Hey everyone! It's me again! Yay! Heehee.well, this is my second fic and I
hope you all like it ^^ I'm going to finish "Last Kiss" too so don't worry.
I REALLY hope you like this one because I worked hard on it ^^
okay...ummmmmmm.please R/R ^^
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Many years had past since the horrible attacks of September 11th, Jimmy was now a young man of eighteen one day the news came, the heartbreaking, tearful news.
Jimmy aimlessly walked into his kitchen. Having no particular reason to be there, he slowly scanned the room with his eyes as if trying to find something to occupy himself with. He had grown into a handsome boy, his deep ocean blue eyes sparkled with his enthusiasm when he spoke. His voice was like velvet smooth and beautiful, deep and caring, like a security blanket that was so warm you would smile when you rubbed against it's soft and comforting material. His expressions glittered with excitement, when he spoke of his work. Devoted he was to the world of scientific matters, everything seemed to be important to him, always concerned for others, careful about what he said and did. He was not one to take things for granted. Once he was teased and taunted by fellow peers for his height, now a towering 6'3" he'd out grown more than half his friends. His outfit consisted of a navy blue t-shirt, a pair of jeans and some old, worn in, black sneakers.
He slid his hand across the counter, tapping his fingers when he stopped. He turned to face the table and leaned on the countertop. He let out a sigh as he looked out the window and noticed the rain tattering at the glass, it seemed to be laughing at him, because he was more fond of the warmer, carefree days in Retroville. Every pitter and every patter mocked Jimmy's desire to be outside in the beautiful natural sunlight. He loved to bask in the sun and let it swoon around him warming his body, but alas,there was no sun today. He tilted his head slightly and crossed his arms before he eyed the mountain of mail left on the kitchen table. It was usually separated into piles according to category by now if his mother had brought it in. He, for the most part left the mail alone. If it was for him, he'd get it eventually. After his mother had sorted out the junk mail, magazines and bills, but today something seemed to beckon him from unopened envelopes containing surprises only for the beholder to see, good or bad.
He reached and flipped through the letters quickly not expecting anything for himself but was surprised to find a certain letter addressed to a Mr. James Neutron. He placed the others back on the sleek, and clean table. And turned to face the counter and open his. Without looking at the return address he tore open the seal and reached for whatever was inside. He pulled out a piece of neatly folded expensive looking paper. He unwrapped the paper from it's prison and began to read what the words had said. His eyes jolted from word to word while his heart fell. A lump formed in his throat when he could comprehend the words. He shook his head trying to realize what he was reading, again he read the paper, over and over checking to make sure what he was seeing was real. But it was real, real as day. Jimmy took one more look at the letter that had now become his biggest fear, he knew, like so many others that he could not escape this undeniable fate. He swallowed hard and closed his eyes, he was trapped now.
*~*~Two weeks later~*~*
Jimmy had all his things packed, the bare necessities. Some paper, envelopes and stamps were packed as extra. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He looked around his room with sad eyes. He walked across to his bureau and gazed into the mirror, he glanced at his reflections. That morning he had already had a unbearable parting with his second love, his lab. Endless hours of his childhood was spent in that lab, he laughed as he remembered those. But the one he couldn't bring himself to think of now was the one that brought him the greatest amount of joy imaginable. He loved her with all his heart and soul, a love that ran so deep that sometimes he would dream about her at night and not get up in the morning just so he could go back to sleep and see her. It was an undying love, nothing could ever stop this passion he felt, that was of course returned to him through her. This one he loved so much was Cindy Vortex his girlfriend. He would have described her as the most wonderful, beautiful living thing in the entire universe. They had, had rough patches in their relationship. Especially when they were younger, but the reason for those were just because their affections for each other fooled them into acting cruelly. Once they had realized their love, all was amazing in the world for Jimmy Neutron and Cindy Vortex, the cutest couple at Retroville High. They were perfect for each other, everyone agreed. Jimmy grabbed a small, framed picture of his beloved off his nightstand and shoved it into his rucksack. He walked to the door of his room with his bag and looked back into it, he took a deep breath and turned away leaving his possessions behind, he shut the door.
He started his way down the stairs walking slowly, absorbing every memory he could like a sponge to water. He eyed the family photographs perched on the wall as he declined. Nearing his front door he hesitated a he came closer to the last step, he knew once he walked out the door there was no turning back. He reached for the knob and turned it clockwise to reveal what was outside. His parents stood with emotionless faces, his mother cried into his father's arms. She walked up to her son.
Judy: "Oh my boy..my beautiful baby boy" she said in a brokenhearted voice, still crying, she wrapped her arms around his body and embraced him in a tight hug, he returned her motion with a hug of his own and closed his eyes feeling his mother's warmth. When she finally let go of him she looked up at his face and kissed his forehead, with tears streaming out from her eyes.
Hugh walked up to Jimmy. Today he was not the fun, hearty man he usually was. He seemed to be a different person. He gave his only a son a pat on the back
Hugh: "Go get em' Jimbo" was all he managed to sputter out before breaking into tears himself.
Jimmy swallowed and nodded to his father. Three of his closest friends awaited him at the beginning of his walkway. First he walked by Libby, the forever best friend of Cindy.
Libby: "Jimmy, you be careful now you hear me?" she warned him with a waver in her voice. "I don't want anything.to.." and before she could finish a few tears had managed to escape her eyes, Jimmy gave her a kiss on the cheek.
He brought his attention to the person next to her, a tall boy, he was witnessing what would become his fate soon enough, if luck wasn't thrown his way. He had rather beautiful brown eyes and shining ebony hair. He watched Jimmy's family member's pain. He couldn't bear to think that would might be his own. They looked at each other for a long time then he spoke.
Sheen: "Jimmy, I'm gonna miss you man" "Nail a couple of them for me okay?" he said trying to add humor to this solemn occasion. He extended his hand to shake Jimmy's . Then preformed a hand-shake that they had formed when they were thirteen, when it was cool. He nodded to Jimmy as he walked toward his other friend. A stout person, he was shorter than Jimmy and Sheen, his bright orange hair seemed to twist in every direction.
Carl: "Jim..I uh..well..I don't know what to say..I'm really gonna..well..I don't know I..just" then a big, sad pout formed while his bottom lip started to quiver a little. It was like Carl to get emotional.
Jimmy: "I'm gonna miss you too Carl" he said with a small forced smile to his friend who was at a loss of words. Jimmy who was now in front of the camouflage colored army truck, threw his backpack into the back and turned to face the one whom he had given his heart to.
Jimmy: "Cindy..I.." was all he could say
She had her hair up as usual and was slim and beautiful, her long golden blonde hair glistened in the morning hour sunlight. He eyes were full of tears.
