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Kyte: I'm sorrie! I have been working on so many of my other fics I completely bugged out of this one. Wow it has been a whole year since I started on FFN. As of today officially one year old ^-^
Chapter 9: Night
Sakura and Syaoran had arrived at Tomoyo's house already and had gotten settled in. Sakura was in one of the guest room while Syaoran is in the other. Once Tomoyo knew that Sakura and Syaoran were coming she had personally decorate their rooms.
Sakura's room had lots of stuff animals and the walls color was light pink. The bed was still left as a twin size bed, but the covers were also pink. Syaoran's room was more boyish with the walls colored green. It looked more tamed then Sakura's room, but nonetheless she had some work done on it. Right now the trio were sitting in the living room watching a movie. Sakura was snuggling with Syaoran on the couch as Tomoyo was sitting on chair watching them. Oh how her heart hate the sight of her best friend in another mans arm. This is why she left in the first place and here they are...She needed some fresh air.
"Sakura, I need some air. If you need me I will be outside." Tomoyo said sweetly as she took a jacket and headed out the door. The winter weather was freezing, but she didn't care. The weather fit her mood, her heart. She went towards Eriol's garden when she was outside. She walked slowly catching more sights of the wonderful garden in the ice-cold weather. Making her way to the plum blossom tree she sat down. 'I am so glad that I am not home watching them get more romantic.' Tomoyo thought bitterly to herself. She was lost in thought for quite some time. The next thing she knew there was a person whispering to her.
"Tomoyo?" A voice that sounded like a man asked. She looked up and saw those azure eyes she knew too well. His eyes were full with worry.
"Eriol what are you doing here?" Tomoyo asked surprised as she jumped up from her spot.
"This is my garden." He replied smartly. He knew what Tomoyo meant, but wanted to tease her. Her lips pouted as she put her hands on her hips. "You know what I was trying to ask. What are you doing here in this weather?" She questioned one more time.
"I like the cold. Besides the real question is what are you doing here?" Eriol asked her almost mockingly. She was supposed to be with her guests at home instead she is here trying to freeze herself to death.
"I like the cold." She said, repeating the British boy's words. Eriol looked at her with some understanding. 'She wanted to be alone and here you are trying to get into her space.' He thought to himself.
"Well I better get going and you should too. It is already been an hour or so since you came out here. Your friends might be worried." Eriol told her. Tomoyo was shocked. 'Had it been an hour already?' She thought to herself as she looked at her wristwatch. Indeed it was passed an hour.
"How did you know? Were you spying on me?" Tomoyo asked sternly. Eriol looked innocent, but who can trust someone that can lie through his teeth?
"No of course not." Eriol replied innocently with tints of shock. The truth was when she first came out he was looking at her, staring at her from afar, but kept the distance. He got worried when she did not move for an extended amount of time. "I had seen you an hour ago when passing by my window. I check once in awhile to see if you had moved from your spot, but I see you refuse to move so I had to come out to snap you out of your eerie." He continued
"That was nice of you Eriol. Now I should be going for as you have said my friend might be looking for me." She said awfully sweet as she got up and walked back to the house the way she came in. The thing Tomoyo was positive about is she knew that the two lovebirds wouldn't even know she was gone, mostly because they seemed so into the movie and each other.
~Back in the Tomoyo's house~
Tomoyo walked back in the house from the front door and closed it gentle making sure not to disturb Sakura and Syaoran. The movies probably over and they had slept in each other's arms on the couch. She looked for them in the living room and there they were cuddling together. She felt sick. She wanted to wake them up by screaming on top of her lungs, but she knew that it would be wrong. So instead of that she closed all the lights downstairs and headed for the shower.
'Why do I have to suffer? I could have a life of my own have my own boyfriend, but I decide to suffer by watching my best friend and her boyfriend get so close.' Tomoyo thought to herself as she washed her hair with the cold water she put on.
It was not fair. How she wanted to be loved like that. Once she was done with her shower the purple-eyed beauty went back to the living room so she can watch more heart breaking moments of Syaoran and Sakura. Downstairs Sakura and Syaoran had just awoken and were going to their own rooms.
