Can You Really Accept me?

~Disclaimer- these AOS characters do not belong to me, what more can I say~

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If you knew could you accept me for who I am?

If I told you the truth I tried to hide from myself would you understand?

After all that's been done and said would you really be able to understand?

Understand me

My past

My reasons for the lies

My present and future

Would you tell me that it didn't matter and all you carried about was me?

Or would you be like all the others and turn from me, hurt me, screw me and make me loose all my hopes once again?

Or are you truly as different as you seem?

How would you be able to accept me?

I stand for everything you hate.

Everything we've stood against.

And what about her?

I know she must know, he does

I could never be like her, never be perfect, never be able to hold your heart in my hands and make everything all right.

Make life continue to move and make the world spin

If she comes back and revealed it all, that bitch she always had it in for me, does she remember?

She could never accept me and my flaws, or past

Can you really accept me through all this?

How can you accept me when she can't?

I know how much you trust her

How can you accept me when I can't accept myself?

You should know that when I started writing this it was just to vent about me past.

Now I see I have no future

I'm tired, tired of life and living it

So I've decided to put it to an end

Many particularly HER will think I'm taking the cowards way out

That I should face my problems but I say, you never lived my life

Perhaps others will see it as the bravest thing I've done

To face something most people fear, death or dieing

It's hard to sit here and pen these words knowing full well that it is the last thing that I'll do

That in a few minute when I take the knife and cut my wrist that this writing will be all that is left of me

But I get comfort in the fact that with each drop my life becomes closer and closer to ending

So now I say my final goodbyes

Firouz have faith, you've told me how so many time you wanted to kill yourself. DO NOT it's not your destiny. You will be GREAT I know it, I saw it.

Rongar, My silent friend, be strong and safe, may your eyes be ever watchful.

Doubar, keep them all safe where and when I can not.

Dermott, my friend you will be free one day, I know but until then open you're wings and fly, be free.

Sinbad, during life I never got the courage to tell you that I, I love you with all my heart and although I know that you don't love me I know that you're happy and that will do.

I love you all and I am sorry that I lied and that it had to end this way.

Always in life and in death I am and will remain your

Bryn

~If u finished this u must be very, very bored but thanxs for reading~

~Sweetpup~