Jimmy: "Awwwww.come on Cindy..don't cry hun." " It's.it's gonna be okay" he tried to calm her and himself with some soothing words. But despite his attempt she started to cry softly and then leaned into his chest for a tight hug. He hugged her back just as tight. He pulled her away from her grasp on his body and looked into her eyes. Sparkling green emeralds filled with tears making their appearance shimmer. She looked up at him, sniffling, still crying. Jimmy needed to be strong for her, he couldn't let her know what he was fearing. He needed to be brave. He put his hand underneath her chin and pushed her head so she looked into his eyes.
Jimmy: "Cindy I love you" "You know that okay? Honey?" "I told you that last night" he said , sounding comforting and secure.
Cindy: "But..I'm going to miss you" she said, she was barely able to speak
Jimmy: "I'm gonna to miss you too, but don't worry, you can send me letters remember?" " And I promise whenever you write to me I'll send you back one just as long with interest okay?"
She nodded slowly
General Abercrombie: "Three more minutes Neutron" the old and smug military general spoke from the passenger seat of the truck.
Jimmy looked up to him, he didn't want to leave the woman he loved, the home he's always known, and his friends and family for a new life of fighting and military training for the ongoing war. He looked back to Cindy and they embraced each other with a passionate kiss. Neither wanted to let the other go. When they finally did part they held each others hands tight.
Jimmy: "I have to go now" "Okay? Oh Cin, come on, gimme a smile?" he said playfully "It's not like I'm going away forever" he added to reassure her.
Cindy felt the need to cry again but she didn't want to disappoint Jimmy, he was being so brave, she couldn't let him down. They kissed one more time and then Jimmy got into the truck leaving a broken-hearted Cindy behind in the small town of Retroville.
Jimmy: "I love you" was the last thing he said before the truck started up and drove away. He kept his eyes glued to her figure until it was out of view. They both very well knew that that may have been the last time they'd ever see each other, but they would never say it.
Cindy: "I love you too Jimmy Neutron!" she shouted after the truck as it drove off in the landscape.
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"And that was the last time I saw him" Cindy wrote into her diary in neat cursive handwriting. Years had passed since that day Jimmy left. Cindy was now a grown woman of twenty-one years old. She still had her beauty and her slim figure, her intelligence, and her charming wit, but there was one thing that was missing.
"God, it's been years since he left that day, I just miss him so much. I can still remember the exact things that happened..like it was yesterday" "Today is the third anniversary of the day he left.I really wish" her writing was interrupted when the door bell rang. She got up from her seat and walked over to the door in her apartment, before she opened it she glanced through the little peek hole and saw her best friend waiting on the other side. She was dressed in an orange tank top and black spandex pants with a black felt sweatshirt. She had her purse in one hand and her hair up. She looked like she just came from the gym.
Cindy: "One second Libby" she shouted from the inside. She opened the door and let her come inside. "Thanks for coming over, I really needed to get out of here today"
Libby: "No problem girl, I'm always happy to come over here and watch.."she stopped herself in mid-sentence when she saw the look on Cindy's face. "Cin, you okay?"
She managed to nod to Libby, she wanted to cry. She was thinking of Jimmy, this day always brought back the worst of her memories.
Libby: "Cindy, don't worry, you know what?" "If you ever want to-" she was interrupted when Cindy sputtered out
Cindy: "I just need to get out of here Libby, I'll be back later okay?" then she left without another word.
Libby shook her head, she hated to see Cindy in this pain. Especially on this day, Cindy always would go off by herself on the anniversary of Jimmy's departure to serve the U.S. Army. Libby propped he purse and keys up onto Cindy's black, marble kitchen counter. Cindy was the owner of a very expensive, glamorous apartment in the finest part of the city, in one of the most amazing skyscrapers thanks to her parents. Libby looked around wondering what she could do when she heard a small shrill scream of happiness.
Libby: "Where's my favorite little girl!?" Libby shouted excitedly after hearing the yell "I'm gonna find you Faithie!" She said as she ran around and found her.
Faith: "You always find me!" the little three year old girl exclaimed "And don't call me Faithie, my name is Faith! She said very bluntly.
Libby: "Oh okay then"
Faith: "Where's Mommy?" she questioned cutely
Libby: "Mommy went out to have a personal day sweetie pie, so Auntie Libby's gonna babysitt for you!" Faith jumped up and down like she just discovered a mountain of candy all her own. Her little brown shiney curls bounced up and down when she jumped and her big, beautiful, sparkling blue eyes glimmered with excitement. "So what do you want to do honey?" Libby asked.
Faith: "Let's play with Mommy's make-up!!!" she suggested happily. When Cindy was gone was the only time she could even go near her mother's make- up without getting in trouble. So she took advantage of the situation.
Libby: "I don't know if she'll like that to much Faith" but before she could continue her explanation Faith had already grabbed Libby's hand and was pulling her into Cindy's bedroom. "Honey why can't we just do your hair or something?" Faith had beautiful hair, it was long past her shoulders and it had a soft curl to it. It felt like silk and shined like the stars on the clearest night. Libby loved to play with it as well as Cindy. She wore a pink dress with a small pink bow on one side of her head, with her hair down.
Faith ran to Cindy's make-up cabinet and started rummaging through it like a wild animal who had just found a picnic basket, taking out various items. There was no use stopping her Libby thought, she'd just through a tantrum. Libby walked away from Faith and started walking around Cindy's room.
Libby: "Damn, this is a great place" she said as she walked around Cindy's room, looking at everything then she came to Cindy's desk. Stopped when she saw a number of old letters and envelopes scattered across it, with her diary beside them, her pen marking the page she was on before Libby came. She didn't want or mean to go looking through Cindy's personal things, but who could resist? She looked back and made sure Faith was safe from harms way and then sat down in Cindy's black leather computer chair and started looking at all the items placed on the desk. She picked up one letter, it was out of the envelope but folded and placed in the corner of her desk. She held it and then put it down.
Libby: "What am I doing? I can't look through this.." But curiosity got the best of her when she picked up Cindy's diary and uneasily opened the cover. Inside, on the first page, printed in a child's handwriting was the name Cindy Vortex, where she had wrote it so many years ago. Libby again stopped, her conscience halting her from reading her best friend's most inner thoughts. "There's nothing else to do...and nobody will ever know" she reassured herself. She opened to a more recent page that had been written three years before and begun to read what the entry had said
September 16th, 2009
Dear Diary,
I miss Jimmy so much I can't stand it, and he's only been gone a few months. I have some news, I'm so scared, I don't know what I should do. The night before Jimmy had left, we had spent the night together and we connected in a way I can't explain. It was amazing, but it had some unforseen consequences unfortunately. I'm having a baby. There, I wrote it..Jimmy and I are going to be parents and he's thousands of miles away from me. I'm so lost, I don't know what to do..I have to tell my parents *sigh* they are going to be very VERY angry. I need Jimmy to be here with me.I can't do this alone. I miss him so much, every night I cry and pray for him. Well, at least I admitted that to you Diary. ~Cindy Libby: "Wow.I never knew she was so." she rambled off to herself as she finished the entry and looked up from the page.
