Mad World
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing. And I don't own Mad World.
A/N: Tear Jerker. I warn you. It's very sad!
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Everyone was trying to help him.
Make him feel better about who he was. Did they understand?
No. Never. How could they? The other pilots could, maybe.
But they were to wrapped up in their own lives to notice the unhappiness in his.
Unhappiness? That was an understatement. Duo, Trowa, Quatre and Wufei...
He didn't deserve their friendship. Nor did he deserve the affection he got from Relena. Or her love.
Would she still love him if she had seen all the things he had done?
He'd demolished entire cities, eliminated entire populations.
Just like that little girl andher dog.
And yet, even now as the war is over, people talked to him kindly,
and didn't hold anything against him. Don't they understand?
They run around, smiling, as if life has meaning.
They rushed past him in a whirl, even his bestfriend.
Duo had Hilde, a job, everything a guy could want.
His life seemed to be going somewhere....
~***~*~~**~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~***~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~
He stood in his apartment, looking down at the metal weapon in his hand.
The world would have been so much better if he hadn't been born.
He could still fix that problem. He put the gun on the table, and looked out the window.
His face contorted, and his eyes filled with tears.
Sobbing, he collapsed on the floor, wrapping his arms around himself. Why?
What had possesed his mother to bring him into life? He'd caused so many people pain.
His friends...Relena...would be so much better off without him.
He was supposed to be the perfect soldier. But he wasn't. His lack of emotion had been a sign of weakness.
He was hiding from his pain. Hiding from who he was afraid he really was.
*~~*~***~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~ ~~~
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow
!~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~**~*~**~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~~**~*~~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~~*
He reached over and took the gun, tears still coursing down his cheeks. He had no right to live.
Not when he had taken the lives of so many people who did. It was ironic in a way.
He was supposed to go back to being a normal teenager. But he never was one.
Sometimes he would laugh coldly at the bustling people of earth. But now, as he sat in his apartment,
tears blinding his sight and ready to take his own life, he realized the whole time he had envied them.
*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~*~*~~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~**~~*~**~*~*
As he raised the gun to himself, he heard the door open, and saw Relena standing there, a present in hand,
and a big smile on her face. But when she spotted me on the floor, she screamed, dropped her present and ran over to him.
She kneeled in front of him and he pointed the gun at her. She didn't flinch, didn't even move. She just stared at him.
"Were you going to do it?"
"Yes."
"Heero.."
She leaned forward and wrapped her arms around him. He tried to resist, tried to shy away her warmth.
But he couldn't. Letting out another sob, he dropped the gun and fell into her embrace.
He cried into her shoulder, as she murmured soft words to him. He tightened his hold on her.
"You shouldn't have come."
" I'm so glad I did."
"Why?"
"Because I love you. And I would die without you."
"No. Your so much better without me.."
"Heero Yuy!"
"What? It's true...you know it is."
"What I don't know, is why your doing this in the first place."
*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~**~
"I don't deserve this..."
She pulled back, holding him at arms length. She gazed at him softly, and he had to look away.
"You don't deserve what, Heero?"
"My friends...You..."
She pulled back, standing up and walking towards her fallen gift.
For a moment, a sense of complete panic fell across him, as he thought she was going to leave.
But instead, she took her present, unwrapped it, and held it out.
It appeared to be a video. She walked over to his VCR, and put it in. Picking up the controler, she silently pressed play, and began to watch.
From his place on the floor, he heard a chorused announcement come from the speakers.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEERO."
He had not heard those words since he was four years old.
A time, when his head had been filled with nothing but fond memories.
*~*~*~*~*~**~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~~*~~**~~**~*~*~*~**~*~~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~**~*~*~~**~~**~*~**~**~**~**~**~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~~*~
He stood silently, and sank down beside Relena, his eyes glued to the television screen, in a way he had never experienced before.
There, his friends happy faces were right in the camera, grinning at him.
"Hey, Heero! This.."
"Is A.."
"Video"
"Made by us."
"To wish you"
"A."
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"
Each of his friends, finished eachothers sentences. He watched silently, as his friends continuously appeared on screen.
Playing out inside jokes, memories, teasing him, mocking him, even having a Yuy glare contest.
