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Rory sat down on her bed and looked at the box that she held in her hands. She opened the box and looked at the letters. Jess was wrong. She did write him. She wrote him a letter every night. She just didn't send them. She was too afraid at the time. The letters described her days in Washington and avoided the kiss and her feelings for Jess, except for the last one. She wrote that on her last night in Washington. She took the letter and read it for the first time since she wrote it. All her feelings about Jess and the kiss were written down in this letter. She even wrote that she was afraid, because she wasn't used to someone like Jess. She was used to Dean. Dean........what was she going to do about him ? She avoided him for a whole day now and it felt terrible. She had always been truthful to Dean about her feelings, she never lied to him before. She knew that she couldn't just keep lying to him, she knew that she had to tell him about the kiss..........soon. She never thought that this would happen. She never imagined that someone like Jess would come into her life and change it so radical. The last thing she wanted to do was hurt Dean, but she didn't have a choice. She had feelings for Jess and she wanted to know if Jess had feelings for her too. But if she was going to find out, she had to let Dean go. Because if she didn't, she wasn't being true to herself or Dean. She just hoped that Jess would forgive her, so that they could talk. Really talk about everything that happened between them.

L: ''I'm home !''

Rory quickly put the letters back in the box and hid it under her bed.

L: ''Sweets ?''

R: ''In here !''

A moment later Lorelai came into Rory's room with a bag of groceries in her arms.

R: ''Are those groceries ?''

L: ''Yeah, I went to Doose's before I came home.''

R: ''Pinch me I must be dreaming.''

L: ''Very funny. I'm going to cook dinner tonight.''

Lorelai left Rory's room and went into the kitchen. Rory got up and followed her mom into the kitchen.

R: ''Why ?''

L: ''What do you mean why ?''

R: ''You can't cook.''

L: ''Of course I can cook. I just never did it before.''

R: ''You never cooked before, because you can't cook.''

L: ''I hate it when you're right.''

R: ''So what now ?''

L: ''We do what we always do.''

R: ''And that is ?''

L: ''We go to Luke's.''

R: ''Actually I changed my mind.''

L: ''Why ?''

R: ''Because I think it might be amusing to watch you cook.''

L: ''Okay, what's going on ?''

R: ''Nothing.''

L: ''Then why don't you wanna go to Luke's ?''

R: ''I just don't.''

Rory got up and went into the living room, hoping that her mom would just leave it. But of course she didn't.

L: ''Something's going on with you and I wanna know.''

R: ''Mom, there's nothing wrong with me.''

L: ''Oh really. You've been avoiding Luke's ever since you got back from Washington, you don't spend time with Jess anymore. Not that I'm not thankful for that, because believe me I am, but you and Jess used to be friends and now you guys hardly ever say one word to each other.''

R: ''So ? I have to study a lot and me and Jess are two different people.''

L: ''Fine, then what about Dean ?''

R: ''What about him ?''

L: ''I haven't seen him around a lot lately and at Doose's he ignored me. What was that all about ?''

Rory didn't say anything and started to cry. Lorelai hugged Rory. Rory kept on crying and Lorelai felt horrible, because she wasn't able to help Rory. She didn't know what was bothering her and Lorelai hated it.

L: ''Ror, tell me.''

R: ''I can't, not yet.''

Lorelai said nothing and just held Rory. This was the first time that Rory didn't tell her mom about her problems and she knew that it was killing her. But she wasn't ready to tell her mom yet.