Forbidden Passions
By Moriganne Rikhter
Rating- pg-13 for the large age difference between Lupin and Zoë.
Disclaimer- Don't own Harry Potter, so don't sue please.
Authors Note- I was actually gonna write a yu-gi-oh one, but then I had a dream of Lupin and I (great dream~^), but Lupin said to behave cause he was my teacher and we couldn't be caught, and it spawned this instead. R&R, and all flames will be used to light my fireplace. Yummies...heat! Darn Winter cold...
Dedications: Chapter two goes out to my bud Rose for encouraging me, and my bud Allie for her support.
Chapter Two: Manticores Part One
Remus gathered his papers and straightened them, before turning to the board to write up some of the background information that would be needed for today's lesson. Today they would be studying the Manticore, and he was eager to get started. He had an interesting announcement to make, but that couldn't be done until the start of class. He was also looking forward to the start of class for a different reason; this was the class Zoë was in. He hadn't seen her since she had awoken in his arms a few days ago, and then they had done a sickeningly good job of pretending that nothing had happened. Which was how he wanted it. Well, he didn't WANT that, but he knew it was the way things had to be. More pain for Remus Lupin, he thought bitterly.
As if reading his mind, in walked Zoë Anari, looking as stunning as ever. She meandered over to her chair and tossed off her shoulder bag. Remus allowed a breath to escape, before forcing himself to treat her like a student once more. A few minutes later Lupin looked at the clock and magic ked the door shut. Eagerly he walked to the front of the class, smiled, and clapped his hands. "Today we will be starting on Manticores. I have the pleasure of informing you that should you be able to gain parental permission, Dumbledore will allow me to take the class into the Forbidden Forest to see a live creature, for some hands on activity." Another wide grin.
An excited flow of conversation crossed the classroom, and, because Lupin himself was so excited, he allowed it to go on for a few moments before silencing them. "So, lets begin. What do we know about Manticore's lethality?" he asked the class.
Zoë allowed herself to raise her hand, along with a few of the others in the class. She felt Remus' gaze settle on her, and she knew he would call upon her. "Ms. Anari?"
"Well sir, the Manticore will croon its prey to sleep before feeding upon it with its three rows of razor sharp teeth," she responded eagerly. Her eyes shone with passion, and her words flowed quickly from her lips. Remus smiled warmly in response.
"Exactly. Now, who can tell me...." Zoë was amazed at how quickly the class went by. It seemed as if it had just began, and now they were dispersing for lunch. She fought the urge to linger in the classroom to speak with Lupin. 'No,' she scolded. 'Don't do this to yourself.'
Ironically, Remus was fighting the urge to insist that Zoë stay behind so that he could speak with her. He longed to just be able to sit down and have an intelligent conversation with her, to be able to laugh and smile and forget his pain for just a moment. "Zoë," he called to her as she exited the classroom. She was the last one out, and he hoped that that was a sign.
She turned around and came back in to speak with him. "Yes sir?" she asked him innocently. The tone of voice made him regret his decision to call out to her, and made him instantly feel like a dirty lecher for having such thoughts about someone so young.
"I-well-" He glanced about for something to speak about that wouldn't reveal his true intentions. "I was wondering what you thought of going to go see a Manticore." Lupin would've patted himself on the back for a good cover had he thought it would have been discreet.
Smiling, Zoë's face lit up and she perched upon his desk and grinned. "I can't wait! It sounds like so much fun! I would love to see a Manticore up close!" she exclaimed, bringing a grin and chuckle to Lupin. She loved the sound, and lived to see him happy.
"I knew you would," he exclaimed, equally as enthusiastic. "I just hope that the rest of the class will be as eager as you. Though not too many.... I don't think I could handle taking TOO large a group into the woods with me, so I am counting on a bunch of the parents not signing, and a bunch others to chicken out." A smile lit up his face, and he filed away every word they were saying so he could remember it later on.
