Confessions of an Ice Princess
Summary: A strange predicament forces Kathryn to make a confession.
Love the One You're With
I could die right now a happy women. My body was slowly going numb from all the pleasure that had been wrung out of it in the last forty eight hours. I was bruised and battered yet I had never felt better in my whole life. Throwing my head back against the pillow I let out a collected "ahhh."
"Have I finally exhausted you?" Sebastian asked with his typical boyish smile.
Tilting my head to the side I told him "never, I'll be rested and ready to go again soon enough."
"You're insatiable" he laughed as he nuzzled my neck. "And that's why I love you."
It was amazing what those three little words could do. Normally when a guy told me he loved me I usually didn't believe him, hell I didn't want to. Love didn't exist, it was just infatuation with a different label. That was what I always believed. However with Sebastian it was different. When he told me he loved me I felt it everywhere in my body. It was like a rush no drug had ever given me and I craved it like nothing else.
The thing was though I had yet to say it back to him. It wasn't that I didn't love him, I truly did. It was just that fear of being completely and totally vulnerable around him. Every time I got ready to take that leap I hesitated.
Sebastian must have seen the look on my face because he asked me "is everything ok?"
"Yeah" I replied "it's just..."
"Yes?"
"Sebastian I...um...I-"
"RING, RING, RING"
I should have known something would interrupt me. Rolling his eyes Sebastian extended him hand back. "That's mine" he grabbed his ringing phone.
"No don't" I told him sitting up suddenly. "I have to tell you something."
"This will only take a second" he smiled. "Hello?" I watched him as his smile crumbled and he let out a tired sigh "what is it Venessa?"
My eyes went wide and I yelled "oh for Christ's sake hang up!"
Sebastian ignored me "never mind what I'm doing. What do you want? Now...look I can't...fine, fine stop crying. I'll do it ok...all right I'll see you then, good-bye."
"Don't even tell me you're getting out of this bed to go talk to her" I said making sure my voice had the proper amount of malice in it.
"Kathryn" he sighed "I have to go but-"
"God damnit Sebastian!" I yelled "I thought she was going back to London?"
"She is but there was a problem with the movers or something and one of them made her cry..."
"I don't care" I huffed.
"Look I promise you this will only take a half hour tops and if this will get her out of town faster don't you think I should go?" When I only shrugged limply in response he cupped my chin and forced my head up. "Ok how about this, while I'm gone you get dressed and ready. I'll pick you up later and we'll go out to dinner. You pick where."
I smiled slightly at the idea "ok."
"Well I'm not leaving until you smile, a real smile." I gave him one of my best phony smiles that I used to trick the society matrons with. He laughed as he leaned in and kissed my cheek "not what I had in mind. Come on Kat don't be pissed."
"Don't call me Kat"
"Why, I like it." Before I could rebut he leaned in and kissed me. I easily gave in to him and got lost in the kiss. When he broke apart he murmured "I do love you. Venessa doesn't mean anything to me anymore if that's what you're worried about."
"It's not" I assured him.
"Right well I better get going" he climbed out of bed and put his somewhat rumpled clothes back on. As I watched him get dressed I realized something quite remarkable. Not only did I love Sebastian but I trusted him. I was about to let him leave and go off to his ex-girlfriends and I didn't have the slightest worry that he would cheat on me.
As he slipped him jacked on he turned to me suddenly "oh there was something you wanted to tell me wasn't there?"
I smiled "it can wait. I'll tell you at dinner."
* * * * * *
A few hours after Sebastian had left I was running around my room trying to get ready. Dressed in just a camisole and panties I was trying to decide what dress to where. I felt I needed something special seeing as this was the first real date Sebastian had ever taken me on. Too bad I didn't have enough time to shop.
As I was deciding between a black Gucci strapless dress and a long red Vera Wang sheath dress my bedroom door opened and Oliver came in to the room. "Oh good you're here."
"Yeah I am seeing as it's my room. Don't you knock?"
"Sorry" he said as he gave me a quick once over.
