Confessions of an Ice Princess

Summary: Kathryn gets some more insight into the Valmont brothers.

Everyone Has A Story To Tell

Where the fuck were they? As I scanned the terrace for the third time that morning I wondered how a navy blue thong could just disappear into thin air. Of course the possible answer to that question, the one I didn't want to think about was that someone had found it. I told myself most likely it was a maid not wanting to think of the other possibility, that of course being Nicholas found them. Lord knows how I would explain myself out of that one.

When I awoke that morning I found a note beside me from Nicholas telling me he had to go back to the city for a few hours. He said nothing about finding anything so I took that as a good sign. Now how I could forget to grab my underwear in the first place is the question. I guess I was just so damn anxious to get away from Sebastian and the awkward situation that I wasn't thinking too clearly. Then I stayed up all last night thinking about it and then got so turned on again I almost went to go find him. However I reconsidered that idea and used my hand and my memory instead.

Although I had enjoyed the hell out of fucking Sebastian I was a little confused as to where this left us. I mean as far as I knew he was still with Annette and even though I had barely talked with Nicholas the whole weekend we were still officially together. Then again if he figured out I was screwing his brother that relationship was as good as dead. It occurred to me as I paced that might not be a bad thing. It would save me from having to make an inevitable decision between the two.

As I was taking a final look in the bushes that lined the terrace a voice called out behind me "what are you looking for?"

I jumped slightly startled and turned around to find Annette giving me a questioning stare. "None of your god damn business." Shooing her away I told her "go back to your side of the house. I'm suppose to be taking a vacation from you."

"Where's Nicholas?"

"He had to go back to the city for work. Why?"

Annette held up a white envelop "he got a letter. I'd give it to him myself but I have to go back home to take care of something."

I smirked "feeling guilty about sunning yourself in the Hamptons when you could be giving MY clothes away to a bunch of drunken, homeless losers?"

Annette gave me a patient smile and replied "no, I have to go pick up something at school. Sebastian's still sleeping so if you two run into each other try not to kill one another."

She handed me Nicholas's letter before exiting and I muttered distractedly "I'll do that." As I walked back into the house I noticed that it was from Venessa Van Ryan, Nicholas's ex. I was tempted to open it but then thought against it. I'd just wait till he did and then I would take a peak.

I went to my bedroom and started the shower as I read the front of the letter once again. According to the address she was still in London which made me wonder what her business was with Nicholas. As I stripped down I held the letter up to the steam coming from the shower hoping it would force it to open but it wouldn't so I gave up and tossed it aside before climbing under the hot water.

I was letting my mind go, thinking about the day ahead when I turned around and saw Sebastian standing on the other side of the glass enclosed shower. He was leaning against the sink looking over my body with his usual aloof stare. Just as I was about to demand what he was doing there he held up my elusive navy blue thong. As I opened the door he smiled "loose something?"

"I've been looking all morning for that" I told him as I grabbed for it only he kept it out of my reach. I grabbed again only this time I got a hold and tried to pull it back. We tugged playfully on it for a moment before he pulled me towards him. Sebastian held onto me a moment and we smiled up at one another in that way people do when they know they're thinking the same thing. Without a word we stepped back under the hot jet.

His lips came crashing down on mine as the hot water hit us. Sebastian was still dressed so I pulled off his shirt and tossed it outside of the shower. "Oh god" I murmured as his hands began to glide all over my wet body. When he pushed me up against the tile wall I was getting ready for another round of fantastic sex.

As I was undoing his pants Sebastian slid his hand in-between my legs causing me to grind back against the wall only I must have hit one of the knobs because a second later the warm water turned to ice causing us both to scream out "holy shit!"

Both of us jumped out laughing as I reached back and turned it off. I smiled as I slid my hands down his chest to his pants "are you still up for it?"

"Do you really have to ask?" He replied as he quickly picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. Sebastian carried me back to the bedroom and we fell back into bed. We kissed long and deep as he pulled his pants off and was soon as naked as me. It was as he began to suckle my tits that I realized we were alone in the house. Arching my back I called out "fuck me!"

"As you wish" he told me as he slid up my body and opened my legs wider. I raised my knees and legs over his shoulder causing Sebastian to grin down at me. "Aren't we flexible."

Before I could retort he thrust all the way into me fast and hard. "Ohhhhh!"

He stopped for a moment "you ok?"

"Just like that" I ordered him "again!"

Smiling in perverse satisfaction he did as ordered and continued to pump into me hard and fast. Every time he'd push into me his pelvic bone would hit my clit causing me to scream out. It felt fucking incredible and I'm sure that if anyone was to overhear it would sound that way as well. Soon I started to near orgasm but he wouldn't let me and instead would slow down whenever I was close. Finally I started to beg "make me come. I need to come!"

All it took was two more thrusts before I had one of the most intense orgasms of my young life. Sebastian came soon after as I held on to him for dear life not wanting to the amazing feeling to go away. He was breathing heavily against my heaving breasts and then he started to laugh. For some reason I did as well not really sure what was funny I just felt total exhilaration. Through his laughter Sebastian asked "so is my brother around?"