At that moment, a knock sounded at the door. "Come in," Lupin called out. He watched as Severus walked through it. "Severus, to what do I owe the pleasure?" he greeted the other man positively.
Snape sneered. "Time for your potion, Lupin," he explained shortly. He walked over to the place where Lupin was standing and handed it to him. As he turned around he spared a side-glance in Zoë's direction. A cruel smile passed his lips, and he spoke once more. "I see that you two are together often," he observed. "Dare I ask why?"
A cold dread filled both their hearts. 'No, what am I worried about? Nothings happened!' Remus convinced himself. "Well, Zoë is deeply interested in Defense Against the Dark Arts, and I happen to be willing to spend time discussing different aspects of it with her," Lupin smoothly explained. Snape gave them both a dubious look, but then turned and walked out of the room.
Zoë allowed a small nervous chuckle to escape her throat, and Lupin turned and smiled at her. He even laughed a bit himself. 'She's perfect,' he thought with a pang. Zoë's soft chuckle grew until her entire body was shaking with laughter, and she had practically doubled over and fallen off the desk. Lupin laughed and smiled, before looking down at the liquid in his hands. 'Wolfsbane,' he knew. 'Tastes terrible.' A cold wave passed over him as he was reminded of all the hate he ha faced in his life for being a werewolf.
He was so absorbed in his thoughts he didn't notice that Zoë had hopped off of his desk and moved behind him. Lupin jumped a mile when he felt her arms wrap around him and her head rest against his back. She pulled back quickly, surprised. "I'm sorry," she mumbled, moving away.
Lupin spun around and in one swift motion had pulled her into him, and then held her tightly there. He took a deep breath and sighed. "Don't leave me," he murmured into her hair. He took another breath and raised the potion to his lips and chugged it, then tossed it down onto a desk and held her. "Do you love me?" he asked her, needing desperately to hear the answer.
She wrapped her own arms around the man and pulled him closer, if possible, in a bone-crushing hug. "Of course I do Remus. I love you more than you could possibly know," she told him, still tightly keeping him near her. She tiptoed up and pressed a kiss against a bit or bare skin, causing an intense shiver to race through him. Lupin moved himself so as to kiss her, when all at once he heard the door opening.
Quickly, Zoë pretended to stumble, and let out a laugh. "Thank you so much for breaking my fall, Professor. I swear, I am such a klutz some times!" she exclaimed. She pulled away from him, from Remus' arms, and walked to over towards the door, and past Neville Longbottom. She paused in the doorframe, and let out a grin. "And thank you for helping me with my essay," she covered, and then disappeared into the hallway.
Lupin let out an unnoticed sigh, and then forced himself to go back into teacher-mode. "Yes Neville?" he asked tiredly. The boy looked around uncomfortably, then stepped further into the room. He shifted from foot to foot, before finally beginning to speak.
"W-well, P-P-Professor, I was w-wondering if it is such a g-g-g-good idea to g-g-go see the manticores," he stuttered out. He was wringing his hands as he spoke, and looked well ready to be struck for impertinence or something of the sort.
Lupin smiled a friendly smile, and shrugged. "Well Neville that is why I am asking for parental permission. You are not required to go, by any means, and I simply thought that it would be a fun field trip for those of you who wished to see it." He explained himself with a grin.
Neville shook. "Well Sir, see, I want to go, but, well, I don't think that my grandmother will allow it, if you know what I mean," he blurted out. He blushed, but look satisfied, and Lupin could tell that that was the REAL reason the boy had come to see him. 'Boy? He's the same age as Zoë, even in the same House.' He wondered about their relationship for a moment. 'She's too young,' he kept telling himself. But he knew it made no difference to him. He loved her, and every second he spent away from her was killing him.
Neville mistook Lupins silence for him wondering what to do. He quickly tried to make the matter better. "I don't have to go, professor. I was just hoping..."