Rolling my eyes, not the least bit modest I turned back to my reflection and asked "what do you want Ollie? Annette's room is down the hall."
"Yeah I know, she's getting ready. Are you going out too?"
"Yes"
"With that Nicholas guy?"
"No" I said getting agitated by his questioning "with Sebastian."
"Oh really" he remarked surprised. "I wouldn't think he'd be your type."
I turned around not bothering to hide my annoyance with him "yeah well you thought wrong so if that's all-"
"Look I have to talk to you about something."
"What?"
"It's about Annette" he began pacing back and forth. "I mean I love her I really do but lately...It's just marriage is a big deal and I'm not sure if I'm ready for that. I DO love her but what if..."
As Oliver yammered on I rolled my eyes wondering why the hell he was sharing all of this with me. Watching him nearly run a hole in my carpet with his pacing I finally grew tired of it and said "Oliver! Would you get to the point and get out please."
"Well here it is I've been thinking and you know I realized I might have made a mistake ending what we had."
Looking into his confused and hopeful face I started to laugh. "Are you kidding me?"
"No I'm not" he approached me suddenly standing a little too close. "I still have feelings for you Kathryn and maybe that's why I'm so hesitant about marrying Annette."
"Yeah or maybe you have cold feet" I offered. "And anyway I'm not interested. I'm with Sebastian."
Oliver nodded and I thought he would get the hint and leave but I was mistaken. Instead he moved in closer to me and kissed me. Immediately I struggled away and yelled "what the hell are you doing?"
"You're telling me you're honestly not interested?"
"What was your first clue" I hissed.
"I'm sorry" I went to turn away from him but he grabbed my hand and pulled me back to him. Once again he was kissing me and once again I struggled away wondering briefly if he was perhaps on something. It was as I was trying to push him off of me that my door opened and Annette's chipper voice filtered in through the room "hey Kathryn can I...oh my god!"
At the sound of Annette voice Oliver let me go and I pushed him away roughly. I looked over and saw Annette with a horrified expression on her face. "W-what's going on?"
"Oh god Annette!" Oliver exclaimed. "This isn't what it looks like."
"It looks like you're kissing Kathryn!"
"She kissed me!"
"WHAT!?" I yelled "I don't think so. Annette he's the one who came in here and practically attacked me" I pleaded to her.
"Annette you know that isn't true, I would never do that to you. I love you" Oliver said in a sickeningly sincere voice. "Who are you going to believe, me or Kathryn?"
A tear rolled down Annettes face as she looked between us. "Annette, please you know I would never willingly kiss Kathryn. I mean look how she's dressed. She came on to me" he told her. Normally I would start defending myself but I could barely catch my breath. A minute ago I was planning my date with Sebastian now I was defending myself against sexual assault.
Annette said nothing during any of this, she just shook her head as the tears fell down her face and turned away. It was as she was walking out of the room that Sebastian suddenly appeared. Judging by the look on his face he must have overheard Oliver and his big mouth. He stared coldly at me as he walked into the room. Oliver said nothing to him just brushed past him calling out for Annette to listen to him. When he left Sebastian closed the door behind him. "So I leave you alone for a couple of hours..."
I shook my head "no Sebastian this isn't what it looks like."
"Well it looks like you're standing in your underwear kissing your ex boyfriend. What the fuck am I suppose to think Kathryn?"
"Let me explain. I was getting ready to go out when Oliver came in-"
"Save it Kathryn" he sighed. "It was stupid to think-"
"No!" I said suddenly. "I didn't kiss Oliver! I never would betray you like that, not after everything we've been through."
"Kathryn-"
"Let me say this, what I wanted to tell you earlier. I'm in love with you Sebastian. I have been for awhile, hell I might have been since that first day in the park. I love you and I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier but I was afraid to earlier and I'm never afraid of anything! But right now, more than anything I'm afraid of losing you. Sebastian you are the best thing in my life and I couldn't stand it if I lost you. Please believe me" I practically begged. Honestly I don't know where all of that came from, all that bottled up emotion. However I had to admit it felt good to get it off my chest.