"No he went back to the city for a couple of hours."

He snickered "hence the screaming."

"Did it bother you?"

"Not in the least" kissing my neck he murmured "actually it sort of turned me on."

"Good" I sighed.

Still smiling Sebastian pulled away and collapsed beside me rolling on the letter I had tossed before he came in. He reached under himself and picked it up "what's this?"

He read the front of it and suddenly his expression changed. "It came today for Nicholas"

Sebastian sat up scowling down at the letter like it might contain poison gas or something. "Do you know what it is?"

"A letter"

"Yes genius I figured that out all on my own. It's from Venessa Van Ryan his ex. Why would she be writing him?"

He didn't respond at first but finally muttered more to himself than to me "I don't know."

"Sebastian?" I got no response from him as he seemed lost in his own thoughts. "Sebastian, hello are you listening to me?"

"What?" He replied agitated.

"What is going on?"

"Nothing" he got up from the bed and slipped his damp pants back on.

Shifting my legs underneath me I asked "you're leaving?"

"Yes Annette will be back soon it's probably better for everyone if she doesn't find us like this."

"Of course" I whispered not for the first time cursing Annette. Noticing Sebastian was still holding the letter I grabbed it from him "give me that."

"No"

"Sebastian it's addressed to Nicholas" I pulled it out of his grasp and our eyes locked. It was then I realized what was causing him to act this way. "Oh I get it. This Venessa...she's the one isn't she? Your mystery ex."

"Of fuck off" he sighed as he turned back around to gather his things.

I nodded "I'm right you had a thing with your brother ex. What did she choose him over you?"

He spun back around and practically growled "shut up Kathryn you don't know what you're talking about."

I didn't let his mood faze me as I calmly replied "yes I think I do. Why don't you just tell me the story then?"

Sebastian looked away "no."

Rolling my eyes I got angry "why not? I know you told your little blond girlfriend, why won't you tell me?"

"Fine" he roared turning back to me suddenly "you want to know why I won't tell you?"

"I'm asking aren't I"

"Because most of the time Kathryn I trust her a hell of a lot more than I trust you!"

The revelation hit me hard as I sunk back in the bed and muttered softly "oh."

Shaking his head Sebastian only said "I have to go."

I said nothing as I watched him leave. I could think of no witty comeback or painful words to hurl his way as he left. Instead I just sat there as a cold hard realization began to sink in. All along I thought my relationship with Sebastian was the real one and his connection to Annette was just a sham. Only the truth was she was the one he trusted and cared for. I was nothing more than the whore he got off with.

* * * * * *

"Reading anything interesting?"

I looked up from the latest issue of Vogue as Nicholas wandered into the living room with a drink in hand. "Not really" I told him turning back to my article.

"I'm sorry to hear that" he muttered in a hard tone "I don't suppose you want to do something tonight?"

I knew what the something he was referring to and I was most definitely not in the mood. Even before my run in with Sebastian that morning I hadn't wanted to fuck Nicholas. I guess the thrill of the conquest was over and now I had little use for him. He was handsome and smart but I was soon realizing that wasn't enough. In a bored tone I said "no thanks."

"Fine be that way"

Looking up at him I noticed him go get another drink and I began to wonder how many he had, had so far. Judging by the slight slur in his voice I was guessing plenty. "How many have you had to drink?"

"Not enough, look do you plan on fucking me anytime soon?"

"Is that why you brought me here?" I asked turning on the good girl act.

He took a swig of his bourbon and grumbled "of course but I wouldn't have bothered if I knew you were going to be such a cock tease."

"Screw you" I hissed "you shouldn't have agreed to let them stay here or things might have worked out differently."

Nicholas approached me "yeah well they aren't here right now, they're out on a date so why don't you drag yourself upstairs and get your ass in my bed?"

"Hmm...no"

"Listen you little bitch you can drop the innocent routine I know all about you."

"What are you talking about?"

He leered at me "I've heard the rumors, why do you think I asked you out to begin with? You're a hot fuck"

I shook my head in disgust "and you're an asshole. There's no way I'm going to bed with you tonight."

Nicholas grabbed my arm and pulled me to my feet "quit acting like such a god damn school girl!"

As I tried to pull away from him a voice behind us called out "leave her alone." I looked past Nicholas and saw Sebastian and Annette standing in the doorway to the living room. She was looking on confused as Sebastian glared angrily at his brother.

As Nicholas turned around I pulled away from him. "Piss off little brother this doesn't concern you."

"Yeah actually it does" he told him stepping into the room. Looking over at me he asked "are you ok?"

"I'm fine"

"Of course she's fine" Nicholas snarled "why wouldn't she be?"

"You're drunk" Sebastian told him disgusted "and my guess is you're taking it out on her."

He got up into his younger brothers face and replied "she's my girlfriend and it was a private matter."

"I don't care" he said slowly not backing down "don't you ever talk like that to her again and certainly don't grab her."

To say I was a little taken aback by all of this was somewhat of an understatement. I was guessing based on the look on her face Annette felt the same way. I focused my attention back of the warring brothers and realized I had to get out of there. "I'm fine Sebastian. It's not a big deal."