Lupin snapped out of his thoughts. "Well Neville, I can assure you I will do all within my power to keep you all safe. Perhaps you would like me to send a letter to your grandmother?" he offered to the boy. Neville nodded emphatically. "Alright then. I will send her a copy of the permission slip along with my personal assurances this evening."
"Thank you Professor," he said, as he hurried out of the classroom. Lupin sighed, and put his head in his hands, leaning onto his desk.
Neville accidentally walked right into Zoë Anari in the hallway. She appeared to be heading back to class. "Hello Neville, "she answered perkily. She gestured towards the classroom with a smile. "Left my bag," she admitted with an embarrassed laugh.
Neville grinned back at her. "Oh, alright then. I'll see you at lunch," Neville responded with a smile, before walking again in the other direction.
Zoë opened up the door to Professor Lupins' classroom and saw him sitting with his head in his hands. "Boo," she called out cheerfully as she entered the room. He looked up at her, sorrow on his face. "I forgot my bag," she explained to him quietly, gently. She walked over towards his desk, and grabbed it, holding it up.
"Love ya," she tossed out cheerily and leaned over and kissed the top of his head quickly, before staring for the door. Lupin shivered, and allowed the tears he was holding back to break.
"Wait," He called out to her, his voice catching at the end. "Please wait," he begged. Zoë turned around immediately, and saw him crying. Her heart stopped, and she went over to him right away and sat on his lap, holding him, and kissing the side of his head. She began to stroke the other side of his head feverishly and lovingly. He lowered his head to rest on her chest, and she continued stroking him and kissing the top oh his head, hoping to somehow take away some of his hurt. "I can't do this anymore," he moaned. He reminded Zoë of the frail man he had been when she had first met him two years ago on the Hogwarts Express.
She kissed his head, and in between kisses and such, she tossed out, "Do what Remus?"
His head shot up and looked Lupin looked her in the eyes. "This," he answered, and gave a frustrated sweep of his arms around the classroom, taking in all of her, and all their surroundings.
Zoë tilted her head. "What exactly is this?" she pressed, wiping absently at his tears to get them to go away. She wished to understand him so badly, so that she could make him feel better. Another sob escaped his throat and he pressed himself back into Zoë's chest so that he could cry unashamed. She held the man in her arms; he was shaking from the force of his tears.
After a few more minutes, he had stopped crying so badly, and managed to reply, "Life. I can't stand living," he admitted. She was the only plus in his lonely life, and he was denied even that.
Zoë brought his head up to face her, cradling it in her hands. She looked into his eyes with concern. He saw the tears brimming in the girls' own eyes. Without even realizing what he was doing, he leaned in and kissed her. "Shhh, don't say that," she murmured to him, after the kiss, the two still so close that her lips were brushing against his with every word. "I love you, and that has to mean something."
Remus closed his eyes and pressed his face against hers. "It hurts. Sometimes I wish we had never met, so that I wouldn't have to feel like this. I love you with all my heart and soul, and it kills me knowing we are doomed from the start," he admitted.
At that moment, the door opened, and Dumbledore, who was talking to McGonagall, walked though. The two professors stopped dead at the sight that they saw before them. Their sweeping eyes took in the scene, and Lupin realized with a sinking feeling that there was no way possible the two of them could lie there way out of the situation they had found themselves in. "What is going on here Remus?" McGonagall asked shrilly
Dumbledore finally took his piercing gaze off of the duo to turn around, his robes sweeping behind him. "My office, now," he ordered. The two in the chair disentangled each other and, hearts dropped, followed behind.
Authors Note: Well, there ya go, chapter two. I started chapter three, but I don't really know where to go with it. Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thanks. Don't forget to Review, it does a body good! ^^
Challenge: BTW, the other day I noticed that there weren't any Percy/Lupin fanfics on ff.so I am tossing out the challenge to get one of yall to write one. ~^.its not a hard pairing, just unusual, but one I would like to see. So get out there and write! ::Points to door:: Not before leaving a review though of what you want to see in the next chappie, of course.