"Tomoyo how long have you been here? We were waiting for you, but I guess we feel asleep." Sakura said embarrassed.
"I just came home not too long ago." Tomoyo replied with a smile as she took the blanket that the two were sleeping on and fold it.
"Where did you go for so long?" Syaoran asked suddenly in the conversation. Tomoyo turned to Syaoran and put even a better mask on. Her smile was wider and more cheerful, but inside she really wanted to run away from that question. 'Like you two would really care!!!' She wanted to scream out. Instead she held it in.
"Well I was just walking around. Talking to people that I met at school. Now if you will excuse me, but I am rather tried." Tomoyo said as she faked a yawn. She should become an actress someday if she could not make it in singing or designing because every fake thing she does they believe.
Sakura and Syaoran nodded. Who were they not to trust Tomoyo when she said that she was out for a walk? Tomoyo is Sakura's best friend she wouldn't lie to her. She wouldn't. They all went to their rooms.
Syaoran had fell asleep thinking of Sakura. Sakura on the other hand couldn't sleep. She was still thinking about what had happen in Tomoeda with Tomoyo and Eriol. He had broken her and Sakura couldn't just let her best friend suffer like that. Sakura still remember what had happen after Eriol said all those things to Tomoyo.
'Why had he done that to her? I really thought they loved each other.' Sakura thought sadly as she drifted off to an uneasy sleep. She was crying for her best friend. Tomoyo on the other hand couldn't sleep thinking of Sakura and Syaoran together. The pain just hurts. Weather it was the reason that Sakura was not hers or that she had no one to love...Tomoyo was in a big depression. She couldn't take anymore.
She got out of her bed and put on her jacket. The troubled teen needed to get out of this house. So quietly she headed for the only person she can trust in England, Eriol. Ringing the doorbell she waited for someone to open the door. After a minute or two Eriol opened the door. He was in his blue pajamas, hair was still neatly combed but he wasn't wearing any glasses, which makes him so cute.
"Tomoyo what are you doing here? You do know that it is midnight and it's really cold outside." Eriol asked as he ushered Tomoyo into the house. The house looked kind of scary at night, but it is still gave her that warm feeling.
"I know, but I can't sleep so I was just wondering if you can play the piano so I can sleep better." Tomoyo answered shyly. She just wanted to get away from her own house, but how can you tell Eriol that? He would have asked more questions and she would have lied. Eriol knew when she lies that was why they had become such good friends.
Eriol looked at the girl that was in front of him. 'Why would anyone want to come over in the middle of the night to hear me play?' Eriol thought, but excused it because Tomoyo sounded sad and he didn't want to disappoint her. He took out his glasses that was in one of his side pockets and put it on.
They walked to the music room, which was rather big. The room was on the first floor and it took up most of the space, the room was even larger than the living room. The music room is full with all the instruments possible, lots of pieces that were heard and some that were not. The room was surprising very neat and clean for so many instruments living in there. Eriol took a seat at the bench of the piano. He looked up at the beauty of Tomoyo.
"What would you like me to play?" He asked as he patted the space of the seat next to him, telling her to sit.
"How about Vivaldin 4 seasons?" Tomoyo asked. She had the tape of that piano piece, but she want to hear it coming out of a piano and not a tape. Hearing it for yourself from the piano gives you a sense of peace at least more than from a cassette.
Eriol looked at Tomoyo one more time as he began an explosive performance for his sweet best friend. Yes, his best friend. Eriol don't have many friends besides his guardians and Kaho. Tomoyo is his best friend because she seemed to understand him and yet not know who he really was. Tomoyo also didn't care about looks. If she did he would have seen her go all gaga eyed like the rest of the girls in their school population.
The music flowed though the room and can now be heard from all over the house. Nakuru and Spinel could hear it as they drift of to sleep. Tomoyo was slowly falling asleep. When Eriol had finished he suddenly notice a little weight on his shoulder. Looking that way he found Tomoyo sleeping peacefully on him. He smiled inwardly as he took Tomoyo with two arms. He notices how light she was so he didn't bother with a spell to make her float.