And at the end, a message was recorded from each of his friends.
He was even tempted to laugh, something he had not felt for a very long time, when Wufei finished his message, which was less than inspiring,
and Sally appeared slapping him playfully, and looking apologetically in to the screen.
"Sorry, Heero. You know Wufei..."
"And what is that supposed to mean, Woman?"
"You want to know?"
They walked of screen characteristically arguing, and Duo appeared on screen,
smiling, and he spoke the words that meant more to Heero than anything.
"Hey, He-Man. I just wanted you to know, that I'll always be there for you, buddy. I know things
havn't been easy for you, and if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me. What I'm
trying to say is, your not alone, Man. And no matter what happens, always remember that I love
ya. Happy birthday, Bud, and many more to come."
When Relena turned to tape off, he sat there staring at the blank screen.
Duo had always been there for him, ever since they had first met.
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Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~***~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~
Still, he did not know why she had shown him this. He still knew he did not deserve a place in any of their hearts.
He turned to the girl, and sighed.
"They work to hard for me."
It was then, that he realised the girl was crying.
He reached to touch her cheek, and was surprised when she pushed him down, kissing him softly.
Her lips moved all over his face. His cheeks, his closed eyes, his forehead,
before returing down to his lips, placing a few lingering kisses.
When she rolled to the side, she brushed his bangs back. It was then he realised she understood.
*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~~*~**~*~~*~*~**~**~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~~*~
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
"Heero," She whispered finally. "It's because we love you. Not because we pity you."
"I don't even deserve your pity."
She shushed him, kissing his head.
"Don't do this. I know you don't want it, but let me help you. Stay with me."
His eyes faltered. And she took his hand.
"I know it won't be easy. I know you won't get better over night. But you have to realise that I
love you for who you are. And they do too. Duo especially.
He befriended you through it all. And we want you to be happy."
He breathed, his thoughts grasping the love he was receiving from her, and his best friends.
"We made that video, because we want you to know. Know that your not alone."
He looked up at her, his breath catching.
"Do you love me, Heero?"
"Yes."
She leaned over and kissed him.
"Then hold on to that. Know that my love is returned no matter what. And the love you have for your friends as well."
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~~**~~*~
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~**~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
He nodded, and whispered against her shoulder. "I'll try."
And two years later, Duo gave him a picture for his birthday. Framed, and enlargened slightly.
But perfect.
The picture was of Duo, Relena, and Heero. Their arms draped over eachother.
Heero was smiling, the first true smile he had given in years.
The end.
Wooah. That was the first sad/ suicidal fic I've ever written. Hoped you liked it. Actually, the song made me think of the situation. Personally, I like the idea of Heero being happy and all that..but hey, it's real life. But I wasn't about to make it a sad ending, oh no! ^-^. This fic was to show Relena help him out of his situation. Also, in a lot of fics, it's either 1x2, Duo and Heero fighting over Relena, Duo helping Heero get with Relena, and so on. I just wanted to write one that just showed their friendship. No, romance traingles, setting up, or anything like that in between. Anyways, hoped you liked it. Please review. I don't think I'll be writting many fics like these, but I still want to see how I did. Thanks! Mad World
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing. And I don't own Mad World.
A/N: Tear Jerker. I warn you. It's very sad!
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Everyone was trying to help him. Make him feel better about who he was. Did they understand?
No. Never. How could they? The other pilots could, maybe. But they were to wrapped up in their
own lives to notice the unhappiness in his. Unhappiness? That was an understatement. Duo,
Trowa, Quatre and Wufei...He didn't deserve their friendship. Nor did he deserve the affection
he got from Relena. Or her love. Would she still love him if she had seen all the things he had
done? He'd demolished entire cities, eliminated entire populations. Just like that little girl and
her dog. And yet, even now as the war is over, people talked to him kindly, and didn't hold
anything against him. Don't they understand? They run around, smiling, as if life has meaning.
They rushed past him in a whirl, even his bestfriend. Duo had Hilde, a job, everything a guy
could want. His life seemed to be going somewhere....
~***~*~~**~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~***~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~
He stood in his apartment, looking down at the metal weapon in his hand. The world would
have been so much better if he hadn't been born. He could still fix that problem. He put the gun
on the table, and looked out the window. His face contorted, and his eyes filled with tears.