Faith: "AUNTIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" she screamed loudly
Libby: "Ahh!! What?! What?!" Libby said as she sprang out of her chair and faced her god child.
Faith: "Which looks better on me? The Pink Fusion or the Mystic Magenta?" she questioned holding up to shades of lipstick in her hand. Libby sighed.
Libby: "God baby, You scared me half to death, I thought you hurt yourself or somethin' "You really shouldn't be playing with that, your mom's going to be angry when she gets back" Faith paid no heed to her warning and stood there still waiting for an answer. Libby sighed again. "Well, if your going to be that way about it, ummm.neither" "Your more of a Chocolate Cappuccino sweets" The little girl looked at the make-up in her hands and dropped them, and turned to find the color Libby suggested. Libby shook her head and turned back to the desk.
She looked back down and picked up an envelope that had the date "October 7th" written across the top. Apparently Cindy had organized them in chronological order. She took the letter out of the envelope that was crumpled and dirty obviously because of it's long journey. She unfolded the paper and turned on the light that sat on Cindy's desk. Whoever had written this had awful penmanship, Libby struggled to read it.
Dear Cindy,
I can't write to much now, I know I promised that I'd write more to you but it's just gotten to hectic over here for me to write that much anymore. I can't believe the news you gave me last time you wrote me. Your really pregnant? Wow, I'm going to be a Daddy. If I were there I squeeze you so tight. I'm so sorry I'm not there with you, and I'm also sorry about the trouble I got you in with your parents. If I were there they'd have yelled at me. I'm so glad you don't hate me for what I did, I take full responsibility, I'm sorry. I hope you are.I mean, you both are doing okay. I wish I was there. Your going to be due in February right? Since I left in June and that's when we.um..yah. You have no idea how badly I want to be with you now. I miss you too much. When I get back we'll get married I promise, if you want to that is. I think of you every second. Love, Jimmy
Libby put down the letter and carefully placed it back into the envelope.
Libby: "That is so sad.I remember her telling me she wrote Jimmy and told him..but I never saw the one he wrote back" she said as she placed the letter back in it's spot.
Libby was poring over with curiosity. She wanted to read more. She picked up Cindy's diary again and flipped to another page.
December 28th, 2009
Dear Diary,
I spent a Christmas without Jimmy, I can't believe it.*sigh* I just miss him so much, the holidays weren't the same without him. School is going good I guess, but it's hard to be a pregnant college student without anybody to turn to.Except Libby of course. But this whole Christmas thing must be just as bad for his parents too. I just finished writing him another letter telling him that I went to the Ultra Sound technician and everything is fine. We are going to be the parents of a beautiful new baby girl. She is healthy thank god. Jimmy is doing okay now, thank god too. Today Sheen took me aside and told me if I ever needed anybody to talk to he'd be there, can you believe that? Out of all people, Sheen. Well, it was sweet of him anyways. I don't know how I'm going to this baby-thing without Jimmy. We are going to get married when he comes back, which will hopefully be soon. I can't live without him diary! I love him to much to be apart! I sent him a copy of the Ultra Sound pictures. I don't know what we'll name her. Well, I'll write more later. ~Cindy
Libby was glad that she had started to read these letters and entries. She had learned more from doing so then all that Cindy ever told her. But she still felt somewhat guilty for reading them. She went to find the next letter from Jimmy that would correspond to Cindy's entry. When she looked for the date and reached for the letter she realized it was the last one in the pile. The outside was marked "January 2010". She opened it carefully and started to read it.
Dear Cindy,
She is beautiful, just like her mother. The Ultra sound pictures are amazing, that's little you and me in there. I put them right next to your photo Cindy. My two girls, my two angels next to each other. You have no idea how much I wish I was with you, I love you more than anything. I can't write too much now. What should we name her? Listen Cindy, I know your not going to like this but, it's getting kind of rough over here, don't worry but I won't be able to write for a while okay? I love the baby, I love you more than anything. I think of you always. Love Forever, Jimmy
Libby slowly took her eyes off the paper and thought about what she had read in a melancholy state.
Cindy: "That's the last time I ever heard from him" she spoke standing directly behind Libby, like she was there the whole time watching over her shoulder. Snapping Libby away from her own thoughts and making her jump up in fright.
Libby: "Cindy!" "How the heck did you get in here?!" she yelled obviously surprised and startled
Cindy: "It's my apartment, I have a key remember?" "Who said you could go through my things?"
Libby: "I'm sorry girl, the letters were just there I never saw them before and your diary was just open and I.." She replied quickly trying to explain her actions.
Cindy: "No." Then she paused as if she was deciding whether to get angry or not. Then she continued with " I mean, who said you could go through my stuff?" she said as she pointed to her make-up strewn about the floor. Libby looked relieved that Cindy wasn't angry with her. Cindy sat down on her bed after she had put her purse, coat and keys away. Libby got up from the chair she was in and walked over to Cindy.
Libby: "Why didn't you ever tell me before?"
Cindy: "I don't know" she said as she got up and walked over to her desk to straiten out whatever Libby had done.
Libby: "Cindy...I know this is hard for you..I know this day is hard for you but.."
Cindy: "But what Libby?!" "The only reason I took those out, was so I could see them after all this time..because I miss him.I still do, I always do and you know that" "And I'd appreciate if you wouldn't ask me about it anymore okay?" then she paused for a moment "That was the last letter I ever got from him.." Then she continued with the subject to Libby's surprise "The last letter I ever sent was the one I wrote the day after Faith was born, February fourteenth.." "Valentines Days.the day for love and happiness.." she smiled when she thought of her daughter, but then it quickly vanished from her face." "I wrote it on the fifteenth, It had a picture of her inside of it...and some other things.I said I'd always love him, and I'd wait for him forever....and I've been waiting.three years have past since I heard from him. He never wrote back again." She said with a teary voice.
Libby: "Oh Cindy" she said as she went up and put her arm on her shoulder. "Give me a hug girl" they hugged and then broke apart. "So you've never heard from him..since that letter?" Cindy nodded 'no' slowly. "I'm so sorry Cindy"
Cindy: "It's.okay.really, I'm fine..you can go now if you want" she said wiping her eyes "Faith is washing off that clown mask you let her put on." she said with a small grin.