The lad carried her to his room and laid her down on the bed. He took his blanket and cover Tomoyo with it. He then went into his closest and got another blanket. Pulling up a chair he sat there watching as Tomoyo breath in and out. The moonlight reflecting her true beauty that took Eriol's breathed away. Soon after an hour or two he finally drifted of to sleep with the face of Tomoyo in his mind.
~Sakura's room~
Sakura was twisting and turning in her sleep. She was remembering the day that Tomoyo forgot everything about Eriol, the reincarnation that ripped Tomoyo apart. She remembers how she really wanted to shred him into pieces, but it wouldn't have made Tomoyo any better.
~Flashback/Dream~
Tomoyo had fallen asleep on Sakura's bed that night. Not long she had woken to the sun rising upon her flushed face. The pillow that she slept in still hold tears she head last night. Recapping what had happen she just wanted to cry again, but no more tears could be shed...At least at this second. Getting up she saw the sleeping form of Sakura. The queen of mask strikes once again. Wiping her eyes from the tears that remain and she smiled. Yes, she smiled. Smiling a smile nothing like her when she was with Eriol. This was a sad smile, whose heart had been shatter, broken into tiny pieces.
Sakura had awakened to someone shaking her lightly. She would have never woken if not for what happen last night. Opening her eyes she saw the eyes of a dull purple ones that lost its shine. Getting up she took in Tomoyo's profile. Her face was puffed up from crying, but still her lips showed a smile her heartache to see Tomoyo like that. She knew that smile too well.
There was silence in the room. No one knew what to say so they kept up the silence. Deciding to break the deafening silence Sakura speak.
"Tomoyo...How are you?" The green-eyed girl asked her best friend with uncertainly. Tomoyo still smiling tried to speak, but every time she did nothing would come out. After a few more tries she started to cry again. The tears rolling down her face.
Sakura pulled her into comfort. If Eriol didn't help her transform the cards she would have done something to him for the sake of her best friends heart. Instead she is here trying hard not to cry with her best friend. Holding back the tears that were really meant to come. Her best friend was hurting because of a guy and she was so happy because she had one.
"I hate him I hate him..." Sakura could hear Tomoyo whispering over and over. Tomoyo's voice suddenly became louder saying those same words. The pain she felt. Her life was so lonely and sad without him. He made everything all right for her. Now he was gone and she has gone back to Sakura...The one she couldn't have. The one her heart had cried over and over for...Or at least till Eriol entered her miserable life.
"I want to forget him. I want to get rid of this pain I feel that is killing my heart." Tomoyo continued. Her tears already stopped, but sobs could be heard. She only felt hatred for Eriol Hiiragizawa. Never will she shed tears for that...No words could describe how much he had hurt her.
"Tomoyo you can forget about him. He doesn't know how precious you really are. He doesn't deserve you. Move on and leave this memory of him behind." Sakura said, but she knew that would never happen. Never will Tomoyo forget the one that she loved; never will she forget the one that broke her more than shattered glass.
They stayed quite for a while. Sakura didn't dare to speak incase she made Tomoyo sadder than ever. Tomoyo was too deep in thoughts to talk.
'Forget? Will I ever forget someone I loved more than Sakura? Could I just move on and leave this sadness, this killing pain behind?' Tomoyo knew the answer as well as Sakura did. The answer will always be 'No'. Never will she forget about the reincarnation of the great Clow Reed.
Suddenly a thought dawned on her. Yes this is the only way besides hurting herself to get into amnesia. "Sakura?" Tomoyo finally spoke her voice in a pleading sound. Sakura looked at her. "Can you use a Sakura Card on people that wanted to be used on?"
Sakura stared at her best friend. Tomoyo was up to something and she knew it, still she response anyways. :I Don't know Tomoyo, but if you want me to use a card to make you forget..." She choked on her words. She didn't want Tomoyo to forget the feeling of being in love with Eriol, but then she will never be happy, truly happy again.
Tomoyo started to make sounds in a pleading way. She was trying to cry again. Yes, she was trying to get the tears down her cheeks again. The tears she cried for this time is for a good cost and is not for self-pity. "Sakura please? Use the Erase Card to make me forget. Do you really want me to go out with other guys and compare to them with the one I will never have? I know this is selfish of me to ask, but..." Now the tears were dying to come down.