Sobbing, he collapsed on the floor, wrapping his arms around himself. Why? What had possesed
his mother to bring him into life? He'd caused so many people pain. His friends...Relena...would
be so much better off without him. He was supposed to be the perfect soldier. But he wasn't. His
lack of emotion had been a sign of weakness. He was hiding from his pain. Hiding from who he
was afraid he really was.
*~~*~***~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~ ~~~
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow
!~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~**~*~**~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~~**~*~~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~~*
He reached over and took the gun, tears still coursing down his cheeks. He had no right to live.
Not when he had taken the lives of so many people who did. It was ironic in a way. He was
supposed to go back to being a normal teenager. But he never was one. Sometimes her would
laugh coldly at the bustling people of earth. But now, as he sat in his apartment, tears blinding
his sight and ready to take his own life, he realized the whole time he had envied them.
*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~*~*~~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~**~~*~**~*~*
As he raised the gun to himself, he heard the door open, and saw Relena standing there, a
present in hand, and a big smile on her face. But when she spotted me on the floor, she
screamed, dropped her present and ran over to him. She kneeled in front of him and he pointed
the gun at her. She didn't flinch, didn't even move. She just stared at him.
"Were you going to do it?"
"Yes."
"Heero.."
She leaned forward and wrapped her arms around him. He tried to resist, tried to shy away her
warmth. But he couldn't. Letting out another sob, he dropped the gun and fell into her embrace.
He cried into her shoulder, as she murmured soft words to him. He tightened his hold on her.
"You shouldn't have come."
" I'm so glad I did."
"Why?"
"Because I love you. And I would die without you."
"No. Your so much better without me.."
"Heero Yuy!"
"What? It's true...you know it is."
"What I don't know, is why your doing this in the first place."
*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~**~
"I don't deserve this..."
She pulled back, holding him at arms length. She gazed at him softly, and he had to look away.
"You don't deserve what, Heero?"
"My friends...You..."
She pulled back, standing up and walking towards her fallen gift. For a moment, a sense of
complete panic fell across him, as he thought she was going to leave. But instead, she took her
present, unwrapped it, and held it out. It appeared to be a video. She walked over to his VCR,
and put it in. Picking up the controler, she silently pressed play, and began to watch. From his
place on the floor, he heard a chorused announcement come from the speakers.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEERO."
He had not heard those words since he was four years old. A time, when his head had been filled
with nothing but fond memories.
*~*~*~*~*~**~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~~*~~**~~**~*~*~*~**~*~~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~**~*~*~~**~~**~*~**~**~**~**~**~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~~*~
He stood silently, and sank down beside Relena, his eyes glued to the television screen, in a way
he had never experienced before. There, his friends happy faces were right in the camera,
grinning at him.
"Hey, Heero! This.."
"Is A.."
"Video"
"Made by us."
"To wish you"
"A."
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"
Each of his friends, finished eachothers sentences. He watched silently, as his friends
continuously appeared on screen. Playing out inside jokes, memories, teasing him, mocking him,
even having a Yuy glare contest. And at the end, a message was recorded from each of his
friends. He was even tempted to laugh, something he had not felt for a very long time, when
Wufei finished his message, which was less than inspiring, and Sally appeared slapping him
playfully, and looking apologetically in to the screen.
"Sorry, Heero. You know Wufei..."
"And what is that supposed to mean, Woman?"
"You want to know?"
They walked of screen characteristically arguing, and Duo appeared on screen, smiling, and he
spoke the words that meant more to Heero than anything.
"Hey, He-Man. I just wanted you to know, that I'll always be there for you, buddy. I know things
havn't been easy for you, and if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me. What I'm
trying to say is, your not alone, Man. And no matter what happens, always remember that I love
ya. Happy birthday, Bud, and many more to come."
When Relena turned to tape off, he sat there staring at the blank screen. Duo had always been
there for him, ever since they had first met.
*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~~*~*
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~***~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~
Still, he did not know why she had shown him this. He still knew he did not deserve a place
in any of their hearts. He turned to the girl, and sighed.
"They work to hard for me."
