A World of Pain
~ Why, yes. Yes, I am continuing. ~
By Starbo
Disclaimer: No rights to Digimon, no rights to gain profit, for this is a pure fan-ism and I do this for the purity of writing what I chose to write!
A/N: Sorry! Gomen! I didn't mean to be late on this update! I have very good excuse, too! I had most of it written and was going to finish it up yesterday before I was suppose to post it, but then I remembered I had a little homework to do. I figured, no biggie, just do it and have the rest of the night to write. Well . . . it turned out that I owed a few essays in Brit Lit. =( I didn't finish up until ten o clock and by then I was so mentally drained the only thought on my mind was to go to bed. So, yeah, I'm really sorry that I didn't finish it on time. Please forgive me.
"Davis! Davis, what is wrong with you!?" Tai shouted as he slammed Davis into the ground. The run and chasing took a long time and Tai was feeling the effects, but so glad that he was a soccer player and had to have a good stamina. Finally, in front of a local park, he watched Davis take the hit and go down; Tai's worry and confusion were growing steadily in his mind. Something was not right - other than the fact that this boy came back from the dead and with no memory.
Davis got up from the ground, shaking his head a little as Tai waited. However, as soon as both of his feet were planted on the ground firmly, Davis broke back into a mad-dash.
In the park, families and children played and dined a lovely brunch. Little dogs barked and ran after balls while the parents watched lovingly. Too bad this perfect little world was disturbed by a boy yelling after another one. The families watched, wondering if they should help, and who to help. However, the two boys had run by so fast, the families didn't have time to make a choice. So, everything went back to the way it was before, a splash dying away in a puddle.
"Damnit, Davis!" Tai shoved at Davis from the back and got him pinned to a tree when he went spinning. They were now in a part of the park that most people didn't come to often. Right now, it was just them in a shady forest setting. "Davis, why are you running!? What the hell is wrong with you!?"
Davis struggled for a moment, confused by the flashes of something from his mind. They came in quick snapshots, another voice was speaking instead of Tai. Someone was holding him against something . . . a flash of purple . . . Out-raged . . .
//. . . . "Alright, you're not leaving until I get some answers from you!" . . . "I don't care! I need to know what's bothering you and I need to know now!" . . . "I need to know now!" . . . //
Davis realized that he was shaking, but from fear or exhaustion was to remain a mystery. All he had knew was that he was angry with that memory, and wanted so badly to be out of the almost-same position he was in right now. He looked up at Tai, realizing now that he was too tired to keep on struggling.
"Davis," Tai said softly, almost as kind as his sister. "Davis, please tell me what's wrong?"
". . . I don't know," Davis mumbled.
Tai let go of Davis and the boy slumped to the ground, leaning against the tree. The former-leader of the Digi-destine took a seat next to the boy. Davis seemed frailer in the dim light, somehow. Or maybe it was just because Tai had never really paid much attention to the younger boy's health and it was now hitting him like a rock.
"I can't figure anything out, not sense I've come back," Davis started, feeling the need to fill the silence with something. He drew up his knees to his chest and hugged his legs. "And when I look at you, TK, Matt . . . Kari . . . I feel . . . I feel . . . I'm not sure . . . empty . . ."
Tai was shocked! "Empty? Davis, we're your friends. How can you feel empty around us?"
"I don't know, I just do!" Davis nearly sobbed. "Ever sense I woke up in the Guardian's house-"
"The Guardian, as the Guardian of the Digital World??" Not only was Tai shocked, but he was very confused now. However, noticing Davis's growing discomfort, he put a hand on the boy's shoulder. "Hey, I might be a shrink, but I think you just have too many emotions bottled up. Why don't you just tell me about them? It could help."
"But . . .I don't know what they are . . ." the other boy confessed. Somehow, this felt right, him being truthful with Tai. They had a bond of some kind, Davis could tell, and it seemed to be the only thing that kept him from bolting again.
"Um, then how about telling me what you remember, even if it's just the last few days," Tai offered. Being the bigger brother of Kari had offered him some insights into helping the emotionally stressed, though he hardly practiced with it. Then again, this is Davis, the new goggle-boy, the leader of the Digi-destine, and his friend. He had to do something.
Davis told Tai everything. How he woke up and the Guardian sent him back to the human world; how the father told him to call everyone; how he's felt like running every waking moment of the past couple of days; how he realizes that something is different with the people that he's come into contact with; and how he felt frustrated all the time.
