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*~*~*:-)*~*~*Bye, smile :-)
Rory lay on her bed and cried. This was all Jess' fault. Why did he have to bring Dean up in every conversation they had ? She said that she was sorry for kissing him and leaving without saying anything. So she didn't write him or call him, but she couldn't she was too busy. Okay that was an excuse. She was too afraid to call him. And she did avoid him, until tonight anyway. She hoped that he was happy.......they talked, well sort of anyway and her life was falling apart. Deep in her heart she knew that it wasn't Jess' fault, but that it was her fault. Everything was her fault.....why did she have to kiss him ? She kept telling herself that she only did it, because she was happy to see him, but it was more...she knew it and Jess knew it. She kept on crying. She didn't even hear her mom come home. A few minutes later there was a knock on her door.
L: ''Rory.....honey, can I come in ?''
Rory wiped her tears away and sat up straight.
R: ''Sure.''
Lorelai came in and sat down next to Rory on her bed.
L: ''Is everything okay ?''
R: ''Yeah, fine. Why ?''
L: ''Cause you just left.''
R: ''Didn't Jess tell you that I went home ?''
L: ''He did, but I'm still worried about you. Is it because of Jess ? Did he do something to you or did he say something to you.........? If he hurt you, I swear I'll........''
R: ''No, it isn't Jess.''
L: ''Then what is it ?''
R: ''I don't know............maybe I'm just tired.''
Rory put a fake smile on her face and looked at her mom. Did she buy it ? She hoped so, she didn't wanna tell her mom about what happened last night. Her mom didn't even know about the kiss. Rory never lied to her mom before, but this was something that her mom couldn't fix. Rory was the only one who could fix it........she had to fix it, because if she didn't her whole life would fall apart piece by piece.
L: ''You look tired.........Are you sure that you're okay ?''
R: ''Yes, don't worry. I just need to get some sleep, that's all.''
L: ''It's still early, we could go and get some coffee at Luke's.''
Rory didn't even have to think about the answer she was going to give her mom. Jess was probably going to be there and she wasn't ready for another fight with him. One fight was enough for one day.
R: ''No, I'll pass. I think I'm just going to sleep.''
L: ''Okay sweetie. I'm sorry for dragging you with me to the dance- marathon.''
R: ''You should be......who won anyway ?''
L: ''Guess.............''
R: ''O no.......Kirk won ?!''
L: ''Yep,he took his victory dance and got his moment in the spotlight. He went home with the trophy after rubbing it in my face of course. I just wanted to take the trophy and hit him on the head with it, right there and then.''
R: ''Maybe next year.''
L: ''Yeah, maybe. Who knows.''
Lorelai got up, gave Rory a kiss on her head and left the room.
Rory sighed and curled her knees up. She started to cry again. What was wrong with her ? She and Jess had a fight so what, she avoided him since she came back from Washington and that counted as a fight too, right ? It wasn't a physical fight or a verbal fight, but it was a silent fight, if you could call it that. She hoped that he just forgot about the kiss, but of course he didn't. She didn't forget, so why should he ? She wrapped her arms around her knees and lay her head down on her knees. Rory just sat there, crying. Making sure that her mom didn't hear it.
