If You Were Mine.
CHAPTER ONE: MAY IT BE FOREVER.
BY: YUKIE_48@YAHOO.COM
PAIRINGS: TSUZUKI X HISOKA, TATSUMI X TSUZUKI WARNING: SHONEN-AI, ANGST
* ABOUT TATSUMI'S PERSPECTIVE ON HOW HE FEELS ABOUT A CERTAIN SHINIGAMI. BUT IT'S JUST TOO BAD; HE CAN NEVER HAVE HIM AND HOW HE PAINFULLY DEALS WITH HIS FEELINGS. WILL HE BE ABLE TO FIND LOVE AGAIN IN THE ARMS OF ANOTHER?
(TATSUMI)
TSUZUKI ASATO HISOKA KUROSAKI SUMMON SECTION RM# 01-6589-92345
I SIGHED. I LOOKED AT THE FIRST NAME ON THE PAPER. 'TSUZUKI ASATO'. THAT NAME JUST KEPT BANGING IN MY HEAD FOR WHAT SEEMED LIKE ETERNITY. IT'S WEIRD, IT REALLY IS. I KNEW HIM FOR YEARS AND HAD BEEN WITH HIM BUT WHY IS IT THAT ITS STILL NOT ENOUGH. I GUESS ITS WRONG SINCE I WAS THE ONE WHO DUMPED HIM A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO. I SHOULDN'T BE FEELING THIS EMOTIONS OF LOVE, REGRET AND. I GULPED. JEALOUSY.
KUROSAKI-KUN AND TSUZUKI ARE . WELL. TOGETHER NOW. TOGETHER IN A SENSE THAT THEY'RE LIVING TOGETHER IN AN APARTMENT FOR ALMOST A YEAR NOW. IT'S JUST BETTER TO THINK THAT THEY'RE PARTNERS RATHER THAN THE REALITY THAT THEY'RE LOVERS, IT PAINED ME TO NO END. IT BROKE MY HEART WHEN TSUZUKI ANNOUNCED THE WHOLE JUOHCHOU DEPARTMENT ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP. BUT STILL, I'M AMAZED ON HOW I WAS ABLE TO CONTAIN MYSELF, CALM MY HEART AND PUT MY FEELINGS ASTRAY AGAIN.
KUROSAKI AND I NEVER REALLY HAD A PROBLEM REGARDING TSUZUKI. WHEN TSUZUKI WAS STILL EYEING HIM, HISOKA DIDN'T NOTICE THAT HE HAD FALLEN FOR HIM ALREADY. TO EVERYONE THEY SEEMED SO OBVIOUS, BUT THEY DON'T REALIZE IT. IF HE WAS TO CHOOSE WHO IS THE BEST, TSUZUKI WOULD CERTAINLY CHOOSE * HIM *. IT'S NOT JUST THE PHYSICAL BUT THE EMOTIONAL. BEFORE, I THOUGHT THAT THOSE TWO WOULD NEVER GET ALONG AND I GUESS I WAS GLAD. I KNOW ITS WRONG BUT I CAN'T HELP TO BE OVER-PROTECTIVE OF THE ONE I LOVE. BUT THAT GLADNESS DIDIN'T LAST LONG. SLOWLY, THEY WERE BEGINNING TO OPEN UP TO EACH OTHER. AND FROM THAT TIME ON, GREW A STRONG BOND BETWEEN THEM AND CAN NEVER BE BROKEN.
They had managed to find love in the arms of one another.
THEY MANAGED TO OPEN THEIR HEARTS AGAIN; TO LOVE AGAIN.
BUT IT HURTS TO KNOW THAT THE ONE YOU LOVE IS THE ARMS OF ANOTHER.
NO OTHER CHOICE THAN TO LET HIM GO AND LET HIM BE HAPPY.
