A/N: Another song fic...I can't seem to stay away. This one includes the song, "My Immortal" by Evanescence. Kind of an AU. Just something I wrote up quick to relieve some stress.
Immortal Love
She tried, she really thought back but could not recall a single time that she slept through the night since they were separated. She rubbed her aging eyes and got dressed.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
The climb up the hill was more difficult in the dark. She stumbled a few times but still made it to the top like she had almost every night nowadays.
"It's me again Chakotay." She said softly as she brushed the dead, half-frozen, leaves away. "I need peace Chakotay, I can't live with this any longer."
these wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
The tears began to fall even before she spoke the words that had been dying to come out for years. "What the hell happened Chakotay? I thought you were going to wait for me, that you understood my situation. I loved you. I loved you more than I've ever loved anyone before. But then you told me...
'Seven and I are engaged.'
I never even knew you were dating. I don't know how I could have been so blind. I said I was happy for you but I died inside. I still haven't found a way to move on Chakotay."
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
"I hate to admit it, but to this very moment I still believe she was the death of you. She didn't learn to love she just mastered the art of 'loving you.' She believed she was correct in what she was doing but it wasn't what you needed. You would have done anything for her. But that's one of the things I loved so much about you, your loyalty.
My heart broke every time I saw you after she died on that away mission. I didn't want her to go but she was so adamant about it you argued for her too. How could I resist? But still, selfishly I hoped you would find your way back to me. I never let go."
you used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
"I have to set things straight Chakotay. This isn't how it was supposed to turn out. I know you think it's too risky but there's nothing else left for me to do." She quickly wiped the tears from her face and with a shaky breath stood up and looked towards the sky. "I'm coming."
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
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Please brighten my day and review, nicely please!