Libby: "Your sure your gonna be okay?" Cindy nodded yes again not using words for fear of crying. She followed Libby to the door. Cindy was handing her her things when Faith ran up.
Faith: "Auntie Auntie!!!" she called as she ran up with little steps. "Are you leaving all ready?" Libby took a glance at Cindy and then spoke "Yeah honey, but I'll be back for another visit in a few days okay?" she reached her hand out to ruffle her hair but before she could Faith grabbed her wrist and eyed her bracelet.
Faith: "That's a pretty bracelet Auntie"
Libby: "Thank you sweetheart" she said as she raised her hand to observe it herself. "It is isn't it?" she said again when she came across the gems placed on the golden chain
Faith: "Where'd you get it?" her little face full of curiosity.
Libby: "My Father gave it to me" she responded naturally
Faith: "That's nice" she replied cutely and then went up to Cindy and tugged at her pant leg. "Mommy.Mommy" she repeated
Cindy: "What is it pumpkin?" She said when looked down to see her daughter's big sky colored eyes staring up at her
Faith: "Mommy, why don't I have a Daddy like you and Auntie Libby?"
Cindy's mouth opened slightly, for she was speechless. She was racking her brain for answers, but she came up short will nothing, he daughters questions brought back nothing more than more memories of Jimmy.
Cindy: "Um.well.honey.you do have a Daddy" "He's just.not..not here" she stammered trying not to have her eyes water so Faith didn't sense her emotions.
Faith: "Well, I wanna meet him" "My friends Ann-Marie and Lisa...and umm..Janelle all have Daddy's at their houses" "I want to see my Daddy...why haven't I ever seen him?"
Libby looked at Cindy awkwardly
Libby: "Maybe I should go" she suggested "Faith I think you should go upstairs and play in your room for a little while" she commanded lightly as she gently pushed her in the direction of her room.
Cindy was sitting with her eyes closed on the family room's black leather chair, trying to gather her thoughts.
Cindy: "Libby, let her stay......" "It's about time I talked to her about this any way" Libby looked at Cindy uncertainly and then said
Libby: "Um...okay, sweetie, lets go over to hear what Mom has to say" she directed Faith towards Cindy.
Cindy looked at her daughter with a kind face. She loved Faith more than anything in the world, her daughter meant everything to her. She knew someday she'd become curious about her father, she knew the time would come for her to have to talk about Jimmy to her. She took a deep breath and lifted Faith into her lap. She looked into her eyes. Libby walked into the kitchen, out of sight, but made sure that she was in range of hearing what Cindy was saying, then she quietly left.
Cindy: "Well honey" she started off soft and slow "Your Daddy was a very.very brave man" Faith nodded, happy she was finally being exposed to the idea that she actually had a father. "And well..when he was eighteen years old, he had to go off and fight the awful mean people in the war" she tried to sugar coat it, so not to frighten Faith.
Faith: "Why did he have to go?" she questioned
Cindy: "Well..he didn't have a choice honey.he had to go" she said
Faith: "Did he love us?"
Cindy's expression grew sympathetic
Cindy: "Of course he loved us Faith! He always loved us..you and me both" she replied making sure that her girl understood that Jimmy would have done anything for them. "Daddy loved us more than anything" "That's why he went to fight, her wanted to make sure we were safe and happy"
Faith: "Where is he?" she asked, she was beginning to notice the distress on her mother's face, she asked a little bit sweeter, to make sure she didn't upset her. Cindy didn't reply for a minute, then when she spoke her voice was a little shaky.
Cindy: "Well sweetheart..Mommy..mommy doesn't exactly know where Daddy is right now"
Faith: "Why?"
Cindy: "Because...because..I haven't talked to him in a long time honey" her eyes began to become watery.
Faith: "What was his name?"
Cindy: "James.James Isaac Neutron.I called him Jimmy"
Faith: "Is that why my last name is Neutron and yours isn't?"
Cindy: "Yes pumpkin..that's why" her voice was getting weaker by the second. Jimmy had never come home so he and Cindy were never able to get married, but when Faith was born Cindy gave the child Jimmy's name in his honor.
Faith: "What was he like?" Cindy then gave up trying to hide her emotions and began to let a few single tears stream down her cheeks. "Mommy..what's the matter?" she asked caringly as she wiped Cindy's face with her hand gently, trying to get the tears off.
Cindy: "Well.I just miss your Daddy very much that's all" she said as she sniffed and wiped her eyes
Faith: "What did he look like?" she asked. Cindy looked at her daughter closely.
Cindy: "Your Daddy had the most beautiful blue eyes..." she said as she peered into her daughters own eyes. "And he..had soft brown hair, he was gorgeous" "Come here" she said to Faith as she got up from the chair and put Faith on the ground. Her daughter followed her, wondering what her mother was going to do. She followed her all the way into Cindy's bedroom. Cindy sat down at her desk again and took the car keys out of her pocket. She singled out a certain key and unlocked a certain drawer in her desk. She opened it up. She reached her hand inside it and pulled something out. Faith eagerly ran up to her mother's side, anxiously awaiting to find out what she was holding in her hand. After Cindy had locked the drawer again she moved closer to her daughter to reveal a picture of Jimmy to her.
Cindy: "That's Daddy" she said pointing to him then handing her the picture to hold. It was a picture of hi when he was eighteen, taken only a few months before he was drafted. Faith grabbed it in her tiny hands and stared at it wide eyed. She loved the way her father looked. She finally knew what he was like. Her heart had risen so high. She finally got to see his face. "You can have that if you want" "I have others" Cindy said. Faith looked up at her with big eyes and a huge smile.
Faith: "Thank you Mommy! Thank you!" "I'll keep it forever!" she said as she hugged Cindy. Cindy smiled and could help but let out a small laugh at her daughter's excitement. Faith started running off to her room. Cindy turned to face the opposite direction when Faith came running back in, she turned around again quickly to see what her daughter wanted.
Faith: "Mommy..will Daddy ever come home?" she decided to ask one more question of her mother. Her little voice was full of hope. Cindy pulled Faith towards her and cupped her face with her gentle, young hands.
Cindy: "I pray to God sweetie..we'll just have to hope and wait and be patient and we'll have to..have some Faith" then she gave a small smile. Faith now understood how she got her name. But she still missed her father, she wanted to know him and to have a regular family like her friends. Cindy was missing Jimmy now more then ever. She was determined to find out if he was still out there.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Yay!!!!! Chapter one is done!! My second fic! Whoo hoo!!! ^^ Well, I'll write more to this fic asap.I'm going to finish "Last Kiss' too so don't worry about that ^^ well, please R/R and I hope you liked this one ^^ *~Cindy V.~*
Many years had past since the horrible attacks of September 11th, Jimmy was now a young man of eighteen one day the news came, the heartbreaking, tearful news.