It was then, that he realised the girl was crying. He reached to touch her cheek, and was
surprised when she pushed him down, kissing him softly.
Her lips moved all over his face. His cheeks, his closed eyes, his forehead, before returing down
to his lips, placing a few lingering kisses. When she rolled to the side, she brushed his bangs
back. It was then he realised she understood.
*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~~*~**~*~~*~*~**~**~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~~*~
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
"Heero," She whispered finally. "It's because we love you. Not because we pity you."
"I don't even deserve your pity."
She shushed him, kissing his head.
"Don't do this. I know you don't want it, but let me help you. Stay with me."
His eyes faltered. And she took his hand.
"I know it won't be easy. I know you won't get better over night. But you have to realise that I
love you for who you are. And they do too. Duo especially. He befriended you through it all. And
we want you to be happy."
He breathed, his thoughts grasping the love he was receiving from her, and his best friends.
"We made that video, because we want you to know. Know that your not alone."
He looked up at her, his breath catching.
"Do you love me, Heero?"
"Yes."
She leaned over and kissed him.
"Then hold on to that. Know that my love is returned no matter what. And the love you have
for your friends as well."
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~~**~~*~
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~**~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
He nodded, and whispered against her shoulder. "I'll try."
And two years later, Duo gave him a picture for his birthday. Framed, and enlargened slightly.
But perfect.
The picture was of Duo, Relena, and Heero. Their arms draped over eachother.
Heero was smiling, the first true smile he had given in years.
The end.
Wooah. That was the first sad/ suicidal fic I've ever written. Hoped you liked it. Actually, the song made me think of the situation. Personally, I like the idea of Heero being happy and all that..but hey, it's real life. But I wasn't about to make it a sad ending, oh no! ^-^. This fic was to show Relena help him out of his situation. Also, in a lot of fics, it's either 1x2, Duo and Heero fighting over Relena, Duo helping Heero get with Relena, and so on. I just wanted to write one that just showed their friendship. No, romance traingles, setting up, or anything like that in between. Anyways, hoped you liked it. Please review. I don't think I'll be writting many fics like these, but I still want to see how I did. Thanks!
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing. And I don't own Mad World.
A/N: Tear Jerker. I warn you. It's very sad!
______________________________________________________________________________
Everyone was trying to help him.
Make him feel better about who he was. Did they understand?
No. Never. How could they? The other pilots could, maybe.
But they were to wrapped up in their own lives to notice the unhappiness in his.
Unhappiness? That was an understatement. Duo, Trowa, Quatre and Wufei...
He didn't deserve their friendship. Nor did he deserve the affection he got from Relena. Or her love.
Would she still love him if she had seen all the things he had done?
He'd demolished entire cities, eliminated entire populations.
Just like that little girl andher dog.
And yet, even now as the war is over, people talked to him kindly,
and didn't hold anything against him. Don't they understand?
They run around, smiling, as if life has meaning.
They rushed past him in a whirl, even his bestfriend.
Duo had Hilde, a job, everything a guy could want.
His life seemed to be going somewhere....
~***~*~~**~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~***~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~
He stood in his apartment, looking down at the metal weapon in his hand.
The world would have been so much better if he hadn't been born.
He could still fix that problem. He put the gun on the table, and looked out the window.
His face contorted, and his eyes filled with tears.
Sobbing, he collapsed on the floor, wrapping his arms around himself. Why?
What had possesed his mother to bring him into life? He'd caused so many people pain.
His friends...Relena...would be so much better off without him.
He was supposed to be the perfect soldier. But he wasn't. His lack of emotion had been a sign of weakness.
He was hiding from his pain. Hiding from who he was afraid he really was.
*~~*~***~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~ ~~~
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow
!~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~**~*~**~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~~**~*~~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~~*
He reached over and took the gun, tears still coursing down his cheeks. He had no right to live.
Not when he had taken the lives of so many people who did. It was ironic in a way.
He was supposed to go back to being a normal teenager. But he never was one.
Sometimes he would laugh coldly at the bustling people of earth. But now, as he sat in his apartment,
tears blinding his sight and ready to take his own life, he realized the whole time he had envied them.