Sakura was in turmoil. Should she or should she not? If she said 'yes' to Tomoyo would things really be the way it was? Would kero even let her? Then again she was the mistress of the cards and didn't need permission. Taking a look at Tomoyo she saw everything she didn't want her best friend to feel. Then and there she had decided. Sakura couldn't face that look of a broken heart. Tomoyo once silky smooth hair seemed rough at the touch. Her beautiful pale face was now puffy and red. And the eyes held so much sadness. The scene was too painful for the eyes of Sakura.
Taking a deep breath. "I hope this is the right thing to do." Sakura told Tomoyo.
Tomoyo looked up at her best friend. Sakura nodded. Tomoyo never loved Sakura more in her entire life right then and there. She jumped on the emerald-eyed girl and bear hugged her.
"Your doing the right thing and you won't regret it." Tomoyo promised cheerfully. Sakura thought differ.
Kero who had been in Touya's room the whole time entered the scene of the two gals hugging. Looking at Tomoyo she was happy just like the days of the card captures. Then looking at his mistress he can see there was uncertainty, regret, sadness and much more.
Sakura looked up as she sensed Kero floating closer to her and Tomoyo. 'It's now or never.' thought the card mistress.
"Kero do you think that we can use the 'Erase Card; on Tomoyo?" Hoping he would say 'no'. If just said 'no' she would never do it. Then again she IS the mistress so it wouldn't matter if it was a 'yes', 'no', or a 'maybe so'.
"Why would you want to use that card on Tomoyo?" The plushie asked dumbfound as he landed on Sakura's shoulder.
Tomoyo just looked on as the two talked. She didn't have any more strength to talk or to cry. She just watched along as her future was being decided.
"Tomoyo said that we can use the 'Erase Card' on her to erase the memories of Eriol." Sakura looked at Tomoyo winced at the mention of his name. She knew then it was a mistake.
Kero thought for a moment. He knew this was a hard decision. Sakura could use the card anyways with or without his permission. Why she was asking he knew. Sakura didn't think it was right to use magic for something so simple as a crush. Then as he looked at Tomoyo's pleading eyes just like Sakura, he knew.
"You can do it, but are you positive? It might have side effects." Kero asked to Tomoyo. He knew it was no changing anyone's minds as Tomoyo had nodded to the fate she holds. The fate to forget that name Eriol Hiiragizawa.
Kero nodded to Sakura to get along with the plan. Sighing sadly Sakura brought her key out. Saying the incarnations the little key turned into a pink staff. In her other hand held the 'Erase Card'.
Taking another deep breath. "Erase I command you to erase all memories of Eriol Hiiragizawa, Kaho Mizuki, Ruby Moon and Spinel Sun from the mind of Tomoyo Daidouji. Also erase all tapes that were taped by Tomoyo with anyone in them in it. Erase." Sakura screamed. The white light surrounded Tomoyo before it stopped.
Sakura had tears in her eyes as she watched her best friend. Kero felt like crying too, but he can never cry. So he just watched with sad eyes. Tomoyo who was there looked at them with confusion. "Why are you crying Sakura?" Tomoyo asked as she hugged her best friend.
"Nothing Tomoyo." Sakura mumbled as she wiped the tears away. She smiled at her best friend. Yes, everything was back to normal. Her best friend was not sad anymore.
~End Of Flashback/Dream~
Tears fell to the pink pillow that the auburn-haired girl was sleeping. 'Her best friend was not sad anymore'. She had once thought after that whole ordeal it was the end of Tomoyo's depression. Until she remembers that 'normal' would be Tomoyo in love with her. Tomoyo is crying her heart out because she and Syaoran.
Tomoyo had said she would not regret what she had done. Why did she have to believe in her foolish best friend?
To Be Continued...
Kyte: Well yah know how long I'll probably get the next chapter up @_@ But still...Love me and if you wish review.
P.S: Sorry if it is all bunched up together with no double space, but FFN somehow isn't allowing me such thing making my writing more horrible.