He looked at me and nodded "ok."

Grabbing my magazine I said to no one in particular "I'm going to bed."

* * * * * *

Later than night I couldn't fall asleep. I had been tossing and turning in my big bed my mind replaying the events of the day over and over again. After fucking Sebastian and the scene that followed after it I was sure the what I thought our relationship to be was all in my head. He didn't really care about me it was just all about the sex. Then he went and defended me to Nicholas in front of Annette no less, leaving me at a complete loss.

I turned over once again only this time I realized I wasn't alone. Leaning against the doorway with his arms crossed in front of him was Sebastian. We stared at one another a moment before he asked "are you asleep?"

"No"

Turning around he closed the door then got in bed beside me. "I'm sorry about the whole thing with Nicholas."

Resting my head on my elbow I looked at him curiously "what are you sorry for? He's the one who was being an ass."

"I should have told you the truth about what happened."

"What are you talking about?"

Sebastian glanced down at me "about Venessa and what happened between us."

"Go on" I told him sitting up.

"You were right I was with Venessa before Nick but I didn't steal her away from him. She was my girlfriend."

I couldn't help but smirk "you had a girlfriend?"

He nodded "shockingly enough yes. I met her at an auction, she was so beautiful...I couldn't wait to get her in bed. She was older than me by a few years and proved to be quite a challenge that's what I loved about her. When she put off sleeping with me I didn't even question it. I adored her"

Not really wanting to know all the intimate details of their relationship I pressed on "so what went wrong?"

"We dated for a few months, I was completely devoted to her. I never cheated once but she on the other hand was a different story. The night of our two month anniversary I had this huge night planned only when I came to pick her up I found her in bed...with Nicholas."

"Ouch"

"Yeah well it gets so much better. You see about three months before I met Venessa my brother had been seeing this girl, a rich boring debutante who he was totally in love with. It annoyed me so for a challenge I decided to seduce her and get her to dump my brother. It worked and after I dumped her Nicholas found out what I had done and he vowed revenge."

"So he seduced Venessa?"

Sebastian let out a short humorless laugh "no it was a little more complex than that. My brother truly had gotten to Venessa first, in fact they had been dating a month before I met her. You see my brother told her that if she could get me to fall in love, without sleeping with her of course, then break my heart not to mention my ego he would marry her. She had agreed to the deal after hearing about how I wrecked his perfect relationship and she held up her end of the bargain. His plan worked perfectly, I fell for her."

My head reeled at this information "Jesus that's-"

"Not the end of the story. My brother being the honorable guy that he was proposed the following day and she excepted but she still wanted to be friends with me. I guess Venessa realized what she had done and grown a conscious or something. However I couldn't be around her so I avoided her whenever possible. Anyway about a month into the engagement things became strained between them, you know shouting matches the whole bit. Finally one night she shows up at my room with a black eye. Nicholas had gotten tanked and hit her. She was a mess, crying and everything. She told me that she really did care for me but that she had promised herself to Nicholas. She told me she loved me."

"And you bought that?"

Sebastian looked off "pathetically enough I did. We went to bed that night for the first time and afterwards Nicholas interrupted us. He broke off the engagement and to my utter astonishment she begged him for a second chance. He refused and told me she was my mess to clean up now. I cared about her, maybe even loved her but I couldn't...I broke things off with her that night."

"God" I muttered in shock "no wonder you weren't to keen on telling that story. Have you talked with her at all since it happened?"

"A little before I left but that's all."

"How come I didn't find out any of this when I had Blaine check into you?"

Sebastian turned to me "no one knows. Everyone just thinks I ruined another one of my brothers relationships. You see now why I didn't want you to have anything to do with him?"

I nodded "yes well your brother is obviously...not what he appears but then again neither are we."

He turned to me "are you saying I deserved it?"

"No it's just well it would be a tad hypocritical of me to get pissed at him when I'm doing the same thing to Annette."

Sebastian shook his head as he laid back in the bed "unbelievable."

"Hey look" I leaned over and placed his hands on his face "your brother is a dick for doing that to you but I'm glad you got rid of that bitch."

"She wasn't like that"

My eyes narrowed at him "Sebastian are you still in love with her?"

He sighed "I'm not sure if I ever really was to begin with but yeah every now and then when I think of her or get reminded of her...it hurts."

I nodded "like that letter."

A moment of silence passed between us before I asked "you told Annette this whole story?"

"No not all of it. Just that I had a thing with a girl who my brother stole. I left out some of the more twisted, pathetic parts."

"Why'd you tell me?"

He shrugged "I'm not really sure."

I smiled up at Sebastian and he returned it before reaching for me and pulling me into a deep kiss. He rolled me onto my back as we continued to kiss. Before anything went further though he broke away "it's late I should get back before Annette..."

I nodded in understanding "ok."

He leaned in and gave me one last lingering kiss on the cheek before getting up. "Thank you for listening, and you know not mocking me."

"Well it was tempting"

He grinned "I bet. Goodnight Kathryn"

"Goodnight Valmont"

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