A/N- I have to apologize guys. That cliffie was seriously evil. Sorry!! I
got this one out pretty soon though, right? It kinda makes up for it..
Carissa- I'm glad you still love. Thanks again for reviewing!
Ciara- I love Sirius/Lily too. I know that cliffie was awful, again, I'm sorry.
Achintya- You've reviewed this three times!! You are so awesome!! I can't believe you guessed why James is being so mysterious. Was it really that obvious? And they're in seventh year, by the way. Thanks bunches for reviewing!
The Yule Ball: Part Two
"Lily, there's something we really need to talk about. Ever since last week, I haven't been able to stop thinking about that kiss. It was incredible. I never knew I could feel that way about a girl. And then you told me we were just friends. So I agreed. But, I can't, Lily. I can't just be friends with you. What I'm trying to say is- I'm in love with you."
"You can't be."
"Well, not exactly the reaction I was hoping for, but at least you didn't slap me. Are you saying that you don't feel anything for me?"
"No, that's not it. It's just- I'm James' girlfriend. You're his best friend. Are you seeing the problem?"
"Believe me, I've thought about little else for the past few days. But I can't help the way I feel. If you don't feel the same way, I guess that's ok. I'll try as hard as I can to get over you. It won't be easy, but I'll try, I really will."
"I don't know what I feel. When you kissed me, I liked it. I liked it a lot. And I can see myself loving you, in fact, I'm not convinced I don't. It's just, we would never work out. You wouldn't be able to stand losing James. And I wouldn't be able to stand breaking up your and James' friendship."
"I understand all that, but if you have feelings for me, we have to try. Or else, we'll never know what we're missing. I'll say it again. I love you Lily Evans. With all of my heart."
She gazed up at him, her green eyes shining in the night. Then, she tentatively reached up and placed her hand behind his head. She pulled him to her slowly. Their eyes stayed wide open and trained on each other. They only closed when their lips met. At first, they each held back, unsure of what it all meant. Then, Sirius wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to him. And Lily let herself kiss him the way she had been wanting to for a week, probably even more. They clutched at each other as the kiss grew deeper. Finally, they drew back, breathless.
"That was..."
"Amazing." Lily whispered. "I, I love you Sirius."
"Do you honestly mean it, Lily? Because I won't be able to take it if you don't."
"It seem impossible, but I do. And I think I have for awhile. I just didn't let myself feel it."
"And what do you feel like now?"
"Kissing you again."
"Well, if you insist," Sirius murmured as he lowered his head to hers.
*
After a few more kisses, Sirius pulled back. "This isn't right, Lily. Not yet. Not when I'm still confused about you and James."
"I'm confused too."
"It's simple: who do you love more?"
"It's not that simple and you know it. I can't break up with him, Sirius. Not like this. You'd hate me."
"I could never hate you."
"You say that now, but you would. I'd tear you and James apart. And you'd hate me forever for it. You wouldn't mean to, but you would nonetheless."
"Then what exactly are you saying we should do? Forget about us?"
"No! That's not what I'm saying at all. Maybe we should just keep this a secret for awhile, see how everything goes. We might discover that we don't actually love each other. And we would never have to hurt James then."
"Lily! I'm shocked! Are you proposing we have a secret affair?"
"Those aren't the words I'd choose, but yes. I guess I am." She looked up at him almost defiantly. "Unless you don't love me after all?"
"Oh, I love you all right. And besides, you look kinda sexy when you're plotting how to hide affairs from your boyfriend. Do you practice it or something?"
"Nah, it just comes naturally." Their laughs resounded across the empty garden. Sirius slipped his arm around her shoulder and pulled her to him. They were still like this when James' voice cut across the silent air.
"Lily! Sirius! You guys out here?" The couple sprang apart instantaneously.
"Umm, yeah James, right over here." Sirius was the first to recover his voice.
"I've been looking for you guys everywhere."
"And you found us." Lily said coolly.
"Lily, I am so sorry. You have no idea. I had to answer this owl though. It couldn't have waited. Let me make it up to you." He grabbed her and gave her a kiss. Sirius' lip was nearly bleeding from how hard he was biting it. James' back was to him and Sirius had to resist the urge to punch him from behind. But then, Lily's eyes opened. And she was staring directly at Sirius. After about five seconds, James pulled back. "Lily, I love you so much."
"And I love you." Lily responded, but her eyes never left Sirius' face.
"I love you too," Sirius silently mouthed back.
"How bout we go tear up the dance floor, babe?" James questioned.
"Sure, James."
"How about you Sirius? I saw a bunch of pretty girls in there. Why don't you go work your charms?"
