Watching

By Zanzou Youko

Disclaimer: Not mine…… If they were, I''m sure the series would be different…… *has hentai thoughts*

A/N: Geh…… I haven''t written in a while…… At least, not anything worth posting…… And since I''m bored out of my mind, this may not be very good. *sweatdrop*

Warnings: Shonen ai. Not yaoi on the basic that this is not a lemon, lime, or any form of citrus. I firmly believe in proper labelling. *nods* *is insane freaky fangirl who has been in to many discussion groups on the subject*

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I watched.

It was all I could do. I watched as my lover left, searching for another…… And then, I could only hope that he would come back.

But in reality I had little belief that he would. What could I, one of the despised Takatoris, offer to someone who had been so hurt by that very family? Nothing. And so I watched.

I watched as my lover----ex-lover now----was hurt by the lack of commitment of the other, and turned away, shunned for reasons unknown to me. For how could one want another when perfection was given to them?

He didn't come back to me. I didn't expect him to. No. I knew he had not returned because I wasn't worthy of such a thing from him. And I''m sure he knew it too.

Instead, he turned to the next member of our team. But I wasn't angry. Not at him, and not at any of them. No one could have denied him what he wanted. Not even me. And I was not angry with him----for he was right in his decision to leave me.

And so I watched. I watched as my love was content----perhaps even happy----with another. For it was all I could do. And I could never deny him happiness.

I was surprised when they grew apart. Surprised that he was not as happy as I had first thought. Surprised that my friend hadn't done everything in his power to stay with him. As I, if things were not as they were, would have done.

And I watched as my lover turned to a member of our very opposites in his searching. And I will not tell Birman, or anyone else in our organization. I could never do anything that would endanger him.

And as I watch now as he leaves to meet his supposed secret lover, I can only hope he is happy.

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Okay…… Did anyone like it? It''s going to have at least one sequel, maybe more. *shrug* In case you didn't pick up on it…… Omi's talking about Aya/Ran, who first goes to Yohji, then Ken, then a mystery member of Schwartz who will be revealed in the sequel.

See you there~ *heart*