Kyte: I'm sorrie! I have been working on so many of my other fics I completely bugged out of this one. Wow it has been a whole year since I started on FFN. As of today officially one year old ^-^
Chapter 9: Night
Sakura and Syaoran had arrived at Tomoyo's house already and had gotten settled in. Sakura was in one of the guest room while Syaoran is in the other. Once Tomoyo knew that Sakura and Syaoran were coming she had personally decorate their rooms.
Sakura's room had lots of stuff animals and the walls color was light pink. The bed was still left as a twin size bed, but the covers were also pink. Syaoran's room was more boyish with the walls colored green. It looked more tamed then Sakura's room, but nonetheless she had some work done on it. Right now the trio were sitting in the living room watching a movie. Sakura was snuggling with Syaoran on the couch as Tomoyo was sitting on chair watching them. Oh how her heart hate the sight of her best friend in another mans arm. This is why she left in the first place and here they are...She needed some fresh air.
"Sakura, I need some air. If you need me I will be outside." Tomoyo said sweetly as she took a jacket and headed out the door. The winter weather was freezing, but she didn't care. The weather fit her mood, her heart. She went towards Eriol's garden when she was outside. She walked slowly catching more sights of the wonderful garden in the ice-cold weather. Making her way to the plum blossom tree she sat down. 'I am so glad that I am not home watching them get more romantic.' Tomoyo thought bitterly to herself. She was lost in thought for quite some time. The next thing she knew there was a person whispering to her.
"Tomoyo?" A voice that sounded like a man asked. She looked up and saw those azure eyes she knew too well. His eyes were full with worry.
"Eriol what are you doing here?" Tomoyo asked surprised as she jumped up from her spot.
"This is my garden." He replied smartly. He knew what Tomoyo meant, but wanted to tease her. Her lips pouted as she put her hands on her hips. "You know what I was trying to ask. What are you doing here in this weather?" She questioned one more time.
"I like the cold. Besides the real question is what are you doing here?" Eriol asked her almost mockingly. She was supposed to be with her guests at home instead she is here trying to freeze herself to death.
"I like the cold." She said, repeating the British boy's words. Eriol looked at her with some understanding. 'She wanted to be alone and here you are trying to get into her space.' He thought to himself.
"Well I better get going and you should too. It is already been an hour or so since you came out here. Your friends might be worried." Eriol told her. Tomoyo was shocked. 'Had it been an hour already?' She thought to herself as she looked at her wristwatch. Indeed it was passed an hour.
"How did you know? Were you spying on me?" Tomoyo asked sternly. Eriol looked innocent, but who can trust someone that can lie through his teeth?
"No of course not." Eriol replied innocently with tints of shock. The truth was when she first came out he was looking at her, staring at her from afar, but kept the distance. He got worried when she did not move for an extended amount of time. "I had seen you an hour ago when passing by my window. I check once in awhile to see if you had moved from your spot, but I see you refuse to move so I had to come out to snap you out of your eerie." He continued
"That was nice of you Eriol. Now I should be going for as you have said my friend might be looking for me." She said awfully sweet as she got up and walked back to the house the way she came in. The thing Tomoyo was positive about is she knew that the two lovebirds wouldn't even know she was gone, mostly because they seemed so into the movie and each other.
~Back in the Tomoyo's house~
Tomoyo walked back in the house from the front door and closed it gentle making sure not to disturb Sakura and Syaoran. The movies probably over and they had slept in each other's arms on the couch. She looked for them in the living room and there they were cuddling together. She felt sick. She wanted to wake them up by screaming on top of her lungs, but she knew that it would be wrong. So instead of that she closed all the lights downstairs and headed for the shower.
'Why do I have to suffer? I could have a life of my own have my own boyfriend, but I decide to suffer by watching my best friend and her boyfriend get so close.' Tomoyo thought to herself as she washed her hair with the cold water she put on.
It was not fair. How she wanted to be loved like that. Once she was done with her shower the purple-eyed beauty went back to the living room so she can watch more heart breaking moments of Syaoran and Sakura. Downstairs Sakura and Syaoran had just awoken and were going to their own rooms.
