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Loving Hikari
Chapter 4
And So I Said a Little Prayer…
Taichi was seated in a room of the hospital, watching Kari who was fast asleep on the provided bed. She looked so worn out; she seemed to have aged a lot in minutes. Kari's left wrist was wrapped in white bandages and T.K was holding her hand.
Taichi truthfully felt sorry for T.K. What would have happened if Kari died of suicide, three months after his bigger brother's death? How would he cope?
And how would you cope, Yagami Taichi? A little voice in his mind said.
I would have had a mental breakdown, Taichi said in his mind.
"Tai…" T.K said just above a whisper. "What…what do you think made Kari do this?"
"I don't know T.K, I just don't know," Tai replied.
"Do you think it was because of me? Have I done something wrong Tai? Because if I have, I will do anything to make it right again…" T.K said, blaming himself.
"No, I don't think it's you buddy, I think Kari is just stressed out," Tai reassured.
T.K didn't say anything else. He could feel the tears that he needed to shed for his brother's death and for Kari's suicide attempt, burn in his eyes. The two people who meant everything to him didn't want to live with him anymore and they knew the only way they could escape him was to die.
With his trembling hands, T.K covered his face as his shoulders shook, as the tears came out.
Just let it all out, cry as much as you want, there's nothing wrong with crying. Let the others see you're suffering, let them know, so then maybe they can help you.
T.K soon felt a hand on his shoulder but it didn't stop him from crying. Nothing could! Except maybe if it turned out that Matt hadn't really killed himself, and that Kari didn't try to commit suicide, then everything would be alright. Everything would be just like the way it used to be.
"I hope…she wakes up soon," T.K said.
"She will wake up," Tai replied softly.
Not like Yamato…whose eyes were closed, who rested in an eternal sleep, Tai was saying in his mind.
"I miss Matt," T.K said.
Oh God! Why is he talking about Matt at a time like this? Isn't it painful for him? Because it's really painful for me…Tai thought silently.
"I miss him too, everyone does…"
"I wish he would come back," T.K softly whispered.
It was time the tears to hit Tai's eyes. He wanted Matt to come back too, he wanted to be able to hear Matt sing and listen to Matt playing his harmonica again. He wanted to go over to Matt's place and see Matt apply gel in his hair. He wished that Matt hadn't been so stupid to actually kill himself. Some courage Matt had to kill himself, probably much more courage than Tai himself could muster. But it was a type of courage that no one needed; a type of courage to be feared.
"I…I wish he would come back too T.K," Tai forced out the painful words.
Just then Tai's cell phone rang. Tai walked outside, he didn't want to make so much noise in the room.
"Hello?" He said to the phone.
"Tai where are you?! I've been looking all over for you," Sora said, annoyed.
"I'm at the hospital Sora," Tai answered.
"What? You serious? Why?"
"It's Kari, she tried to kill herself today," Tai said quietly.
"I see…"
"What do you mind, I see?" Tai hissed. "Don't you wonder why? Don't you feel at least a little bit upset because of it?"
"I do feel upset because of it but I don't wonder why because I already know why," Sora replied.
Tai was surprised to hear those words, really surprised. How could Sora possibly know when she was much hated by Kari?
"Why then?" Tai asked.
"I don't think I'm the right one to tell you Tai, I think Kari alone is the one who has the right to tell you," Sora said.
Tai felt really frustrated by Sora's reply. "I don't think she's in any condition to tell me, Sora…"
"Stay there, I'm going over there right now, and I mean it this time when I say you must stay there, I've got something for you and also for Kari…"
Tai nodded his head, forgetting the fact that Sora couldn't see him nod his head. "Ok...come as soon as you can then."
"Alright, I'll see you…"
The line went dead.
Tai inserted the phone to his back pocket and turned to look at the room that Kari was in. It was a sight to see indeed; hope holding on to the light, hope staring at the light hungrily. Wishing that he could reach it someday, asking for the light to be part of his life.
Finally Tai walked back into the room. He placed his hand onto T.K's shoulders again. Now if Sora came in she would see it a different way; Courageous hope holding onto the light. And then if Sora also placed her hand on T.K's shoulder it would be courageous hope, offering love to the light. Sounds kind of weird but people would get the picture.
"Tai," T.K said. "Kari is not leaving me is she?"
"No she's not T.K…"
The blonde haired boy seemed to ease a little. His body wasn't as tense as it was before. A sense of relief washed through his body. A little smile appeared on his face.
"Good, that's good…" T.K said.
