What I am… Is what you get
By: Natasha
Author's Note: Look, Xiaoyin fans… I'm REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY sorry if I offended you in the previous chapter. I hope you understand that this is a fair story and I want everyone to partake in it. Please tell me what you think! Your opinions!!! Oh yes… Analyn, as you may see in the author's page, I do NOT have an Original fic, and I'm actually not planning to. I'm a MAJOR fan of Tekken… So… I just wanna write… about… Tekken?? Maybe you've mistaken me instead of somebody who has another fic like this… The picking girls thing. Well anyway, I hope all of you enjoy this chapter, 'cause I'm sacrificing myself by writing this for you guys when I could study for my upcoming examinations. Have a great day, and enjoy the chapter.
Disclaimer: I don't own Tekken. Hey, what do you expect from a new member here at FF.Net??
"Jin? Hello??? Is anything wrong?" Xiaoyu asked Jin in the library after half an hour of Algebra assignments.
"No, Xiao. There is nothing wrong with anything," Jin said, showing a weak smile at Xiaoyu. "As long as you're here, I'm great."
Xiaoyu blushed. No guy has ever said a thing like that to her before. "Thanks, Jin," she said with deep pleasure inside of her. Jin smiled and took a deep breath before turning back to his work sheet.
"Okay, so back with algebraic integers," Jin reminded Xiaoyu.
Julia ran towards her dormitory, grasping the book tightly. She hated Jin… For all the things he did… For everything he did to hurt Julia's feelings. She had never felt this way before… Never has. And as this was her first, her heart desired to shatter into pieces like a broken mirror. No way has she felt this way before. She loved Jin, and yet she hated him.
She hopped into bed, crying her heart out. She threw the book with every ounce of strength her body was overwhelmed with right into the cabinet.
She was very angry with Jin…
Too angry, that somehow, she wanted to kill him.
Julia speaks:
Jin is no longer my boyfriend and never will be.
He is my enemy.
He is my total curse.
He brings me bad luck.
Now he's with that Xioayu, who's probably screaming at the top of her lungs considering the fact of how gorgeous Jin looks.
Man, Xiaoyu must be so lucky.
My boyfriend… Is now with her.
…My ex-boyfriend.
Xiaoyu looked into Jin's eyes once again to see that he was in deep pain. She knew all of this involved Julia. Again, she asked him, "Jin, are you sure you're alright?"
This time, Jin raged with anger as he stood up and yelled, "Xiaoyu, don't you get it?!!? I'm okay!!! Why do you keep on asking me that when you know that I'm just going to say the same thing all over again?! I miss Julia, all right? Now you know. And I don't really care I've broken your damn heart!!"
And with that, Jin picked up his Algebra textbook and stormed out of the library in intense silence, breathing in every ounce of gas he could inhale. He has had enough of this and is frustrated with all his doings.
Xiaoyu's eyes formed with tears. She felt herself shedding a tear, which was now running down her cheek. And after all that, she thought Jin was in love with her. And she in turn, loved Jin more than he did to her. Now, he's gone. And off to see Julia, wherever she was.
Xiaoyu speaks:
I have never felt all offended like that before. I know Jin and I aren't really an item, but somehow, I really like him.
I thought he loved me, but it was all a prank… a simple joke. And I actually fell for it! I am such an idiot! I hate myself!
More than I hate Jin.
But do I hate him?
I actually don't… And that's what hurts me more.
I actually want him back.
God, how pathetic can I get?
Xiaoyu's an idiot…
I am an idiot.
For liking Jin.
When he wanted Julia…
All the time.
Jin hated himself for being one hell of a two-timer. He tricked two girls at once, and is now caught in the middle without any of them by his side.
Jin speaks:
I hate myself.
I mean, totally. Really do.
Why the hell did I do that to Xiaoyu? And Julia?
Why didn't I even dump her without telling her I wanted Xiaoyu?
God, I'm so stupid.
All right.
I'm apologizing to both of them.
But I'm staying with Xiaoyu.
All right, I miss Julia too.