By Moriganne Rikhter
Rating- pg-13 for the large age difference between Lupin and Zoë.
Disclaimer- Don't own Harry Potter, so don't sue please.
Authors Note- I was actually gonna write a yu-gi-oh one, but then I had a dream of Lupin and I (great dream~^), but Lupin said to behave cause he was my teacher and we couldn't be caught, and it spawned this instead. R&R, and all flames will be used to light my fireplace. Yummies...heat! Darn Winter cold...
Dedications: Chapter two goes out to my bud Rose for encouraging me, and my bud Allie for her support.
Chapter Two: Manticores Part One
Remus gathered his papers and straightened them, before turning to the board to write up some of the background information that would be needed for today's lesson. Today they would be studying the Manticore, and he was eager to get started. He had an interesting announcement to make, but that couldn't be done until the start of class. He was also looking forward to the start of class for a different reason; this was the class Zoë was in. He hadn't seen her since she had awoken in his arms a few days ago, and then they had done a sickeningly good job of pretending that nothing had happened. Which was how he wanted it. Well, he didn't WANT that, but he knew it was the way things had to be. More pain for Remus Lupin, he thought bitterly.
As if reading his mind, in walked Zoë Anari, looking as stunning as ever. She meandered over to her chair and tossed off her shoulder bag. Remus allowed a breath to escape, before forcing himself to treat her like a student once more. A few minutes later Lupin looked at the clock and magic ked the door shut. Eagerly he walked to the front of the class, smiled, and clapped his hands. "Today we will be starting on Manticores. I have the pleasure of informing you that should you be able to gain parental permission, Dumbledore will allow me to take the class into the Forbidden Forest to see a live creature, for some hands on activity." Another wide grin.
An excited flow of conversation crossed the classroom, and, because Lupin himself was so excited, he allowed it to go on for a few moments before silencing them. "So, lets begin. What do we know about Manticore's lethality?" he asked the class.
Zoë allowed herself to raise her hand, along with a few of the others in the class. She felt Remus' gaze settle on her, and she knew he would call upon her. "Ms. Anari?"
"Well sir, the Manticore will croon its prey to sleep before feeding upon it with its three rows of razor sharp teeth," she responded eagerly. Her eyes shone with passion, and her words flowed quickly from her lips. Remus smiled warmly in response.
"Exactly. Now, who can tell me...." Zoë was amazed at how quickly the class went by. It seemed as if it had just began, and now they were dispersing for lunch. She fought the urge to linger in the classroom to speak with Lupin. 'No,' she scolded. 'Don't do this to yourself.'
Ironically, Remus was fighting the urge to insist that Zoë stay behind so that he could speak with her. He longed to just be able to sit down and have an intelligent conversation with her, to be able to laugh and smile and forget his pain for just a moment. "Zoë," he called to her as she exited the classroom. She was the last one out, and he hoped that that was a sign.
She turned around and came back in to speak with him. "Yes sir?" she asked him innocently. The tone of voice made him regret his decision to call out to her, and made him instantly feel like a dirty lecher for having such thoughts about someone so young.
"I-well-" He glanced about for something to speak about that wouldn't reveal his true intentions. "I was wondering what you thought of going to go see a Manticore." Lupin would've patted himself on the back for a good cover had he thought it would have been discreet.
Smiling, Zoë's face lit up and she perched upon his desk and grinned. "I can't wait! It sounds like so much fun! I would love to see a Manticore up close!" she exclaimed, bringing a grin and chuckle to Lupin. She loved the sound, and lived to see him happy.
"I knew you would," he exclaimed, equally as enthusiastic. "I just hope that the rest of the class will be as eager as you. Though not too many.... I don't think I could handle taking TOO large a group into the woods with me, so I am counting on a bunch of the parents not signing, and a bunch others to chicken out." A smile lit up his face, and he filed away every word they were saying so he could remember it later on.