"The worst thing of all," Davis finished, "is that when I look at you and the rest - mostly TK and Kari - I feel sad and hollow . . . like they took something from me . . ."
//Whoa. Okay . . . That has to be the most open Davis has *ever* been!// Tai took a deep breath. //Well, at least he's more like the old Davis, facing up to his fears.// "Damn, Davis, I don't know what to say. I'm sorry you feel this way about us. I mean, you use to be happy and . . . loud . . . hot-headed . . . I mean those in a good way!"
"Sure you do," Davis mumbled.
"Hey, I mean it. We all like you. You're our friend, you know."
"Friend? I think friends hurt," Davis tightened his grip on his legs.
//Oh, shit, I think I know what this about. . .// "Um, Davis, you don't remember anything before you woke up with the Guardian, right?"
"Only a few things, I think." Davis explained his earlier episodes of snapshot visions. "What does that have to do with anything?"
"Because . . . I think you're still hurt from when you had an argument with the other digi-destines."
"What?" Now it was Davis's turn to be baffled.
"Okay," Tai shifted into a more comfortable position. "I don't know if I should be the one telling you this, but I guess you need to know. See, about a week and half before you d-. . . um, two weeks and a half before you woke up with the Guardian, you had overheard heard TK, Kari, Yolie, and Cody talking about you. . ."
And it was Davis's time to listen. As Tai went on, reminding Davis every once and awhile that he got all the information second-hand, Davis realized that none of what he said was a lie. It was all true, even if Davis couldn't remember it. He *had* had a fight with the younger-generation of digi-destines, go into depression, and then -
"What happened next?" Davis noted Tai's hesitation.
"Um, well . . . after you escaped from the Digital Emperor . . ."
*Ring! Ring! Ring!*
"Hold on," Tai got out his cell phone. "Hello? . . . . Yeah, he's right here with me. . . . We've been talking? . . . So? . . . All right. . . Hey, Davis, Yolie wants to talk to you." When Tai saw a little bit of the panic start to rise in Davis's eyes again, he said, "Hey, don't worry. Yolie was the one who wanted to apologize, remember?"
On that note, Davis took the phone and asked, "Hello?"
"Davis? Hi, it's Yolie."
"Yeah, I know. I remember you."
"You do?"
"Yeah. Don't you have purple hair and glasses?"
"Yes, I do." Yolie seemed amazed and happy at the same time.
Davis smiled a little, happy to be getting something right. "And you're very smart with computers. You also have a temper."
"What!?" The emotions on the other end of the phone just turned very hostile.
Tai was waving his hands fast, mouthing "No! No! Nooooooo!" Davis thought quickly, "Uh, I meant that you just act how you feel . . ."
"Oh. Yeah. I do that."
Tai let out the biggest sigh of relief that could be mustered with the boys lungs . . . Tai nearly blew Davis's goggles off his head.
"Where are you, Davis?"
"Oh, at a park, I think. Can we meet you?"
"Sure. How about my place, sense it's almost dark out."
"Okay. Um, where is your home?"
"Oh, no worries. Tai knows."
"All right. I guess I'll see you then."
"Okay. Bye."
"Bye."
Yolie hung up and nearly made everyone in the apartment building jump as she screamed in joy, "Davis is coming over!!"
~*~*~*~
A lone kid walked threw a darken hallway, feeling the walls push towards him. It seemed that in every turn, there was a wall, another blacken patch. The kid could only walk upon the white path that seemed to aluminates from the bottom up, casting shadows to obscured his face. He knew no time, no limits, just the path and the darkness.
But a lone kid, he was, and in more ways that one. He was a lone, never seeing anyone else upon the path he walked. He was lonely, wanting to call out for someone's attention, but the darkness pushed him into silence. Even in his mind he was a lone, knowing of other's existence, but never acknowledging them. It was just him, the path, and the darkness. . .
". . .Ken?" a light voice asked, as if afraid to get noticed by the darkness.
Ken lifted his head a little, looking for the direction the voice came from.
"Ken?"
It came from the darkness. At first, Ken was afraid of it, thinking that the darkness was playing tricks on him. It use to do that, before he found this path and had wondered alone. On the path, the darkness could press itself as closely as it wanted to, but it could never step on to the lighted path. However, now it was talking to him. . .
