Title: Call Me Selfish.

Pairing: Looky above at my pen-name.

Disclaimer: *crying uncontrolablely* I told you.. I do NOT own anything *sniffs* Probabely never will *sniffs* but.. in my dreams *grins* that's another story ^.^

A/N: -_- I' just decided to save you the headache from readin all my babbling. Onto the ficcy of mine.

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He hadn't known that he was running that fast. He hadn't even known that he was running in the first place. All he could remember was standing with Mitsui-san, his best buddy and teammate, before he did the last thing he could think of. KISS him! He could remember the sight of him leaning towards him with his half-shut, half-open eyes and then he felt a pair of warm lips on his own. That was the moment he freaked out, it's Mitsui for God's sake. The guy who he took as his brother, his bud. This couldn't be happening. It couldn't be.

And speaking of what could and couldn't, Ryota couldn't see what was around him, all he saw was the lighted road infront of him and him running away. From what? He wasn't sure. To where? He wasn't sure about that either. All he knew that he had to get away from this.. this craziness. He had to get away.

The next thing he knew, there was something wet streaming down his cheeks, tears? Was he really crying? But he didn't give a damn, crying not crying, he had to get away. Somewhere safe, somewhere alone, away from people. Away from his assumed best friend. How could he do such thing? How did he.. Why! Why now!

He grabbed his gym bag and hugged it firmly as he kept running; hoping that it can give him some safety and comfort, not noticing how many heads he had turned around and how many eyes followed him as he passed by. But he hadn't noticed anything; he was in another world, where he was totally confused and lost.

His tears blurred his visions, but he didn't bother himself with wiping them away; his hands were so busy clinging to the gym bag. With unclearly vision, he barely saw the people infront of him and suddenly a figure blocked his way and he hit it fiercely. He felt himself fall on his butt, he looked up trying to recognize the person who stood before him. When he couldn't see well from his tears, he decided to brush them away. With a shakey hand, he wiped them away quickly and looked up to see Sakuragi Gundam.

"Miyagi?!" He looked at Yohei whose brows had shot up in shock, "What's wrong?"

Ryota knew that his eyes would blow any cover he'd try to take, though he couldn't see them, he knew that they were puffy red. He saw Yohei's stretched hand, and he took it quickly; he didn't think that he would be able to get up on his feet on his own. Now, as he was on his feet, he kept a grip on his gym bag and tried to smile.

"What are you doin here?" He managed to ask, he had just noticed that the four guys were hiding from something or someone, not wanting to be seen. He wondered what would grab Sakuragi Gundam's attentions? And why wasn't Sakuragi with them as usual?

Ookusu pointed out, "Look over there!" He said with a smile.

Ryota followed the latter's finger, he pointed to the park, actually, at the bench in the middle of the park. Ryota saw two figures sitting on it, their lips met covering their faces. 'So what?' Ryota thought, 'Why would they be inrested in a couple kissing?! There are millions of them?!'

Suddenly, they broke the kiss and looked at each other with a wide smile. Ryota felt his chest tighten, and his eyes widen with his jaw droping. "What the-?" He chocked out, was he seeing well? Was the couple that sat on that bench be.. 'NO! It's impossible.' He wanted to shout his thoughts out loud, but his dry throat didn't help him at all.

"Aren't they great together?" Takamiya said as he looked at the couple. They all turned to Ryota, shockingly, they saw that the boy had frozen in his place. With widened eyes with wide-opened mouth, "Ryota?!"

He looked at them, closing his mouth but his eyes were still the same and his face kept the stunned expression. He looked at the four figures before him, then at the couple, again at the Gundam. He tightened his grip on the bag, "Impossible." He whispered, then he began to run again.

"What's wrong with him?" Noma asked as he scratched the back of his head, "He doesn't think that Rukawa and Hanamichi are a good couple?"

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He didn't know how he made it to his apartment, but he found himself lying on the bed with his head buried in his pillow. His heart was aching like hell, aching more than his exhausted body was. His confused mind kept asking questions rapidly, and the more it continued, the worse got the questions.

This week wasn't the best, he couldn't recall having worse days than those which passed by. First of all, Ayako's rejection that sent his world upside down. He didn't even get over it completely when Mitsui decided to throw him into another problem, another heartache. Then the third surprise, the icebox and the redheaded monkey were actually a couple now. Everytime those facts hit him, he started to wonder. 'What the hell IS going on?'

He was relaxing a bit when another question popped into his mind. What was he supposed to do now? Rukawa and Sakuragi's relationship wasn't a problem, but Mitsui's feelings was a big problem. He didn't know how he would be able to look at his eyes again and act like nothing had happened, 'cause somthing *had* happened. And it wasn't anything, it was another guy wanting to be with him, and he wished that guy was anyone, he was his BEST bud.

When he found that he was having a hardtime breathing, he rolled onto his side, only to face the wall. A hot sigh came out of him as he closed his eyes trying to relax, but to no avail. This whole situation was a pain in the behind.

The one thing he was sure about that things will never be the same again, noway, nohow. He knew that he couldn't abandon Mitsui's friendship, but in the same time, he knew that hanging around him will be uncomfortable.

Another sigh.

But the other option was.. be with Mitsui. As a boyfriend, he never thought about something like that and if Mitsui hadn't kissed him, he probablely never would. Well, he did love him. As a friend and a brother, yeah undoubtly. As a boyfriend and lover, not sure. This wasn't easy, not easy at all. Ryota was new to the guy-to-guy thing, so he needed some help. From experts, or people who had experienced such stuff.

Ryota shot up from his bed, 'Yeah, experts.' He thought and a smile crossed his face.


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A/N: Short ne? ^^;; I know, I'm not too good with long chapters, blame me. Well, I wanna thank Liete and Mayumi. Gurls.. you rock. ^^
Plz, C&C minna.