At that moment, a knock sounded at the door. "Come in," Lupin called out. He watched as Severus walked through it. "Severus, to what do I owe the pleasure?" he greeted the other man positively.
Snape sneered. "Time for your potion, Lupin," he explained shortly. He walked over to the place where Lupin was standing and handed it to him. As he turned around he spared a side-glance in Zoë's direction. A cruel smile passed his lips, and he spoke once more. "I see that you two are together often," he observed. "Dare I ask why?"
A cold dread filled both their hearts. 'No, what am I worried about? Nothings happened!' Remus convinced himself. "Well, Zoë is deeply interested in Defense Against the Dark Arts, and I happen to be willing to spend time discussing different aspects of it with her," Lupin smoothly explained. Snape gave them both a dubious look, but then turned and walked out of the room.
Zoë allowed a small nervous chuckle to escape her throat, and Lupin turned and smiled at her. He even laughed a bit himself. 'She's perfect,' he thought with a pang. Zoë's soft chuckle grew until her entire body was shaking with laughter, and she had practically doubled over and fallen off the desk. Lupin laughed and smiled, before looking down at the liquid in his hands. 'Wolfsbane,' he knew. 'Tastes terrible.' A cold wave passed over him as he was reminded of all the hate he ha faced in his life for being a werewolf.
He was so absorbed in his thoughts he didn't notice that Zoë had hopped off of his desk and moved behind him. Lupin jumped a mile when he felt her arms wrap around him and her head rest against his back. She pulled back quickly, surprised. "I'm sorry," she mumbled, moving away.
Lupin spun around and in one swift motion had pulled her into him, and then held her tightly there. He took a deep breath and sighed. "Don't leave me," he murmured into her hair. He took another breath and raised the potion to his lips and chugged it, then tossed it down onto a desk and held her. "Do you love me?" he asked her, needing desperately to hear the answer.
She wrapped her own arms around the man and pulled him closer, if possible, in a bone-crushing hug. "Of course I do Remus. I love you more than you could possibly know," she told him, still tightly keeping him near her. She tiptoed up and pressed a kiss against a bit or bare skin, causing an intense shiver to race through him. Lupin moved himself so as to kiss her, when all at once he heard the door opening.
Quickly, Zoë pretended to stumble, and let out a laugh. "Thank you so much for breaking my fall, Professor. I swear, I am such a klutz some times!" she exclaimed. She pulled away from him, from Remus' arms, and walked to over towards the door, and past Neville Longbottom. She paused in the doorframe, and let out a grin. "And thank you for helping me with my essay," she covered, and then disappeared into the hallway.
Lupin let out an unnoticed sigh, and then forced himself to go back into teacher-mode. "Yes Neville?" he asked tiredly. The boy looked around uncomfortably, then stepped further into the room. He shifted from foot to foot, before finally beginning to speak.
"W-well, P-P-Professor, I was w-wondering if it is such a g-g-g-good idea to g-g-go see the manticores," he stuttered out. He was wringing his hands as he spoke, and looked well ready to be struck for impertinence or something of the sort.
Lupin smiled a friendly smile, and shrugged. "Well Neville that is why I am asking for parental permission. You are not required to go, by any means, and I simply thought that it would be a fun field trip for those of you who wished to see it." He explained himself with a grin.
Neville shook. "Well Sir, see, I want to go, but, well, I don't think that my grandmother will allow it, if you know what I mean," he blurted out. He blushed, but look satisfied, and Lupin could tell that that was the REAL reason the boy had come to see him. 'Boy? He's the same age as Zoë, even in the same House.' He wondered about their relationship for a moment. 'She's too young,' he kept telling himself. But he knew it made no difference to him. He loved her, and every second he spent away from her was killing him.
Neville mistook Lupins silence for him wondering what to do. He quickly tried to make the matter better. "I don't have to go, professor. I was just hoping..."