Tai walked over to the chair that he was sitting before and sat on it. Comfort was what he needed at the moment. He wondered how Sora could know something that neither he nor T.K knew. He would just have to wait till Sora's arrival.
While Tai was thinking about what Sora had said, T.K was praying. He was saying the prayer in his mind.
'Dear Heavenly Father,
I may not be the best Christian and I may not be the best person, but I am sure you know who I am… I beg you not to take Hikari away from me; she means everything to me…as much as Matt had meant to me…I'm still asking myself, why…? Why would he do such thing? But I guess that question cannot be answered, it was for him to know, and for me not to know…But…but I want you to take good care of him; I hope to meet him again someday…I just have one favor, don't take Hikari from me, I need her, I really need her! I will be incomplete without her. Please make sure that she doesn't get any more ideas of killing herself, what would happen to me if she had died today? I really don't want to find out and neither does anyone else…so please, don't take her away from me…
Amen.
Just at the time he concluded his prayer, Kari stirred. Her eyes slowly fluttered open and as it focused, T.K squeezed her hand.
"Hikari-chan, how are you feeling?" T.K asked.
A faint smile appeared on Kari's face. She squeezed back T.K's hand.
"I'm fine," she answered softly.
Kari tore her eyes away from T.K and looked behind him. Tai was asleep on the chair, his head leaning back against the back of the chair, one of his hands rested on his head and the other one his lap.
"I hope…I didn't cause so many problems for you and Onni-chan," Kari said, afraid that she had tired the two boys.
"No, you didn't, but you really scared Tai," T.K said. "And you scared me a whole lot too…"
"I'm so sorry T.K…I wasn't thinking properly, there was so many things in my mind," Kari justified herself.
"I just want to know one thing…why? Why would you even think about it?" T.K asked.
Kari turned to look out of the window and didn't say anything.
"I mean, you're Yagami Hikari, the greatest enemy of darkness, but yet the one who triumph over it, you're close to being perfect Kari!" T.K exclaimed.
Kari's turned her head sharply and stared right into T.K's eyes.
"I am no where near being perfect, Takeru, no where near at all! And for your information, I have not yet triumph over the darkness in me, it's still fighting, trying to invade my mind, body and soul, I…I may not be able to fight it any longer, it's hard T.K, very hard…especially after someone close to me has died…"
"Kari, don't you dare say that, remember when you were transported to the Dark Ocean? You managed to get out of there just fine…"
"That was because I had you to protect me."
T.K held on to Kari's hand with both of his hands. "I'm here Kari, and I'll always be here…nothing and I mean nothing is going to take you away from me!"
Such strong emotional words he uses, Kari thought. How I want to believe his every word, how I want to believe that he will always be here.
Kari remembered one of the things that Matt had said to her.
"Kari, I will always be here, just come to me if you need a shoulder to cry on…" Matt had said.
And where is he now?! Kari asked herself, half angry, half upset. He's gone and he's never coming back! I was so naïve to think that he would always be there when I needed him. What good does it do if T.K says the same thing? They had the same blood; he would probably leave me too.
"Kari, promise me that you won't try to kill yourself again," T.K said desperately.
Before Kari could answer, somebody that she didn't want to see arrived.
She carried a little plastic bag and around her head was a black coloured beanie. She looked at Tai, then to T.K then finally to Kari.
"What are you doing here?!" Kari asked vehemently.
Sora looked at Tai who was fast asleep on the chair. Plan a backfired; she wanted Tai to be the one who gave it to Kari.
"Kari…I have something to give you," Sora said quietly.
"Nothing from you is worth receiving," Kari spat out.
Sora looked hurt but she recovered from it quickly for now she knew why Kari was like this to her.
"This is not from me, but from Yamato…" Sora said.
Kari's eyes widened, not believing Sora. "Impossible," Kari muttered under her breath.
"No it's not, I have one for you too T.K," Sora said. She saw the innocent boy's eyes lit up.
Sora walked over to Kari and handed her the video tape and the letter that Matt had written. She also gave T.K the letter that was addressed to him.
Kari's hand shook as she held on to the letter and the video tape. Did she really want to see what was inside the tape and the letter? Did she really want to find out, maybe another shocking truth that could permanently damage her life? Despite the hurt that she had endured, she wanted to know.
With tremulous hands Kari unfolded the letter and read what was inside.
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Loving Hikari
Chapter 4
And So I Said a Little Prayer…
Taichi was seated in a room of the hospital, watching Kari who was fast asleep on the provided bed. She looked so worn out; she seemed to have aged a lot in minutes. Kari's left wrist was wrapped in white bandages and T.K was holding her hand.
