Ironic

~Short and sweet part. I'm still just rambling. I wish I could write something awesome to do the characters justify but I can't so =). I don't really think it fits so well where the other part left of but oh well!!

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I am brought back to reality when I realised Luka was staring at me.

"You wanted to talk?" I detect no friendless in his tone. I can't understand why he is so angry, so pained.

"Yes"

My brain seemed to have stopped sending messages to my mouth. Go Abby! - first stare for ages then look like an idiot. What could I say. Drunkenly you filled my head? Yeah, because that'd sound good.

I finally broke the silence. "I was worried about you."

"How kind"

I noted the bitterness in his words. So pained, so alone - what had happened to my 'Luka' ? Had I changed him. We never opened up much to each other in the past but I feel right at this moment that it is him, not John who will understand. It's almost laughable. Truly Ironic. When I was with Luka, it felt right with Carter. Now with Carter - opening up to Luka felt right.

"I'm sorry Luka. I wish I...I want to help you. To be your friend. To listen."

He laughed. "You want to listen now? You're a bit late Abby" His words were angry.

"You're drunk Luka."

I didn't want to get drawn into a relationship analysis. All the crap that had happened between us. Crap. Makes it sound horrible. It wasn't. He wasn't. He was amazing, loving, caring. It takes two to tango. We both ruined it, both had a part to play. I used to blame him so much but more and more I see my role in the break up as becoming more and more the lead. But regrets don't do anything. Maybe I shouldn't be here.

"I had a drink Abby, I'm not drunk. I'm not a drunk. Like..." He breaks off and looks away.

"Like me? Don't do it to yourself Luka. Don't think drinking will help you. I care about you - more than you know and I don't want you to do this to yourself." I stood up to leave.

"Where are you going?"

"Home. I don't think we should do this, not with you like that."

"I'm trying Abby. Stay we can talk. Don't leave."

Every part of me tells me to go - back to my nice, warm apartment where my boyfriend is probably waiting up for me. To drink coffee with him and make meaningless conversation. But I want to stay - here with Luka. And I think he knows it. He's gone through so much, been so strong - whilst I've been at breaking point for so long, weak and fragile. Now he's the one needing to be fixed and I'm the one who needs to do it. To have a part in his life.

His voice interrupts my thoughts. "You don't just forget about people who you've fallen completely in love with." He's drunk but I can see the truthfulness his eyes hold.

"No." I reply "You don't."

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I'm craving an angry passionate Luka scene now *sigh*. Thank you to all you guys who reviewed, I really appreciate it :). It's also great to see fans of them about - You've got to love Angst man!