"Tomoyo how long have you been here? We were waiting for you, but I guess we feel asleep." Sakura said embarrassed.
"I just came home not too long ago." Tomoyo replied with a smile as she took the blanket that the two were sleeping on and fold it.
"Where did you go for so long?" Syaoran asked suddenly in the conversation. Tomoyo turned to Syaoran and put even a better mask on. Her smile was wider and more cheerful, but inside she really wanted to run away from that question. 'Like you two would really care!!!' She wanted to scream out. Instead she held it in.
"Well I was just walking around. Talking to people that I met at school. Now if you will excuse me, but I am rather tried." Tomoyo said as she faked a yawn. She should become an actress someday if she could not make it in singing or designing because every fake thing she does they believe.
Sakura and Syaoran nodded. Who were they not to trust Tomoyo when she said that she was out for a walk? Tomoyo is Sakura's best friend she wouldn't lie to her. She wouldn't. They all went to their rooms.
Syaoran had fell asleep thinking of Sakura. Sakura on the other hand couldn't sleep. She was still thinking about what had happen in Tomoeda with Tomoyo and Eriol. He had broken her and Sakura couldn't just let her best friend suffer like that. Sakura still remember what had happen after Eriol said all those things to Tomoyo.
'Why had he done that to her? I really thought they loved each other.' Sakura thought sadly as she drifted off to an uneasy sleep. She was crying for her best friend. Tomoyo on the other hand couldn't sleep thinking of Sakura and Syaoran together. The pain just hurts. Weather it was the reason that Sakura was not hers or that she had no one to love...Tomoyo was in a big depression. She couldn't take anymore.
She got out of her bed and put on her jacket. The troubled teen needed to get out of this house. So quietly she headed for the only person she can trust in England, Eriol. Ringing the doorbell she waited for someone to open the door. After a minute or two Eriol opened the door. He was in his blue pajamas, hair was still neatly combed but he wasn't wearing any glasses, which makes him so cute.
"Tomoyo what are you doing here? You do know that it is midnight and it's really cold outside." Eriol asked as he ushered Tomoyo into the house. The house looked kind of scary at night, but it is still gave her that warm feeling.
"I know, but I can't sleep so I was just wondering if you can play the piano so I can sleep better." Tomoyo answered shyly. She just wanted to get away from her own house, but how can you tell Eriol that? He would have asked more questions and she would have lied. Eriol knew when she lies that was why they had become such good friends.
Eriol looked at the girl that was in front of him. 'Why would anyone want to come over in the middle of the night to hear me play?' Eriol thought, but excused it because Tomoyo sounded sad and he didn't want to disappoint her. He took out his glasses that was in one of his side pockets and put it on.
They walked to the music room, which was rather big. The room was on the first floor and it took up most of the space, the room was even larger than the living room. The music room is full with all the instruments possible, lots of pieces that were heard and some that were not. The room was surprising very neat and clean for so many instruments living in there. Eriol took a seat at the bench of the piano. He looked up at the beauty of Tomoyo.
"What would you like me to play?" He asked as he patted the space of the seat next to him, telling her to sit.
"How about Vivaldin 4 seasons?" Tomoyo asked. She had the tape of that piano piece, but she want to hear it coming out of a piano and not a tape. Hearing it for yourself from the piano gives you a sense of peace at least more than from a cassette.
Eriol looked at Tomoyo one more time as he began an explosive performance for his sweet best friend. Yes, his best friend. Eriol don't have many friends besides his guardians and Kaho. Tomoyo is his best friend because she seemed to understand him and yet not know who he really was. Tomoyo also didn't care about looks. If she did he would have seen her go all gaga eyed like the rest of the girls in their school population.
The music flowed though the room and can now be heard from all over the house. Nakuru and Spinel could hear it as they drift of to sleep. Tomoyo was slowly falling asleep. When Eriol had finished he suddenly notice a little weight on his shoulder. Looking that way he found Tomoyo sleeping peacefully on him. He smiled inwardly as he took Tomoyo with two arms. He notices how light she was so he didn't bother with a spell to make her float.