"I think I'll pass. In fact, I'm gonna just go crash upstairs. See you later James. Bye Lily." He turned and walked back towards the castle. He was nearly there when he stopped and turned around. "Oh, and Lily, I lied earlier. You look gorgeous."
"Thanks, Sirius."
*
It was strange that Lily would feel this way now. She was in James' arms. A month ago, she would have been thrilled. But now, she just wished he were Sirius.
She had felt it the moment Sirius had kissed her. It felt like something was dying, but at the same time, a new and more exciting thing was beginning. The guilt was almost unbearable, though.
Even now, she felt like sobbing. The instant their lips had met, she had known it was over. Nothing would ever be the same again. No matter what happened now, things would never be as they once had. It was exciting, but it was also devastating.
And, James. She knew she had to tell him. She could never keep something like this from him. A part of her still loved him, she supposed. A part of her always would. If things were different, she could see the rest of her life with him. But things weren't different. And she couldn't imagine a lifetime with James, not now. In one night, Sirius had made her feel more emotion than James had in three years.
"I have to tell him." Lily silently thought. "Soon."
*
The next morning, the table was quiet. Lily and Sirius were deep in thought about their newly developed relationship. Remus was examining the looks they were giving each other and trying to figure it all out. And James was thinking about what occupied all of his brain these days.
"So, Christmas is coming." Lily broke the silence.
"Christmas! That reminds me. You three plus Peter are all invited to the manor for Christmas break. It should be a lot of fun."
"Thanks Sirius, but I can't. My parents are taking me to Paris." Remus said. "And Peter, he can't either. He's going to stay with his aunt in America."
"Oh well, I guess it's just us three then, huh guys?" Sirius said, attempting cheerfulness. A whole week with just him, James, and Lily? That spelled trouble, with a capital T.
"Actually, I can't either. My brother's coming home this year. I can't miss it. But maybe I'll be able to visit you a few times?" James said.
"Sure, James. Sounds like a plan. What about you, Lily? What plans do you have?"
"I don't have any, Sirius. So I'll be able to come, that is, if you still want me to."
"Of course, Lily. It'll still be lots of fun."
A whole week, just him and Lily? Fun was an understatement.
A/N- I can't wait for the next chapter! Just Sirius and Lily for a whole week, woohoo! LoL- sorry! I got a lil carried away. Review, Review, Review and I'll get the next part out faster. Also, if you guys have extra time, could you check out my other story "Fire Melts Ice"? I can't decide whether or not to continue it. This story is becoming much more important to me, so I might just wait until I finish this one before I continue that one.
Carissa- I'm glad you still love. Thanks again for reviewing!
Ciara- I love Sirius/Lily too. I know that cliffie was awful, again, I'm sorry.
Achintya- You've reviewed this three times!! You are so awesome!! I can't believe you guessed why James is being so mysterious. Was it really that obvious? And they're in seventh year, by the way. Thanks bunches for reviewing!
The Yule Ball: Part Two
"Lily, there's something we really need to talk about. Ever since last week, I haven't been able to stop thinking about that kiss. It was incredible. I never knew I could feel that way about a girl. And then you told me we were just friends. So I agreed. But, I can't, Lily. I can't just be friends with you. What I'm trying to say is- I'm in love with you."
"You can't be."
"Well, not exactly the reaction I was hoping for, but at least you didn't slap me. Are you saying that you don't feel anything for me?"
"No, that's not it. It's just- I'm James' girlfriend. You're his best friend. Are you seeing the problem?"
"Believe me, I've thought about little else for the past few days. But I can't help the way I feel. If you don't feel the same way, I guess that's ok. I'll try as hard as I can to get over you. It won't be easy, but I'll try, I really will."
"I don't know what I feel. When you kissed me, I liked it. I liked it a lot. And I can see myself loving you, in fact, I'm not convinced I don't. It's just, we would never work out. You wouldn't be able to stand losing James. And I wouldn't be able to stand breaking up your and James' friendship."
"I understand all that, but if you have feelings for me, we have to try. Or else, we'll never know what we're missing. I'll say it again. I love you Lily Evans. With all of my heart."
She gazed up at him, her green eyes shining in the night. Then, she tentatively reached up and placed her hand behind his head. She pulled him to her slowly. Their eyes stayed wide open and trained on each other. They only closed when their lips met. At first, they each held back, unsure of what it all meant. Then, Sirius wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to him. And Lily let herself kiss him the way she had been wanting to for a week, probably even more. They clutched at each other as the kiss grew deeper. Finally, they drew back, breathless.
"That was..."
"Amazing." Lily whispered. "I, I love you Sirius."
"Do you honestly mean it, Lily? Because I won't be able to take it if you don't."
"It seem impossible, but I do. And I think I have for awhile. I just didn't let myself feel it."
"And what do you feel like now?"
"Kissing you again."
