Chapter five
Supper went great. Willow told Tara bout how her job as a Professor at the university was going, and Dawn told them about the wedding stuff. Buffy just kind of sat there and listened, because she knew that if she opened her mouth, the news about Piper would just pop out and it would be very bad.

"Hey, uh, Buffy, you ok over there? You haven't said anything tonight," asked a concerned Willow.

"Oh, what? Yeah, I uh, I gotta go patrol now." With that, the slayer stood up, grabbed her dishes and left without another word.

"I wonder what her problem is," grumbled Willow.

"I dunno, but I'm going to go play with Blake. Plus, Anya and I need to uh, do something." Said Dawn, making Willow even more concerned about the sisters.

'Oh, this is just great, now she knows something's going on. Thanks guys!' Tara thought to herself.

"That was extremely strange, don't 'cha think?" asked Willow.

"Oh, yeah. Very strange. But hey, Will, are you done eating?" asked Tara. She was really wanting to go see her daughter, and have Willow meet her. She would let Willow meet Piper even if they got into a fight. It'd have to been done sooner or later, and better sooner than later.

"Yeah, I'm finished, let me just clean up the dishes a lil, and then we can talk k?" Willow asked Tara, hoping to postpone the talk, she hated talks like these. Especially one's with a person you haven't seen for over 3 years. (They'd seen each other when Blake was born.)

"Ok, do you need any help?" Tara asked, hoping to help Willow clean up faster.

"Oh, no, thank you. Why don't you go get comfortable and I'll pick up these real quick like."

"Alright, but hurry, this is really important, and I really need to tell you this, before I just blurt it out." Said Tara, who was getting very nervous at what Willow's reaction would be.

"K, I'll be done in a sec." Willow shouted into the living room, where Tara was now pacing.

"Alrighty, now what did you have to tell me?" asked Willow as she noticed Tara pacing and decided that she should probably sit down, because Tara only paced when she was really nervous.

"Ok, Will, what I'm going to tell you, you're going to probably be extremely mad at me for not telling you sooner, but you have to understand that I didn't tell you for someone else's sake. And I need you to listen to the whole story before you say anything." Tara said, looking at Willow, pleading with her eyes.

"Anything you need." Willow replied, knowing that she was in for it, big time.

"Ok, do you remember the demon Sweet? The one that made us all sing and dance?" Tara asked.

Willow nodded yes.

"OK, well, the part where I sung 'moon to the tide, I can feel you inside', and then I floated, was part of a spell. A spell that can make a person pregnant if they make love right after they say it. And because I said it, and we uh, ya know, right afterwards, got me pregnant."

Willow was now staring in disbelief at her ex-lover. She couldn't believe her ears. Tara had become pregnant, five years ago mind you. And she was just telling her now.

"And I didn't know until after you did that memory erasing spell on all of us. I found out a week after I left you, and I decided that I couldn't let my, our child be around you if you got into the magicks again and ended up hurting someone. I just couldn't. I had to protect her. But I named her Piper, the name you wanted our child to be named if we ever had one. I made sure of that."

Willow was still staring in disbelief, and she was starting to get a little mad. No not just a little, she was pissed.

"Willow, are you ok?" a concerned Tara asked.

"Uh, am I ok? Hell, goddess no I am not ok. Tara, how could you do this to me, keep me from knowing that I have a child? A little girl? Who else knows?" Willow asked in a half yell.

"Ok, Willow, calm down. But, Xander, Anya, Dawn and Buffy all know. And so does Blake." Tara's voice faded out as she noticed Willow had stood up and was now pacing.

"How in the hell can I calm down Tara? Tell me what the fuck am I supposed to do to calm down. For all I knew you could've told me that you were off with someone else, but no, you have a child. We have a child, and I wasn't good enough to even know about it? And you go behind my back and tell all my friends, and they betray me too, just because you're afraid of me? God, is that all I am to you, a big fucking monster who's going to kill your child, my child? You should know better that I'd never do anything to hurt her, and I don't even know her." Shouted Willow.

"See, this is another reason I didn't want to tell you, because you'd be stubborn and not understand why I didn't tell you. Goddess, it's not like I didn't tell Piper she was made out of pure love from two witches. Why in the hell wouldn't I tell her, I didn't think you were ready to know, or take on the responsibility to be a mother, and I was right! I loved you Willow, I loved you more than anything, and you violated me, after what Glory did to me. And then you can't accept that I wanted to protect my daughter from getting hurt like that. Damn you are such a selfish bitch for not even caring about me, or Piper!"

With that Tara turned and ran out the front door to go over to Xander's to get her daughter, and tell everyone that she was leaving. If they ever wanted to see her, or Piper again, they'd have to come see her, or have them come down when Willow wasn't around. Tara thought that Willow didn't deserve to meet her daughter now. And Piper would be able to get over the fact that she'd never meet her.

'Oh shit, this is not good! Why am I such a fucking idiot? I lost her once and now I'm loosing her and my daughter,' Willow thought to herself as she slumped into the couch and sobbed her eyes out.