The lad carried her to his room and laid her down on the bed. He took his blanket and cover Tomoyo with it. He then went into his closest and got another blanket. Pulling up a chair he sat there watching as Tomoyo breath in and out. The moonlight reflecting her true beauty that took Eriol's breathed away. Soon after an hour or two he finally drifted of to sleep with the face of Tomoyo in his mind.
~Sakura's room~
Sakura was twisting and turning in her sleep. She was remembering the day that Tomoyo forgot everything about Eriol, the reincarnation that ripped Tomoyo apart. She remembers how she really wanted to shred him into pieces, but it wouldn't have made Tomoyo any better.
~Flashback/Dream~
Tomoyo had fallen asleep on Sakura's bed that night. Not long she had woken to the sun rising upon her flushed face. The pillow that she slept in still hold tears she head last night. Recapping what had happen she just wanted to cry again, but no more tears could be shed...At least at this second. Getting up she saw the sleeping form of Sakura. The queen of mask strikes once again. Wiping her eyes from the tears that remain and she smiled. Yes, she smiled. Smiling a smile nothing like her when she was with Eriol. This was a sad smile, whose heart had been shatter, broken into tiny pieces.
Sakura had awakened to someone shaking her lightly. She would have never woken if not for what happen last night. Opening her eyes she saw the eyes of a dull purple ones that lost its shine. Getting up she took in Tomoyo's profile. Her face was puffed up from crying, but still her lips showed a smile her heartache to see Tomoyo like that. She knew that smile too well.
There was silence in the room. No one knew what to say so they kept up the silence. Deciding to break the deafening silence Sakura speak.
"Tomoyo...How are you?" The green-eyed girl asked her best friend with uncertainly. Tomoyo still smiling tried to speak, but every time she did nothing would come out. After a few more tries she started to cry again. The tears rolling down her face.
Sakura pulled her into comfort. If Eriol didn't help her transform the cards she would have done something to him for the sake of her best friends heart. Instead she is here trying hard not to cry with her best friend. Holding back the tears that were really meant to come. Her best friend was hurting because of a guy and she was so happy because she had one.
"I hate him I hate him..." Sakura could hear Tomoyo whispering over and over. Tomoyo's voice suddenly became louder saying those same words. The pain she felt. Her life was so lonely and sad without him. He made everything all right for her. Now he was gone and she has gone back to Sakura...The one she couldn't have. The one her heart had cried over and over for...Or at least till Eriol entered her miserable life.
"I want to forget him. I want to get rid of this pain I feel that is killing my heart." Tomoyo continued. Her tears already stopped, but sobs could be heard. She only felt hatred for Eriol Hiiragizawa. Never will she shed tears for that...No words could describe how much he had hurt her.
"Tomoyo you can forget about him. He doesn't know how precious you really are. He doesn't deserve you. Move on and leave this memory of him behind." Sakura said, but she knew that would never happen. Never will Tomoyo forget the one that she loved; never will she forget the one that broke her more than shattered glass.
They stayed quite for a while. Sakura didn't dare to speak incase she made Tomoyo sadder than ever. Tomoyo was too deep in thoughts to talk.
'Forget? Will I ever forget someone I loved more than Sakura? Could I just move on and leave this sadness, this killing pain behind?' Tomoyo knew the answer as well as Sakura did. The answer will always be 'No'. Never will she forget about the reincarnation of the great Clow Reed.
Suddenly a thought dawned on her. Yes this is the only way besides hurting herself to get into amnesia. "Sakura?" Tomoyo finally spoke her voice in a pleading sound. Sakura looked at her. "Can you use a Sakura Card on people that wanted to be used on?"
Sakura stared at her best friend. Tomoyo was up to something and she knew it, still she response anyways. :I Don't know Tomoyo, but if you want me to use a card to make you forget..." She choked on her words. She didn't want Tomoyo to forget the feeling of being in love with Eriol, but then she will never be happy, truly happy again.
Tomoyo started to make sounds in a pleading way. She was trying to cry again. Yes, she was trying to get the tears down her cheeks again. The tears she cried for this time is for a good cost and is not for self-pity. "Sakura please? Use the Erase Card to make me forget. Do you really want me to go out with other guys and compare to them with the one I will never have? I know this is selfish of me to ask, but..." Now the tears were dying to come down.