Jess looked at Rory. She was sitting on her bed crying. Did he do that ? Did he make her cry ? He felt horrible now. When he was dancing with Rory everything was normal for a while. Until he brought up Dean.....why did he always have to do that ? He always had to mention Dean and make things worse between him and Rory. He reached out and wanted to tap on the window. But he stopped, only inches away from the window. Why should he apologize ? It wasn't his fault that she was crying. She couldn't blame this on him, like she always did when she had problems with Dean. It was her own fault that she was there right now, crying. She caused it, by kissing him and lying to Dean about it. He lowered his arm. She told him that the kiss meant nothing to her, when she just came back from Washington. She came into Luke's with her mom, because she thought that he wasn't there, but he was. He just waited, until her mom left and she was alone. Then he showed himself to her.....and she left without even looking at him. But luckily he knew where she was going......to the bridge. She always went there when she had problems or when she just wanted to be alone. He went to the bridge and sure enough there she was......sitting on the bridge staring at the water. When she heard him come towards her, she got up and wanted to leave. But he stopped her and asked her what was wrong. She said that it was nothing. Then he asked her, why she had to go. She said that she just wanted to go home. He told her that she was lying and that that wasn't the reason why she was so eager to leave. It was him. Rory pretended not to know what he was talking about. Then he got mad and started to yell at her. He didn't want to, but it was just too much. He pointed out that she kissed him and asked her if she forgot. She apologized for kissing him. Jess said that he didn't want to hear that. She asked him what he wanted to hear. He let her go and asked her if the kiss meant anything to her and she said............no. Then she left without even looking at him. And from that moment on, she avoided him. She avoided all the places that he could be. First the diner..............and later she even started to avoid the bridge. Jess put his hands in his pockets. She asked the same question tonight. What he wanted ? Didn't she get it ? He just wanted to know what to do, where to go from here. And if the kiss didn't mean a thing to her, then why didn't she tell Dean and her mom about the kiss yet. Maybe she didn't, because she was afraid that Dean would break up with her and that her mom would get mad at her. But Lorelai would get over it and Dean.................well he didn't deserve her anyway. If she only knew how much she was hurting him, by still being with Dean and lying to him and her mom. Maybe she was just afraid of what was going to happen, when everything was out in the open. Well, he was afraid too. He wished that he could tell her.......about his fear and his other feelings. He never met a girl like her before and tonight he ruined his last chance to make things better. She would probably never talk to him again. He looked at Rory one last time, turned around and went back to the diner.
There it was two broken hearts in Stars Hollow....one crying on the outside where you could see and the other one crying on the inside, hiding his feelings from Rory and the world. Both afraid of what was going to happen and both sad, because they couldn't be together.
*~*~*:-)*~*~*Bye, smile :-)
Rory lay on her bed and cried. This was all Jess' fault. Why did he have to bring Dean up in every conversation they had ? She said that she was sorry for kissing him and leaving without saying anything. So she didn't write him or call him, but she couldn't she was too busy. Okay that was an excuse. She was too afraid to call him. And she did avoid him, until tonight anyway. She hoped that he was happy.......they talked, well sort of anyway and her life was falling apart. Deep in her heart she knew that it wasn't Jess' fault, but that it was her fault. Everything was her fault.....why did she have to kiss him ? She kept telling herself that she only did it, because she was happy to see him, but it was more...she knew it and Jess knew it. She kept on crying. She didn't even hear her mom come home. A few minutes later there was a knock on her door.
L: ''Rory.....honey, can I come in ?''
Rory wiped her tears away and sat up straight.
R: ''Sure.''
Lorelai came in and sat down next to Rory on her bed.
L: ''Is everything okay ?''
R: ''Yeah, fine. Why ?''
L: ''Cause you just left.''
R: ''Didn't Jess tell you that I went home ?''
L: ''He did, but I'm still worried about you. Is it because of Jess ? Did he do something to you or did he say something to you.........? If he hurt you, I swear I'll........''
R: ''No, it isn't Jess.''
L: ''Then what is it ?''
R: ''I don't know............maybe I'm just tired.''
Rory put a fake smile on her face and looked at her mom. Did she buy it ? She hoped so, she didn't wanna tell her mom about what happened last night. Her mom didn't even know about the kiss. Rory never lied to her mom before, but this was something that her mom couldn't fix. Rory was the only one who could fix it........she had to fix it, because if she didn't her whole life would fall apart piece by piece.
L: ''You look tired.........Are you sure that you're okay ?''
R: ''Yes, don't worry. I just need to get some sleep, that's all.''
L: ''It's still early, we could go and get some coffee at Luke's.''
