I sit and watch you, alone, though I'm always by your side. I stare at you, sometimes call out for you, but you don't answer. You don't stop, you don't respond. Sometimes it's as if I'm not there.
You're weird, I know that. I know how you are. So dedicated beneath all the layers of books and paper and dust. I know how you can obsess. I know how things seem to pass you by. But still, I can't see how you can miss it. How does it manage pass you by every time I look up into your violet eyes? Do you refuse to see it, every time I steal that passing glance? Are you just completely clueless? Or is it just…is it just me?
You always seem so preoccupied. Especially with that Dragon Knight. Inside and out you're always gone, always thinking about him, always watching him while I'm still here, alone. All alone. Watching only you. Wanting so desperately to understand.
I've tried to make myself understand before, but I can't. I can't see it, and I can't understand why you want him so. Can't understand why you don't see me.
Me.
I'm the one that loves you, dammit!
I'm the one who's always by your side.
Only me.
Always watching, always…always there. And for who? You! Only for you. Duster, vacuum, stove, knife, it doesn't matter. All of it is only for you. All from me. Only from me.
That's why I need to know.
Why do you keep watch over him? Why do you continue to chase him? He won't understand you. He can't understand you. In the end he'll only hurt you, only kill and destroy like he always has and always will. I didn't mind before, it's his business who he kills and doesn't kill. But now it's different. Now if he hurts you, if he even tries, even thinks it, I'll kill him.
Only for you.
So for now all I can do is hope. Hope that maybe, one day you'll look up, or maybe down, and look at me. One day I hope that you'll catch that moment when I fix my eyes on you for just a little bit longer.
One day, maybe. One day. But for now it's just hoping and waiting. Hoping and waiting alone, while the world passes me, passes us by. Hoping and waiting for you.
Only you.
