The lyrics I used in the last chapter belonged to
*Tina Turner & Bryan Adams - It's Only Love
* Foreigner - With Heaven On Our Side
Lyrics in this chapter
*Jason Wade - You belong to me
I guess it's getting sappier than this in the next chapter . but first things first : Chapter 9 ---------------------------------------------------------------------~*~---- ------------------------------------------------------------------
The next morning is another sluggish one but I wake up with a start and I am wide awake. Glorfindel has fallen asleep beside me and lies on his side curled up like a cat. I noticed that odd sleeping habit before. As soon as he falls asleep he curls up to a ball and remains like that the whole night.
I dreamed about the time in the war. I remember that I ~was~ under glorfindel's command once and that . well, I told you I was only a foolish little elf . that I had something like a very short relationship with him. But for him it was only one of the chances he took. I guess. So this stuff can't be about me. Only I was in love with him. I know that I was lying awake for hours and hours at night, just to think about him.
Suddenly glorfindel stirs and the ball next to me uncurls itself. I would really like to know if he knows how weird he lies while sleeping.
'Morning, love ,' he mumbles still half-asleep.
'Morning .' Confusion. Love ? He must have been dreaming of someone else. 'Time to get up and leave.'
'Mmmmm. I know.' Stretch. Curl. Stretch. His eyes open. This is so beautiful and cute to watch.
'Promise you won't leave me there .'
'Of course I don't leave you with that maniac guy. I'm watching over you, teeth and talons bared. You'll see.'
'Okay then. Let's go.'
We hurry. There's only time to have a very short breakfast before we go out into the gardens. It's a cold but sunny morning and a thin mist hangs in the air. Glorfindel slips his left arm around my waist while we are walking through the trees and wild flowers to find elladan and elrohir. It feels so right and I can't explain why.
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Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me
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The twins are waiting on a bench, wearing nearly identical frowns.
'Morning ,' I say just to let them know I'm there.
'Morning .' What ? Did elladan just return my greetings ? This is getting really confusing.
'Let's go, guys.'
Elrohir glares at me. 'I'm not going to let you give archery lessons. I'll ask father to chuck out like he should have done from the beginning.'
'Why would you ?'
'Just because .'
'Just because you're hurt and jealous ,' I say.
'And if ! Why are you hanging around with glorfindel all the time? You don't love him, anyway ! You just want to see me beg !'
'I don't want anything from you .' Don't panic. Don't think of last night. Don't look into glorfindel's eyes right now.
You don't love him anyway. A sentence like a slap in the face.
'You don't want anything from glorfindel and still you fool around with him !'
Glorfindel turns around and I know he's weeping and my heart nearly breaks but he's not running away. Because he promised me he wouldn't.
'How do you know ?'
'Because you said you don't love him. I asked you.'
'And if I would love him, would I have told you .'
Silence. Glorfindel looks at me like he can't believe what he just heard.
Elrohir is embarrassed and hurt and also desperate. 'If I can't have you then nobody shall have you !' he screams. Faster than the eye can see he puts an arrow to the string of his bow, ready to shoot . ~me~ when he suddenly yelps like a dog and sinks to the ground whimpering and his arrow misses me by meters.
'Glorfindel ?'
'No, I - I didn't do it ,' he sobs, wiping tears away.
I look around. Elladan is standing right behind me looking very smug indeed.
'Not such a lousy aim, hm ? Got precisely the left shoulder.' He smiles at me.
'W - w - why ?'
'Hey, we had a real bad start and you're not my favorite elf around but I don't wanna see you dead.'
Lord elrond comes dashing out of the halls accompanied by five or six guards.
'What happened here ??? Haldir I expect you to explain this !'
Instead of me elladan steps forth. 'Elrohir tried to shoot him, father. I didn't see another way .'
'YOU shot him ?'
'Yes, sir .' He casts his eyes down.
'Why would he want to shoot haldir. He asked for these lessons !'
'Because of unreturned feeling, sir.'
Elrond considers the matter a second. 'I see. Well, take him to a healer then and I will forget about all of this. Haldir, Glorfindel, you are free to leave.'
'Thank you, sir.'
Elrond leaves without looking at elrohir again who lies sobbing and whimpering in the blood stained grass.
'Nice arrows you got there ,' says elladan. 'It's like they hit their target by themselves.'
I look at the arrows I'm carrying today. Carved with colorful feathers. Elrohirs arrows.
As long as they just save your life .
'You can have them. I got more of these.'
'Really ?'
'Really really .'
He smiles and takes the arrows without another question. 'You not such a bad guy, you know .'
Then he turns around to take elrohir to the healer and leaves glorfindel and me alone. Glorfindel looks at me with his dark sad eyes. There is something wrong, seriously wrong, I can feel it.
'You talked about me with that guy ?' Glorfindel looks about to faint and his eyes are slightly unfocused.
'Yes. I'm sorry.'
Glorfindel sinks down into the grass leaning against a linden tree. I sit down next to him.
'Was it so wrong?'