Lupin snapped out of his thoughts. "Well Neville, I can assure you I will do all within my power to keep you all safe. Perhaps you would like me to send a letter to your grandmother?" he offered to the boy. Neville nodded emphatically. "Alright then. I will send her a copy of the permission slip along with my personal assurances this evening."
"Thank you Professor," he said, as he hurried out of the classroom. Lupin sighed, and put his head in his hands, leaning onto his desk.
Neville accidentally walked right into Zoë Anari in the hallway. She appeared to be heading back to class. "Hello Neville, "she answered perkily. She gestured towards the classroom with a smile. "Left my bag," she admitted with an embarrassed laugh.
Neville grinned back at her. "Oh, alright then. I'll see you at lunch," Neville responded with a smile, before walking again in the other direction.
Zoë opened up the door to Professor Lupins' classroom and saw him sitting with his head in his hands. "Boo," she called out cheerfully as she entered the room. He looked up at her, sorrow on his face. "I forgot my bag," she explained to him quietly, gently. She walked over towards his desk, and grabbed it, holding it up.
"Love ya," she tossed out cheerily and leaned over and kissed the top of his head quickly, before staring for the door. Lupin shivered, and allowed the tears he was holding back to break.
"Wait," He called out to her, his voice catching at the end. "Please wait," he begged. Zoë turned around immediately, and saw him crying. Her heart stopped, and she went over to him right away and sat on his lap, holding him, and kissing the side of his head. She began to stroke the other side of his head feverishly and lovingly. He lowered his head to rest on her chest, and she continued stroking him and kissing the top oh his head, hoping to somehow take away some of his hurt. "I can't do this anymore," he moaned. He reminded Zoë of the frail man he had been when she had first met him two years ago on the Hogwarts Express.
She kissed his head, and in between kisses and such, she tossed out, "Do what Remus?"
His head shot up and looked Lupin looked her in the eyes. "This," he answered, and gave a frustrated sweep of his arms around the classroom, taking in all of her, and all their surroundings.
Zoë tilted her head. "What exactly is this?" she pressed, wiping absently at his tears to get them to go away. She wished to understand him so badly, so that she could make him feel better. Another sob escaped his throat and he pressed himself back into Zoë's chest so that he could cry unashamed. She held the man in her arms; he was shaking from the force of his tears.
After a few more minutes, he had stopped crying so badly, and managed to reply, "Life. I can't stand living," he admitted. She was the only plus in his lonely life, and he was denied even that.
Zoë brought his head up to face her, cradling it in her hands. She looked into his eyes with concern. He saw the tears brimming in the girls' own eyes. Without even realizing what he was doing, he leaned in and kissed her. "Shhh, don't say that," she murmured to him, after the kiss, the two still so close that her lips were brushing against his with every word. "I love you, and that has to mean something."
Remus closed his eyes and pressed his face against hers. "It hurts. Sometimes I wish we had never met, so that I wouldn't have to feel like this. I love you with all my heart and soul, and it kills me knowing we are doomed from the start," he admitted.
At that moment, the door opened, and Dumbledore, who was talking to McGonagall, walked though. The two professors stopped dead at the sight that they saw before them. Their sweeping eyes took in the scene, and Lupin realized with a sinking feeling that there was no way possible the two of them could lie there way out of the situation they had found themselves in. "What is going on here Remus?" McGonagall asked shrilly
Dumbledore finally took his piercing gaze off of the duo to turn around, his robes sweeping behind him. "My office, now," he ordered. The two in the chair disentangled each other and, hearts dropped, followed behind.
Authors Note: Well, there ya go, chapter two. I started chapter three, but I don't really know where to go with it. Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thanks. Don't forget to Review, it does a body good! ^^
Challenge: BTW, the other day I noticed that there weren't any Percy/Lupin fanfics on ff.so I am tossing out the challenge to get one of yall to write one. ~^.its not a hard pairing, just unusual, but one I would like to see. So get out there and write! ::Points to door:: Not before leaving a review though of what you want to see in the next chappie, of course.
