She lay there trying to come to terms with what had just happen and all these feelings that were ripping thru her. She could remember everything that had happen to her future self. Her wedding , her husband's death, the pain she felt ,the despair. It was eating at her, feelings that she had refused to accept were proving to be her future.

long lost words whisper slowly to me

still can't find what keeps me here

when all this time I've been so hollow inside

I know you're still there

She knew that no matter what happened in the future now, her and her daughter's trip thru time would cause major ripples, she could never let her child go back to that hell they had fled from. Looking across the room to the man who stayed after the headmaster made them all leave, she understood now the secret looks she had caught him sending her so many times

watching me wanting me

I can feel you pull me down

fearing you loving you

I won't let you pull me down

He was her future, her husband to be, she would come to love in the next few years and she would be his saving grace. She could remember Albus telling her that the day she buried him, the day she said her goodbyes. She remembered telling the headmaster that he was hers. Loving him against the odds and loving him even thru the painful event that would bring them together. That cold day in March when she refused to allow them to put him in the ground. She had thrown herself on top of his casket, not wanting to go on with out him. Yet there he was sitting across the room from her drifting off to sleep, she had a second chance.

hunting you I can smell you - alive

your heart pounding in my head

watching me wanting me

I can feel you pull me down

saving me raping me

watching me

She knew that it would be wrong too mess with the future but could she survive the loss of him a second time around. Stopping his death would mean she had to lose one of the two men she loved. Could she choose between them, only time would answer her question.