Rory didn't even have to think about the answer she was going to give her mom. Jess was probably going to be there and she wasn't ready for another fight with him. One fight was enough for one day.
R: ''No, I'll pass. I think I'm just going to sleep.''
L: ''Okay sweetie. I'm sorry for dragging you with me to the dance- marathon.''
R: ''You should be......who won anyway ?''
L: ''Guess.............''
R: ''O no.......Kirk won ?!''
L: ''Yep,he took his victory dance and got his moment in the spotlight. He went home with the trophy after rubbing it in my face of course. I just wanted to take the trophy and hit him on the head with it, right there and then.''
R: ''Maybe next year.''
L: ''Yeah, maybe. Who knows.''
Lorelai got up, gave Rory a kiss on her head and left the room.
Rory sighed and curled her knees up. She started to cry again. What was wrong with her ? She and Jess had a fight so what, she avoided him since she came back from Washington and that counted as a fight too, right ? It wasn't a physical fight or a verbal fight, but it was a silent fight, if you could call it that. She hoped that he just forgot about the kiss, but of course he didn't. She didn't forget, so why should he ? She wrapped her arms around her knees and lay her head down on her knees. Rory just sat there, crying. Making sure that her mom didn't hear it.
Jess looked at Rory. She was sitting on her bed crying. Did he do that ? Did he make her cry ? He felt horrible now. When he was dancing with Rory everything was normal for a while. Until he brought up Dean.....why did he always have to do that ? He always had to mention Dean and make things worse between him and Rory. He reached out and wanted to tap on the window. But he stopped, only inches away from the window. Why should he apologize ? It wasn't his fault that she was crying. She couldn't blame this on him, like she always did when she had problems with Dean. It was her own fault that she was there right now, crying. She caused it, by kissing him and lying to Dean about it. He lowered his arm. She told him that the kiss meant nothing to her, when she just came back from Washington. She came into Luke's with her mom, because she thought that he wasn't there, but he was. He just waited, until her mom left and she was alone. Then he showed himself to her.....and she left without even looking at him. But luckily he knew where she was going......to the bridge. She always went there when she had problems or when she just wanted to be alone. He went to the bridge and sure enough there she was......sitting on the bridge staring at the water. When she heard him come towards her, she got up and wanted to leave. But he stopped her and asked her what was wrong. She said that it was nothing. Then he asked her, why she had to go. She said that she just wanted to go home. He told her that she was lying and that that wasn't the reason why she was so eager to leave. It was him. Rory pretended not to know what he was talking about. Then he got mad and started to yell at her. He didn't want to, but it was just too much. He pointed out that she kissed him and asked her if she forgot. She apologized for kissing him. Jess said that he didn't want to hear that. She asked him what he wanted to hear. He let her go and asked her if the kiss meant anything to her and she said............no. Then she left without even looking at him. And from that moment on, she avoided him. She avoided all the places that he could be. First the diner..............and later she even started to avoid the bridge. Jess put his hands in his pockets. She asked the same question tonight. What he wanted ? Didn't she get it ? He just wanted to know what to do, where to go from here. And if the kiss didn't mean a thing to her, then why didn't she tell Dean and her mom about the kiss yet. Maybe she didn't, because she was afraid that Dean would break up with her and that her mom would get mad at her. But Lorelai would get over it and Dean.................well he didn't deserve her anyway. If she only knew how much she was hurting him, by still being with Dean and lying to him and her mom. Maybe she was just afraid of what was going to happen, when everything was out in the open. Well, he was afraid too. He wished that he could tell her.......about his fear and his other feelings. He never met a girl like her before and tonight he ruined his last chance to make things better. She would probably never talk to him again. He looked at Rory one last time, turned around and went back to the diner.
There it was two broken hearts in Stars Hollow....one crying on the outside where you could see and the other one crying on the inside, hiding his feelings from Rory and the world. Both afraid of what was going to happen and both sad, because they couldn't be together.
