to scare her further with his rather odd appeariance. His fingertips briefly touched her soft hair and he sighed softly. Poor thing... did they cut your hair..? he whispered sadly and the girl gasped slightly as she took away the hands from her eyes slowly.
Crystal blue eyes, looked up on him anxiously. Glittering of tears and shining brightly of fear and fright for what the outher world would bring her.
She gasped again as she excamined him intensly. Even though she felt delighted over his company. Maybe she already knew he was the one to help her through this cruel fate that was awaiting her, and that he would take care of her.
At least she was relaxing slightly and her body was slowly going limp again. She swallowed hardly and forced herself to move her softly shivering lips.
W...who are you? she whispered softly.
Jajuka smiled with warmth at her. I am Jajuka. Don't worry, I wish you no harm. I am your guardian. he said. His voice was kind and calm.
Celena looked at him with confused eyes. she whispered and Jajuka nodded slowly. Yes. I will take care of you from now on. Don't worry, I won't leave you alone. he said.
The smile he had recieved then was his last clear remembrance of her. He would always remember how she had looked at that time. It was like a photgraphy forever frozen in his mind, and he would never forget it.
Even though he hadn't been able to keep the promise they had made there and then, he could always try and forget the loss of her by remembering her as she had been while still alive.
He would never reject her, even though she would be replaced by another and never smile like that again.
***
It was totaly still. The dim light gave the room an undescribable feeling of emptyness.
Blue, glasslike eyes stared deeply into the boring nothingness. The clear space around him, that he woke up to every new day. His flawless face was totaly emotionless and his sight blank.
Jajuka stood in the doorway, watching the frozen boy. It could just as well have been yesterday or the day before that, it would still be the same. The boy wouldn't move. He wouldn't speak or eat, or sleep either for that matter.
He was just frozen. Stuck in a moment that kept him breathing - nothing more, nothing less than just living, lifelessly.
The wolfman sighed and stepped into the room. He sat down beside the little boy on the bed and looked at him. he asked softly but the boy didn't react. He just kept on staring endlessly into the white wall infront of him.
He wasn't older than seven, yet he had no future to look forward to in his already decayed life. It was all decided for him. He had no choices. He had no paths.
The deep silence between them two remain for a long moment, and Jajuka found it rather unbearable.
He draught for his breath and rose from the bed again, walking over to the window and stared at the closed windowshutters. Why do you keep these windows closed all the time, or is it them who prevents you from opening them? he asked and glanced at the boy. Dilandou didn't answer. Simply because he had nothing to say.
Jajuka sighed softly and reached out a hesitating hand, then he opened the dark window shutters and a bright light shone up the whole room.
A slight reaction from the boy, who gasped softly and looked up, narrowing his eyes as he looked into the bright light.
Jajuka couldn't resist smiling. Do you like it? he asked. The boy remain silent, just staring at the warm light shining upon his pale face.
The wolfman watched him for a moment, then he turned around and walked towards the door again. You need some light up here Dilandou, why not keep them open for a while. he said and turned around slowly. To his surprise, he found the boy now looking at him. A surprised gasp escaped the man's lips quietly.
They remain like that for a long moment, just staring deeply into each other's eyes.
Jajuka had never had that kind of eye contact with the boy before. He felt a very uncommon feeling as he watched him like that. He couldn't fully describe it, neither could he name it, but it was something that awoke inside of him at that moment.
In those crystal blue eyes, he could see the slight reflection of Celena. The girl inprisioned in eternal darkness. The girl deep within those eyes, far beyond the outher front.
The experiments had been going on for quite a while now, and the girl once known as Celena was long gone. Though the soul of the boy was the same. Only the outside was different. Inside he was just empty. Blank. Deleted from the former life and memories of the little girl.
All that was remaining of her, was the eyes.
But far too soon, also that would be taken away, and the very last remembrance of the girl's excistance would be deleted together with those deep, sea blue eyes. She would be forgotten forever.
And the poor boy, the scientists little tool, would gather a new life, and a totaly new sight, would look upon the world infront of him.
Jajuka felt so sorry for the boy's only path. Though he couldn't do anything to save him. He couldn't stop what was already started. He didn't have the power to prevent one from hurting others.
He didn't know how to change a persons fate...
As he looked so deeply into those blue eyes. He felt all the helplessness owerhelm him. The fear, the sorrow, the anger, it all came washing over him.
It was a great shock to him and he couldn't keep the eye contact. He looked away quickly and turned around. He left the room and closed the door carefully beside him. He let out a deep shivering breath and closed his eyes hardly.
He hadn't realised it at first. The source of that silence that was always surrounding the boy. Like a thin veil sweapt around him within darkness and eternal silence.
Those eyes.
Those sea blue eyes.
They were so unbelievably sad...