Jimmy aimlessly walked into his kitchen. Having no particular reason to be there, he slowly scanned the room with his eyes as if trying to find something to occupy himself with. He had grown into a handsome boy, his deep ocean blue eyes sparkled with his enthusiasm when he spoke. His voice was like velvet smooth and beautiful, deep and caring, like a security blanket that was so warm you would smile when you rubbed against it's soft and comforting material. His expressions glittered with excitement, when he spoke of his work. Devoted he was to the world of scientific matters, everything seemed to be important to him, always concerned for others, careful about what he said and did. He was not one to take things for granted. Once he was teased and taunted by fellow peers for his height, now a towering 6'3" he'd out grown more than half his friends. His outfit consisted of a navy blue t-shirt, a pair of jeans and some old, worn in, black sneakers.
He slid his hand across the counter, tapping his fingers when he stopped. He turned to face the table and leaned on the countertop. He let out a sigh as he looked out the window and noticed the rain tattering at the glass, it seemed to be laughing at him, because he was more fond of the warmer, carefree days in Retroville. Every pitter and every patter mocked Jimmy's desire to be outside in the beautiful natural sunlight. He loved to bask in the sun and let it swoon around him warming his body, but alas,there was no sun today. He tilted his head slightly and crossed his arms before he eyed the mountain of mail left on the kitchen table. It was usually separated into piles according to category by now if his mother had brought it in. He, for the most part left the mail alone. If it was for him, he'd get it eventually. After his mother had sorted out the junk mail, magazines and bills, but today something seemed to beckon him from unopened envelopes containing surprises only for the beholder to see, good or bad.
He reached and flipped through the letters quickly not expecting anything for himself but was surprised to find a certain letter addressed to a Mr. James Neutron. He placed the others back on the sleek, and clean table. And turned to face the counter and open his. Without looking at the return address he tore open the seal and reached for whatever was inside. He pulled out a piece of neatly folded expensive looking paper. He unwrapped the paper from it's prison and began to read what the words had said. His eyes jolted from word to word while his heart fell. A lump formed in his throat when he could comprehend the words. He shook his head trying to realize what he was reading, again he read the paper, over and over checking to make sure what he was seeing was real. But it was real, real as day. Jimmy took one more look at the letter that had now become his biggest fear, he knew, like so many others that he could not escape this undeniable fate. He swallowed hard and closed his eyes, he was trapped now.
*~*~Two weeks later~*~*
Jimmy had all his things packed, the bare necessities. Some paper, envelopes and stamps were packed as extra. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He looked around his room with sad eyes. He walked across to his bureau and gazed into the mirror, he glanced at his reflections. That morning he had already had a unbearable parting with his second love, his lab. Endless hours of his childhood was spent in that lab, he laughed as he remembered those. But the one he couldn't bring himself to think of now was the one that brought him the greatest amount of joy imaginable. He loved her with all his heart and soul, a love that ran so deep that sometimes he would dream about her at night and not get up in the morning just so he could go back to sleep and see her. It was an undying love, nothing could ever stop this passion he felt, that was of course returned to him through her. This one he loved so much was Cindy Vortex his girlfriend. He would have described her as the most wonderful, beautiful living thing in the entire universe. They had, had rough patches in their relationship. Especially when they were younger, but the reason for those were just because their affections for each other fooled them into acting cruelly. Once they had realized their love, all was amazing in the world for Jimmy Neutron and Cindy Vortex, the cutest couple at Retroville High. They were perfect for each other, everyone agreed. Jimmy grabbed a small, framed picture of his beloved off his nightstand and shoved it into his rucksack. He walked to the door of his room with his bag and looked back into it, he took a deep breath and turned away leaving his possessions behind, he shut the door.
He started his way down the stairs walking slowly, absorbing every memory he could like a sponge to water. He eyed the family photographs perched on the wall as he declined. Nearing his front door he hesitated a he came closer to the last step, he knew once he walked out the door there was no turning back. He reached for the knob and turned it clockwise to reveal what was outside. His parents stood with emotionless faces, his mother cried into his father's arms. She walked up to her son.
Judy: "Oh my boy..my beautiful baby boy" she said in a brokenhearted voice, still crying, she wrapped her arms around his body and embraced him in a tight hug, he returned her motion with a hug of his own and closed his eyes feeling his mother's warmth. When she finally let go of him she looked up at his face and kissed his forehead, with tears streaming out from her eyes.
Hugh walked up to Jimmy. Today he was not the fun, hearty man he usually was. He seemed to be a different person. He gave his only a son a pat on the back
Hugh: "Go get em' Jimbo" was all he managed to sputter out before breaking into tears himself.
Jimmy swallowed and nodded to his father. Three of his closest friends awaited him at the beginning of his walkway. First he walked by Libby, the forever best friend of Cindy.
Libby: "Jimmy, you be careful now you hear me?" she warned him with a waver in her voice. "I don't want anything.to.." and before she could finish a few tears had managed to escape her eyes, Jimmy gave her a kiss on the cheek.
He brought his attention to the person next to her, a tall boy, he was witnessing what would become his fate soon enough, if luck wasn't thrown his way. He had rather beautiful brown eyes and shining ebony hair. He watched Jimmy's family member's pain. He couldn't bear to think that would might be his own. They looked at each other for a long time then he spoke.
Sheen: "Jimmy, I'm gonna miss you man" "Nail a couple of them for me okay?" he said trying to add humor to this solemn occasion. He extended his hand to shake Jimmy's . Then preformed a hand-shake that they had formed when they were thirteen, when it was cool. He nodded to Jimmy as he walked toward his other friend. A stout person, he was shorter than Jimmy and Sheen, his bright orange hair seemed to twist in every direction.
Carl: "Jim..I uh..well..I don't know what to say..I'm really gonna..well..I don't know I..just" then a big, sad pout formed while his bottom lip started to quiver a little. It was like Carl to get emotional.
Jimmy: "I'm gonna miss you too Carl" he said with a small forced smile to his friend who was at a loss of words. Jimmy who was now in front of the camouflage colored army truck, threw his backpack into the back and turned to face the one whom he had given his heart to.
Jimmy: "Cindy..I.." was all he could say
She had her hair up as usual and was slim and beautiful, her long golden blonde hair glistened in the morning hour sunlight. He eyes were full of tears.