Taichi truthfully felt sorry for T.K. What would have happened if Kari died of suicide, three months after his bigger brother's death? How would he cope?
And how would you cope, Yagami Taichi? A little voice in his mind said.
I would have had a mental breakdown, Taichi said in his mind.
"Tai…" T.K said just above a whisper. "What…what do you think made Kari do this?"
"I don't know T.K, I just don't know," Tai replied.
"Do you think it was because of me? Have I done something wrong Tai? Because if I have, I will do anything to make it right again…" T.K said, blaming himself.
"No, I don't think it's you buddy, I think Kari is just stressed out," Tai reassured.
T.K didn't say anything else. He could feel the tears that he needed to shed for his brother's death and for Kari's suicide attempt, burn in his eyes. The two people who meant everything to him didn't want to live with him anymore and they knew the only way they could escape him was to die.
With his trembling hands, T.K covered his face as his shoulders shook, as the tears came out.
Just let it all out, cry as much as you want, there's nothing wrong with crying. Let the others see you're suffering, let them know, so then maybe they can help you.
T.K soon felt a hand on his shoulder but it didn't stop him from crying. Nothing could! Except maybe if it turned out that Matt hadn't really killed himself, and that Kari didn't try to commit suicide, then everything would be alright. Everything would be just like the way it used to be.
"I hope…she wakes up soon," T.K said.
"She will wake up," Tai replied softly.
Not like Yamato…whose eyes were closed, who rested in an eternal sleep, Tai was saying in his mind.
"I miss Matt," T.K said.
Oh God! Why is he talking about Matt at a time like this? Isn't it painful for him? Because it's really painful for me…Tai thought silently.
"I miss him too, everyone does…"
"I wish he would come back," T.K softly whispered.
It was time the tears to hit Tai's eyes. He wanted Matt to come back too, he wanted to be able to hear Matt sing and listen to Matt playing his harmonica again. He wanted to go over to Matt's place and see Matt apply gel in his hair. He wished that Matt hadn't been so stupid to actually kill himself. Some courage Matt had to kill himself, probably much more courage than Tai himself could muster. But it was a type of courage that no one needed; a type of courage to be feared.
"I…I wish he would come back too T.K," Tai forced out the painful words.
Just then Tai's cell phone rang. Tai walked outside, he didn't want to make so much noise in the room.
"Hello?" He said to the phone.
"Tai where are you?! I've been looking all over for you," Sora said, annoyed.
"I'm at the hospital Sora," Tai answered.
"What? You serious? Why?"
"It's Kari, she tried to kill herself today," Tai said quietly.
"I see…"
"What do you mind, I see?" Tai hissed. "Don't you wonder why? Don't you feel at least a little bit upset because of it?"
"I do feel upset because of it but I don't wonder why because I already know why," Sora replied.
Tai was surprised to hear those words, really surprised. How could Sora possibly know when she was much hated by Kari?
"Why then?" Tai asked.
"I don't think I'm the right one to tell you Tai, I think Kari alone is the one who has the right to tell you," Sora said.
Tai felt really frustrated by Sora's reply. "I don't think she's in any condition to tell me, Sora…"
"Stay there, I'm going over there right now, and I mean it this time when I say you must stay there, I've got something for you and also for Kari…"
Tai nodded his head, forgetting the fact that Sora couldn't see him nod his head. "Ok...come as soon as you can then."
"Alright, I'll see you…"
The line went dead.
Tai inserted the phone to his back pocket and turned to look at the room that Kari was in. It was a sight to see indeed; hope holding on to the light, hope staring at the light hungrily. Wishing that he could reach it someday, asking for the light to be part of his life.
Finally Tai walked back into the room. He placed his hand onto T.K's shoulders again. Now if Sora came in she would see it a different way; Courageous hope holding onto the light. And then if Sora also placed her hand on T.K's shoulder it would be courageous hope, offering love to the light. Sounds kind of weird but people would get the picture.
"Tai," T.K said. "Kari is not leaving me is she?"
"No she's not T.K…"
The blonde haired boy seemed to ease a little. His body wasn't as tense as it was before. A sense of relief washed through his body. A little smile appeared on his face.
"Good, that's good…" T.K said.
Tai walked over to the chair that he was sitting before and sat on it. Comfort was what he needed at the moment. He wondered how Sora could know something that neither he nor T.K knew. He would just have to wait till Sora's arrival.
While Tai was thinking about what Sora had said, T.K was praying. He was saying the prayer in his mind.