*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~*~*~~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~**~~*~**~*~*
As he raised the gun to himself, he heard the door open, and saw Relena standing there, a present in hand,
and a big smile on her face. But when she spotted me on the floor, she screamed, dropped her present and ran over to him.
She kneeled in front of him and he pointed the gun at her. She didn't flinch, didn't even move. She just stared at him.
"Were you going to do it?"
"Yes."
"Heero.."
She leaned forward and wrapped her arms around him. He tried to resist, tried to shy away her warmth.
But he couldn't. Letting out another sob, he dropped the gun and fell into her embrace.
He cried into her shoulder, as she murmured soft words to him. He tightened his hold on her.
"You shouldn't have come."
" I'm so glad I did."
"Why?"
"Because I love you. And I would die without you."
"No. Your so much better without me.."
"Heero Yuy!"
"What? It's true...you know it is."
"What I don't know, is why your doing this in the first place."
*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~**~
"I don't deserve this..."
She pulled back, holding him at arms length. She gazed at him softly, and he had to look away.
"You don't deserve what, Heero?"
"My friends...You..."
She pulled back, standing up and walking towards her fallen gift.
For a moment, a sense of complete panic fell across him, as he thought she was going to leave.
But instead, she took her present, unwrapped it, and held it out.
It appeared to be a video. She walked over to his VCR, and put it in. Picking up the controler, she silently pressed play, and began to watch.
From his place on the floor, he heard a chorused announcement come from the speakers.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEERO."
He had not heard those words since he was four years old.
A time, when his head had been filled with nothing but fond memories.
*~*~*~*~*~**~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~~*~~**~~**~*~*~*~**~*~~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~**~*~*~~**~~**~*~**~**~**~**~**~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~~*~
He stood silently, and sank down beside Relena, his eyes glued to the television screen, in a way he had never experienced before.
There, his friends happy faces were right in the camera, grinning at him.
"Hey, Heero! This.."
"Is A.."
"Video"
"Made by us."
"To wish you"
"A."
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"
Each of his friends, finished eachothers sentences. He watched silently, as his friends continuously appeared on screen.
Playing out inside jokes, memories, teasing him, mocking him, even having a Yuy glare contest.
And at the end, a message was recorded from each of his friends.
He was even tempted to laugh, something he had not felt for a very long time, when Wufei finished his message, which was less than inspiring,
and Sally appeared slapping him playfully, and looking apologetically in to the screen.
"Sorry, Heero. You know Wufei..."
"And what is that supposed to mean, Woman?"
"You want to know?"
They walked of screen characteristically arguing, and Duo appeared on screen,
smiling, and he spoke the words that meant more to Heero than anything.
"Hey, He-Man. I just wanted you to know, that I'll always be there for you, buddy. I know things
havn't been easy for you, and if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me. What I'm
trying to say is, your not alone, Man. And no matter what happens, always remember that I love
ya. Happy birthday, Bud, and many more to come."
When Relena turned to tape off, he sat there staring at the blank screen.
Duo had always been there for him, ever since they had first met.
*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~~*~*
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~***~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~
Still, he did not know why she had shown him this. He still knew he did not deserve a place in any of their hearts.
He turned to the girl, and sighed.
"They work to hard for me."
It was then, that he realised the girl was crying.
He reached to touch her cheek, and was surprised when she pushed him down, kissing him softly.
Her lips moved all over his face. His cheeks, his closed eyes, his forehead,
before returing down to his lips, placing a few lingering kisses.
When she rolled to the side, she brushed his bangs back. It was then he realised she understood.
*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~~*~**~*~~*~*~**~**~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~~*~
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
"Heero," She whispered finally. "It's because we love you. Not because we pity you."
"I don't even deserve your pity."
She shushed him, kissing his head.
"Don't do this. I know you don't want it, but let me help you. Stay with me."
His eyes faltered. And she took his hand.
"I know it won't be easy. I know you won't get better over night. But you have to realise that I
love you for who you are. And they do too. Duo especially.
He befriended you through it all. And we want you to be happy."
He breathed, his thoughts grasping the love he was receiving from her, and his best friends.
"We made that video, because we want you to know. Know that your not alone."
He looked up at her, his breath catching.
"Do you love me, Heero?"
"Yes."
She leaned over and kissed him.