'No ,' he whispers. 'But the words he said wounded deeper than you could know.'
'Why ? Glorfindel. What's wrong with you ?' I can feel panic coming up. I should run and get a healer. But why ? Elves do not become sick and he's not injured.
'Nothing . It's not wrong. It's okay.' The answer is just a whisper. Like the wind in the trees. He is pale and it seems to me like he has lost all of his energy in this short time. Sighing he lies down in the grass and looks at the sky.
'Glorfindel. Don't do that. You scare me.' I can't breathe. I can't watch him anymore .
'Not for long.'
'What do you mean ?'
'Can't you see ? I'm growing weak .'
'But why ? And why so fast ? Please, can I do anything for you ? Anything ?'
'You know, there're only two possibilities for an elf to die . to be murdered or to get his heart broken .'
'But I thought you were all right with not knowing it for sure .'
'I know it now. And I told you I might not survive it. And I don't even want to survive it.'
'No. No. Please, you can't just die. Don't leave me alone. Please.' I didn't notice but I started crying because I was so helpless. I'm looking at him in the grass and I begin to understand.
'Would you give me a last kiss ?'
'Glorfindel . no .'
'It's been nearly 6000 years, haldir. If you are this old you will know that it's not hard to let go if there is nothing to live for in your life anymore.'
My tears are falling on his neck when I bend over him and kiss him on the lips. I'm just sitting by his side for a long time while he looks at me, tears streaming down his cheeks. I play with the strands of his golden hair and hold his hands, pleading him to get up and go in with me but he's just shaking his head.
'No, haldir. I'm fine here, just being with you .'
'But I thought .', I trail off and the realization dawns on me.
'You know why I was saying silver archer ?'
'No ....' And I'm not sure that I want to know.
'Because of your hair .'
No. Please, this can't be.
You don't love him anyway .
This is my fault ? How could I be so blind as to ignore this ? All the archers fell in the ring-war, I ~knew~ that. It was only me left . I broke his heart and now he's going to . to die ?
'It's my fault. It's my fault. I'm so sorry. I didn't want this ! Whay didn't you just tell me ?'
'Doesn't matter anymore.'
Glorfindel smiles weakly when he sees that I understand and then closes his eyes.
'No !'
I'm throwing my arms around him and start weeping harder than ever before. 'No, please don't leave me here.' I feel only a weak heartbeat fluttering against my wrist. 'You are breaking my heart, too, because I love you.'
My head falls on his chest and if he won't get up anymore then I don't care if I'm going to die here as well. I'd rather die than be without him. It took me long enough to discover it but now I know. It's because I belong to him.
I guess it's getting sappier than this in the next chapter . but first things first : Chapter 9 ---------------------------------------------------------------------~*~---- ------------------------------------------------------------------
The next morning is another sluggish one but I wake up with a start and I am wide awake. Glorfindel has fallen asleep beside me and lies on his side curled up like a cat. I noticed that odd sleeping habit before. As soon as he falls asleep he curls up to a ball and remains like that the whole night.
I dreamed about the time in the war. I remember that I ~was~ under glorfindel's command once and that . well, I told you I was only a foolish little elf . that I had something like a very short relationship with him. But for him it was only one of the chances he took. I guess. So this stuff can't be about me. Only I was in love with him. I know that I was lying awake for hours and hours at night, just to think about him.
Suddenly glorfindel stirs and the ball next to me uncurls itself. I would really like to know if he knows how weird he lies while sleeping.
'Morning, love ,' he mumbles still half-asleep.
'Morning .' Confusion. Love ? He must have been dreaming of someone else. 'Time to get up and leave.'
'Mmmmm. I know.' Stretch. Curl. Stretch. His eyes open. This is so beautiful and cute to watch.
'Promise you won't leave me there .'
'Of course I don't leave you with that maniac guy. I'm watching over you, teeth and talons bared. You'll see.'
'Okay then. Let's go.'
We hurry. There's only time to have a very short breakfast before we go out into the gardens. It's a cold but sunny morning and a thin mist hangs in the air. Glorfindel slips his left arm around my waist while we are walking through the trees and wild flowers to find elladan and elrohir. It feels so right and I can't explain why.
-----------------~*~--------------------
Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me
-----------------~*~--------------------
The twins are waiting on a bench, wearing nearly identical frowns.
'Morning ,' I say just to let them know I'm there.
'Morning .' What ? Did elladan just return my greetings ? This is getting really confusing.
'Let's go, guys.'
Elrohir glares at me. 'I'm not going to let you give archery lessons. I'll ask father to chuck out like he should have done from the beginning.'
'Why would you ?'
'Just because .'
'Just because you're hurt and jealous ,' I say.
'And if ! Why are you hanging around with glorfindel all the time? You don't love him, anyway ! You just want to see me beg !'
'I don't want anything from you .' Don't panic. Don't think of last night. Don't look into glorfindel's eyes right now.
You don't love him anyway. A sentence like a slap in the face.
'You don't want anything from glorfindel and still you fool around with him !'
