FOREVER

FOREVER

Year Four

Part Four

Subtitled: The Shattering (Repost)

Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you
But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me



Out of Reach - Gabrielle

You think your world is perfect

You think you've got it all

You think your life is stable

That nothing can make you fall

No one else matters

Only you

But then in a shatter

You loose

Your hanging on by a shred

Barely recognizable

You wish you were dead

A very cheerful poem written for this part by - me

A/N: Okay getting a bit of a writers block here. Any suggestions would be gladly accepted. Please review I'm sorry this is so short! The next will be longer I promise! Thanks to the following people for reviewing! Danisha sparks, Ennia, Bryn, Madoo, George and Fred, Lily White, Deepa, Harry Potter (Alex), Milkyweed, Night_Gurl2002, Kate, Bluewriter

Arwen- Ahhh I loved your story its sooo original! You ARE going to continue it, right? Please!!!!!! I'm dying to see the next part

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A/N two - OK sorry everyone I was writing the next part I discovered a MAJOR!!!!! Plot hole! This is sooo embarassing, Okay Sirius and Lily are cousins so that means I'm going to have to change this around a bit. The next part has Lily and Sirius in a rather comprimising (or so it seems to everyone else) situation. I was ready to post it when it occurred to me that they related and incest is not cool to say the least! I'm really sorry! So here goes.

*****

Lily spun around slowly in her dress and looked up cautiously for approval. Anna was grinning at her like crazy and shoved something in Lily's hand. Lily looked down quizzically.

"Smelling salts?" Lily asked, eyebrows raised. Anna nodded.

"You're going to need them to revive James after he sees you." She said with a giggle. Lily smiled back and turned to the mirror to inspect herself again.

"So, who's Sirius going with?" Lily asked casually. Anna sighed.

"Roslyn." Anna said quietly and moved to rearrange her hair. Lily looked up in surprise.

"Roslyn? Since when?" Anna laughed quietly at the look on her face.

"Since Friday." She said, masterfully avoiding Lily's gaze. "I don't care anyway." Anna's voice reeked with bitterness. Lily silently cursed Sirius' foolishness.

"Yes you do." The sentence hung in the air. Anna neither denied nor confirmed but it didn't matter because they both knew it was true.

"You know, he referred to me as his "sister" the other day." Anna's voice was devoid of emotion but her eyes screamed pain. Lily involuntarily cringed for her friend.

"Ouch." Lily said watching her friend warily. Anna shrugged.

"Yeah, well, you know." Anna sighed quietly. After a moment of awkward silence Anna looked up brightly and smiled. Lily smiled back even though she knew the grin Anna wore was fake. After all, if she was going to play pretend, she might as well not do it alone.

"Ready?" Lily asked, getting up carefully so as not to tear her dress.

"As I'll ever be." Anna said. "As I'll ever be."

*****

The doors to the Great Hall were simply decorated and beheld none of the splendor that Lily new awaited them inside. Remus, who Lily had coerced into selling tickets, stood cheerfully enough behind the counter. He collected their money with a smile that Lily quickly realized was spelled onto his face. After James had paid, they entered the room. An endless shower of confetti fell from the ceiling and the room had been transformed entirely into clouds. Couples, who were dancing, were dancing on individual mini-clouds, which floated slightly above the ground. The chairs and tables had been replaced by clouds. They zoomed by with food atop it, this proved rather annoying because you had grab before it passed and they passed really quickly. This coupled with the Great Hall ceiling which you could barely see through the confetti, was absolutely breathtaking.

"Wow, Lil." James gasped. "You did a great job." Lily blushed under the praise.

"Thanks, but you did all the transfiguration, I just put it together." Lily protested. Anna turned away at this point, not wishing to hear her friends argue over who was the best. Instead she turned her attention to the dancing floor, if you could call it that. She immediately regretted this though, because Sirius was dancing closely with Roslyn. Anna sighed.

"Are you okay?" A voice asked her. Anna gazed lazily over her shoulder before promptly returning her gaze.

"Oh yeah, hey Remus." She said halfheartedly. Remus smiled to himself.

""It's nice to see you too. So what's up." Remus asked following her gaze. "Oh." He said knowingly. Anna raised an eyebrow.

"Oh?" She asked.

"Roslyn and Sirius, right?" Remus asked although he already knew the answer. She nodded.

"Are all guys this dense?" Anna asked, her eyes never leaving Sirius who was now laughing with Roslyn about something. Now it was Remus' turn to sigh.

"I'm afraid so. But he means well, really. Sirius is not a bad guy."" Remus said feeling compelled to protect his friend. Anna gave a hollow laugh.

