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Loving Hikari

Chapter 3

Aishiteru Sora

The pain hit Kari seconds after she pressed the blade against her skin. Kari started to cry even more. It hurt so much!

"Kari? Kari? Open the door!" T.K said from the other side of the door. He hadn't realized what was happening inside.

Then Kari started to bawl, she started screaming, the blood trickled down and the sight of it scared Kari.

"KARI? KARI?" T.K's voice turned into worry. "OPEN THE DOOR KARI! TAI, TAI! COME HERE!"

Kari fell down against her bed, one of her hands clutching her wrist.

Suddenly the door opened forcefully, Tai and T.K had kicked it open.

"Oh my god Kari!" Tai cried as he ran to her and scooped her in his arms.

"Hika...Hikari-chan..." That was all T.K could say.

"T.K, don't just stand there! Grab the car keys in my room!" Tai cried.

T.K nodded and hurried to Tai's room while Tai got out of the apartment and ran with Kari in his arms to the car park. Kari was still holding on to her wrist, trying to block the blood from coming out. She sobbed loudly on Tai's shoulder.

"Onni-chan, gomene... gomene..." She sobbed.

"It's ok Kari..." Tai soothed.

Soon enough T.K was beside Tai and they both made their way to Tai's car.

T.K inserted the key to the front door and unlocked all of the doors. Tai opened the back door with one of his hands and placed Kari on the seat, quickly but gently. After that he ran to the front seat, turned on the engine, and drove out of the car park as quickly as he could. He didn't care whether he would get a speeding ticket, he didn't care if the cameras on the traffic lights snapped pictures of his number plate for going through the red light. All he cared about was getting Kari into a hospital and fast!

"Onni-chan...it...it really hurts..." Kari said from the back.

"I know Kari, I know, just hold on, we're almost there," Tai answered quickly.

Kari started to cry again, looking so helpless while clutching her wrist. Some blood had escaped her hold and had slithered down her arms and down to the seat.

T.K turned from the front chair and gazed at Kari sorrowfully. His blue eyes showed his pain, sorrow and agony as if it was him who had cut his own wrist.

Kari saw his eyes that were full of pain. She felt so bad inside. She was the cause of his sorrow.

"Gomene...Takeru-chan..." she mouthed softly.

T.K took of his seatbelt and from the gap of his chair and Tai's, he went to the back.

"T.K what are you doing?!!" Tai asked.

T.K didn't answer him, instead he lifted Kari's head from the seat, placed it on his shoulder, held on to Kari's wrist and was kissing Kari's hair as tear by tear escaped his eyes.

"Almost there Kari, almost there Kari..."

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"Argh! Where is he?" A girl complained to herself as she crossed her arms.

She knocked on the door of the apartment for the third time and waited, but no one came.

Finally, she gave up. She turned away from the door and started making her way to the elevator. Should she go up to her home and wait for his call? Or she should just take a walk by the streets and maybe bump into him?

She debated in her mind what to do, the elevator door opened and she walked in. Her hands pressed the ground level.

Might as well go somewhere, there's nothing to do at home anyway, she thought.

As she was walking away from the building, she heard his voice for the second time that day. The voice that had told her what he really felt for her.

"Sora, Aishiteru Sora, Aishiteru..."

It was as if the wind were whispering those last emotional words that he had said to her. Sora turned her head towards his building, his old home. She looked at his balcony, half expecting him to come out and start screaming Tai's name.

Sora felt the urge to go over his place, to see his room, to feel his presence. She missed him so much. She started to walk over to his place while remembering how it was like when she first found out that he had committed suicide.

Creak. She had just turned the tap off from washing the dishes. Even though she was only living with her mum, there were plenty of plates, mugs and cutleries to wash.

She was about to go to her room to rest when she heard the noise of a siren and screaming, loud screaming that sounded so much like Kari's voice. Sora ran to her door and looked down from the railings. There was no doubt, it was Kari's voice. Sora looked at the ambulance that had stopped in between of her building and Yamato's building.

What was it doing there?

She continued to hear Kari's continuous screams, and then finally she caught on the words that Kari was screaming.