Sebastian just stood there not saying anything at first. Finally after a long pause he told me "well what I was going to say before you interrupted was it was stupid to think you would ever screw around with Oliver."
"What?"
Slowly a smile spread across his face "Kathryn I know you didn't kiss him but I must say it's nice to know how you really feel about me."
I laughed more relived than angry "you bastard, you let me go on and on"
"And on" he laughed "but it's ok I still love you." Grabbing me from around the waist he pulled me to him and kissed me long and deep.
As we pulled away I asked "so how did things go with Venessa?"
He nodded "she's on a plane to London as we speak. Now if we can only get some of yours ex's sent off everything will be perfect."
"Ha ha" I pulled back down for a kiss and he quickly picked me up and carried me to the bed. I let him feel me up for a moment before pushing him away playfully. "Ah...first you buy me dinner, then you can fuck me."
* * * * * *
"Ok give me my keys back now" Sebastian said as he tried to grab his car keys out of my hand.
"Mmm no" I laughed as we walked into the sitting room. We had just gotten back from dinner and drinks at a new club. Sebastian had too much to drink, but luckily not enough to make him obnoxious. However I didn't want him to drive so I somehow managed to get his keys away from and drove us safely home.
He tried once again unsuccessfully to grab the keys "give me my fucking keys."
Shaking my head I dropped them down the front of my dress and taunted him "come and get them."
A predatory smile grazed his lips as he grabbed me from behind and pulled me to him. As I walked to my room he kissed my neck then snaked a hand down the front of my dress. Ignoring the keys he squeezed my tit causing me to let out a low moan. "Those aren't your keys."
"Hmm there better" he laughed.
We were both laughing and stumbling around on our way to my room when we practically bumped into the maid. "Oops sorry Mai Lie" I giggled.
"My fault" she said in her somewhat broken English. I could tell she was trying her hardest not to stare as Sebastian continued to grope me.
"Is anyone home?"
"Your sister is here. She's been home all night, no visitors"
"Thank you" I nodded. Not for the first time that night I began to wonder about Annette and if she made up with Oliver. For whatever reason I felt compelled to tell her my side of the story.
"Come on lets go" Sebastian said as he tried to pull me into the bedroom "you promised me a fuck."
"Go get in bed I'll be right there" I told him before giving him a lingering kiss on the mouth.
Sebastian gave me a slightly puzzled look but didn't question me further. When he disappeared inside my room I headed down the hall and stopped at Annette's door. Pausing a moment I raised my hand to the door and knocked. It did occur to me that it was late and she might not even be up but I thought it was worth a try. As it so happened she was. "Who is it?"
"It's Kathryn"
There was silence for a moment before she answered "come in."
I opened the door to find Annette sitting on her bed. Her eyes were puffy from crying and she looked tired but for once I kept my mouth shut about her appearance. "What is it?" she asked more sad than mean.
"I just wanted to see how you were doing and um...I wanted to tell you what really happened between Oliver and me."
"I know what happened" she sighed. "He told me about freaking out about the wedding and kissing you. I'm sorry you got caught in the middle of it."
I was more than a little stunned that Oliver didn't try to weasel out of what he did. "Oh it's ok, I mean Sebastian didn't believe him either."
She smiled almost faintly "that's good."
Normally I would have left then seeing as the little bit of conscience that I had was clear but I decided against it. Instead I sat down across from her on the bed. "So what happened with Oliver? Are you going to take him back?"
Annette sighed "I don't know. We definitely aren't getting married any time soon that's for sure."
"Probably a good idea."
"But I do still love him and I know he loves me."
I nodded "yeah he mentioned that you know, before he pushed his tongue down my throat."
Annette laughed and then to my amazement I laughed too. Shaking her head she mused "did you ever think in a million years you and I could be civil to one another."
"No but then again I never thought I would fall in love and look how that turned out."
"I guess anything is possible."
I couldn't help but smirk "yes I suppose you're right."
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