Glorfindel turns around and I know he's weeping and my heart nearly breaks but he's not running away. Because he promised me he wouldn't.
'How do you know ?'
'Because you said you don't love him. I asked you.'
'And if I would love him, would I have told you .'
Silence. Glorfindel looks at me like he can't believe what he just heard.
Elrohir is embarrassed and hurt and also desperate. 'If I can't have you then nobody shall have you !' he screams. Faster than the eye can see he puts an arrow to the string of his bow, ready to shoot . ~me~ when he suddenly yelps like a dog and sinks to the ground whimpering and his arrow misses me by meters.
'Glorfindel ?'
'No, I - I didn't do it ,' he sobs, wiping tears away.
I look around. Elladan is standing right behind me looking very smug indeed.
'Not such a lousy aim, hm ? Got precisely the left shoulder.' He smiles at me.
'W - w - why ?'
'Hey, we had a real bad start and you're not my favorite elf around but I don't wanna see you dead.'
Lord elrond comes dashing out of the halls accompanied by five or six guards.
'What happened here ??? Haldir I expect you to explain this !'
Instead of me elladan steps forth. 'Elrohir tried to shoot him, father. I didn't see another way .'
'YOU shot him ?'
'Yes, sir .' He casts his eyes down.
'Why would he want to shoot haldir. He asked for these lessons !'
'Because of unreturned feeling, sir.'
Elrond considers the matter a second. 'I see. Well, take him to a healer then and I will forget about all of this. Haldir, Glorfindel, you are free to leave.'
'Thank you, sir.'
Elrond leaves without looking at elrohir again who lies sobbing and whimpering in the blood stained grass.
'Nice arrows you got there ,' says elladan. 'It's like they hit their target by themselves.'
I look at the arrows I'm carrying today. Carved with colorful feathers. Elrohirs arrows.
As long as they just save your life .
'You can have them. I got more of these.'
'Really ?'
'Really really .'
He smiles and takes the arrows without another question. 'You not such a bad guy, you know .'
Then he turns around to take elrohir to the healer and leaves glorfindel and me alone. Glorfindel looks at me with his dark sad eyes. There is something wrong, seriously wrong, I can feel it.
'You talked about me with that guy ?' Glorfindel looks about to faint and his eyes are slightly unfocused.
'Yes. I'm sorry.'
Glorfindel sinks down into the grass leaning against a linden tree. I sit down next to him.
'Was it so wrong?'
'No ,' he whispers. 'But the words he said wounded deeper than you could know.'
'Why ? Glorfindel. What's wrong with you ?' I can feel panic coming up. I should run and get a healer. But why ? Elves do not become sick and he's not injured.
'Nothing . It's not wrong. It's okay.' The answer is just a whisper. Like the wind in the trees. He is pale and it seems to me like he has lost all of his energy in this short time. Sighing he lies down in the grass and looks at the sky.
'Glorfindel. Don't do that. You scare me.' I can't breathe. I can't watch him anymore .
'Not for long.'
'What do you mean ?'
'Can't you see ? I'm growing weak .'
'But why ? And why so fast ? Please, can I do anything for you ? Anything ?'
'You know, there're only two possibilities for an elf to die . to be murdered or to get his heart broken .'
'But I thought you were all right with not knowing it for sure .'
'I know it now. And I told you I might not survive it. And I don't even want to survive it.'
'No. No. Please, you can't just die. Don't leave me alone. Please.' I didn't notice but I started crying because I was so helpless. I'm looking at him in the grass and I begin to understand.
'Would you give me a last kiss ?'
'Glorfindel . no .'
'It's been nearly 6000 years, haldir. If you are this old you will know that it's not hard to let go if there is nothing to live for in your life anymore.'
My tears are falling on his neck when I bend over him and kiss him on the lips. I'm just sitting by his side for a long time while he looks at me, tears streaming down his cheeks. I play with the strands of his golden hair and hold his hands, pleading him to get up and go in with me but he's just shaking his head.
'No, haldir. I'm fine here, just being with you .'
'But I thought .', I trail off and the realization dawns on me.
'You know why I was saying silver archer ?'
'No ....' And I'm not sure that I want to know.
'Because of your hair .'
No. Please, this can't be.
You don't love him anyway .
This is my fault ? How could I be so blind as to ignore this ? All the archers fell in the ring-war, I ~knew~ that. It was only me left . I broke his heart and now he's going to . to die ?
'It's my fault. It's my fault. I'm so sorry. I didn't want this ! Whay didn't you just tell me ?'
'Doesn't matter anymore.'
Glorfindel smiles weakly when he sees that I understand and then closes his eyes.
'No !'
I'm throwing my arms around him and start weeping harder than ever before. 'No, please don't leave me here.' I feel only a weak heartbeat fluttering against my wrist. 'You are breaking my heart, too, because I love you.'
My head falls on his chest and if he won't get up anymore then I don't care if I'm going to die here as well. I'd rather die than be without him. It took me long enough to discover it but now I know. It's because I belong to him.
