By Zanzou Youko
Disclaimer: If I were rich and Japanese, there would be a chance they were mine. Neither is true, so I can only dream.
A/N: Well, here it is. The last part. *twitches* Must... write..... faster......
Warnings: Shonen ai, hints of yaoi, slutting of Aya... ^^; Oh. And angst.
Pairings of this chapter: YohjixAya, AyaxOmi, and mentions of YohjixAsuka. Cause really, he can't go for a day without thinking about her.
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I was the first. I'm sure most people would be content in the knowledge that they are the first. But not me. Because I knew what I really was.
I was the first. Because I was the easiest.
That's what it meant. It meant that of all people that he could have gone to, he was assured in his knowledge that I, of all people, would sleep with him.
He was right. I, in the midst of my proclamations of love for women, somehow made it obvious that I would sleep with him.
He asked.
I don't think he really understood what he was asking for, at that point. He was asking for companionship. He was asking for understanding. He was asking for forgiveness.
He asked for those things without words. I wouldn't- couldn't- give it to him. Because what he wanted, needed, was something he would not accept... at least, not then. And I couldn't give it to him.
I've seen him, these last months. Seen him try to forget what his heart is telling him is right. Seen him try to stop loving the one person who could really understand him.
...Can you tell that there's a reason we aren't together anymore? Because really, if the one you love is there, telling you they would do anything for them, and you turn away.... That just seems beyond stupidity.
I know what it feels like to have that one person, then one who makes it all worth while, taken away. I even know what it feels like to have them turn away from me, and everything I offer. I don't understand why he, of all people, would do such a thing.
He should know, after all that has happened to him, that you have to cherish the time you spend with those who are important to you.
In the end, it was me who turned him away. Not in the way you would think- there was nothing over dramatic to show it, of course. I just... let my attention drift.
He left the night after an argument that still hasn't been resolved.
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Okies... the last part. *sweats* I must now start the sequel. e.e *falls over dead* It will start off with Yotan & Aya's argument.... and will.... somehow progress. Oh well. See you there!