'Dear Heavenly Father,
I may not be the best Christian and I may not be the best person, but I am sure you know who I am… I beg you not to take Hikari away from me; she means everything to me…as much as Matt had meant to me…I'm still asking myself, why…? Why would he do such thing? But I guess that question cannot be answered, it was for him to know, and for me not to know…But…but I want you to take good care of him; I hope to meet him again someday…I just have one favor, don't take Hikari from me, I need her, I really need her! I will be incomplete without her. Please make sure that she doesn't get any more ideas of killing herself, what would happen to me if she had died today? I really don't want to find out and neither does anyone else…so please, don't take her away from me…
Amen.
Just at the time he concluded his prayer, Kari stirred. Her eyes slowly fluttered open and as it focused, T.K squeezed her hand.
"Hikari-chan, how are you feeling?" T.K asked.
A faint smile appeared on Kari's face. She squeezed back T.K's hand.
"I'm fine," she answered softly.
Kari tore her eyes away from T.K and looked behind him. Tai was asleep on the chair, his head leaning back against the back of the chair, one of his hands rested on his head and the other one his lap.
"I hope…I didn't cause so many problems for you and Onni-chan," Kari said, afraid that she had tired the two boys.
"No, you didn't, but you really scared Tai," T.K said. "And you scared me a whole lot too…"
"I'm so sorry T.K…I wasn't thinking properly, there was so many things in my mind," Kari justified herself.
"I just want to know one thing…why? Why would you even think about it?" T.K asked.
Kari turned to look out of the window and didn't say anything.
"I mean, you're Yagami Hikari, the greatest enemy of darkness, but yet the one who triumph over it, you're close to being perfect Kari!" T.K exclaimed.
Kari's turned her head sharply and stared right into T.K's eyes.
"I am no where near being perfect, Takeru, no where near at all! And for your information, I have not yet triumph over the darkness in me, it's still fighting, trying to invade my mind, body and soul, I…I may not be able to fight it any longer, it's hard T.K, very hard…especially after someone close to me has died…"
"Kari, don't you dare say that, remember when you were transported to the Dark Ocean? You managed to get out of there just fine…"
"That was because I had you to protect me."
T.K held on to Kari's hand with both of his hands. "I'm here Kari, and I'll always be here…nothing and I mean nothing is going to take you away from me!"
Such strong emotional words he uses, Kari thought. How I want to believe his every word, how I want to believe that he will always be here.
Kari remembered one of the things that Matt had said to her.
"Kari, I will always be here, just come to me if you need a shoulder to cry on…" Matt had said.
And where is he now?! Kari asked herself, half angry, half upset. He's gone and he's never coming back! I was so naïve to think that he would always be there when I needed him. What good does it do if T.K says the same thing? They had the same blood; he would probably leave me too.
"Kari, promise me that you won't try to kill yourself again," T.K said desperately.
Before Kari could answer, somebody that she didn't want to see arrived.
She carried a little plastic bag and around her head was a black coloured beanie. She looked at Tai, then to T.K then finally to Kari.
"What are you doing here?!" Kari asked vehemently.
Sora looked at Tai who was fast asleep on the chair. Plan a backfired; she wanted Tai to be the one who gave it to Kari.
"Kari…I have something to give you," Sora said quietly.
"Nothing from you is worth receiving," Kari spat out.
Sora looked hurt but she recovered from it quickly for now she knew why Kari was like this to her.
"This is not from me, but from Yamato…" Sora said.
Kari's eyes widened, not believing Sora. "Impossible," Kari muttered under her breath.
"No it's not, I have one for you too T.K," Sora said. She saw the innocent boy's eyes lit up.
Sora walked over to Kari and handed her the video tape and the letter that Matt had written. She also gave T.K the letter that was addressed to him.
Kari's hand shook as she held on to the letter and the video tape. Did she really want to see what was inside the tape and the letter? Did she really want to find out, maybe another shocking truth that could permanently damage her life? Despite the hurt that she had endured, she wanted to know.
With tremulous hands Kari unfolded the letter and read what was inside.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Yuki-kun: Ok now, I might not be known to you, but I am Sohma Yuki of Fruits Basket (Furuba), CherryBlossom's one and only Yuki! You see the button at the bottom here? You MUST press it, because if you don't...the curse that I have will automatically be transferred to you...the curse will take
place after three days...so if you don't plan to press this review button, enjoy your three days, for your days won't be as that pleasant anymore...trust me I know..
PRESS PRESS PRESS!