"Ken, please."
There was a new light, one that was even brighter and purer than the one he was walking upon now. It was like looking at a train coming out of a tunnel, starting off small, but steadily getting bigger until it was right in front of you. Stopping in front of him, the light flattened itself out to begin another path.
Ken was causes, of course. The darkness could play tricks on him, but this one was different. Darkness has no color, nothing but emptiness. However, the white path is all of the colors of the rainbow in one. The darkness could never mimic the path that Ken was on because it just didn't have the colors to do so.
So, with a tentative step, Ken found that he wasn't engulfed in darkness, that the other path remained still and he was standing on the new path. Out of complete curiosity, he made his way along the path, wondering where it led to. He kept walking and walking, leaving his other, solitary path behind. There was someone else on this path and Ken wanted to know who.
"Ken . . ."
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
"Ken . . ." Kari whispered. She was holding onto his hand, leaning on the bed, knowing fully well that she could be caught.
It was nearing sunset and Kari had a growing realization that she couldn't spend all night in the bathroom of a hospitable; she would probably catch a cold if she did. There was no way she could sleep in the corner, realizing that the nurses will check on him every half-hour of the night. And her curiosity got the better of her, so she took a chance.
The nurse had just left and Kari took it upon herself to wake Ken up herself. She tried to be very gentle, but she had no watch and no way of telling time, and with her anxiousness she didn't know if was a couple of seconds or minutes or anything.
Ken had started to move underneath of her, as if fighting away his sleep. He moaned a little before his eyes fluttered opened. Deep-colored eyes focused on Kari and stayed there, as if seeing her for the first time but knowing who she was.
"Ken . . . I can't stay long," Kari began. "I need to ask you something though."
" . . .I . . .I know what you're going to ask," Ken's voice was very horse and he found it took a lot of what energy he had left just to speak. "I'm sorry for causing you so much trouble . . . I'm sorry . . ."
To the Reviewers:
Katmon,
Thank you for your review! *hugs* ^_^ But are you the only one who's reviewing me? =( I've only gotten a review from you for the past two chapters. I'm not saying that I don't like your reviews, but . . . Whaaaaa, just one!? ;o; Whaaaaaaaaa!
~ Why, yes. Yes, I am continuing. ~
By Starbo
Disclaimer: No rights to Digimon, no rights to gain profit, for this is a pure fan-ism and I do this for the purity of writing what I chose to write!
A/N: Sorry! Gomen! I didn't mean to be late on this update! I have very good excuse, too! I had most of it written and was going to finish it up yesterday before I was suppose to post it, but then I remembered I had a little homework to do. I figured, no biggie, just do it and have the rest of the night to write. Well . . . it turned out that I owed a few essays in Brit Lit. =( I didn't finish up until ten o clock and by then I was so mentally drained the only thought on my mind was to go to bed. So, yeah, I'm really sorry that I didn't finish it on time. Please forgive me.
"Davis! Davis, what is wrong with you!?" Tai shouted as he slammed Davis into the ground. The run and chasing took a long time and Tai was feeling the effects, but so glad that he was a soccer player and had to have a good stamina. Finally, in front of a local park, he watched Davis take the hit and go down; Tai's worry and confusion were growing steadily in his mind. Something was not right - other than the fact that this boy came back from the dead and with no memory.
Davis got up from the ground, shaking his head a little as Tai waited. However, as soon as both of his feet were planted on the ground firmly, Davis broke back into a mad-dash.
In the park, families and children played and dined a lovely brunch. Little dogs barked and ran after balls while the parents watched lovingly. Too bad this perfect little world was disturbed by a boy yelling after another one. The families watched, wondering if they should help, and who to help. However, the two boys had run by so fast, the families didn't have time to make a choice. So, everything went back to the way it was before, a splash dying away in a puddle.
"Damnit, Davis!" Tai shoved at Davis from the back and got him pinned to a tree when he went spinning. They were now in a part of the park that most people didn't come to often. Right now, it was just them in a shady forest setting. "Davis, why are you running!? What the hell is wrong with you!?"
Davis struggled for a moment, confused by the flashes of something from his mind. They came in quick snapshots, another voice was speaking instead of Tai. Someone was holding him against something . . . a flash of purple . . . Out-raged . . .
