A/N: Decided to post this right away....I am pretty down though, I got 11 reviews for I Need It and it was only one chapter long. This I have like 5 and it is five chapters long...Should I stop this one? Anyway, the song in this one is 'The Rose' by Bette Midler. Great song, I love Bette!
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Chapter Four
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~*~Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed. Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed. Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need. I say love, it is a flower, and you its only seed.~*~
He hasn't given up on me afterall. Which is pretty hard for me to believe considering I left him for Sark. That is the worst thing I could have done, and yet he can still forgive. Perhaps our love is stronger than I thought.
Though he still has not come to see me in person, I believe he meant what he underlined in that book. I can believe it easily because it mirrors my feelings. I love him. I am not giving up on him or us. ~*~It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance. It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give, and the soul afraid of dyin' that never learns to live.~*~
I only wish I hadn't messed things up so badly. It just feels like everything is a mess now. I should have stayed with him after we took SD-6 down, I shouldn't have been afraid of our relationship. And now I realize why I really left. Because I was afraid of him. I was afraid I would be so happy with him, and then something awful would happen and I would be crushed.
Fear is not something good to have. It is a curse, a forsaken vibe of misery and pain. So then, why do people fear things? To learn from their mistakes? To teach themselves how to become stronger and right wrongs? Why?
~*~When the night has been too lonely and the road has been to long, and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong, just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose. ~*~
My thoughts are once again interrupted by someone. A someone who I never thought I would see again.
"Dixon?"

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A/N: Okay, I know, another cheesy cliffhanger...Sorry! I know the whole thing about fear seems kinda weird, but I wrote it so that you nice ppl could just figure it out by using your crafty little imaginations....blah blah blah...you get the picture. REVIEW!!!