*I do not own Harry Potter or any of the people and or creatures. CREATURES
BEING POTIONS. AHHHHHHHH THEY ARE AFTER ME. I NEED MEDICAL HELP. DRACO IS
MY LOVER. Oh sorry gotta little carried away there. Bam*
Journal,
HOLY SHIT! I missed break feast, AGAIN! Ron and Harry are probably going to give me another lecture on anorexia and bulimia, AGAIN. This is not gonna be a good day. Hey, I mean it wouldn't hurt to lose a few pounds, hmmmmm, or maybe twenty. I mean, eating is highly over rated! I am certainly not anorexic or bulimic, so there!
So what if I miss a few meals, that never hurt anyone! It's been what? About six days, so that's about 18 meals! Big Whoop! I mean I have enough fat on me to last the winter! I bet Ron and Harry are eating my share, anyways!
You know what? It doesn't matter what Harry and Ron say! When I am through starving myself, I'll be thin and beautiful! Ha! I am strong, I won't give into these fainting spells either! So there! OH CRAP! I can hear Harry and Ron yelling for me! I gotta go I'll write more later!
LATER:
OH MY GOD! It happened AGAIN!! I fainted, well, I fainted in POTIONS! Ron and Harry were yelling at me about the importance of eating. Draco, as usual, was walking in front of us slowly as if listening to the lecture I was getting.
Lord, why does he always have to be were I am? Can't he just get a life and stop listening in on Harry and Ron's ranting! Even Harry suspects the reason I don't eat is him! It's not! I don't eat because I am fat! Yes sure yesterday I had an attractive figure today well, I am just so fat. I mean look at me I am 5' 7" tall, and I am chuncky it just doesn't fit! Grrrrrr. They don't understand , if your fat, you shouldn't eat! I mean it's a simple fact!
Anyways, Harry and Ron were lecturing me, yet again. My breathing became labored and I quickly told them to stop talking and start running. I just had to make it to potions today! We ran past a startled Draco, who in turn started to walking faster!
It was getting harder and harder to breath. When we got to class Harry and Ron sat down. I was about to but the room started spinning. I muttered, "OH SHIT!" and I fell. I don't know who caught me or if I just hit the ground, which I doubt.
I was unconscious during lunch and dinner! When I woke Draco was in the chair next to me. He was holding my had, till I jerked it away from him.
"What the HELL are you doing here?" I asked him.
"what do you think, Hermione! I came to see how you are considering I caught you I think I have a certain right!" he stated.
"well you don't! So bugger off Malfoy!" I said, quietly.
"So we are back to last names then, Granger?" he asked calmly.
"we never went back to first names, malfoy." I stated.
"Why haven't you been to any of the meals, lately? Harry confronted me, today, after potions, saying this was my fault. I wanna know whats going on with you and why your hurting yourself?" he said, softly. "I love you and I don't wanna lose you!"
That was it! The final square! " I love you and I don't wanna lose you!" I couldn't believe he had the nerve for that! I mean, Damn! What kind of a dumb ass does he take me for? Does he really think that I am so dumb as to forget he dumped me?
I exploded, hten, in a deadly calm voice, I said, " you really expect me to believ you love me and that you don't want to lose me? Ha! My brother could make up better lies! Though that's hard because I don't have a brother, or maybe I do, its just he's such a good lier I don't know about him. Oh yeah, I have over bearing parents, an ex who has mentle issues and two of my best friends are lecturing me about my being anorexic!"
"YOUR WHAT?" he yelled.
"I AM ANOREXIC! I HOPE THAT GOT THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULL! OR HVE YOU BEEN TOO BUSY MAKING OUT WITH PANSY TO NOTICE I HAVEN'T BEEN TO ANY OF THE MEALS?!?!?" I yelled back.
Suddenly, he calmed down. "Isn't that the eating disorder were you just don't eat? How many meals have you skipped? Why are you doing this, 'Mione? Your just skin and bones as it is! You hardly have an ounce of fat on you!" he said in a scared kind of desprate voice.
"YOUR RIGHT, I JUST WON'T EAT. I HAVE SKIPPED, OH SAY, UMMMMM, ABOUT 21 MEALS! I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT! I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY! I NEED TO MAKE MYSELF BEAUTIFUL AGAIN! I NEED TO MAKE SOME GUY, ANY GUY, WANT TO GO OUT WITH ME!" with that out of my system I burst into tears, and yelled, "GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME, MALFOY!!!!"
he left with a quiet, "I love you, 'mione" to which I shouted a very lout, "LIAR!" I cried myself to sleep after that. Then when I woke up ron was there telling me that he and Lavender had just broken up! He was wondering if I'd go out with him! I said sure.