"If I thought he was a bad guy, then I wouldn't be in this situation." Remus blushed as he realized she was right.

"Right, yes, of course." He said quickly. "Would you… would you like some punch?" He asked after awhile. Anna nodded absently and Remus left to find a cloud. After he had left Lily walked up to her.

"Somebody's got a crush." She said in a singsong voice. Anna shook her head violently.

"If you think I'm crushing on Remus your are seriously mistaken." Anna said her voice dangerously quiet. Lily rolled her eyes and sighed.

"Not you, genius, Remus." Lily said a smile playing on her lips as she waited for Anna's reaction. Anna, who was ordinarily very quick, stared at Lily blankly for a moment. Suddenly the force of what Lily had just said hit her and she shook her head violently.

"No… no you must be wrong! He doesn't like me, he pities me, that's all." Lily raised her eyebrow with disbelief.

"I think you need to see the nurse." Lily said with mock seriousness. Anna's face twisted with confusion.

"Why?" She asked.

"Because she's just come out with a wonderful new pill for denial." Lily could barely contain her laughter as Anna glared at her.

"Denial about what?" Remus asked as he came up behind them suddenly. Lily laughed even harder at his appearance and couldn't help but note how Remus blushed when he handed Anna her drink. Anna glared at Lily even harder.

"Nothing." She said through clenched teeth. "In fact Lily was just leaving, weren't you Lily?" Now it was Lily's turn to look confused although her confusion was an act.

"No." She said innocently enough. Anna's eyebrows shot up.

"Oh yes you were." Anna grabbed her arm and began to steer her in the opposite direction. Lily turned her head toward Remus as she was led away.

"I'm getting the idea that I'm not wanted." She said with amusement apparent in her voice. Remus laughed.

"Now, where would you get an idea like that?" Remus' voice dripped with sarcasm. " I was just wondering if you wanted to dance, especially since you're not wanted and all." His voice sounded very uneasy, as though he was unsure. She nodded and followed him onto the dance floor.

Great! Anna thought Just great even the guy who's supposed to like me, doesn't like and to top it all off my best friend totally deserted me. She stared dejectedly at them twirling away and asked the first guy she saw, who happened to be Sirius, to dance.

*****

James turned slowly around. It seemed as though all his friends had disappeared. As far as he could figure it out Anna and Sirius were dancing together.

Whoa he thought Anna and SIRIUS?!?! I knew she liked him but Sirius? Sirius doesn't her, I don't think so anyway. Suddenly he spotted Lily's red hair and walked (floated) quickly over to her.

*****

Anna strained her neck to get a glimpse of Lily and Remus. She had to talk to Lily. She finally spotted them and tore herself away from Sirius.

"Uh…I'll be right back…" Was the best explanation she could manage as she walked quickly over to her friend. As she got close to them she stopped suddenly. Her eyes grew wide with shock and she wondered what on earth she was going to tell James but as luck would have it, James saw it for himself.

*****

It took all of James' strength not to cry out. He couldn't believe it. Remus had just kissed Lily! His best friend had just kissed his girlfriend and it sure as hell wasn't in a platonic way. Finally, just as his self control was about to collapse, Lily pulled away and slapped Remus hard across the face. James, seeing his opening, ran at Remus and punched him hard in the stomach. Lily looked up alarmed and jumped nearly a foot when she saw James. She lowered her head in shame. Just then Remus hit James back, square on the jaw. Before long the were wrestling on the ground. Sirius, seeing the trouble, ran over and pulled them apart. He glanced at each of them quickly. When he first looked, he glanced and looked away.

"Whoa. Remus? James?" He did a double take. They continued to stay in resentful silence. James' rage was so concentrated that he didn't even notice Anna walk over. "Did you know you were fighting each other?" Sirius asked, surprise evident in his voice. "What happened here?" James looked away and Remus fought the hold the Sirius had over him. Suddenly James turned back to his friends.

"Nothing, anything that EVER happened here is over. OK? OVER! It's OVER." He shot meaningful glares at Lily and Remus and strode out of the room. Sirius hurried after him and Lily ran in the opposite direction, tears of shame welling in her eyes and Anna was close on her heels.

*****

Remus Lupin stood impatiently in front of the mirror. He tapped his watch expectantly and stared intently at his image. Suddenly a surge of sickness swept through him. He doubled over and prepared himself as best as possible for the oncoming onslaught of pain. But, being a coward by nature, he didn't last long. Soon he was howling in pain and begging for it to stop. When the sickness finally subsided he took a few minutes to steady himself before looking into the mirror again. He sighed with relief as Peter Pettigrew stared back. He was back to normal again.

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