Jimmy: "Awwwww.come on Cindy..don't cry hun." " It's.it's gonna be okay" he tried to calm her and himself with some soothing words. But despite his attempt she started to cry softly and then leaned into his chest for a tight hug. He hugged her back just as tight. He pulled her away from her grasp on his body and looked into her eyes. Sparkling green emeralds filled with tears making their appearance shimmer. She looked up at him, sniffling, still crying. Jimmy needed to be strong for her, he couldn't let her know what he was fearing. He needed to be brave. He put his hand underneath her chin and pushed her head so she looked into his eyes.
Jimmy: "Cindy I love you" "You know that okay? Honey?" "I told you that last night" he said , sounding comforting and secure.
Cindy: "But..I'm going to miss you" she said, she was barely able to speak
Jimmy: "I'm gonna to miss you too, but don't worry, you can send me letters remember?" " And I promise whenever you write to me I'll send you back one just as long with interest okay?"
She nodded slowly
General Abercrombie: "Three more minutes Neutron" the old and smug military general spoke from the passenger seat of the truck.
Jimmy looked up to him, he didn't want to leave the woman he loved, the home he's always known, and his friends and family for a new life of fighting and military training for the ongoing war. He looked back to Cindy and they embraced each other with a passionate kiss. Neither wanted to let the other go. When they finally did part they held each others hands tight.
Jimmy: "I have to go now" "Okay? Oh Cin, come on, gimme a smile?" he said playfully "It's not like I'm going away forever" he added to reassure her.
Cindy felt the need to cry again but she didn't want to disappoint Jimmy, he was being so brave, she couldn't let him down. They kissed one more time and then Jimmy got into the truck leaving a broken-hearted Cindy behind in the small town of Retroville.
Jimmy: "I love you" was the last thing he said before the truck started up and drove away. He kept his eyes glued to her figure until it was out of view. They both very well knew that that may have been the last time they'd ever see each other, but they would never say it.
Cindy: "I love you too Jimmy Neutron!" she shouted after the truck as it drove off in the landscape.
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"And that was the last time I saw him" Cindy wrote into her diary in neat cursive handwriting. Years had passed since that day Jimmy left. Cindy was now a grown woman of twenty-one years old. She still had her beauty and her slim figure, her intelligence, and her charming wit, but there was one thing that was missing.
"God, it's been years since he left that day, I just miss him so much. I can still remember the exact things that happened..like it was yesterday" "Today is the third anniversary of the day he left.I really wish" her writing was interrupted when the door bell rang. She got up from her seat and walked over to the door in her apartment, before she opened it she glanced through the little peek hole and saw her best friend waiting on the other side. She was dressed in an orange tank top and black spandex pants with a black felt sweatshirt. She had her purse in one hand and her hair up. She looked like she just came from the gym.
Cindy: "One second Libby" she shouted from the inside. She opened the door and let her come inside. "Thanks for coming over, I really needed to get out of here today"
Libby: "No problem girl, I'm always happy to come over here and watch.."she stopped herself in mid-sentence when she saw the look on Cindy's face. "Cin, you okay?"
She managed to nod to Libby, she wanted to cry. She was thinking of Jimmy, this day always brought back the worst of her memories.
Libby: "Cindy, don't worry, you know what?" "If you ever want to-" she was interrupted when Cindy sputtered out
Cindy: "I just need to get out of here Libby, I'll be back later okay?" then she left without another word.
Libby shook her head, she hated to see Cindy in this pain. Especially on this day, Cindy always would go off by herself on the anniversary of Jimmy's departure to serve the U.S. Army. Libby propped he purse and keys up onto Cindy's black, marble kitchen counter. Cindy was the owner of a very expensive, glamorous apartment in the finest part of the city, in one of the most amazing skyscrapers thanks to her parents. Libby looked around wondering what she could do when she heard a small shrill scream of happiness.
Libby: "Where's my favorite little girl!?" Libby shouted excitedly after hearing the yell "I'm gonna find you Faithie!" She said as she ran around and found her.
Faith: "You always find me!" the little three year old girl exclaimed "And don't call me Faithie, my name is Faith! She said very bluntly.
Libby: "Oh okay then"
Faith: "Where's Mommy?" she questioned cutely
Libby: "Mommy went out to have a personal day sweetie pie, so Auntie Libby's gonna babysitt for you!" Faith jumped up and down like she just discovered a mountain of candy all her own. Her little brown shiney curls bounced up and down when she jumped and her big, beautiful, sparkling blue eyes glimmered with excitement. "So what do you want to do honey?" Libby asked.
Faith: "Let's play with Mommy's make-up!!!" she suggested happily. When Cindy was gone was the only time she could even go near her mother's make- up without getting in trouble. So she took advantage of the situation.
Libby: "I don't know if she'll like that to much Faith" but before she could continue her explanation Faith had already grabbed Libby's hand and was pulling her into Cindy's bedroom. "Honey why can't we just do your hair or something?" Faith had beautiful hair, it was long past her shoulders and it had a soft curl to it. It felt like silk and shined like the stars on the clearest night. Libby loved to play with it as well as Cindy. She wore a pink dress with a small pink bow on one side of her head, with her hair down.
Faith ran to Cindy's make-up cabinet and started rummaging through it like a wild animal who had just found a picnic basket, taking out various items. There was no use stopping her Libby thought, she'd just through a tantrum. Libby walked away from Faith and started walking around Cindy's room.
Libby: "Damn, this is a great place" she said as she walked around Cindy's room, looking at everything then she came to Cindy's desk. Stopped when she saw a number of old letters and envelopes scattered across it, with her diary beside them, her pen marking the page she was on before Libby came. She didn't want or mean to go looking through Cindy's personal things, but who could resist? She looked back and made sure Faith was safe from harms way and then sat down in Cindy's black leather computer chair and started looking at all the items placed on the desk. She picked up one letter, it was out of the envelope but folded and placed in the corner of her desk. She held it and then put it down.
Libby: "What am I doing? I can't look through this.." But curiosity got the best of her when she picked up Cindy's diary and uneasily opened the cover. Inside, on the first page, printed in a child's handwriting was the name Cindy Vortex, where she had wrote it so many years ago. Libby again stopped, her conscience halting her from reading her best friend's most inner thoughts. "There's nothing else to do...and nobody will ever know" she reassured herself. She opened to a more recent page that had been written three years before and begun to read what the entry had said
September 16th, 2009
Dear Diary,
I miss Jimmy so much I can't stand it, and he's only been gone a few months. I have some news, I'm so scared, I don't know what I should do. The night before Jimmy had left, we had spent the night together and we connected in a way I can't explain. It was amazing, but it had some unforseen consequences unfortunately. I'm having a baby. There, I wrote it..Jimmy and I are going to be parents and he's thousands of miles away from me. I'm so lost, I don't know what to do..I have to tell my parents *sigh* they are going to be very VERY angry. I need Jimmy to be here with me.I can't do this alone. I miss him so much, every night I cry and pray for him. Well, at least I admitted that to you Diary. ~Cindy Libby: "Wow.I never knew she was so." she rambled off to herself as she finished the entry and looked up from the page.
