Chapter 12: Making Up is Hard To Do

Summary: Kathryn is dertimined to forget Sebastian
For as long as I lived I never wanted to hear then name Sebastian Valmont. To me he was dead. With that in mind, I decided that I wasn't going to sit around and sulk over Sebastian being a pathetic mommy's boy. No way In hell, I was Kathryn Merteuil and no man caused me to go down. There was a new club that opened in Manhattan that everyone in school talked about. It was a good time to check it out. I carefully got myself ready and decided to wear my new Escada dress, it fit me like a glove and plunged dangerously low in the neckline. I would be dynamite in that dress and armed with my new Jimmy Choo spiked high heels, I was going to be dangerous tonight.

"Marcus." I barked into the intercom to my chaueffer. "Bring the car around the front. You are driving me to a club in Manhattan."

"Right away Miss Kathryn!"

I gave a final glance in the mirror. I looked hot tonight and I was dertimined to make Sebastian Valmont a distand memory.

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The good things I heard about the club was that they weren't too strict about fake I.D's and had a special room for the important customers to mingle. Of course the bouncer at the door had no problem telling I was one of the important customers and waved me towards the V.I.P room. I walked into the room and began to scan the room for someone that I knew and wanted to be seen with. Tonight the gods were in my favor because I spotted Chase Stanford, the captian of our school's basked ball team and drop dead gorgeous to boot. I siddled my way over to Chase and gave him a sexy smile.

"Care to buy a girl a drink?" I purred sexily.

Chase gave me the once over and eyed my cleavege with a look of appreciation. "Whatever you want baby." Chase grinned and summoned the bartender. "Give the lady whatever she wants." Chase ordered the bartender when he made his way over.

"Stoli on the rocks with a twist of lime." I said. Usually I drank wine, but tonight I was in the mood for hard liquor.

"I like a girl that drinks the good stuff." Chase said leering at me.

"Tonight Chase, you'll like a lot of stuff about me." I said giving him a promising smile.

Chase barely could wait for me to get my drink before he dragged me onto the dance floor. "Kathryn I had my eye on you for a while."

I didn't say anything, only smiled and pressed my body firmly against his and began to move suggestively. Chase got the hint and moved his body with mine and before long we were performing our own sexy dance for each other.

"God Kathryn, you're driving me crazy!" Chase shouted over the loud music.

That was the point and I guided his hand to my ass. Chase gave it a slight squeeze and began to press his groin area into my crotch. We danced like this for a couple of hours, only taking short breaks to drink some more, or down a few shots. Before long I was feeling pretty damn good!

"Enough of this!" Chase suddenly said and grabbed my arm to lead me into a hallway.

"What are you-?" I began to ask but Chase shut me up by pressing his mouth against mine.

"God I wanted this for so long." Chase groaned out and pressed my back against the wall. "You are so god damn sexy!" Chase said and began to pull down the sleeves of my dress past my shoulders.

I closed my eyes and tried to enjoy it, but everytime I closed my eyes an image of Sebastian giving me that sexy smile of his appeared in my mind. Chase had moved my dress down further slowly as he kissed his way down my body. But it did nothing for me and the only feeling I felt was revulsion of his slobbery kissed against my skin. I have fucked guys before that I didn't feel a thing for before, but for some reason tonight it felt so wrong. I tried to close my eyes and lean back and enjoy this, but I just couldn't!

"KATHRYN!" Chase's loud voice broke me out of my thoughts.

"Huh?" I asked opening my eyes and looked down at Chase kneeling down in front of me. "Did you say something?"

Chase gave me a filthy look and rolled his eyes at me. "I said." Chase said in a slow delibarate voice. "Could you at least pretend to enjoy this?"

I looked at him blankly for a second, and I couldn't help myself but burst out laughing.

"What the fuck is so funny?" Chase demanded angrily.

There was no way that I could tell him that what I was laughing about was, that me, Kathryn Merteuil couldn't enjoy the fact that a guy was starting to go down on me! Instead I made an attempt to stop my laughing and gave him a serious look.

"Maybe it's just not working." I said nicely.

Chase gave me an unbelieving look. "Not going to work?" Chase said angrily. "Maybe it's not going to work because your a cold fish!"

I sucked in my breath and gave Chase a deadly look. "What did you say?" I asked in a low voice.

I don't know what happend, maybe he saw my angry flashign eyes, or maybe my low voice scared him off, because he looked at me unsurely and started to back away.

"M-m-maybe you-r-r r-r-right." Chase stammered nervously and backed away slowly out of the hallway.

Dumb Shit! Good riddance! I pulled my dress up my body and adjusted myself the best as possible and made my way the hell out of here. Just as I walked out of the hallway I heard a very familliar laugh and it stopped me short! I turned around and looked around for the owner of that laugh. Soon enough I saw him leaning against the wall and having a close conversation with some girl. My first thought was to run over, but today's events rushed through my mind. Sebastian Valmont was dead to me! That didn't stop me from wanting to walk over and slap him in his grinning face. But I wasn't going to make a fool of myself again, and instead I calmy walked the other way into the ladies room.

Leaning myself against the stall door I struggled to get myself under control. Just when I was about to whip out my small vial of coke, I heard the door swing open. A girl walked in and gave me a shy smile.

"Aren't you Kathryn Merteuil?" The girl asked shyly.

"Yes." I said coldly and turned my face away and looked at myself in the bathroom mirror.