IT'S JUST THAT.WHY DID I HAVE TO FALL FOR HIM? WHY DIDN'T IT HAVE TO BE SOMEONE ELSE? IT'S BETTER TO FALL FOR SOMEONE WHO RETURNS YOUR FEELINGS. BUT.IT JUST HAPPENED, I FELL FOR HIM, TSUZUKI IS THE ONE I LOVE.
I'M JEALOUS, I ADMIT I AM. I'M JEALOUS WITH THEIR RELATIONSHIP, THEY LOOKED SO HAPPY. I'M JEALOUS OF TSUZUKI, HE HAD ALREADY FOUND THAT MISSING PART INSIDE OF HIM. I'M JEALOUS OF HISOKA THAT HE GETS ALL THE LOVE HE DESERVED FROM TSUZUKI. I'M JEALOUS OF EVERYONE, THEY ALL SEEMED CONTENTED.
AND I'M NOT.
I'VE GOT MY FRIENDS AND ALL THE CARE I NEED FROM THEM, BUT I WANT MORE. I NEVER HAD THE LOVE I NEEDED WHEN I WAS ALIVE. I NEVER EVEN LOVED ANYONE BEFORE, NEVER OPENED UP MY HEART TO THE WORLD. THE WORLD WAS SO CRUEL TO ME, TAKING AWAY FROM ME MY MOTHER, THE ONLY PERSON WHO COULD LOVE ME WAS TO DIE. I WAS SO EMPTY, WITH NO ONE TO LOVE AND NO ONE TO LOVE ME. I WAS SO ALONE.
BUT I MET ALL THESE KIND PEOPLE.AND TSUZUKI.
I WAS STARTING TO THINK THAT THE GODS HAD GIVEN ME ANOTHER CHANCE, ANOTHER LIFE TO LIVE. BUT OF COURSE, I NEVER LET IT SHOW. ITS BETTER TO BE SILENT ABOUT ONE'S EMOTIONS RATHER THAN GETTING HURT IN THE PROCESS. THAT IS ME, WEARING A COMPLETE, UTTER MASK. BUT PROBABLY, KUROSAKI SENSES MY MISERY. OF COURSE HE DOES, HE'S AN EMPATHY.
MY LOVE FOR TSUZUKI IS ONE-SIDED, UNREQUITED. AND UNREQUITED LOVE ISN'T ALWAYS HAPPY, IT DOESN'T END THE WAY YOU WANT IT TO. INSTEAD, YOU JUST HURT YOURSELF, GET YOURSELF BROKEN AND MAYBE EVEN KILL YOURSELF. BUT THAT CASE DOESN'T MATTER NOW, I'M ALREADY DEAD.
TSUZUKI.
TAKE THIS FINAL SENTIMENT, KNOW THE LOVE I BEAR.
KUROSAKI.
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF HIM,
GIVE HIM THE LOVE HE NEEDS, THE LOVE THAT CAN ONLY COME FROM YOU.
I RESPECT YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH TSUZUKI. MAY IT BE FOREVER.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK? WELL. IT'S KINDA ANGSTY. HEHEHE. MY TYPE OF FANFICS. AND, UHM, I'M ONLY GONNA MAKE FOUR CHAPTERS FOR THIS FIC.
CHAPTER 1 - TATSUMI'S POV (WELL, THIS GUY'S OK. HE'S CUTE. THAT'S ALL I CAN SAY.) CHAPTER 2 - TERAZUMA'S POV ( THIS GUY'S AWFULLY HANDSOME, YOU GOTTTA SEE HIS MANGA PICS!) CHAPTER 3- HIJIRI'S POV (OH, I HATE HIM! NO OFFENSE GUYS! JUST CAN'T THINK OF ANOTHER CHARACTER!) CHAPTER 4 - WATARI'S POV (I LOVE THIS GUY AND HIS CAREFREE PERSONALITY AND I HAVE THIS IDEA OF PAIRING HIM UP WITH TATSUMI.HEHEHE.)
IF I HAVE THE COURAGE AND ENERGY TO DO SO, MAYBE I'LL WRITE A SEQUEL TO THIS! HOPE YOU REVIEW! JA NE!