//. . . . "Alright, you're not leaving until I get some answers from you!" . . . "I don't care! I need to know what's bothering you and I need to know now!" . . . "I need to know now!" . . . //
Davis realized that he was shaking, but from fear or exhaustion was to remain a mystery. All he had knew was that he was angry with that memory, and wanted so badly to be out of the almost-same position he was in right now. He looked up at Tai, realizing now that he was too tired to keep on struggling.
"Davis," Tai said softly, almost as kind as his sister. "Davis, please tell me what's wrong?"
". . . I don't know," Davis mumbled.
Tai let go of Davis and the boy slumped to the ground, leaning against the tree. The former-leader of the Digi-destine took a seat next to the boy. Davis seemed frailer in the dim light, somehow. Or maybe it was just because Tai had never really paid much attention to the younger boy's health and it was now hitting him like a rock.
"I can't figure anything out, not sense I've come back," Davis started, feeling the need to fill the silence with something. He drew up his knees to his chest and hugged his legs. "And when I look at you, TK, Matt . . . Kari . . . I feel . . . I feel . . . I'm not sure . . . empty . . ."
Tai was shocked! "Empty? Davis, we're your friends. How can you feel empty around us?"
"I don't know, I just do!" Davis nearly sobbed. "Ever sense I woke up in the Guardian's house-"
"The Guardian, as the Guardian of the Digital World??" Not only was Tai shocked, but he was very confused now. However, noticing Davis's growing discomfort, he put a hand on the boy's shoulder. "Hey, I might be a shrink, but I think you just have too many emotions bottled up. Why don't you just tell me about them? It could help."
"But . . .I don't know what they are . . ." the other boy confessed. Somehow, this felt right, him being truthful with Tai. They had a bond of some kind, Davis could tell, and it seemed to be the only thing that kept him from bolting again.
"Um, then how about telling me what you remember, even if it's just the last few days," Tai offered. Being the bigger brother of Kari had offered him some insights into helping the emotionally stressed, though he hardly practiced with it. Then again, this is Davis, the new goggle-boy, the leader of the Digi-destine, and his friend. He had to do something.
Davis told Tai everything. How he woke up and the Guardian sent him back to the human world; how the father told him to call everyone; how he's felt like running every waking moment of the past couple of days; how he realizes that something is different with the people that he's come into contact with; and how he felt frustrated all the time.
"The worst thing of all," Davis finished, "is that when I look at you and the rest - mostly TK and Kari - I feel sad and hollow . . . like they took something from me . . ."
//Whoa. Okay . . . That has to be the most open Davis has *ever* been!// Tai took a deep breath. //Well, at least he's more like the old Davis, facing up to his fears.// "Damn, Davis, I don't know what to say. I'm sorry you feel this way about us. I mean, you use to be happy and . . . loud . . . hot-headed . . . I mean those in a good way!"
"Sure you do," Davis mumbled.
"Hey, I mean it. We all like you. You're our friend, you know."
"Friend? I think friends hurt," Davis tightened his grip on his legs.
//Oh, shit, I think I know what this about. . .// "Um, Davis, you don't remember anything before you woke up with the Guardian, right?"
"Only a few things, I think." Davis explained his earlier episodes of snapshot visions. "What does that have to do with anything?"
"Because . . . I think you're still hurt from when you had an argument with the other digi-destines."
"What?" Now it was Davis's turn to be baffled.
"Okay," Tai shifted into a more comfortable position. "I don't know if I should be the one telling you this, but I guess you need to know. See, about a week and half before you d-. . . um, two weeks and a half before you woke up with the Guardian, you had overheard heard TK, Kari, Yolie, and Cody talking about you. . ."
And it was Davis's time to listen. As Tai went on, reminding Davis every once and awhile that he got all the information second-hand, Davis realized that none of what he said was a lie. It was all true, even if Davis couldn't remember it. He *had* had a fight with the younger-generation of digi-destines, go into depression, and then -
"What happened next?" Davis noted Tai's hesitation.
"Um, well . . . after you escaped from the Digital Emperor . . ."
*Ring! Ring! Ring!*
"Hold on," Tai got out his cell phone. "Hello? . . . . Yeah, he's right here with me. . . . We've been talking? . . . So? . . . All right. . . Hey, Davis, Yolie wants to talk to you." When Tai saw a little bit of the panic start to rise in Davis's eyes again, he said, "Hey, don't worry. Yolie was the one who wanted to apologize, remember?"