Faith: "AUNTIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" she screamed loudly
Libby: "Ahh!! What?! What?!" Libby said as she sprang out of her chair and faced her god child.
Faith: "Which looks better on me? The Pink Fusion or the Mystic Magenta?" she questioned holding up to shades of lipstick in her hand. Libby sighed.
Libby: "God baby, You scared me half to death, I thought you hurt yourself or somethin' "You really shouldn't be playing with that, your mom's going to be angry when she gets back" Faith paid no heed to her warning and stood there still waiting for an answer. Libby sighed again. "Well, if your going to be that way about it, ummm.neither" "Your more of a Chocolate Cappuccino sweets" The little girl looked at the make-up in her hands and dropped them, and turned to find the color Libby suggested. Libby shook her head and turned back to the desk.
She looked back down and picked up an envelope that had the date "October 7th" written across the top. Apparently Cindy had organized them in chronological order. She took the letter out of the envelope that was crumpled and dirty obviously because of it's long journey. She unfolded the paper and turned on the light that sat on Cindy's desk. Whoever had written this had awful penmanship, Libby struggled to read it.
Dear Cindy,
I can't write to much now, I know I promised that I'd write more to you but it's just gotten to hectic over here for me to write that much anymore. I can't believe the news you gave me last time you wrote me. Your really pregnant? Wow, I'm going to be a Daddy. If I were there I squeeze you so tight. I'm so sorry I'm not there with you, and I'm also sorry about the trouble I got you in with your parents. If I were there they'd have yelled at me. I'm so glad you don't hate me for what I did, I take full responsibility, I'm sorry. I hope you are.I mean, you both are doing okay. I wish I was there. Your going to be due in February right? Since I left in June and that's when we.um..yah. You have no idea how badly I want to be with you now. I miss you too much. When I get back we'll get married I promise, if you want to that is. I think of you every second. Love, Jimmy
Libby put down the letter and carefully placed it back into the envelope.
Libby: "That is so sad.I remember her telling me she wrote Jimmy and told him..but I never saw the one he wrote back" she said as she placed the letter back in it's spot.
Libby was poring over with curiosity. She wanted to read more. She picked up Cindy's diary again and flipped to another page.
December 28th, 2009
Dear Diary,
I spent a Christmas without Jimmy, I can't believe it.*sigh* I just miss him so much, the holidays weren't the same without him. School is going good I guess, but it's hard to be a pregnant college student without anybody to turn to.Except Libby of course. But this whole Christmas thing must be just as bad for his parents too. I just finished writing him another letter telling him that I went to the Ultra Sound technician and everything is fine. We are going to be the parents of a beautiful new baby girl. She is healthy thank god. Jimmy is doing okay now, thank god too. Today Sheen took me aside and told me if I ever needed anybody to talk to he'd be there, can you believe that? Out of all people, Sheen. Well, it was sweet of him anyways. I don't know how I'm going to this baby-thing without Jimmy. We are going to get married when he comes back, which will hopefully be soon. I can't live without him diary! I love him to much to be apart! I sent him a copy of the Ultra Sound pictures. I don't know what we'll name her. Well, I'll write more later. ~Cindy
Libby was glad that she had started to read these letters and entries. She had learned more from doing so then all that Cindy ever told her. But she still felt somewhat guilty for reading them. She went to find the next letter from Jimmy that would correspond to Cindy's entry. When she looked for the date and reached for the letter she realized it was the last one in the pile. The outside was marked "January 2010". She opened it carefully and started to read it.
Dear Cindy,
She is beautiful, just like her mother. The Ultra sound pictures are amazing, that's little you and me in there. I put them right next to your photo Cindy. My two girls, my two angels next to each other. You have no idea how much I wish I was with you, I love you more than anything. I can't write too much now. What should we name her? Listen Cindy, I know your not going to like this but, it's getting kind of rough over here, don't worry but I won't be able to write for a while okay? I love the baby, I love you more than anything. I think of you always. Love Forever, Jimmy
Libby slowly took her eyes off the paper and thought about what she had read in a melancholy state.
Cindy: "That's the last time I ever heard from him" she spoke standing directly behind Libby, like she was there the whole time watching over her shoulder. Snapping Libby away from her own thoughts and making her jump up in fright.
Libby: "Cindy!" "How the heck did you get in here?!" she yelled obviously surprised and startled
Cindy: "It's my apartment, I have a key remember?" "Who said you could go through my things?"
Libby: "I'm sorry girl, the letters were just there I never saw them before and your diary was just open and I.." She replied quickly trying to explain her actions.
Cindy: "No." Then she paused as if she was deciding whether to get angry or not. Then she continued with " I mean, who said you could go through my stuff?" she said as she pointed to her make-up strewn about the floor. Libby looked relieved that Cindy wasn't angry with her. Cindy sat down on her bed after she had put her purse, coat and keys away. Libby got up from the chair she was in and walked over to Cindy.
Libby: "Why didn't you ever tell me before?"
Cindy: "I don't know" she said as she got up and walked over to her desk to straiten out whatever Libby had done.
Libby: "Cindy...I know this is hard for you..I know this day is hard for you but.."
Cindy: "But what Libby?!" "The only reason I took those out, was so I could see them after all this time..because I miss him.I still do, I always do and you know that" "And I'd appreciate if you wouldn't ask me about it anymore okay?" then she paused for a moment "That was the last letter I ever got from him.." Then she continued with the subject to Libby's surprise "The last letter I ever sent was the one I wrote the day after Faith was born, February fourteenth.." "Valentines Days.the day for love and happiness.." she smiled when she thought of her daughter, but then it quickly vanished from her face." "I wrote it on the fifteenth, It had a picture of her inside of it...and some other things.I said I'd always love him, and I'd wait for him forever....and I've been waiting.three years have past since I heard from him. He never wrote back again." She said with a teary voice.
Libby: "Oh Cindy" she said as she went up and put her arm on her shoulder. "Give me a hug girl" they hugged and then broke apart. "So you've never heard from him..since that letter?" Cindy nodded 'no' slowly. "I'm so sorry Cindy"
Cindy: "It's.okay.really, I'm fine..you can go now if you want" she said wiping her eyes "Faith is washing off that clown mask you let her put on." she said with a small grin.