"Then hold on to that. Know that my love is returned no matter what. And the love you have for your friends as well."
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~~**~~*~
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~**~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
He nodded, and whispered against her shoulder. "I'll try."
And two years later, Duo gave him a picture for his birthday. Framed, and enlargened slightly.
But perfect.
The picture was of Duo, Relena, and Heero. Their arms draped over eachother.
Heero was smiling, the first true smile he had given in years.
The end.
Wooah. That was the first sad/ suicidal fic I've ever written. Hoped you liked it. Actually, the song made me think of the situation. Personally, I like the idea of Heero being happy and all that..but hey, it's real life. But I wasn't about to make it a sad ending, oh no! ^-^. This fic was to show Relena help him out of his situation. Also, in a lot of fics, it's either 1x2, Duo and Heero fighting over Relena, Duo helping Heero get with Relena, and so on. I just wanted to write one that just showed their friendship. No, romance traingles, setting up, or anything like that in between. Anyways, hoped you liked it. Please review. I don't think I'll be writting many fics like these, but I still want to see how I did. Thanks! Mad World
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing. And I don't own Mad World.
A/N: Tear Jerker. I warn you. It's very sad!
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Everyone was trying to help him. Make him feel better about who he was. Did they understand?
No. Never. How could they? The other pilots could, maybe. But they were to wrapped up in their
own lives to notice the unhappiness in his. Unhappiness? That was an understatement. Duo,
Trowa, Quatre and Wufei...He didn't deserve their friendship. Nor did he deserve the affection
he got from Relena. Or her love. Would she still love him if she had seen all the things he had
done? He'd demolished entire cities, eliminated entire populations. Just like that little girl and
her dog. And yet, even now as the war is over, people talked to him kindly, and didn't hold
anything against him. Don't they understand? They run around, smiling, as if life has meaning.
They rushed past him in a whirl, even his bestfriend. Duo had Hilde, a job, everything a guy
could want. His life seemed to be going somewhere....
~***~*~~**~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~***~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~
He stood in his apartment, looking down at the metal weapon in his hand. The world would
have been so much better if he hadn't been born. He could still fix that problem. He put the gun
on the table, and looked out the window. His face contorted, and his eyes filled with tears.
Sobbing, he collapsed on the floor, wrapping his arms around himself. Why? What had possesed
his mother to bring him into life? He'd caused so many people pain. His friends...Relena...would
be so much better off without him. He was supposed to be the perfect soldier. But he wasn't. His
lack of emotion had been a sign of weakness. He was hiding from his pain. Hiding from who he
was afraid he really was.
*~~*~***~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~ ~~~
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow
!~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~**~*~**~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~~**~*~~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~~*
He reached over and took the gun, tears still coursing down his cheeks. He had no right to live.
Not when he had taken the lives of so many people who did. It was ironic in a way. He was
supposed to go back to being a normal teenager. But he never was one. Sometimes her would
laugh coldly at the bustling people of earth. But now, as he sat in his apartment, tears blinding
his sight and ready to take his own life, he realized the whole time he had envied them.
*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~*~*~~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~**~~*~**~*~*
As he raised the gun to himself, he heard the door open, and saw Relena standing there, a
present in hand, and a big smile on her face. But when she spotted me on the floor, she
screamed, dropped her present and ran over to him. She kneeled in front of him and he pointed
the gun at her. She didn't flinch, didn't even move. She just stared at him.
"Were you going to do it?"
"Yes."
"Heero.."
She leaned forward and wrapped her arms around him. He tried to resist, tried to shy away her
warmth. But he couldn't. Letting out another sob, he dropped the gun and fell into her embrace.
He cried into her shoulder, as she murmured soft words to him. He tightened his hold on her.
"You shouldn't have come."
" I'm so glad I did."
"Why?"
"Because I love you. And I would die without you."
"No. Your so much better without me.."
"Heero Yuy!"
"What? It's true...you know it is."
"What I don't know, is why your doing this in the first place."
*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~**~
"I don't deserve this..."
She pulled back, holding him at arms length. She gazed at him softly, and he had to look away.
"You don't deserve what, Heero?"
"My friends...You..."