The girl didn't seem to be fazed by my cold behavior and instead gave me an even bigger smile. "God I have heard so much about you." The girl began to gush.

"Do I know you?" I asked rudely.

"Oh not yet." The girl began to babble. "I am new to Manchester, but I heard so much about you. Oh by the was my name is Kelly."

"Hi." I said shortly and began to gather my things.

The girl was a dumb one alright! She put her hand on my arm to stop me. "Guess who asked me to dance?" She asked exitedly.

I really didn't care, but I had to keep my fans happy. I concealed my annoyance and gave her a slightly nicer smile. "Who?"

"Sebastian Valmont!" Kelly gushed.

I took a sharp intake of breath, but covered it well and gave her a charming smile. "Wow!" I said like I cared and gave her a convincing amazed smile. "I never met him before. You must introduce us." I said with false wonder in my voice.

"Oh I would be so happy too!" Kelly said exitedly. I could just picture her excitment at the thought of introducing someone like me to Sebastian, in an effort of impressing him.

"Come on." Kelly said hurriedly as she walked to the door.

"Coming, hon." I said sweetly and followed her out the door.

Just in the short distance, the twit talked my fucking ear off! All about her farm in Montana and how excited she was about living in the 'Big City'. God she was a mini Annette! Where the hell did Sebastian find them? When we made our way towards Sebastian, he almost dropped from schok of seeing me approach him with his latest victim. He struggled to cover and looked over at Kelly questioningly.

"Who's your ner friend?" Sebastian asked her.

"Oh this is Kathryn, my friend." Kelly said off handedly. "Kathryn meet Sebastian Valmont."

"It's nice meeting you." I said sweetly.

Sebastian merely nodded at me and looked very uncomfortable. Dumb Kelly was unaware of the tension and tugged at Sebastian's arm. "C'mon I wanna dance."

Sebastian looked at her as remembering that she was still there. "Kelly honer?" Sebastian said politely and reached into his pocket to pull out of his billfold. "Why don't you be a sweetie and get me a beer?" Sebastian asked and thrust all the money into her hand.

Kelly's eyes almost bugged out at the sight of all that money. "Now?" She pouted.

I saw a look of annoyance cross Sebastian's face as he struggled to remain pleasent to Kelly. "If you go now you can keep the change." Sebastian said in falsely sweet voice.

Well that swiftly changed Kelly's mind and she made a fast dash towards the bar. I would be suprised if we saw her ever again!

"I wanted to call you back." Sebastian said ackwardly.

I regarded him with a cool gaze before answering. "I think our last phone conversation said enough."

"Oh come on Kathryn!" Sebastian said angrily. "What did you expect? My mother was standing right there! Right after you left all she did was nag me about how evil your family was!"

"If you don't have the balls to stand up to your mother, then I really don't think we have future." I said frigidly to him.

"What the fuck did you think I did?" Sebastian suddenly exploded angrily.

"Excuse me?" I said coldly.

"Right after I hung up with you I told my mother to go to hell!" He yelled out. "I went to your house to see you, but the staff told me that you were here so I came here looking for you!"

Who the fuck was he trying to kid? "Then what the hell were you doing with Annette Jr?" I asked nastily.

"What the hell were you doing with Chase Stanford?" Sebastian shot back.

That left me speechless. "What did you say?" I asked .

Sebastian ran his fingers through his hair and gave me a smart ass looking smirk. "I saw you together and I definetly saw you leave the room together."

What was I supposed to say? Say 'Well Sebastian I wanted to get back at you by fucking some other guy'? I seriously doubted that he would take that kindly!

"Oh forget it Sebastian!" I said with much more emotion then I expected. "What's the use? We are too fucking damaged to make each other happy anyway!"

Sebastian gave me an intense gaze. He reached over and siezed me by my arms. "Tell me honestly you truly feel that!"

"What does it matter anyway?" I yelled back at him. "What the fuck does it matter?!"

He squeezed the side of my arms and almost began to shake me. "What the fuck does it matter?" He yelled out. "I'll tell you, you spoiled bitch!" He yelled so loud that people began to hear him over the loud music and look over at us questioningly. "I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!" He screamed out.

I stood there momentarily speechless. Not the most romantic declaration of love, but probably the most suitable for me and Sebastian. All my life I never put much stock in the meaning of love. Look at the marriages I 've been exposed to. My mother and father's and almost everyone else's parents I knew, it was usually just based on money and what you got out of the deal. That's how I lived life, what's in it for me? But Sebastian's declaration of love made my heart leap with joy!

"If you love me fucking mcuh then you'll let the fuck go!" I snapped at him.

Sebastian looked at me and I guess he suddenly realized how he man handled me. "Sorry." He mumbled and instantly dropped his hands.

"Wow I have feeling in my arms again." Isaid sarcastically and moved them around to get the blood flowing back in them.

Sebastian looked down at the ground and peeked a gaze up at me. "Well?" He asked ackwardly. I bet you that this was one of the first times that he ever felt unsure and ackward like this. I should have teased him about it, but hell maybe I was getting soft, because I found it kinda cute.

I looked at him and gave him one of my famous smirks. "I fucking love you too." Isad to him.

Just saying those words felt funny, but so right right there then and now. Just as we moved to embarce each other Kelly walked over clutching a bottle of beer. "I got you your beer." She sad brightly.

Me and Sebastian looked at her and then looked at each other and amirked at each other.We gave each other a silent look that said 'Dumb fucking twit!'. Great minds think alike!

THE END