Dreams That Fall Apart by Luke's Dragon
Chapter 5 Standing in the Rain
~~~ Heighten View Terrace 6.45 ~~~
It had been a long time since Tai had been here, four years ago but he couldn't remember much more than that. It had been raining though that was fairly certain, but then again it always seemed to rain around here. That was why getting out of Odibia, Tokyo and Japan itself was a blessed relief. His parents had seemed to argue non-stop, most of his friends had just drifted apart and Kari was off doing her own thing now. the last he had heard she was with TK but he hadn't spoken to his sister in a few months and knowing her anything could have happened by now.
Still, it would have been nice to think that one of us ended up with someone from that family. God knows it won't be Matt and me now. I blew that one big time.
Apart from wanting to see the world which was little more than a cover story he had wanted to get away from Matt and all the memories and turmoil that when with it.
Matt, the guy he had been in love with ever since they had first met on that fated trip to summer camp when they were both kids.
Matt, his best friends and angel who he had wanted from afar for so long.
Matt, his lover, his one and only, his life
Matt, the guy he had wrecked everything with for one stupid night of nothing more than sex.
Tai could still remember the night Matt had confronted him about it, there had been no anger, not even any look of betrayal, he had just calmly looked him in the eyes and told him it was over and then walked away. Tai could remember just standing there, rain crashing down around him as the most wonderful thing he had ever known walked out of his life.
Still he had been thinking a lot over the past four years, most people who knew him would have suggested it was about how to open the door or something like that. That was harsh, Tai was not slow, maybe he was brash, Impulsive and insensitive. Maybe he acted without thinking but he did think later. Usually far too late but surely he got marks for trying.
Taking one last look at his childhood home Tai walked on. He was back and he had something important to do. He was going to patch things up with Matt regardless of how difficult the task or whatever the consequences. Something's were worth fighting for.
~~~ Ishida Apartment 8.20 ~~~
Matt was annoyed. No annoyed didn't do it justice Matt Ishida was well and truly irate. Cross. Pissed off even. The reason was Davis, this had been a fairly constant state of mind ever since the two had decided to have a go at the whole relationship idea. Today the reason was that Davis had said he would be at Matt's by 8 and Matt had prepared dinner for the two of them.
Why he had tried cooking was beyond him, money and time meant he hadn't really got anything in to cook so the meal was going to be little more than noodles and slightly stale bread. But it was the thought that counted and it wouldn't have been too difficult for Davis to have called him to say he was going to be late, or more than likely knowing Davis he had just forgotten. Either way Matt was not in a good mood as he sat down to eat the now crispy and over cooked meal.
As the law of fate dictates he had no sooner sat down than he was interrupted by a knock on the door. Grumbling to himself about how unfair the world was he went to answer the door expecting to see Davis and launch a triad of abuse at him. Who he was not expecting to see however was Tai.
Four Years and he hadn't changed a bit, maybe he was a little taller but still not as tall as Matt, he looked just the same, the same wild hair, the same sparkling eyes the same cheerful smile. The smile however faded when he saw the look on Matt's face. A look, which suggested that no amount of time, was going to heal the divide between two former friends.
"Matt, It's been a while"
"Tai. What do you want?"
"Hey! Is that anyway to greet an old friend"
"Friend? After everything you've done I should beat the living daylights out of you!"
"But you won't"
"How the hell do you know?"
"I know you too well Ishida"
Tai invited himself in, Matt could have stopped him if he had really tried but there was a little something in his mind that wanted Tai to come in. They had once been close, very close Tai had been the first person Matt had ever really loved, old feelings like that tended to die hard in his heart.
"Mmm, food"
"There's some spare"
Tai grabbed the rest of the meal from the pans and sat down opposite Matt, it would have been a shame to let the meal go to waste, and after all he had cooked enough for two anyway.
"So, no Sora tonight?"
"No Sora any night"
"Oh, how come?"
"We split up"
"Oh"
Matt reflected on how strange it was really that not so long ago Tai had been to some extent his life. What they had together had been special but he, well he had been a different person back then, scared and unsure of what to do about his feelings. Then Tai had come out and confessed all his feelings for Matt and things had just gone along from there.
It was a mixed memory, part of him still hated Tai for the betrayals, the lies and the hurt he caused, but another part of him missed a good friend and still thought of the times they had spent together as some of the happiest of his life.
But he didn't miss it. Not one tiny bit. Sora had been better for his sanity, she had helped him come to terms with a lot. His sexuality, his past and she had helped him learn to trust people again. And as for Davis, he saw a lot of himself in Dai. Maybe that was where the attraction came from.
But with Tai all he had ever got was hurt. And fantastic sex. And the feeling that he was someone special. But he didn't miss Tai, not one bit.
"If you're done eating, I've got stuff to do"
"Okay"
"Goodbye Tai"
"Bye Matt, it was nice seeing you again"
"Whatever"
"I probably deserve that"
"You do"
"Can I at least have a goodbye kiss?"
"No. I don't think that's a great idea"
"You're probably right Matt. G'night"
"Yeah. I'll see you later I guess"
Matt shut the door with a sigh things seemed to get more and more complex, just when he though him and Dai could have a real chance that jerk came back into his life. But Matt didn't care about him, not one little bit, he didn't miss Tai and certainly didn't want anything more than friendship if that.
He tried to ignore the fact that he knew the reason he didn't want to kiss Tai would be that he would fall for him all over again, and that was something he certainly couldn't take.