On that note, Davis took the phone and asked, "Hello?"
"Davis? Hi, it's Yolie."
"Yeah, I know. I remember you."
"You do?"
"Yeah. Don't you have purple hair and glasses?"
"Yes, I do." Yolie seemed amazed and happy at the same time.
Davis smiled a little, happy to be getting something right. "And you're very smart with computers. You also have a temper."
"What!?" The emotions on the other end of the phone just turned very hostile.
Tai was waving his hands fast, mouthing "No! No! Nooooooo!" Davis thought quickly, "Uh, I meant that you just act how you feel . . ."
"Oh. Yeah. I do that."
Tai let out the biggest sigh of relief that could be mustered with the boys lungs . . . Tai nearly blew Davis's goggles off his head.
"Where are you, Davis?"
"Oh, at a park, I think. Can we meet you?"
"Sure. How about my place, sense it's almost dark out."
"Okay. Um, where is your home?"
"Oh, no worries. Tai knows."
"All right. I guess I'll see you then."
"Okay. Bye."
"Bye."
Yolie hung up and nearly made everyone in the apartment building jump as she screamed in joy, "Davis is coming over!!"
~*~*~*~
A lone kid walked threw a darken hallway, feeling the walls push towards him. It seemed that in every turn, there was a wall, another blacken patch. The kid could only walk upon the white path that seemed to aluminates from the bottom up, casting shadows to obscured his face. He knew no time, no limits, just the path and the darkness.
But a lone kid, he was, and in more ways that one. He was a lone, never seeing anyone else upon the path he walked. He was lonely, wanting to call out for someone's attention, but the darkness pushed him into silence. Even in his mind he was a lone, knowing of other's existence, but never acknowledging them. It was just him, the path, and the darkness. . .
". . .Ken?" a light voice asked, as if afraid to get noticed by the darkness.
Ken lifted his head a little, looking for the direction the voice came from.
"Ken?"
It came from the darkness. At first, Ken was afraid of it, thinking that the darkness was playing tricks on him. It use to do that, before he found this path and had wondered alone. On the path, the darkness could press itself as closely as it wanted to, but it could never step on to the lighted path. However, now it was talking to him. . .
"Ken, please."
There was a new light, one that was even brighter and purer than the one he was walking upon now. It was like looking at a train coming out of a tunnel, starting off small, but steadily getting bigger until it was right in front of you. Stopping in front of him, the light flattened itself out to begin another path.
Ken was causes, of course. The darkness could play tricks on him, but this one was different. Darkness has no color, nothing but emptiness. However, the white path is all of the colors of the rainbow in one. The darkness could never mimic the path that Ken was on because it just didn't have the colors to do so.
So, with a tentative step, Ken found that he wasn't engulfed in darkness, that the other path remained still and he was standing on the new path. Out of complete curiosity, he made his way along the path, wondering where it led to. He kept walking and walking, leaving his other, solitary path behind. There was someone else on this path and Ken wanted to know who.
"Ken . . ."
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
"Ken . . ." Kari whispered. She was holding onto his hand, leaning on the bed, knowing fully well that she could be caught.
It was nearing sunset and Kari had a growing realization that she couldn't spend all night in the bathroom of a hospitable; she would probably catch a cold if she did. There was no way she could sleep in the corner, realizing that the nurses will check on him every half-hour of the night. And her curiosity got the better of her, so she took a chance.
The nurse had just left and Kari took it upon herself to wake Ken up herself. She tried to be very gentle, but she had no watch and no way of telling time, and with her anxiousness she didn't know if was a couple of seconds or minutes or anything.
Ken had started to move underneath of her, as if fighting away his sleep. He moaned a little before his eyes fluttered opened. Deep-colored eyes focused on Kari and stayed there, as if seeing her for the first time but knowing who she was.
"Ken . . . I can't stay long," Kari began. "I need to ask you something though."
" . . .I . . .I know what you're going to ask," Ken's voice was very horse and he found it took a lot of what energy he had left just to speak. "I'm sorry for causing you so much trouble . . . I'm sorry . . ."
To the Reviewers:
Katmon,
Thank you for your review! *hugs* ^_^ But are you the only one who's reviewing me? =( I've only gotten a review from you for the past two chapters. I'm not saying that I don't like your reviews, but . . . Whaaaaa, just one!? ;o; Whaaaaaaaaa!