"NO! HE'S NOT! HE CAN'T BE! IT WAS ONLY YESTERDAY...IT WAS ONLY YESTERDAY THAT ... THAT...."

Sora heard loud sobs after this and then the screaming continued.

"NO, HE'S NOT DEAD! YOU PROBABLY HEARD THE WRONG NAME! IT CAN'T BE.IT CAN'T BE!! IT JUST CAN'T BE!"

Who can't be dead? Sora asked herself. Could it be....could it be Tai?

Sora quickly ran to the elevator and made her way down to Tai's level. When she reached it she ran as quickly as she could to his apartment. In front of his apartment were both Kari and Tai standing by the railings. Relief washed through her body.

Then her gaze locked with Kari's. Sora was surprised to see such hatred burn in her eyes.

"YOU! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?" Kari screamed.

Tai turned and Sora was surprised to see so much sadness in his eyes.

"Taichi-kun..." Sora said softly.

She ran to him and fell into his embrace.

"What's wrong Tai? What's will the all the screaming? Who's dead?" Sora asked.

"It's...it's...." Tai started to say then his voice broke.

"Who is it?" Sora asked again.

"It's...Yamato...." Tai finally said.

Sora's body suddenly felt numb. Yamato? Dead? Can't be! It was impossible! It was only last week that he told her how much he loved her, and it was only yesterday that she heard him playing his harmonica. How can he be dead today? When only yesterday he was alive?

"Tai, you must be mistaken, he can't be dead...he just can't be..." She had started to say desperately as the tears escaped her eyes and ran down her cheeks.

"I'm sorry Sora, but ... it's true, he's dead," Tai said.

"YOU'RE HIS BESTFRIEND! HOW CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS? THE WHOLE IDEA IS ABSURD!" Sora screamed.

"Sora...listen to me," Tai said. He too was crying now.

"NO YOU LISTEN TO ME! HE IS NOT DEAD!" Sora screamed as the tears continued to run down.

Slap!

Sora looked up to see Kari's face that was full of sadness. Her shoulders were heaving, her eyes were red and the tears hadn't stopped.

"I hate you Takenouchi Sora!" she hissed. "Forever I will hate you!"

Sora clutched her cheeks. What had she done?

Kari suddenly ran away from them, to the elevator and down to the ambulance. Kari knocked down everyone that was in her way. Kari was really angry that all this people who don't even know Yamato were there.

"Excuse me Miss," a police officer said. "You can't go in there; a boy just committed suicide..."

"I HAVE A RIGHT TO GO IN THERE! HE'S MY BESTFRIEND!" she screamed, loud enough for even Sora and Tai to hear.

Sora and Tai was shocked. Kari was never Matt's bestfriend, Tai was his best friend. They too now ran down.

"I'm sorry Miss, all of the girls here are sad that he's gone too, but they're not acting the way you are now, just calm down..."

"BUT IT'S BECAUSE I'M HIS BESTFRIEND!" she screamed again.

"Let her in..."

The police officer turned to see Yamato's dad there.

"Al...alright..."

"What...what did he....what did he.....do? He's not really dead is he?" Kari asked.

"I'm afraid he is, Kari...."

The reality finally hit Kari and she felt two hands on her shoulders. She knew whose hands it was, it was Tai's. Sora was standing still beside him. She was on the edge of hysterics. Tai wasn't crying but his eyes said it all. It clearly shows his loss.

The paramedics came out with the stretcher with Matt's body on it, covered by a white sheet.

"No!!! Don't take him!" Kari screamed. She broke free from Tai's grip and ran towards Matt body.

Kari held on to Matt's body really tight. Sora and Tai were really surprised at how hard she was taking this whole thing.

"Yamato-san....I'm...I'm so sorry...I understand how you feel...is it too late now Matt? Is it? I want you back.I want you back!!!!! Wake up!!! Tell everyone here! Show them that you're still alive!" Kari cried.

"Kari!" Tai yelled as he ran towards her. "You're not making this any easier for anyone!"

He grabbed her and pulled her away and the paramedics carried the stretcher to the ambulance.

