CLASSIFICATION: PG-13 for language and thoughts.
SUMMARY: Sirius must decide wither or not to go to the Quidditch game.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Harry Potter, in any way, shape or form. I love to read the books, but I sure don't own them. J.K. Rowling and WB do. This is simply a tribute to the Harry Potter series. I am making no money from this and I'm just enjoying sharing some of my own crazy ideas.
AUTHORS NOTE: This is Sirius' thoughts... He's not talking to anyone, it's all in his mind.
THANK YOU: I would like to thank my beta reader, ***Draco~Malfoy~Lover***. Thank you so much.
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Chapter Seven
A Decision


I saw some signs up in the school; Gryffindor vs. Slytherin: Quidditch match, November 7th. I haven't seen a Quidditch match in years. I was considered a damned good Beater in my day. And Prongs... Prongs was the best Seeker we ever had. I wonder who holds our positions now?

I'm unsure about going to the game, but if this rain keeps up, it really won't make a difference. No one can really see anything and even if they do, they'll just think I'm someone else's dog.

The question is... do I deserve to go watch this game. I am a failure.

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I am a failure to Prongs because I couldn't protect him.

I am a failure to Kitty because I didn't listen to her. That I couldn't give her the pleasure of hearing 'You were right, I was wrong'.

I am a failure to Harry for so many reasons. For not protecting his parents, making him an orphan at such a young age. For not being able to bring their killer to justice way back then. For not being there to protect him though the years. And now for not being able to kill Wormtail.

And now... now I am a failure to the Fat Lady. I am no longer worthy of using her name. She will never forgive me for what I have done.

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Yet some how I must get into that dorm to kill that rat.

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Do I deserve to go to the game?

I have barely left this Shack since Halloween night. Only to get some scraps, lap at some water and catch a rabbit in the Forbidden Forest. I need to eat and drink if I'm to live to kill that rat.

However, that doesn't answer my question. The game is tomorrow morning and I still don't know if I should go or not.

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Lets figure out the facts...

1. The Dementors will not be there.
2. No one knows that I am a dog.
3. I might see Harry.
4. I might get caught.
5. The Dementors might actually be there.
6. It's raining.
7. The rain might stop.
8. That cat might be there.
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There are a lot of might's on that list. I don't know what I should do. I know Dumbledore wouldn't let the Dementors near the students, he never did like them. But what if they crash the game? The high emotions that the students will let off, it will be like huney to them.

However, if I stay higher up in the bleachers, they would never know that it was me even if they did come... I hope.

If I go, I might get to see Harry... my godson. He's growing up so fast and I've missed most of his life so far. I don't want to miss any more than I have to. I wonder what he's like? Is he a good student? What House is he in? I hope he's in Gryffindor. Does he have many friends? Is he any thing like Prongs and Kitty?

I want to know all these things and so much more...

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I know no one will be able to recognize me because I'll be a dog, but if that cat is there... I think it knows that I am no dog. I hope that if it is there, it will leave me alone. I don't need to get in a fight with it. I'll be caught for sure if that happens.

In this rain... no one will see me...

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I'll make a deal, if this rain tapers off, then I won't go to the game. If the rain continues like it has been, then I'll go. It will be good to see a Quidditch match again.

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It's a deal then... tomorrow I'll go.