"Well, if you insist," Sirius murmured as he lowered his head to hers.
*
After a few more kisses, Sirius pulled back. "This isn't right, Lily. Not yet. Not when I'm still confused about you and James."
"I'm confused too."
"It's simple: who do you love more?"
"It's not that simple and you know it. I can't break up with him, Sirius. Not like this. You'd hate me."
"I could never hate you."
"You say that now, but you would. I'd tear you and James apart. And you'd hate me forever for it. You wouldn't mean to, but you would nonetheless."
"Then what exactly are you saying we should do? Forget about us?"
"No! That's not what I'm saying at all. Maybe we should just keep this a secret for awhile, see how everything goes. We might discover that we don't actually love each other. And we would never have to hurt James then."
"Lily! I'm shocked! Are you proposing we have a secret affair?"
"Those aren't the words I'd choose, but yes. I guess I am." She looked up at him almost defiantly. "Unless you don't love me after all?"
"Oh, I love you all right. And besides, you look kinda sexy when you're plotting how to hide affairs from your boyfriend. Do you practice it or something?"
"Nah, it just comes naturally." Their laughs resounded across the empty garden. Sirius slipped his arm around her shoulder and pulled her to him. They were still like this when James' voice cut across the silent air.
"Lily! Sirius! You guys out here?" The couple sprang apart instantaneously.
"Umm, yeah James, right over here." Sirius was the first to recover his voice.
"I've been looking for you guys everywhere."
"And you found us." Lily said coolly.
"Lily, I am so sorry. You have no idea. I had to answer this owl though. It couldn't have waited. Let me make it up to you." He grabbed her and gave her a kiss. Sirius' lip was nearly bleeding from how hard he was biting it. James' back was to him and Sirius had to resist the urge to punch him from behind. But then, Lily's eyes opened. And she was staring directly at Sirius. After about five seconds, James pulled back. "Lily, I love you so much."
"And I love you." Lily responded, but her eyes never left Sirius' face.
"I love you too," Sirius silently mouthed back.
"How bout we go tear up the dance floor, babe?" James questioned.
"Sure, James."
"How about you Sirius? I saw a bunch of pretty girls in there. Why don't you go work your charms?"
"I think I'll pass. In fact, I'm gonna just go crash upstairs. See you later James. Bye Lily." He turned and walked back towards the castle. He was nearly there when he stopped and turned around. "Oh, and Lily, I lied earlier. You look gorgeous."
"Thanks, Sirius."
*
It was strange that Lily would feel this way now. She was in James' arms. A month ago, she would have been thrilled. But now, she just wished he were Sirius.
She had felt it the moment Sirius had kissed her. It felt like something was dying, but at the same time, a new and more exciting thing was beginning. The guilt was almost unbearable, though.
Even now, she felt like sobbing. The instant their lips had met, she had known it was over. Nothing would ever be the same again. No matter what happened now, things would never be as they once had. It was exciting, but it was also devastating.
And, James. She knew she had to tell him. She could never keep something like this from him. A part of her still loved him, she supposed. A part of her always would. If things were different, she could see the rest of her life with him. But things weren't different. And she couldn't imagine a lifetime with James, not now. In one night, Sirius had made her feel more emotion than James had in three years.
"I have to tell him." Lily silently thought. "Soon."
*
The next morning, the table was quiet. Lily and Sirius were deep in thought about their newly developed relationship. Remus was examining the looks they were giving each other and trying to figure it all out. And James was thinking about what occupied all of his brain these days.
"So, Christmas is coming." Lily broke the silence.
"Christmas! That reminds me. You three plus Peter are all invited to the manor for Christmas break. It should be a lot of fun."
"Thanks Sirius, but I can't. My parents are taking me to Paris." Remus said. "And Peter, he can't either. He's going to stay with his aunt in America."
"Oh well, I guess it's just us three then, huh guys?" Sirius said, attempting cheerfulness. A whole week with just him, James, and Lily? That spelled trouble, with a capital T.
"Actually, I can't either. My brother's coming home this year. I can't miss it. But maybe I'll be able to visit you a few times?" James said.
"Sure, James. Sounds like a plan. What about you, Lily? What plans do you have?"
"I don't have any, Sirius. So I'll be able to come, that is, if you still want me to."
"Of course, Lily. It'll still be lots of fun."
A whole week, just him and Lily? Fun was an understatement.
A/N- I can't wait for the next chapter! Just Sirius and Lily for a whole week, woohoo! LoL- sorry! I got a lil carried away. Review, Review, Review and I'll get the next part out faster. Also, if you guys have extra time, could you check out my other story "Fire Melts Ice"? I can't decide whether or not to continue it. This story is becoming much more important to me, so I might just wait until I finish this one before I continue that one.