PAIRINGS: TSUZUKI X HISOKA, TATSUMI X TSUZUKI WARNING: SHONEN-AI, ANGST
* ABOUT TATSUMI'S PERSPECTIVE ON HOW HE FEELS ABOUT A CERTAIN SHINIGAMI. BUT IT'S JUST TOO BAD; HE CAN NEVER HAVE HIM AND HOW HE PAINFULLY DEALS WITH HIS FEELINGS. WILL HE BE ABLE TO FIND LOVE AGAIN IN THE ARMS OF ANOTHER?
(TATSUMI)
TSUZUKI ASATO HISOKA KUROSAKI SUMMON SECTION RM# 01-6589-92345
I SIGHED. I LOOKED AT THE FIRST NAME ON THE PAPER. 'TSUZUKI ASATO'. THAT NAME JUST KEPT BANGING IN MY HEAD FOR WHAT SEEMED LIKE ETERNITY. IT'S WEIRD, IT REALLY IS. I KNEW HIM FOR YEARS AND HAD BEEN WITH HIM BUT WHY IS IT THAT ITS STILL NOT ENOUGH. I GUESS ITS WRONG SINCE I WAS THE ONE WHO DUMPED HIM A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO. I SHOULDN'T BE FEELING THIS EMOTIONS OF LOVE, REGRET AND. I GULPED. JEALOUSY.
KUROSAKI-KUN AND TSUZUKI ARE . WELL. TOGETHER NOW. TOGETHER IN A SENSE THAT THEY'RE LIVING TOGETHER IN AN APARTMENT FOR ALMOST A YEAR NOW. IT'S JUST BETTER TO THINK THAT THEY'RE PARTNERS RATHER THAN THE REALITY THAT THEY'RE LOVERS, IT PAINED ME TO NO END. IT BROKE MY HEART WHEN TSUZUKI ANNOUNCED THE WHOLE JUOHCHOU DEPARTMENT ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP. BUT STILL, I'M AMAZED ON HOW I WAS ABLE TO CONTAIN MYSELF, CALM MY HEART AND PUT MY FEELINGS ASTRAY AGAIN.
KUROSAKI AND I NEVER REALLY HAD A PROBLEM REGARDING TSUZUKI. WHEN TSUZUKI WAS STILL EYEING HIM, HISOKA DIDN'T NOTICE THAT HE HAD FALLEN FOR HIM ALREADY. TO EVERYONE THEY SEEMED SO OBVIOUS, BUT THEY DON'T REALIZE IT. IF HE WAS TO CHOOSE WHO IS THE BEST, TSUZUKI WOULD CERTAINLY CHOOSE * HIM *. IT'S NOT JUST THE PHYSICAL BUT THE EMOTIONAL. BEFORE, I THOUGHT THAT THOSE TWO WOULD NEVER GET ALONG AND I GUESS I WAS GLAD. I KNOW ITS WRONG BUT I CAN'T HELP TO BE OVER-PROTECTIVE OF THE ONE I LOVE. BUT THAT GLADNESS DIDIN'T LAST LONG. SLOWLY, THEY WERE BEGINNING TO OPEN UP TO EACH OTHER. AND FROM THAT TIME ON, GREW A STRONG BOND BETWEEN THEM AND CAN NEVER BE BROKEN.
They had managed to find love in the arms of one another.
THEY MANAGED TO OPEN THEIR HEARTS AGAIN; TO LOVE AGAIN.
BUT IT HURTS TO KNOW THAT THE ONE YOU LOVE IS THE ARMS OF ANOTHER.
NO OTHER CHOICE THAN TO LET HIM GO AND LET HIM BE HAPPY.
IT'S JUST THAT.WHY DID I HAVE TO FALL FOR HIM? WHY DIDN'T IT HAVE TO BE SOMEONE ELSE? IT'S BETTER TO FALL FOR SOMEONE WHO RETURNS YOUR FEELINGS. BUT.IT JUST HAPPENED, I FELL FOR HIM, TSUZUKI IS THE ONE I LOVE.