It's just that…
God.
I can't believe I'm thinking of wanting two girls all at one time.
How can I be so stupid?
I don't deserve any of them!
But… I still have to apologize, right?
That's what I hate for… doing the things I do.
I know I have to do it, but it seems so hard.
I shouldn't have hung out with Xiaoyu when I really didn't dump Julia.
Damn.
Jin sighed as he went to Julia's dormitory. He had to go to Julia first since, he wanted Xiaoyu. He kept on thinking of the choices he was now facing. This was making his stomach hurt. He didn't know whom to choose. He wanted Xiaoyu, for she was a carefree and casual girl, but he still misses Julia. He was trapped. But first, his first goal is to make it up to both of them… Before he makes his move.
He knocked on Julia's dorm door and heard a voice he longed to hear back in the library, where he wanted to explain that he didn't want her anymore.
"Who is it?" a sad voice called. It was Julia.
"It's Jin." He sighed.
"Go away." Julia answered.
"Julia! I-I… I need to tell you something. It's about this… thing," Jin answered.
"I don't want to talk about it," Julia started. "It is all clear to me! You're an idiot." Julia screamed.
"That's why I'm here, Julia. Open the door! Please," Jin sighed. Why doesn't she want to listen to him?
"I will," Julia said. "If you go away."
"How will that work? Julia, just open the door!" Jin demanded.
"Fine. J-just… make it quick." Julia sighed.
Jin was relieved. Julia was finally opening the door to let him speak. As the knob turned, and the door was half-open, Julia's usual face wasn't the same as to the one when she and Jin were together. Her face was tear-streaked as she faced Jin in an annoyed way.
Julia sighed when she saw Jin's face and took her handkerchief out of her pocket. She wiped her tears away and walked over to her 4-poster bed, waiting for Jin to follow her. As Jin reached the bed, he sat on it, and began speaking.
"Julia…" Jin started.
"Stop saying my name in every sentence." Julia ordered. "Make it quick."
"I'm sorry for what I did." Jin applied.
"If that's all you wanted to say, then you may go." Julia told him, facing a portrait of a beautiful forest near a blue stream. Arizona.
"No, that's not just it. I miss you… You really don't know how it feels. I'm guilty, I should've told you I didn't want you to be… my girlfriend… anymore. I did a damn thing. I really wish I could make it up to you. I was just… I don't know. I didn't know what I was doing, I guess. You know I don't want to hurt your feelings--" Jin sighed.
"Well you did!" Julia screamed as she dug her face deep into her hands.
Jin, not knowing what to do, hugged Julia tightly. He missed her scent and how it felt to hug her. Though Jin knew this hug wouldn't last long.
"What the hell are you doing?" Julia demanded.
Jin was speechless.
He himself didn't know what happened and what got into him.
It was unlike him to do such a thing so suddenly.
"I hate you!" Julia screamed, slapping Jin hard on the face.
Jin sighed. "This is my answer, Julia Chang--"
Suddenly, an act happened really fast.
It didn't happen that quickly before…
And neither had both of them done it.
Not even when they were boyfriend and girlfriend…
…A couple.
Jin pressed his lips against Julia's, planting a kiss. He didn't know what he was doing. Neither had he thought of doing it before. It just came to him. But he was very relieved. It was as though he was relieved to be doing this.
And Julia in turn, moved closer to Jin.
For one minute, she thought and knew that she hated him. But now, she wanted more of it. She no longer hated Jin.
She pulled Jin closer and hugged him tight. She never had a feeling like this before. She knew now… She missed Jin and had misjudged him when he was with Xiaoyu. He wasn't her curse any longer.
Finally, Jin stopped and grinned shyly at Julia while he walked out of her dormitory room.
Julia smiled back, knowing that Jin had made it up to her.
She was renewed completely.
She knew that the kiss… made her change.
Author's Note: I'm sorry once again if I had offended Xiaoyin fans in this chapter. Sincerely! In the next chapter, Jin makes it up to Xiaoyu. Let's see what'll happen next. I am an unpredictable person.
