Ok, finally, I'm updating. Yep, you guessed it, here's Emma's point of view
during the wedding. Please read and review! It's much appreciated. Enjoy!
Finally. It's finally happened. The beginning of the rest of my life... It's always
just been me and my mom. Till now... Now I have a family. A father. At first, I
absolutely hated the idea of my mother and Snake together, but I think the truth is,
I was just scared. I was so used to it just being me and mom, we didn't need anyone else.
My mom and I were all each other had, and I didn't want to share her. It was selfish and
childish, but I couldn't help it. I was afraid that of a man came into our life, she'd end up
loving him more than me, and then instead of it being me and my mom, it would just be
me. I'd be all alone. I know now that that's couldn't happen. My mom will always love
me, just like I'll always love her. The love she has for Mr. Simpson is something
different than she has for me, both are equally wonderful, but separate, and I know she
won't confuse them.
I always said that I didn't want a father, that I didn't need one, but I was lying. I
do need a father, and my mom needs a husband. She needs someone to love her and
someone to love. She deserves it. She's so wonderful and deserves to have love. Snake is
wonderful too. As soon as I got to know him more than just a teacher, I realized that he's
really great. It's nice to have him around, it makes it feel like I actually have a family.
And now I really do.
Today was so perfect. I don't know what more I could have possibly asked for in
a day. Everything is so beautiful. Love is so beautiful. It's effecting everyone here, and
it's so wonderful. My mom and Snake, Caitlin and Joey, even Manny and Craig. I
wish I had someone to be effected with... I used to, but that backfired. It's so strange,
it was me who ended everything between me and Sean, and yet I still felt absolutely
terrible about it. It felt like I was the one who had been betrayed. Sure, what he did to me
wasn't good, but still, everyone makes mistakes. He deserved another chance. If I wasn't
so proud and didn't always act on impulse, then I would probably still have him.
As much as I tell everyone that I'm over it all and I couldn't care less about Sean,
that couldn't be farther from the truth. I do still care. A lot. There's something about him
that is comforting and makes it so easy to talk to him. This morning when I thought
everything was going to be ruined because of me, it wasn't Manny I talked to, not Caitlin,
not mom. It was Sean. I don't even know how it happened. My body just told me to go to
him. He knows me so well, and I know him. There are things about him no one can see
and that no one knows, but I can tell just by looking at him. He's someone different
around me. He's himself. I'm different around him too. I don't have to prove anything.
I asked him to come, but I haven't been able to find him. He's probably given up
on me. Of everyone here, he's the only one I want to have anything to do with at the
moment, and he's not even here... But then, who's that.... He has come after all. He's all
alone by a tree. He looks lonely. I don't know why, but I can't help myself from walking
over to him. It's like my body is thinking for itself. However it happened, I'm here,
facing him. "Hey" is all I can manage. I just hope he's not mad at me. "Hey. Um ...It's a
slow song, and you're not dancing" I was afraid things would be awkward.... "No one
really caught my interest" Well, that's not true, why do you think I'm over here...
"Oh. ...How about now?" Is this really happening? "I'd love to." I can't stop smiling. I
missed this. Being close to him. Feeling understood. I forgot how wonderful he could
make me feel. It's funny, how could someone with so many flaws, be so unbelievably
perfect in every way? My body is doing it's own thinking yet again. I think is might be
too. I can't stop leaning closer to him. All I want to do is let him know how much I really
care about him. I want to kiss him so badly. It's so uncontrollable, that I'm doing it. I'm
kissing him. I'm kissing him because I love him. The strange thing about that kiss is that
I had complete control over my body. This is the way everything is really supposed to be.
Finally. It's finally happened. The beginning of the rest of my life... It's always
just been me and my mom. Till now... Now I have a family. A father. At first, I
absolutely hated the idea of my mother and Snake together, but I think the truth is,
I was just scared. I was so used to it just being me and mom, we didn't need anyone else.
My mom and I were all each other had, and I didn't want to share her. It was selfish and
childish, but I couldn't help it. I was afraid that of a man came into our life, she'd end up
loving him more than me, and then instead of it being me and my mom, it would just be
me. I'd be all alone. I know now that that's couldn't happen. My mom will always love
me, just like I'll always love her. The love she has for Mr. Simpson is something
different than she has for me, both are equally wonderful, but separate, and I know she
won't confuse them.
I always said that I didn't want a father, that I didn't need one, but I was lying. I
do need a father, and my mom needs a husband. She needs someone to love her and
someone to love. She deserves it. She's so wonderful and deserves to have love. Snake is
wonderful too. As soon as I got to know him more than just a teacher, I realized that he's
really great. It's nice to have him around, it makes it feel like I actually have a family.
And now I really do.
Today was so perfect. I don't know what more I could have possibly asked for in
a day. Everything is so beautiful. Love is so beautiful. It's effecting everyone here, and
it's so wonderful. My mom and Snake, Caitlin and Joey, even Manny and Craig. I
wish I had someone to be effected with... I used to, but that backfired. It's so strange,
it was me who ended everything between me and Sean, and yet I still felt absolutely
terrible about it. It felt like I was the one who had been betrayed. Sure, what he did to me
wasn't good, but still, everyone makes mistakes. He deserved another chance. If I wasn't
so proud and didn't always act on impulse, then I would probably still have him.
As much as I tell everyone that I'm over it all and I couldn't care less about Sean,
that couldn't be farther from the truth. I do still care. A lot. There's something about him
that is comforting and makes it so easy to talk to him. This morning when I thought
everything was going to be ruined because of me, it wasn't Manny I talked to, not Caitlin,
not mom. It was Sean. I don't even know how it happened. My body just told me to go to
him. He knows me so well, and I know him. There are things about him no one can see
and that no one knows, but I can tell just by looking at him. He's someone different
around me. He's himself. I'm different around him too. I don't have to prove anything.
I asked him to come, but I haven't been able to find him. He's probably given up
on me. Of everyone here, he's the only one I want to have anything to do with at the
moment, and he's not even here... But then, who's that.... He has come after all. He's all
alone by a tree. He looks lonely. I don't know why, but I can't help myself from walking
over to him. It's like my body is thinking for itself. However it happened, I'm here,
facing him. "Hey" is all I can manage. I just hope he's not mad at me. "Hey. Um ...It's a
slow song, and you're not dancing" I was afraid things would be awkward.... "No one
really caught my interest" Well, that's not true, why do you think I'm over here...
"Oh. ...How about now?" Is this really happening? "I'd love to." I can't stop smiling. I
missed this. Being close to him. Feeling understood. I forgot how wonderful he could
make me feel. It's funny, how could someone with so many flaws, be so unbelievably
perfect in every way? My body is doing it's own thinking yet again. I think is might be
too. I can't stop leaning closer to him. All I want to do is let him know how much I really
care about him. I want to kiss him so badly. It's so uncontrollable, that I'm doing it. I'm
kissing him. I'm kissing him because I love him. The strange thing about that kiss is that
I had complete control over my body. This is the way everything is really supposed to be.