She pulled back, standing up and walking towards her fallen gift. For a moment, a sense of
complete panic fell across him, as he thought she was going to leave. But instead, she took her
present, unwrapped it, and held it out. It appeared to be a video. She walked over to his VCR,
and put it in. Picking up the controler, she silently pressed play, and began to watch. From his
place on the floor, he heard a chorused announcement come from the speakers.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEERO."
He had not heard those words since he was four years old. A time, when his head had been filled
with nothing but fond memories.
*~*~*~*~*~**~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~~*~~**~~**~*~*~*~**~*~~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
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He stood silently, and sank down beside Relena, his eyes glued to the television screen, in a way
he had never experienced before. There, his friends happy faces were right in the camera,
grinning at him.
"Hey, Heero! This.."
"Is A.."
"Video"
"Made by us."
"To wish you"
"A."
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"
Each of his friends, finished eachothers sentences. He watched silently, as his friends
continuously appeared on screen. Playing out inside jokes, memories, teasing him, mocking him,
even having a Yuy glare contest. And at the end, a message was recorded from each of his
friends. He was even tempted to laugh, something he had not felt for a very long time, when
Wufei finished his message, which was less than inspiring, and Sally appeared slapping him
playfully, and looking apologetically in to the screen.
"Sorry, Heero. You know Wufei..."
"And what is that supposed to mean, Woman?"
"You want to know?"
They walked of screen characteristically arguing, and Duo appeared on screen, smiling, and he
spoke the words that meant more to Heero than anything.
"Hey, He-Man. I just wanted you to know, that I'll always be there for you, buddy. I know things
havn't been easy for you, and if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me. What I'm
trying to say is, your not alone, Man. And no matter what happens, always remember that I love
ya. Happy birthday, Bud, and many more to come."
When Relena turned to tape off, he sat there staring at the blank screen. Duo had always been
there for him, ever since they had first met.
*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~~*~*
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~***~*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~
Still, he did not know why she had shown him this. He still knew he did not deserve a place
in any of their hearts. He turned to the girl, and sighed.
"They work to hard for me."
It was then, that he realised the girl was crying. He reached to touch her cheek, and was
surprised when she pushed him down, kissing him softly.
Her lips moved all over his face. His cheeks, his closed eyes, his forehead, before returing down
to his lips, placing a few lingering kisses. When she rolled to the side, she brushed his bangs
back. It was then he realised she understood.
*~*~*~~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~~*~**~*~~*~*~**~**~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~~*~
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
*~*~*~*~*~**~~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
"Heero," She whispered finally. "It's because we love you. Not because we pity you."
"I don't even deserve your pity."
She shushed him, kissing his head.
"Don't do this. I know you don't want it, but let me help you. Stay with me."
His eyes faltered. And she took his hand.
"I know it won't be easy. I know you won't get better over night. But you have to realise that I
love you for who you are. And they do too. Duo especially. He befriended you through it all. And
we want you to be happy."
He breathed, his thoughts grasping the love he was receiving from her, and his best friends.
"We made that video, because we want you to know. Know that your not alone."
He looked up at her, his breath catching.
"Do you love me, Heero?"
"Yes."
She leaned over and kissed him.
"Then hold on to that. Know that my love is returned no matter what. And the love you have
for your friends as well."
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~~**~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~~**~~*~
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~**~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
He nodded, and whispered against her shoulder. "I'll try."
And two years later, Duo gave him a picture for his birthday. Framed, and enlargened slightly.
But perfect.
The picture was of Duo, Relena, and Heero. Their arms draped over eachother.
Heero was smiling, the first true smile he had given in years.
The end.
Wooah. That was the first sad/ suicidal fic I've ever written. Hoped you liked it. Actually, the song made me think of the situation. Personally, I like the idea of Heero being happy and all that..but hey, it's real life. But I wasn't about to make it a sad ending, oh no! ^-^. This fic was to show Relena help him out of his situation. Also, in a lot of fics, it's either 1x2, Duo and Heero fighting over Relena, Duo helping Heero get with Relena, and so on. I just wanted to write one that just showed their friendship. No, romance traingles, setting up, or anything like that in between. Anyways, hoped you liked it. Please review. I don't think I'll be writting many fics like these, but I still want to see how I did. Thanks!