Sakura was in turmoil. Should she or should she not? If she said 'yes' to Tomoyo would things really be the way it was? Would kero even let her? Then again she was the mistress of the cards and didn't need permission. Taking a look at Tomoyo she saw everything she didn't want her best friend to feel. Then and there she had decided. Sakura couldn't face that look of a broken heart. Tomoyo once silky smooth hair seemed rough at the touch. Her beautiful pale face was now puffy and red. And the eyes held so much sadness. The scene was too painful for the eyes of Sakura.
Taking a deep breath. "I hope this is the right thing to do." Sakura told Tomoyo.
Tomoyo looked up at her best friend. Sakura nodded. Tomoyo never loved Sakura more in her entire life right then and there. She jumped on the emerald-eyed girl and bear hugged her.
"Your doing the right thing and you won't regret it." Tomoyo promised cheerfully. Sakura thought differ.
Kero who had been in Touya's room the whole time entered the scene of the two gals hugging. Looking at Tomoyo she was happy just like the days of the card captures. Then looking at his mistress he can see there was uncertainty, regret, sadness and much more.
Sakura looked up as she sensed Kero floating closer to her and Tomoyo. 'It's now or never.' thought the card mistress.
"Kero do you think that we can use the 'Erase Card; on Tomoyo?" Hoping he would say 'no'. If just said 'no' she would never do it. Then again she IS the mistress so it wouldn't matter if it was a 'yes', 'no', or a 'maybe so'.
"Why would you want to use that card on Tomoyo?" The plushie asked dumbfound as he landed on Sakura's shoulder.
Tomoyo just looked on as the two talked. She didn't have any more strength to talk or to cry. She just watched along as her future was being decided.
"Tomoyo said that we can use the 'Erase Card' on her to erase the memories of Eriol." Sakura looked at Tomoyo winced at the mention of his name. She knew then it was a mistake.
Kero thought for a moment. He knew this was a hard decision. Sakura could use the card anyways with or without his permission. Why she was asking he knew. Sakura didn't think it was right to use magic for something so simple as a crush. Then as he looked at Tomoyo's pleading eyes just like Sakura, he knew.
"You can do it, but are you positive? It might have side effects." Kero asked to Tomoyo. He knew it was no changing anyone's minds as Tomoyo had nodded to the fate she holds. The fate to forget that name Eriol Hiiragizawa.
Kero nodded to Sakura to get along with the plan. Sighing sadly Sakura brought her key out. Saying the incarnations the little key turned into a pink staff. In her other hand held the 'Erase Card'.
Taking another deep breath. "Erase I command you to erase all memories of Eriol Hiiragizawa, Kaho Mizuki, Ruby Moon and Spinel Sun from the mind of Tomoyo Daidouji. Also erase all tapes that were taped by Tomoyo with anyone in them in it. Erase." Sakura screamed. The white light surrounded Tomoyo before it stopped.
Sakura had tears in her eyes as she watched her best friend. Kero felt like crying too, but he can never cry. So he just watched with sad eyes. Tomoyo who was there looked at them with confusion. "Why are you crying Sakura?" Tomoyo asked as she hugged her best friend.
"Nothing Tomoyo." Sakura mumbled as she wiped the tears away. She smiled at her best friend. Yes, everything was back to normal. Her best friend was not sad anymore.
~End Of Flashback/Dream~
Tears fell to the pink pillow that the auburn-haired girl was sleeping. 'Her best friend was not sad anymore'. She had once thought after that whole ordeal it was the end of Tomoyo's depression. Until she remembers that 'normal' would be Tomoyo in love with her. Tomoyo is crying her heart out because she and Syaoran.
Tomoyo had said she would not regret what she had done. Why did she have to believe in her foolish best friend?
To Be Continued...
Kyte: Well yah know how long I'll probably get the next chapter up @_@ But still...Love me and if you wish review.
P.S: Sorry if it is all bunched up together with no double space, but FFN somehow isn't allowing me such thing making my writing more horrible.