Title: Needing You Always

Written By: Landell

Disclaimer: The characters of this story are not mine.  All characters belong to J. K. Rowling and the Harry Potter Series.

            ~ This is my second story.  I hope that you like it.  I think this one is better than the first.  Read it and Read: Destined to Love and tell me what you think.  I love to hear from readers.  Thanks a bunch!!!~

            ~ Just a little note: In my story, it wasn't just Lily who had green eyes.  James also had green eyes.  It's not really important now but it will be later.  Hope you like this chapter.  This one is my pride and joy.  Thanks!  Peace, Love, and Magic!!!  Landell!!! ~

Chapter 9: Dear, Dear Water Lily

            When Harry could see that Remus had calmed down, he began to speak up.

            "Umm, Remus?" He asked when Sirius had released Remus from his arms.  "Why were you talking about my mother like that?"

            Sirius looked like he was about to say something but Remus placed a hand on his chest, warding him off.

            "You see, Harry, when I first came to Hogwarts, I didn't have any friends." Remus said taking a seat on the lawn chair.  Sirius placed a reassuring hand on Remus' shoulder and genially squeezed.  Remus placed his hand over top of Sirius'.  This intrigued Harry but he did not interrupt. 

            "No matter how hard I tried, no one wanted to be my friend.  It wasn't until the middle of my second year that Lily came over and talked to me.  I didn't know why and I didn't care.  All I cared about was that I had a friend.  Lily and I became very close after that.  She was even closer to me than to people that she had known all her life.  She confided in me all her secrets and I in her.  But my biggest secret she had already figured out.  She also was an illegal Animagus, which was before your father, Sirius, or Peter even thought about doing it."

            "She was a beautiful red colored collie." Sirius said softly.  "With green eyes."

            "Well, when did you all become friends?" Harry asked sitting on the edge of his seat.

            "That was towards the end of our second year." Remus said with a sigh.  A faint smile spread across his lips.  He looked up at Sirius, who smiled back and nodded his head.  "Like I had said, I had confided in Lily all my darkest secrets and her in me."

            Remus took a big gulp before he continued.  Sirius seemed stiff and tense standing next to Remus.

            "I confided in Lily that I was gay, Harry.  Lily accepted me with all her love and I will always love her for that.  She was like a sister to me.  But I also confided in her that I had feelings for a certain black, ragged haired Gryffindor Keeper."

            With that, Remus turned his gaze upwards which Harry could tell was leading to Sirius.  Harry dropped his jaw in shock.  Remus continued.

            "Lily told me that she had feelings for a short black haired, green eyed Gryffindor Seeker.  Well, we valued right then and there that our dreams were going to come true."

            Remus stopped there letting silent tears fall to the ground.  Sirius took over.

            "Lily approached me after one of our quidditch practices.  It was funny, really.  Lily seemed to know everybody better then they did themselves.  She saw right through me when she asked if I was gay and I lied.  Didn't believe me for a minute.  She said I was a liar and that she was going to hock me up with someone if I hadn't lied.  Well, I quickly jumped on that."

            "Sirius and I had our first date one night after Sirius was finished with his quidditch match with the Slytherin's.  I watched Sirius the whole night on the field.  I almost couldn't believe that I was meeting him under the bleachers when the match was over.  But there he was in his blood and dirt stained robs.  We talked, just talked well into the morning.  As I was about to leave, Sirius grabbed a hold of me, kissed me passionately, and asked when he could see me again.  Well, right then and there I valued that I would help Lily land James Potter just as she had help me get my Paddy."

            "So," Sirius began.  "Remy asked me to push James in Lily's direction.  It was short, easy work, as your father had always had eyes for your mother.  I just assured him that Lily felt the same for him."

            "We became the best of friends." Remus said tearfully.  "Lily helped James, Sirius, and Peter become Animagus.  They all came to visit me whenever I became a wolf.  I was never lonely again."

            Silence filled in around them.  No one spoke; the tension becoming increasingly thick.  Suddenly, Remus broke down.

            "I don't know what I would have done if Lily hadn't been there." Remus cried.  "I probably would have killed myself.  That's why I was so upset about those albums.  Lily loved them.  They were our good times.  We didn't have too many for a long time.  Hearing Lily had died had been like a knife in the heart.  It Sirius hadn't been there for me, although it wasn't a long time because he was taken from me, I would have died."

            Sirius shuddered at those words.  He couldn't picture a life without his beloved Remus.

            "So you two are lovers?" Harry asked.

            "Yes, Harry." Sirius said.  He seemed rather scared.  "Remus and I are lovers.  We have decided to get married as soon as possible."

            Harry didn't say a word.  He just got to his feet and ran to Sirius hugging him deeply and lovingly.

            "Thank God!" Harry said when he pulled back to look at his godfather's face.  "I thought I'd have no one to talk to."

            "Harry?  You mean you're gay?" Remus asked reaching out to touch his arm.

            "Yes." Harry said with a sigh of relief.  "I'm gay."

            "Harry, are you sure?" Sirius asked him.

            "Yes." Harry said as he reached up and held the tiny silver dragon in his hand.  Soft feelings of discomfort but still a warm feeling flowed over Harry.

            "Do you have a boyfriend, Harry?" Sirius asked with his famous Marauder's mischief in his eyes.

            "Yes." Harry said as he seemed to turn as red as a Weasley's hair.  "I have a boyfriend."

            "Who is he, Harry?" Sirius asked his eyes wide with curiosity.  "Do I know him?"

            "Draco Malfoy." Harry and Remus said in unison.

            Harry turned and stared at Remus.  He couldn't believe that Remus had known.

            "How did you…"
            "I could see it in your eyes." Remus explained with a wave of his hand.  "The way you two used to glare at each other.  I could see the love.  There is a very thin line between love and hate, Harry."
            "Draco Malfoy." Sirius muttered under his breath.  "Lucius Malfoy's son?"

            "Draco is NOT his father." Harry said so forcefully that it made Sirius shack.  "Draco has pledged his love to me.  He would never do anything to hurt me."

            "I'm sorry, Harry." Sirius said.  "I didn't mean to judge.  There's just a lot of bad history there."

            "I understand." Harry said.  "Can you do me a favor, though?"

            "Definitely." Remus said with a smile.

            "Can I have Draco deliver his letters to me to you guys?  I don't want Ron or Hermione getting suspicious."

            "Sure thing." Sirius said giving Harry a slap on the back.  "Writing each other every day?"
            "Yes." Harry said.  "How did you know?"

            "Sirius and I wrote each other everyday during to summers as well." Remus said his smile spreading into a smirk.  "He's such a big softy."

            "You're one to talk." Sirius said with a back handed slap on Remus' shoulder.

            "Hey!  Are you guys just going to sit there all night or are you going to come in here and have some tea?" Ron's voice floated across the lawn from the back door.  Harry could just see Ron's flaming red hair in the darkness.

            "Whelp, are you two coming?" Harry asked as he made his way up the lawn.

            "I don't know." Sirius said.

            "Come on, Padfoot." Remus said as he stood and pulled Sirius after him.  They followed Harry up towards the Barrow.  "We need to say 'Hi,' to Arthur and Molly.  Besides, I want to see Hermione."