I'M JEALOUS, I ADMIT I AM. I'M JEALOUS WITH THEIR RELATIONSHIP, THEY LOOKED SO HAPPY. I'M JEALOUS OF TSUZUKI, HE HAD ALREADY FOUND THAT MISSING PART INSIDE OF HIM. I'M JEALOUS OF HISOKA THAT HE GETS ALL THE LOVE HE DESERVED FROM TSUZUKI. I'M JEALOUS OF EVERYONE, THEY ALL SEEMED CONTENTED.
AND I'M NOT.
I'VE GOT MY FRIENDS AND ALL THE CARE I NEED FROM THEM, BUT I WANT MORE. I NEVER HAD THE LOVE I NEEDED WHEN I WAS ALIVE. I NEVER EVEN LOVED ANYONE BEFORE, NEVER OPENED UP MY HEART TO THE WORLD. THE WORLD WAS SO CRUEL TO ME, TAKING AWAY FROM ME MY MOTHER, THE ONLY PERSON WHO COULD LOVE ME WAS TO DIE. I WAS SO EMPTY, WITH NO ONE TO LOVE AND NO ONE TO LOVE ME. I WAS SO ALONE.
BUT I MET ALL THESE KIND PEOPLE.AND TSUZUKI.
I WAS STARTING TO THINK THAT THE GODS HAD GIVEN ME ANOTHER CHANCE, ANOTHER LIFE TO LIVE. BUT OF COURSE, I NEVER LET IT SHOW. ITS BETTER TO BE SILENT ABOUT ONE'S EMOTIONS RATHER THAN GETTING HURT IN THE PROCESS. THAT IS ME, WEARING A COMPLETE, UTTER MASK. BUT PROBABLY, KUROSAKI SENSES MY MISERY. OF COURSE HE DOES, HE'S AN EMPATHY.
MY LOVE FOR TSUZUKI IS ONE-SIDED, UNREQUITED. AND UNREQUITED LOVE ISN'T ALWAYS HAPPY, IT DOESN'T END THE WAY YOU WANT IT TO. INSTEAD, YOU JUST HURT YOURSELF, GET YOURSELF BROKEN AND MAYBE EVEN KILL YOURSELF. BUT THAT CASE DOESN'T MATTER NOW, I'M ALREADY DEAD.
TSUZUKI.
TAKE THIS FINAL SENTIMENT, KNOW THE LOVE I BEAR.
KUROSAKI.
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF HIM,
GIVE HIM THE LOVE HE NEEDS, THE LOVE THAT CAN ONLY COME FROM YOU.
I RESPECT YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH TSUZUKI. MAY IT BE FOREVER.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK? WELL. IT'S KINDA ANGSTY. HEHEHE. MY TYPE OF FANFICS. AND, UHM, I'M ONLY GONNA MAKE FOUR CHAPTERS FOR THIS FIC.
CHAPTER 1 - TATSUMI'S POV (WELL, THIS GUY'S OK. HE'S CUTE. THAT'S ALL I CAN SAY.) CHAPTER 2 - TERAZUMA'S POV ( THIS GUY'S AWFULLY HANDSOME, YOU GOTTTA SEE HIS MANGA PICS!) CHAPTER 3- HIJIRI'S POV (OH, I HATE HIM! NO OFFENSE GUYS! JUST CAN'T THINK OF ANOTHER CHARACTER!) CHAPTER 4 - WATARI'S POV (I LOVE THIS GUY AND HIS CAREFREE PERSONALITY AND I HAVE THIS IDEA OF PAIRING HIM UP WITH TATSUMI.HEHEHE.)
IF I HAVE THE COURAGE AND ENERGY TO DO SO, MAYBE I'LL WRITE A SEQUEL TO THIS! HOPE YOU REVIEW! JA NE!