"No!!!! MATT YOU PROMISED!!!!" Kari screamed. "Tai! Let go off me!"

Then Sora too started screaming. "Matt!! Gomene Yamato!! I'm sorry!! I regret for saying the wrong thing!"

Tai finally gave up trying to get everyone to calm down. He too was upset and he was emotionally exhausted. He didn't need to cry, he didn't need to show how Matt was a big loss to him, he didn't need to show it by screaming and crying, everyone knew, everyone knows.

Sora turned to face him but Tai didn't look at her. He was lost in his memories.

Sora turned back to look at the ambulance getting smaller and smaller. What was he thinking when he was killing himself, was he thinking about her? Was he thinking about Tai? Was he thinking about Kari...or most of all, was he thinking about T.K? What was his last thought before he crossed over to the other world? Was he thinking about the adventures in the digital world? Was he thinking about the fun they all had together? Did he remember everyone's love for him? She hopes he did...because she knew she was one of the people who loved him the most.

Sora walked over to Kari and hugged her close to her heart. Her hands were wrapped around Kari's shoulders, and Kari held on to her hands. It was the last time Kari had let Sora show affection and love to her and it was the last time that she responded to her affection.

Soon enough Sora was standing in front of Matt's apartment, the one that he would never walk on again. Only his dad lived here now. Sora felt sorry for the guy, Yamato's mum blamed his dad on his suicide, something about not paying attention to his needs. Nevertheless, this guy was lonely and in need of a family, she knew that T.K visit him from time to time, but seeing his son for about a few hours once a in a few days was never enough.

Sora took a deep breath and knocked on the door. The door opened almost immediately. Sora's eyes widened when she saw Yamato's dad. It didn't look as if he hadn't taken showers in ages! She was sure that he had not gotten over Matt's death, it was obvious to see. He must feel really lonely now.

"Oh Sora, now is not such a good time, I'm cleaning and clearing up Matt's things," he said.

"Oh I can help!" Sora said.

"You sure? It's not a very fun job."

"No it's fine, I have nothing to do anyway..." Sora answered.

Mr. Ishida hesitantly opened the door for her to get in. The apartment wasn't as messy as she thought it would be. Sora walked over to Matt's room and looked in. She felt like she was about to cry. It brought back so many memories.

"Mr. Ishida, I think you should rest for a while, I'll be able to sort which things to throw away and which things to keep..." Sora said.

"Are you sure about that?"

"Yes, I'm pretty sure, you've worked on this for a long time, I'll be fine, honest!" Sora said.

Mr. Ishida nodded and left the room. Sora sighed and walked over to Matt's old bed and sat down on it. She started blankly into space for a few minutes, then she got up and bent down on the floor. She looked underneath his bed and started to clear all the things that were there. It was after all of the things were out that she noticed a loose floorboard. Sora squeezed her body underneath the bed and lifted the floorboard slowly. She inserted her hands underneath and brought out all of the things that were in there. She brought them out as soon as she had squeezed herself back out.

There were seven letters each addressed to the first digi-destines and a video tape. Sora turned the tape around to see what it was about and it said 'Just for Hikari.' Sora twitched her eyebrows and sighed. She'll give it to Tai to give to Kari, she knew that Kari would accuse her of snooping around a dead person's room.

Sora then looked at the letters and soon enough she found the one addressed to her. She turned the envelope around and she opened it.

In Matt's neatest handwriting it said, 'Sora, I'm one hundred percent sure that Kari really hates you now and I am to blame for that....forgive her if she has been acting really cold and mean towards you, I know deep down she doesn't mean any of that.'

Sora read on and finally she closed it and felt the tears dropping.

"I see now, I understand now Matt..." she said softly.

Sora gathered all the letters and the video tape. She got up and walked out of the room with those things in her hands.

Got to find Kari, Sora said in her mind, she had misunderstood.

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Gatomon: For the people who don't know, Gomene, is the Japanese word for sorry, and aishiteru is the Japanese word for I love you..^^ Oh yeah! Press the review button!! Or else my tail ring will disappear..!! Purr.