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
Hermione Granger
Journal,
HOLY SHIT! I missed break feast, AGAIN! Ron and Harry are probably going to give me another lecture on anorexia and bulimia, AGAIN. This is not gonna be a good day. Hey, I mean it wouldn't hurt to lose a few pounds, hmmmmm, or maybe twenty. I mean, eating is highly over rated! I am certainly not anorexic or bulimic, so there!
So what if I miss a few meals, that never hurt anyone! It's been what? About six days, so that's about 18 meals! Big Whoop! I mean I have enough fat on me to last the winter! I bet Ron and Harry are eating my share, anyways!
You know what? It doesn't matter what Harry and Ron say! When I am through starving myself, I'll be thin and beautiful! Ha! I am strong, I won't give into these fainting spells either! So there! OH CRAP! I can hear Harry and Ron yelling for me! I gotta go I'll write more later!
LATER:
OH MY GOD! It happened AGAIN!! I fainted, well, I fainted in POTIONS! Ron and Harry were yelling at me about the importance of eating. Draco, as usual, was walking in front of us slowly as if listening to the lecture I was getting.
Lord, why does he always have to be were I am? Can't he just get a life and stop listening in on Harry and Ron's ranting! Even Harry suspects the reason I don't eat is him! It's not! I don't eat because I am fat! Yes sure yesterday I had an attractive figure today well, I am just so fat. I mean look at me I am 5' 7" tall, and I am chuncky it just doesn't fit! Grrrrrr. They don't understand , if your fat, you shouldn't eat! I mean it's a simple fact!
Anyways, Harry and Ron were lecturing me, yet again. My breathing became labored and I quickly told them to stop talking and start running. I just had to make it to potions today! We ran past a startled Draco, who in turn started to walking faster!
It was getting harder and harder to breath. When we got to class Harry and Ron sat down. I was about to but the room started spinning. I muttered, "OH SHIT!" and I fell. I don't know who caught me or if I just hit the ground, which I doubt.
I was unconscious during lunch and dinner! When I woke Draco was in the chair next to me. He was holding my had, till I jerked it away from him.
"What the HELL are you doing here?" I asked him.
"what do you think, Hermione! I came to see how you are considering I caught you I think I have a certain right!" he stated.
"well you don't! So bugger off Malfoy!" I said, quietly.
"So we are back to last names then, Granger?" he asked calmly.
"we never went back to first names, malfoy." I stated.
"Why haven't you been to any of the meals, lately? Harry confronted me, today, after potions, saying this was my fault. I wanna know whats going on with you and why your hurting yourself?" he said, softly. "I love you and I don't wanna lose you!"
That was it! The final square! " I love you and I don't wanna lose you!" I couldn't believe he had the nerve for that! I mean, Damn! What kind of a dumb ass does he take me for? Does he really think that I am so dumb as to forget he dumped me?
I exploded, hten, in a deadly calm voice, I said, " you really expect me to believ you love me and that you don't want to lose me? Ha! My brother could make up better lies! Though that's hard because I don't have a brother, or maybe I do, its just he's such a good lier I don't know about him. Oh yeah, I have over bearing parents, an ex who has mentle issues and two of my best friends are lecturing me about my being anorexic!"
"YOUR WHAT?" he yelled.
"I AM ANOREXIC! I HOPE THAT GOT THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULL! OR HVE YOU BEEN TOO BUSY MAKING OUT WITH PANSY TO NOTICE I HAVEN'T BEEN TO ANY OF THE MEALS?!?!?" I yelled back.
Suddenly, he calmed down. "Isn't that the eating disorder were you just don't eat? How many meals have you skipped? Why are you doing this, 'Mione? Your just skin and bones as it is! You hardly have an ounce of fat on you!" he said in a scared kind of desprate voice.
"YOUR RIGHT, I JUST WON'T EAT. I HAVE SKIPPED, OH SAY, UMMMMM, ABOUT 21 MEALS! I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT! I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY! I NEED TO MAKE MYSELF BEAUTIFUL AGAIN! I NEED TO MAKE SOME GUY, ANY GUY, WANT TO GO OUT WITH ME!" with that out of my system I burst into tears, and yelled, "GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME, MALFOY!!!!"
he left with a quiet, "I love you, 'mione" to which I shouted a very lout, "LIAR!" I cried myself to sleep after that. Then when I woke up ron was there telling me that he and Lavender had just broken up! He was wondering if I'd go out with him! I said sure.
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
Hermione Granger