Libby: "Your sure your gonna be okay?" Cindy nodded yes again not using words for fear of crying. She followed Libby to the door. Cindy was handing her her things when Faith ran up.
Faith: "Auntie Auntie!!!" she called as she ran up with little steps. "Are you leaving all ready?" Libby took a glance at Cindy and then spoke "Yeah honey, but I'll be back for another visit in a few days okay?" she reached her hand out to ruffle her hair but before she could Faith grabbed her wrist and eyed her bracelet.
Faith: "That's a pretty bracelet Auntie"
Libby: "Thank you sweetheart" she said as she raised her hand to observe it herself. "It is isn't it?" she said again when she came across the gems placed on the golden chain
Faith: "Where'd you get it?" her little face full of curiosity.
Libby: "My Father gave it to me" she responded naturally
Faith: "That's nice" she replied cutely and then went up to Cindy and tugged at her pant leg. "Mommy.Mommy" she repeated
Cindy: "What is it pumpkin?" She said when looked down to see her daughter's big sky colored eyes staring up at her
Faith: "Mommy, why don't I have a Daddy like you and Auntie Libby?"
Cindy's mouth opened slightly, for she was speechless. She was racking her brain for answers, but she came up short will nothing, he daughters questions brought back nothing more than more memories of Jimmy.
Cindy: "Um.well.honey.you do have a Daddy" "He's just.not..not here" she stammered trying not to have her eyes water so Faith didn't sense her emotions.
Faith: "Well, I wanna meet him" "My friends Ann-Marie and Lisa...and umm..Janelle all have Daddy's at their houses" "I want to see my Daddy...why haven't I ever seen him?"
Libby looked at Cindy awkwardly
Libby: "Maybe I should go" she suggested "Faith I think you should go upstairs and play in your room for a little while" she commanded lightly as she gently pushed her in the direction of her room.
Cindy was sitting with her eyes closed on the family room's black leather chair, trying to gather her thoughts.
Cindy: "Libby, let her stay......" "It's about time I talked to her about this any way" Libby looked at Cindy uncertainly and then said
Libby: "Um...okay, sweetie, lets go over to hear what Mom has to say" she directed Faith towards Cindy.
Cindy looked at her daughter with a kind face. She loved Faith more than anything in the world, her daughter meant everything to her. She knew someday she'd become curious about her father, she knew the time would come for her to have to talk about Jimmy to her. She took a deep breath and lifted Faith into her lap. She looked into her eyes. Libby walked into the kitchen, out of sight, but made sure that she was in range of hearing what Cindy was saying, then she quietly left.
Cindy: "Well honey" she started off soft and slow "Your Daddy was a very.very brave man" Faith nodded, happy she was finally being exposed to the idea that she actually had a father. "And well..when he was eighteen years old, he had to go off and fight the awful mean people in the war" she tried to sugar coat it, so not to frighten Faith.
Faith: "Why did he have to go?" she questioned
Cindy: "Well..he didn't have a choice honey.he had to go" she said
Faith: "Did he love us?"
Cindy's expression grew sympathetic
Cindy: "Of course he loved us Faith! He always loved us..you and me both" she replied making sure that her girl understood that Jimmy would have done anything for them. "Daddy loved us more than anything" "That's why he went to fight, her wanted to make sure we were safe and happy"
Faith: "Where is he?" she asked, she was beginning to notice the distress on her mother's face, she asked a little bit sweeter, to make sure she didn't upset her. Cindy didn't reply for a minute, then when she spoke her voice was a little shaky.
Cindy: "Well sweetheart..Mommy..mommy doesn't exactly know where Daddy is right now"
Faith: "Why?"
Cindy: "Because...because..I haven't talked to him in a long time honey" her eyes began to become watery.
Faith: "What was his name?"
Cindy: "James.James Isaac Neutron.I called him Jimmy"
Faith: "Is that why my last name is Neutron and yours isn't?"
Cindy: "Yes pumpkin..that's why" her voice was getting weaker by the second. Jimmy had never come home so he and Cindy were never able to get married, but when Faith was born Cindy gave the child Jimmy's name in his honor.
Faith: "What was he like?" Cindy then gave up trying to hide her emotions and began to let a few single tears stream down her cheeks. "Mommy..what's the matter?" she asked caringly as she wiped Cindy's face with her hand gently, trying to get the tears off.
Cindy: "Well.I just miss your Daddy very much that's all" she said as she sniffed and wiped her eyes
Faith: "What did he look like?" she asked. Cindy looked at her daughter closely.
Cindy: "Your Daddy had the most beautiful blue eyes..." she said as she peered into her daughters own eyes. "And he..had soft brown hair, he was gorgeous" "Come here" she said to Faith as she got up from the chair and put Faith on the ground. Her daughter followed her, wondering what her mother was going to do. She followed her all the way into Cindy's bedroom. Cindy sat down at her desk again and took the car keys out of her pocket. She singled out a certain key and unlocked a certain drawer in her desk. She opened it up. She reached her hand inside it and pulled something out. Faith eagerly ran up to her mother's side, anxiously awaiting to find out what she was holding in her hand. After Cindy had locked the drawer again she moved closer to her daughter to reveal a picture of Jimmy to her.
Cindy: "That's Daddy" she said pointing to him then handing her the picture to hold. It was a picture of hi when he was eighteen, taken only a few months before he was drafted. Faith grabbed it in her tiny hands and stared at it wide eyed. She loved the way her father looked. She finally knew what he was like. Her heart had risen so high. She finally got to see his face. "You can have that if you want" "I have others" Cindy said. Faith looked up at her with big eyes and a huge smile.
Faith: "Thank you Mommy! Thank you!" "I'll keep it forever!" she said as she hugged Cindy. Cindy smiled and could help but let out a small laugh at her daughter's excitement. Faith started running off to her room. Cindy turned to face the opposite direction when Faith came running back in, she turned around again quickly to see what her daughter wanted.
Faith: "Mommy..will Daddy ever come home?" she decided to ask one more question of her mother. Her little voice was full of hope. Cindy pulled Faith towards her and cupped her face with her gentle, young hands.
Cindy: "I pray to God sweetie..we'll just have to hope and wait and be patient and we'll have to..have some Faith" then she gave a small smile. Faith now understood how she got her name. But she still missed her father, she wanted to know him and to have a regular family like her friends. Cindy was missing Jimmy now more then ever. She was determined to find out if he was still out there.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Yay!!!!! Chapter one is done!! My second fic! Whoo hoo!!! ^^ Well, I'll write more to this fic asap.I'm going to finish "Last Kiss' too so don't worry about that ^^ well, please R/R and I hope you liked this one ^^ *~Cindy V.~*